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Xu Xingzhi is a very easy-going person, and it's easy to chat with him. If you don't want to be cold, just tell him about cats. If you meow, he can talk for 3 minutes.

For someone like Jiang Cheng who is easily speechless and embarrassed when staying with strangers, a cat slave like Xu Xingzhi is very good.

"Now I have written down what you said. I will sort it out when I go back. I will contact you if I have any ideas," Xu Xingzhi said. "Actually, what we are doing now is very informal, and it is easy to make mistakes... But let's do it for now. , You can tell me anything you think of.”

"Okay," Jiang Cheng nodded, and hesitantly opened his mouth after thinking about it, "Just... this fee..."

"Fee?" Xu Xingzhi looked at him.

"That is, if it can be treated, how much will the treatment cost...?" Jiang Cheng asked.

"Super expensive." Xu Xingzhi said.

"Ah." Jiang Cheng was stunned.

"Just kidding, if I can help, I don't charge for it," Xu Xingzhi smiled, "but the cost of other treatments is certainly not low. I don't feel it for a day or two. It's really not cheap after a long time."

"Oh," Jiang Cheng suddenly felt a lot of pressure, and his mind immediately spun at high speed. The money for tutoring must not be enough, and he has tuition fees and living expenses. Usually, materials and other things are indispensable. How much, it seems that we need to find something else, but in that case the time will be very tight, he asked while turning around, "Then can you get an estimate? I need to think about how to arrange the money... ..."

"Your friend's sister," Xu Xingzhi looked at him, "You pay?"

"Ah?" Jiang Cheng suddenly came back to his senses, "That... just... not, I..."

"But this is the next step to consider," Xu Xingzhi said. "Whether it can be treated, how to treat it, and to what extent it can be treated, these have to be done step by step. Don't think too much, just hold on to it if you have hope, after all. 11 years old, there is still a lifetime behind."

"En." Jiang Cheng responded.

Yes, if you have hope, you have to hold on to it, there is still a lifetime to come.

This is not only Gu Miao's life, but also Gu Fei's life.

When he came out of the cafe, Jiang Cheng checked the time, it was almost two hours.

"It took so long," Jiang Cheng said, "I'm really sorry."

"It's okay," Xu Xingzhi said, "I have nothing to do today, you can go back to the dormitory."

"I'll take you out," Jiang Cheng said, "Are you going back to school? How?"

"I live next to the school, just walk back," Xu Xingzhi smiled, "No need to send it off."

"I'll see you off." Jiang Cheng said.

Xu Xingzhi glanced at him: "Okay."

"Master has no one to accompany you all night," Jiang Cheng said, "Will you scratch you when you go back?"

"No, it's very elegant, and it doesn't usually stretch its claws," Xu Xingzhi said with a smile. "In general, it just ignores me and needs to be coaxed."

"...Ah," Jiang Cheng laughed, the cat who would step on his face if he didn't play with him is very elegant, "You really have a heart."

"Well," Xu Xingzhi nodded, "there is no other place for the love of a single dog."

Jiang Cheng smiled and didn't speak. When he mentioned single dogs, his sense of pride would spontaneously arise, and if he didn't control himself well, he would subconsciously want to abuse the dogs.

This kind of behavior must be controlled, after all, there are demands from the other party.

Immersed in the emotion that I'm not single, I have a boyfriend, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha for about five seconds, Jiang Cheng suddenly remembered that sentence of Xu Xingzhi before.

"Your friend's sister, you pay?"

Suddenly he felt a little embarrassed again. He didn't know if Xu Xingzhi had thought of anything else. Although compared with the steel factory, the people around him are basically calm and relaxed about this matter, but Xu Xingzhi is just a new acquaintance. He still doesn't want to expose someone who wants something for no reason.

"Go back," the two walked to the school gate, Xu Xingzhi said, "If I have any news here, I will tell you."

"Well, thank you." Jiang Cheng said.

Seeing Xu Xingzhi walking slowly along the road, he turned and went back to the dormitory.

Everyone in the dormitory is still in the library. Recently, everyone has started preparing for the final exam. Apart from eating and sleeping, almost everyone is racing against time to read and review. The state is comparable to that of the third year of high school.

Jiang Cheng sat at the table and looked at the neatly stacked books. In addition to professional books, there was also a stack of psychology books, including various case studies.

Let's review first, Jiang Cheng sighed softly. When he read these books, he would feel anxious and powerless. How should he arrange his time? I have to live with Gu Fei, sometimes I dare not think about it.

He knew that Gu Fei would not agree with him. Gu Fei said long ago that he didn't want anyone to "pay" for him. If he did this, he would definitely put pressure on Gu Fei.

He squeezed the space between his brows, forget about it, ignore the things that can't be solved, and do what's in front of him first.

review.

