Eternal

"Little girl Qin Sangyu, thank you benefactor for saving me." These were the first words the girl I rescued said when she woke up at night.

At that time, on the branches of the moon, Chunzao and Wanzhao had gone to sleep in the tent with the little fox and the big cat in their arms.Su Chijing didn't know where he went after dinner.

When the woman was awake, I was fiddling with the bonfire a little absent-mindedly, and didn't notice her condition at the first time.

So after hearing the voice, I was stunned for a while, and then turned to look at her——

She was still lying on the mattress that Su Chijing and I prepared for her later, but she had already half sat up, and the thin quilt slid down to her waist.

Seeing me looking over, she straightened her sleeves, lowered her head slightly, and said, "You're being polite."

"You're welcome." I smiled back at her, and reached out to pass the package by the campfire, "Because when I found you, it was already wet, and I was worried that the contents inside would be damaged, so I put it by the campfire to dry slowly— —Return to the original owner.”

"Thank you benefactor!" She thanked again.

"Yeah." I replied, turned my head to look at the pot of porridge on the campfire, turned to her again and said, "This porridge is specially reserved for you, do you want some?"

She was stunned for a second when she heard the words, tried to lift the quilt, and then slowly straightened up——

"Then there are Lawn people." She walked over slowly as she spoke.

One step, two steps, although a bit slow, she still came over.

After that, she ate in silence, while I continued to stare at the campfire in a daze.

After a meeting.

"Thank you benefactor, Sangyu is used up." Qin Sangyu's voice sounded. .

"Hmm? Hmm." I turned around and looked at her side face, and asked, "Qin Sangyu? Is it taken from "Sang Yufei's late east corner" and "Sunrise at the southeast corner, according to my Qin's building" ?"

"That's right." Qin Sangyu smiled shyly, "My mother's family has raised sericulture and is good at weaving for generations. Therefore, even though my mother knows that she doesn't have the appearance of Luofu, she still named her daughter this name."

"Good name." I praised, and said as I remembered something, "Speaking of which, after you this time, I suddenly discovered that I am quite destined for the person whose name is related to sunset."

"Why?"

"That's right, I only picked up three people a month ago. One name has late in it, and the other two are a pair of names from Spring Morning and Evening Photo. Today I picked you up again as 'Sangyu'—maybe next time I Anyone we pick up will be called 'Ri Mu' or 'Chao Sui'?"

In response to my question, Sang Yu first gave a sweet smile, and then asked with a smile, "Does your benefactor like picking people around so much?"

"No." I shook my head, "You may not believe it, but whether it's those three people or you, it was not my intention to pick you up."

"That is?"

"Maybe it is the fate that the world often talks about."

"Fate? Benefactor, do you believe in fate?" Qin Sangyu asked with raised eyebrows.

"It's not that I believe in it, it's just that after countless times of meditation, thinking, and observation, I realize that it does exist."

"Then according to the benefactor, everyone is destined to be hit without knowing it-doesn't it be futile to do anything? Because the fate has already been predestined, so whether it is resistance or obedience, they are all predestined, right?" ?"

"Perhaps." I looked up at Xingzi in the sky, "I was abandoned since I was a child and was taken in by my master, but the strange thing is that I have never been curious about my life experience - I don't have any birthmarks on my body. The fabric that wrapped me was already in tatters, and there were no tokens such as jade pendants in the play. When I was growing up, I never saw other people around my master. He didn’t talk about his past, and I never I have never been curious about it. I am such a person of emptiness. I have nothing to worry about. If my master hadn’t passed away half a year ago, I wouldn’t have come out and walked around. I’ll just die alone on the mountain until I die .” Speaking of this, I paused, took a deep breath and continued, “When I was in the mountains, I usually read the medical books left by my master, collected herbs, and then went back to make medicine. It’s been a day since I read my last travelogue. I don’t think about anything. But during the half a year I’ve been out, I’ve met many different people, poor people, ordinary people, brothels and other courtyards. Yes, casinos, and a few very wealthy ones—because I chose a very random route, so I met them really by chance—but after talking to them and observing their daily life, I was Thinking about a lot of things that I never thought about on the mountain.”

