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The three of Pei's family were discussing about giving Qu Lian a wedding present, and Xing Pei felt uncomfortable with his job alone.

It was true that he was jealous when he found out that Pei Qing was still interested in Qu Lian, but the jealousy was very shallow.Xing Pei is very confident that he can beat Qu Lian, he can absolutely crush him in any aspect, not to mention that Qu Lian is about to get married, Pei Qing has no reason not to choose him.

However, after talking at the dinner table at this time, he realized that this person was not just an acquaintance to the Pei family.Pei's father and Pei's mother almost treated him like another son, so they could send out family heirlooms as gifts.As for Pei Qinghuan who had no reason not to choose Xing Pei, it was precisely after so long that he still did not choose him.

Xing Pei felt uncomfortable because of jealousy, and it was even more uncomfortable because he would be jealous of such a person he despised.For the first time, he hated himself for being so young, hated that their life processes were completely staggered, hated that Qu Lian could accompany Pei Qing and mature, while he had only known him for half a year.He was jealous of their 30 to [-] years of friendship, something that Xing Pei couldn't match no matter how hard he tried.

His throat was so choked that he couldn't eat much, so he put down the bowls and chopsticks early.

"Xiao Xing is full now? There is still chicken soup in the kitchen, do you want some more?"

"Don't drink anymore."

Father Pei said: "Then go to the piano room and practice the questions I just told you."

"Hey, there's no need to be so anxious, I just had dinner, let me take a rest."

"I think he is usually resting."

"You think people are resting just like you," Mother Pei turned to Xing Pei and said, "Leave him alone, you rest yours. There are winter jujubes on the coffee table, which are sweet. Go and taste them."

After dinner, Father Pei wanted to continue teaching Xing Pei, but Mother Pei insisted on taking him to the room for a nap, saying that he had high blood pressure recently and should not be overworked.Father Pei pursed his lips, reluctantly going to take a nap.

As soon as the old couple entered the room, Xing Pei couldn't help but pull Pei Qing up and push him into his room, and locked the door.He pushed Pei Qinghai all the way down on the bed, sat on his waist, and put his mouth on it.

Pei Qing still pushed his chin and turned his face away.

Xing Pei was very upset: "What's wrong?"

Pei Qing was not very happy yet: "Don't mess around, my parents are right next door."

"Across the study room." Xing Pei pinched Pei Qinghuan's chin, and pinched back the face he had put away.

"I do not like."

Hearing these words, Xing Pei's face froze, and he let go of Pei Qing.Pei Qing sat up from the bed and straightened her clothes.

Xing Pei immediately turned his head and asked in a low voice: "Pei Qinghuan, what do you mean?"

"Means nothing."

Pei Qing also looked straight into Xing Pei's eyes with a pair of calm eyes, as if Xing Pei was making trouble for no reason, which made people even more angry.

"Then why won't you let me kiss you?"

"I've already said, my parents are at home, it's not appropriate."

"You've been ignoring me all this time, and you're always making excuses. What do you mean?"

"It's not an excuse that I have a new play, and it's true that I went to try it out this morning." Pei Qing softened his tone, "You think I've left you out in the cold, but in fact I didn't. Think about it because you did it yourself. It made you very guilty and felt that I would neglect you."

Xing Pei opened his mouth and found him speechless.

"You think I'm ignoring you, but you actually expect me to give you more enthusiasm than usual to prove that I don't care about what you do."

Xing Pei was seen through by Pei Qing, and was completely discouraged: "Yu Yan and I are just acting, we are not together."

"I know."

"Then you still blame me?"

"I don't blame you, I can understand your situation and know that you have no other choice."

Xing Pei's nose suddenly felt a little sour, and he felt that he had actually suffered a lot of grievances.The company's stocks, personal development, and jobs for a large group of people. Under these pressures, they became lovers with a woman they didn't know at all. .These grievances were all because of Pei Qing's reply, which almost broke the embankment.

Only Teacher Pei understood him.

Xing Pei lowered his head: "Pei, can you hug me for a while?"

Pei Qing hesitated for a moment, but still opened his arms. Xing Pei slowly moved over and sat on his lap, tucking himself into Pei Qinghuan's arms, hugging his back, and buried his face in his neck.

Pei Qing was still stroking his back lightly, feeling very blocked in his heart, and after a while, he asked, "Is it better now?"

"It's better." Xing Pei raised his face, he didn't try to kiss again, but put his forehead on Pei Qing's forehead, feeling his temperature and breath.Meeting Pei Qinghuan was probably the best thing that happened in his short life, such a good person, he wanted him so much.

Xing Pei raised his head, lowered his eyes, and looked at Pei Qinghuan docilely: "Pei, have you considered what you said to consider last time?"

Pei Qing still looked down, and said two words lightly: "No."

Xing Pei was shocked at first, then frowned: "Not yet?"

Pei Qing once again affirmed: "No."