"Er Miao," Gu Fei squatted in front of Gu Miao, "Brother asks you again, do you really want to go again?"

Gu Miao lowered her head.

"Look at brother," Gu Fei said, "Do you not want to play there anymore?"

Gu Miao raised her head, and Gu Fei repeated again: "Do you want to go?"

Gu Miao nodded.

Gu Fei didn't speak. He watched her for a long time before he patted her arm and stood up. He poured himself a glass of water, and after drinking it in one gulp, he said, "Okay, I won't go."

Gu Miao immediately happily picked up the skateboard, waiting to go out with him.

"If you don't go, brother will go to school in the afternoon," Gu Fei said, "you can play by yourself, brother will have one class in the afternoon, and you will come back after class. You don't have to wait for me, understand?"

Gu Miao nodded.

After arriving at school with Gu Fei on the skateboard, Gu Miao happily rushed back on the skateboard.

Gu Fei looked up at the sky, sighed, and walked into the school slowly.

Gu Miao refused to go to rehabilitation. He had already tried twice. Gu Miao screamed twice to show his determination. Gu Fei had no way to force her. Gu Miao screamed more and more frequently, which made him physically and mentally exhausted. .

If you don't go, don't go.

In the morning, he went to the rehabilitation center, trying to get back the money he had paid before, but failed. The other party said that it was a one-time fee, not a number of times, so there was no way to refund the money. He hoped that Gu Miao would still I can continue to participate.

According to Gu Fei's previous temper, the money must be taken back, even if he is foolish.

But this time he turned and left without saying anything.

He didn't want to say any more words.

He had no way to blame Gu Miao, he could only blame himself, the center had experience classes, and the fee was based on the number of times, so he could experience a few times before making a decision, he didn't let Gu Miao experience it first, because she had been there before and it looked pretty good.

Now that Gu Miao refused to go after paying so much money at once, besides feeling helpless, he didn't even have the strength to get angry.

"Gu Fei," the monitor found him in the classroom after class, "Do you have time now?"

"En." Gu Fei replied while packing his things.

"That's right," said the class monitor, "You know there's an event in school right now?"

"I don't know." Gu Fei replied.

He really didn't know that he wouldn't stay in the school for one more minute except for a class, and he had no contact with other students at all, let alone any activities in the school, even if something happened in the class, he would Not sure.

"You are too lone ranger," the monitor said with a smile, "You don't even know about school activities."

"Tell me something." Gu Fei said.

"The school held an activity where I wrote a song for the school," said the monitor, "I hope everyone will come and write a song for our school..."

"Not participating," Gu Fei interrupted him and stood up, "I don't have time, and I won't."

"How could it not be possible? You are too modest," the monitor stood up, "Your classmates in No. [-] High School said that you can compose music, which is very good."

"Who said that?" Gu Fei said.

The squad leader hurriedly said: "It's just..."

"You can ask whoever comes to me." Gu Fei said.

"...Gu Fei," the squad leader sighed after being stunned for a moment, "There are people from every class who want to win glory for their class..."

"So I'm the only one in our class who can win glory?" Gu Fei said.

"It's meaningless for you to talk like this," the squad leader frowned, "If you don't want to, just say no, why bother to say it so badly?"

"I said at the beginning that I don't have time." Gu Fei walked out of the classroom after finishing his speech.

The squad leader is actually not bad, an honest person, and he is serious and responsible for the affairs of the class, but Gu Fei is not much better when he is not irritable, let alone right now.

In the past at No. [-] Middle School, all the activities he participated in, whether it was school or class, whether it was competitions or meals, were all because of Jiang Cheng.

Without Jiang Cheng, he didn't want to participate in anything.

Without Jiang Cheng, he wouldn't even be able to go to this university.

Without Jiang Cheng... He took out his phone to check the time, and suddenly missed Jiang Cheng very much.

But Jiang Cheng is not like him, there are many R courses, and now the final exam is coming soon, Jiang Cheng has no time to chat with him at all right now, and Jiang Cheng yawns over there on the phone before going to bed, and the time for chatting is too short. It was shortened, although Jiang Cheng is talking most of the time now, and he listens.

When he reached the school gate, Gu Fei still sent a message, but he couldn't hold back.

- I have nothing to do but want to tell you that I suddenly miss you

It took about three seconds for this message to be sent, and before Gu Fei had time to put his phone back in his pocket, Jiang Cheng called.

"Aren't you in class?" Gu Fei answered the phone.

"No class right now," Jiang Cheng said with a smile in his voice, "I'm just about to pack up and go to the library to soak until night."

"Stop eating?" Gu Fei asked.

"Eat, just take turns eating with Zhao Ke, leave one person to occupy a seat," Jiang Cheng said, "What about you, no class?"