"What's going on?" Sang Yu asked at the right time.

"I found that whether their temperament is rigid or gentle, their will is strong or weak, and whether their behavior is decisive or not, they are all closely related to their origin, parents, environment, and circumstances—"

"That's what fortune tellers often say, sometimes there must be a destiny, and there is no time to force it?"

"Not at all." I shook my head, looked at her and explained: "People in the world often only see the present and the result. After an event is over or a person passes away, they can look at it from the end of his result. The experience and birth of this person's life-finally came to the conclusion that 'disposition determines fate'."

"Isn't that so?" Sang Yu looked over suspiciously.

"I don't know whether this is right or wrong. However, I have come to the conclusion that, just take myself as an example-probably there is a fate called 'Sun Wenyue' first, and then there is a fate called 'Sun Wenyue's temperament' stuff."

"What's the difference?" Sang Yu opened her eyes cutely and looked over.

"Cough," I avoided her sight uncomfortably, and continued after clearing my mind, "There are two words that are often used to encourage people to forge ahead: 'Man can conquer nature' and 'Where there is a will, there is a way'—— The main participants in these two sentences are people. In other words, most of our culture and daily life are speculated and measured from the perspective of people.”

"Is there anything wrong?"

"It's not that there's anything wrong," I frowned trying to figure out how to answer her effectively, "but, you try, I mean try to imagine that you're not human, you're just a stuffed animal. An idea that enters this shell called a human body—when you are stuffed in, this mass of ideas is almost transparent and nothingness, and when your shell called a human body is born into this world, it will continue The blood of the parents who took over the shell, and then the shell grows slowly, accepting various language customs and habits, common sense and some specific knowledge - when you grow up, your shell is a woman and you will marry another woman, To care for your husband and children for the rest of your life, if your shell is a man, you have to leave home to find your lifelong ambitions, or take the imperial examination to become an official, or go into business and travel around to earn money, or go back to your hometown to farm after setbacks—some people who are more difficult will also experience Natural disasters and man-made disasters, death of relatives and friends, exile in exile——finally, the shell dies, and your thoughts that have stayed in this shell for a lifetime may have been dyed with various colors, pure white, evil, etc. Dark black, mixed gray, beautiful and colorful colors—no matter what color it is, I call the final color of this idea and the process it goes through from birth to death as "its destiny"—that is, It is said that the reason why it was stuffed into that shell was not to become a human being with a certain personality, but to fulfill that destiny—this destiny existed and was destined from the very beginning, and for the fulfillment of this destiny, By means of that series of so-called human births, growths and deaths."

Qin Sangyu didn't speak for a long time after listening.

For a while——

"Benefactor, Sang Yu has thought about it carefully. Although your idea is a bit contrary to common sense, it sounds very interesting. However, Sang Yu is a little puzzled. Whether we know this idea or not, and whether we are aware of it or not. What's the difference? Since everything is for the fulfillment of the fate that 'only the existence that stuffed us into the shell can know'? Knowing or not knowing, don't we all still have to be pushed forward?" Sang Yu resumed He looked over with clear eyes.

"Well," I was about to say something, but suddenly there was a pleasant music sound in the night sky——

It was my second apprentice, who was standing high on a tree, holding a leaf and playing.

"Listen well! Benefactor, is that person one of the three people you picked up?"

"Well, yes, he is the one with Chi in his name, Su Chijing." I replied.

"Chi Jing? This name is the same as your benefactor's name, so beautiful!"

"is it?"

"Hmm! Put it all together, it's like someone saw the mirror flowers on the water, and because they like them so much and don't want them to leave, they hope that the day will be delayed." Sang Yu imagined, resting his chin.

"Hearing you say that, it's really beautiful." I imitated her appearance, resting my chin on my ear, listening to the music played by the second apprentice and admiring the moon.