Xing Pei woke up from the shock, and immediately became furious. He sat on Pei Qinghuan's arms and grabbed his collar: "Are you fucking playing with me? How long do you have to think about it? How long will it take before you are willing to accept it?" Me? Am I not trying hard enough? Not good enough for you, not serious enough?"

Or you never let go of your shitty brother at all.

Xing Pei is extremely urgent today. He wants to know more urgently than ever that Pei Qing's feelings for him surpass that of his dead first love.

Pei Qing also pulled Xing Pei's hand: "You are working hard and serious, but I still have to think about it."

"What else do you want?"

"You follow the smoke."

"I've said it so fucking many times that I have nothing to do with her, and I've only known her for a few days. I don't even have her phone number saved, and she's a les." Xing Pei took out his phone and was about to turn it over to Pei Qing. Also, let him know that he has nothing to do with Yu Yan, not even a friend.

Pei Qing still held Xing Pei's hand and squeezed it hard, signaling him to calm down.

"I know, I just can't accept that my man has a contract with someone else."

"You said that we can keep our relationship secret, and it won't affect my career."

"But I didn't say that I can accept my partner holding hands with others, crossing shoulders, and interacting sweetly on public platforms," ​​Pei Qing said in a difficult and calm way, "I am also a human being, and I also have possessive desires. Everything that is presented on social networks has made me very uncomfortable, and now I can still convince myself that I have no right to interfere with you. But if you are my boyfriend, I can't accept it."

Xing Pei was angry, but Pei Qing could only try to stay calm, his sadness and pain seemed to be just a piece of light paper, and he just laid it out in front of Xing Pei in a straightforward manner.He doesn't like misunderstandings, he has too many problems with Xing Pei, let alone a little misunderstanding.

Xing Pei held his face in both hands and rubbed it vigorously, pursed his lips for a long time before asking, "What do you want to do?"

"The only options left for me are 'accept' and 'not accept'. I'm sorry, I really can't accept it, at least for now, I have to think again, maybe wait until your contract is over, and we will start again Pass."

Pei Qing is still trying to suppress the urge to say "I don't accept", he wants to give Xing Pei some time, and also give himself some time.He's in a mess right now, he can't figure it out, it's a mess.

The contract lasts for half a year, and after half a year, the interaction between the two will become less, and gradually there will be rumors that they broke up, and fans will slowly accept it, instead of just posting a breakup statement and everything will be fine.Now it seems that this process is long and tormented.Xing Pei was at a loss for what Pei Qing said.Why did they do this? It was obviously a simple matter in their own eyes. Since they liked each other, it would be good to be together, but when Pei Qing was still here, there were so many worries and entanglements that were hard to accept.

Xing Pei stood up: "At the end of the day, I just don't like it enough."

He can dive headlong into someone who has been unrequitedly in love for so many years, but he is not even willing to try with himself. He has always been the only one who has been deeply involved in this relationship. Pei Qing still seems to be holding his hand to be with him, In fact, he has been standing calmly on the shore.

After Xing Pei finished speaking, he took a deep breath, turned and went out.

Pei Qing also called out "Xing Pei".The small voice seemed to be a hand hesitatingly stretched out, but it failed to grab the hem of the person who left.

Xing Pei left, Pei Qing was still looking at the open door, unable to lift his feet.

A week ago, he was dazzled by the hot feelings for Xing Pei, he had a lot of desires and a strong desire to possess him, and he was even ready to plunge into it regardless.However, the love affair between Xing Pei and Yu Yan was like a big blow to his head when he walked to the edge of the cliff in a daze, which made him painful and sober at the same time.

He couldn't accept this Yu Yan, which also meant that he couldn't accept the next one, which was Yu Yan.Gossip and love are often a part of work for Xing Pei, but for Pei Qinghuan, this is an absolutely private matter, and it is an area that others should not get involved in.He said he would not interfere with Xing Pei's work, but how could he convince himself to accept this kind of thing?

Xing Pei will fall in love in order to avoid the negative impact of same-sex scandals, so will he marry women or marry women in the future due to work or family pressure?Pei Qing still remembered that he had a girlfriend.

Xing Pei didn't prepare anything, only relying on enthusiasm, he didn't even think about whether he wanted to live with a man for the rest of his life.Pei Qing can also think of a way for him, and can accompany him to face all these - the difficulties at work, the pressure of the family, the pressure of the society... But if Xing Pei feels that the process is too heavy and the price is too high, Give up, run away, leaving Pei Qing alone, what should he do?

Nothing can be done with emotion alone. Things like determination and perseverance are easy to say, but when the big stick of reality is swung down, how many people can not shrink back.

Pei Qing couldn't give back the kind of irresponsible enthusiasm that Xing Pei wanted.And the feelings that Pei Qing still wanted to blossom and bear fruit, Xing Pei couldn't bring them out either.

They are like two trains facing each other, running towards each other non-stop because they like each other, thinking that they finally come together, but find that they belong to two parallel tracks, intersect briefly, and then pass by.