"Well, I'm ready to go back," Gu Fei said, "I'll take some night scenes at night."

"Where's the night scene?" Jiang Cheng asked immediately.

"In the past, when we celebrated our birthdays, you put the fluorescent bricks there," Gu Fei said, "Now the grass is withered, take some pictures at dusk, and some more at night."

"I want to see it." Jiang Cheng said.

"I'll send it to you when I'm done." Gu Fei smiled.

"Do you still have traffic?" Jiang Cheng asked, "I suddenly want to see you right now."

"Looking at the traffic on the face is still there," Gu Fei said, "It's hard to watch the traffic on the masturbation."

"Fuck," Jiang Cheng laughed for a long time, "I'll just look at the face."

Gu Fei hung up the phone and sent a video request to come over.

When Jiang Cheng's face appeared on the screen, he suddenly felt a little distressed.

The two of them hadn't had a video for a long time. Jiang Cheng only had time to chat before going to bed at night, and there was no way to video at that time. It had been at least a month, and he hadn't seen Jiang Cheng.

Jiang Cheng lost weight.

The thinness is obvious, not because this is his boyfriend, even looking at it from another person, you can see that Jiang Cheng has lost weight, his chin is pointed, and he looks very tired.

"Why are you so thin?" Gu Fei frowned.

"Have you lost weight?" Jiang Cheng touched his face, "No, I'll go to the cafeteria to weigh it tomorrow, I don't feel anything."

"What do you eat every day?" Gu Fei asked, "You didn't lose so much weight every day in your third year of high school. Didn't you say that your school food is pretty good?"

"It's pretty good, and I eat meat for three meals in the morning and noon..." Jiang Cheng took out a mirror from the drawer, sat on the chair and turned around to lean against the table, "I look in the mirror every day, and I don’t feel thin, does this lens make me look thinner?”

The books on Jiang Cheng’s desk could be seen on the screen, and the small bookshelf was full, and Gu Fei saw a book next to Jiang Cheng’s ear in the camera at a glance.

Psychology XXX, when he squinted his eyes and tried to see clearly again, Jiang Cheng brought the phone closer to his face, and suddenly only his face remained on the screen.

"Are you still skinny like this?" Jiang Cheng asked.

"Slim," Gu Fei nodded, "Aren't you studying too hard? I see that there are so many books on your bookshelf, are they all professional books?"

"Yeah, it's actually not bad," Jiang Cheng smiled, and turned to point the camera at the bookshelf. "It's only three and a half rows. The main reason is that there are still a lot of... materials."

Jiang Cheng's camera shook violently, and he seemed to have noticed something, and quickly pointed the camera at himself again, but Gu Fei was almost sure, although he still couldn't see clearly at a glance, there were several XX Psychology in a row, XX Psychology and He can still see clearly the word "psychology" in the treatment.

"Well," Gu Fei smiled, and then said softly, "Brother Cheng, pay attention to your body."

"Don't worry," Jiang Cheng said, "I run every morning now."

"I'm not saying you don't exercise," Gu Fei said, "You review...be restrained, don't work too hard, I'm not scaring you, you really lost a lot of weight."

"Understood." Jiang Cheng said with a smile, brought the phone to his face again, and kissed it.

"Don't worry me." Gu Fei looked at him, the band-aid on the right eyebrow had been removed, because it was very close to the camera, a small scar could be seen.

No, this is not a scar. Such a small scar should have healed long ago, and it is impossible to see it again.

Gu Ermofei stared at the trace for about two seconds, and he has already judged it.

Jiang Cheng has the habit of turning his pen when he reads, and most of the time, the tip of the pen will go up after turning it. This should be poked by the tip of the pen, and that little path is just like the elementary school in the palm of his hand, which has been kept until now after being pierced by the pen. Like dots of ink.

As for how the pen stuck to the eyebrow, Gu Ermofei didn't need to deduce it anymore.

After hanging up the video, Gu Fei felt very uncomfortable.

When I rode my bike back against the cold wind, I felt my mind was in a mess.

Jiang Cheng sent him the class schedule. Although he couldn't memorize all the classes, he knew very well that Jiang Cheng didn't take any classes related to psychology.

Jiang Cheng was reading psychology books for Gu Miao.

At the moment when he wanted to understand, Gu Fei couldn't describe his feeling.

He was afraid that Jiang Cheng would carry Gu Miao on his back, he couldn't bear Jiang Cheng's hard work for him.

No one had ever done such a thing for him, the pressure that even his closest relatives could not share, and now Jiang Cheng carried it silently.

He has no way to distinguish whether the sourness in his heart is moved, distressed, or helpless.

I just feel that the air around me is full of anxiety.

Gu Miao was in the store. Before Gu Fei went to the store, he went home and took his camera. Normally, if he wasn't taking pictures of Gu Miao, he would rarely take her with him, but today he planned to take Gu Miao with him. .