When the moon was at its highest point, the second apprentice's song stopped.

And I looked at Qin Sangyu, "Sangyu?"

"What's the matter, benefactor?" She turned to look at me.

"Do you have any plans for the future? If you have nowhere to go, you can go with us."

"Thank you benefactor." She bent her waist and bowed gracefully, then raised her head and said with a smile, "However, I have a place I want to go."

"Where is it?"

"It's my mother's hometown—" She looked at the bright moon above her head again, "My mother's family originally ran a famous weaving workshop in the local area, but they were maliciously framed by competitors and offended the magistrate, and the family died. With the full protection of my grandfather and grandmother, my mother was able to escape, and was picked up by my father after exhaustion. At the beginning, the man was very honest and responsible. In order to repay his kindness, my mother married him and gave birth to After me, I used family skills to set up a huge family business for him-but when my mother fell ill due to overwork, he and his lover outside made a fuss in front of my mother's hospital bed, and threatened my mother to leave the family inheritance. Hand over the secret recipe of weaving, or you will sell me to someone else to be a concubine—” Sang Yu said with a smile on her face, but shed tears, “The next thing is like the stories in the dramas from ancient times to the present. , when my mother was in critical condition, she gave me the secret recipe and some money and jewelry, and let me run away overnight. I refused to leave, but my mother secretly took the poison——"

I opened my mouth, and finally I could only say:

"Condolences."

"Yesterday, when I was about to die, I had let go of all my hatred, and thought that I would be able to meet my mother soon, but—" Sang Yu looked over with red eyes, "But benefactor, you saved me. Lived me. Since I survived, I have the obligation to avenge my mother's family and my mother!"

"Sang Yu?" I looked at her worriedly.

"Didn't you say that, benefactor? We don't live to be a kind human being who has nothing to do with the world - just to fulfill a destiny called 'Qin Sangyu'. Since everything I have experienced is pushing me to revenge Go on this road, so why should I refuse?" She said with a beautiful smile.

"Since you've made up your mind, I won't persuade you any more." I looked at her face and said, "It's just that the meeting between you and me is a kind of fate after all. As a short-term friend of a gentleman, I hope you can accept my offer." Help — like protecting you during your injury, like giving you a ride or something.”

"Thank you benefactor." She wiped the tears from her cheeks and thanked her.

"No thanks. It's getting late, I'll help you go to your tent to rest."

"Okay, it's work."

***

After sending Sangyu to rest, I returned to the campfire.

After sitting down for a while, there was a figure beside him——

It's late mirror.

"Aren't you going to rest?" I asked.

"After the master has gone." He replied.

"That's it—" I said, hammering my sore neck, "It seems that I have to go to bed early to be a teacher."

Chi Jing came behind me with a funny face and began to massage me, "Going to bed early is good for your health. Master, you are a medical practitioner, so you should lead by example."

"Hmm—" I lazily replied.

The second apprentice didn't speak any more after that, but concentrated on doing the movements in his hand.

I took a moment to look at his appearance——

Low eyebrows are pleasing to the eye, extremely gentle.

Someone completely different from me.

Probably this is one of the reasons why I am attracted to it.

But I instinctively resisted this attraction.

Because I hate being disturbed by people other than me.

That's why, on the premise that there was a better way to rescue Qin Sangyu, he chose the stupidest one that was most likely to annoy him.

I wanted to prove that he wasn't special, that the attraction was an illusion.

however--

After waking up, Qin Sangyu's decisive attitude towards revenge made me realize that I, the so-called person who has sensed "fate", is the one who resists its existence the most.

Yes, since they are all for the fulfillment of a fate called 'Sun Wenyue', and this fate track is destined to intersect with this fate called 'Su Chijing'——

Then, why can't I calmly let go of the grudges and resistances in my heart, and open my arms to embrace and welcome?

I was thinking in a daze, and couldn't help leaning back.

"Master, I'll carry you to your tent to rest." The person behind said.

"Yeah, okay." I mumbled.