During this period of time, he has been trying to make Gu Miao accept some changes, such as his brother no longer promising not to leave, such as not being immediately comforted when he screams.

It's just that the effect is not ideal.

He had already wanted to let go for a while, so he could make up for the cost of Gu Miao's rehabilitation treatment first.

But now seeing Jiang Cheng's thin and pointed chin and the books on the bookshelf in just one month, he felt that he couldn't slow down again.

Jiang Cheng would definitely say that it doesn't matter, he is willing, he has no problem, he can do it.

But he didn't want to.

He couldn't accept a love life that couldn't even give him an easy life.

If Gu Miao didn't change, he and Jiang Cheng would never be able to get rid of this kind of life, and even if Jiang Cheng could survive under such strong pressure, what's the point.

Why should Jiang Cheng bear the pressure in his life.

"Er Miao," Gu Fei put the camera bag on the cash register, and called out to Gu Miao, who was still jumping up the steps on a skateboard at the door, "Do you want to take pictures with my brother?"

Gu Miao's head quickly slipped in through the crack of the door curtain, looking at him with bright eyes.

"It's such a cold day and I'm sweating all over...hat, scarf," Gu Fei looked at her, "Put on your gloves as well, the wind is strong, you'll catch a cold when you sweat out."

Gu Miao entered the store, dressed according to his requirements, and then looked at him expectantly.

It's probably because she hasn't taken Gu Miao out to play for too long, but now she is surprisingly obedient.

"Let's go." Gu Fei took the camera bag.

"Da Fei," Liu Li poked his head in from the backyard, "bring some vermicelli when I come back later."

"Isn't there one in the store?" Gu Fei turned his head.

"She doesn't eat it," Liu Li pointed at Gu Miao, "I asked her if she would eat vermicelli, and she nodded, and I showed her the vermicelli, and I immediately threw it on the ground."

"...I see," Gu Fei sighed, "I'll buy it later."

After walking out, he flicked the top of Gu Miao's head: "Er Miao."

Gu Miao raised her face and looked at him.

"You can't be rude to Uncle Liu," Gu Fei said, "You can't throw things you don't want to eat on the ground, remember?"

Gu Miao nodded.

"You're so good today." Gu Fei felt a little emotional.

The road here is uneven, Gu Miao has no choice but to step on the skateboard all the time, holding the skateboard and following him all the way.

After walking to the place where Jiang Cheng placed fluorescent bricks for him last time, there was flat ground. Gu Miao immediately stood on the skateboard and slid forward.

It's been a long time since I came, and he only came once after my birthday.

Standing here now, it is full of memories, that summer night, with the warm night wind, Jiang Cheng's bright eyes and smile in the dark night.

"Follow the light and go get your gift." Jiang Cheng's voice was exceptionally clear in his memory.

And that colorful light.

Gu Fei stood quietly.

Now there is no trace of the day when they were 18 years old, and the scene in front of them has returned to its usual desolation and desolation.

The unfinished paint on the discarded fitness equipment is the only color in front of my eyes.

Other than that, there is only dead grass, loess, and snow piled up on the side of the road. Fortunately, there is still sunshine, and the sun is not bad at the moment, giving all of these a layer of warm color.

Gu Fei found a rock and sat down, took out the camera, put on the lens, raised the camera and slowly looked in front of him through the viewfinder.

A red shadow flits in front of the camera.

Today Gu Miao was wearing a red down jacket, when she jumped across the low-saturation scenery in front of her, she was bright and full of glamour.

Gu Fei didn't have time to press the shutter, so he whistled.

Gu Miao responded quickly, passing in front of him again, and he snapped two photos.

"Er Miao is awesome!" He looked down at the camera screen, Gu Miao was all in the corner of his eyes, "As good as Peter Pan!"

Gu Miao was very excited. She hadn't taken pictures with her brother for a long time, and now she was praised again. She stepped on the skateboard and dangled back and forth in front of Gu Fei.

"My eyes are dazzled by you," Gu Fei said with a smile, "Where are you going..."

Before Gu Fei could finish his sentence, when he was about to raise his head, Gu Miao swept past like a gust of wind, reached out and took the camera away from him.

"Er Miao!" Gu Fei called her and jumped up. The camera was too heavy, and Gu Miao couldn't hold it steadily like this, "Stop!"

Gu Miao was too excited, probably because she hadn't looked at her all this time, she was a little anxious.

But Gu Fei's words didn't have much effect. Gu Miao, who was in her own excited little world, stepped on the skateboard without stopping, rushed forward to the side of the road, and turned around again.

It was too late for Gu Fei to chase after him. He watched the camera slip from Gu Miao's hand, and hit the ground with the lens facing down.

"Gu Miao!" He roared.