Wraith Online

Perhaps, Kou Fei would be grateful that Shen Junqing and the others were not taken away, so they finally met Xia Qiu.However, he absolutely cannot forgive him and Xia Nuan for being bullied and hurting their eyes because of Shen Junqing's words.

Shen Junqing watched him closely, he couldn't see anything from Kou Fei's expressionless face, but he could feel the sight from Kou Fei's love gradually cooling down, it seemed that all the enthusiasm disappeared in an instant, Only icy cold water remained.

His heart constricted and ached at that moment, and he suddenly wanted to explain to himself, but he spoke incoherent words.

"I, I found out about you later... You were kicked out because of me, I'm sorry. I liked you very much before, but when I saw you were about to be taken away that day, I was terrified... I didn't want you to leave there... "

His voice became softer and softer until it disappeared.He kept silent.What can he explain?Obviously he is one of the few children in the orphanage who likes summer, because his smile is the unique scenery in the entire orphanage, and he even secretly made up his mind that when he grows up, he will definitely protect him, and protect the one who has a bright and bright heart in his heart. smiling child.

But later, when he saw someone wanting to adopt twins, an uncontrollable fear and panic appeared in his immature heart.He likes that child's smile in adversity, but if that child is no longer in adversity, he may never see such a smile again.

"Growing up" is a distant word, it can change everything we had when we were young and ignorant, including body, mind, ideals and family members.Shen Junqing couldn't be sure whether he would never see such a bright smiling child again, so he yelled out in time when no one expected it.

--"monster".

All he wanted was to leave people in the orphanage, but he didn't know that his choice was to push the two children into the abyss of despair.

Later, a month after the twins were kicked out of the orphanage, he realized how stupid he had been.

It is said that Tong Yan has no taboos, but in Shen Junqing's heart he has become synonymous with "hypocrisy" - he stole the lives of the two children, selfishly thinking that he will help them when he is able in the future, so that he can be completely To have the child who can touch his heartstrings.

In this way, the children are still the same, but he has become the "hero" to save them.

Hearing that one of the twins' eyes was destroyed, he fell into endless self-blame.In his heart, the two children are like angels, but because of him, they are on the verge of death and despair.In order to make up for them, and to appease his tortured heart, he chose soldiers and chose to abandon everything to find them.

Shen Junqing's grip on Kou Fei became stronger and stronger, he didn't dare to let go, his premonition told him that if he let go again, he would never be able to forgive himself.

It's a pity that Kou Fei doesn't care whether he lets him go or not.Shen Junqing's current body is already very bad. If he used all his strength in the past, he wouldn't even try to break free, but now he can break free while Shen Junqing is weak.

At this moment, behind him was the attic that was a step away, and in front of him was the embarrassed Shen Junqing.Kou Fei stared at Shen Junqing, he seemed to have never seriously thought about why Shen Junqing would obey him.Now I think the guilt in his heart is at work.

Kou Fei saw his shadow in Shen Junqing.

The same is bound by the past, the same has nothing, and the same obsession that makes him afraid.

The difference is that Shen Junqing found a way to release the bondage, but he chose to escape.

"Xiamen", who worked as a school doctor in Rongwan, once naively thought that guarding the land where his family of three lived would ease all the sorrow, but what he got in the end was more endless mourning.He witnessed all kinds of people or ghosts who had the same obsessions as him in Rongwan. Without exception, they were all bound by "the past" and dared not make any changes.

Including Luo Luo, including Li Ming, including Gu Ze, including...him.

Shen Junqing found the person he wanted to atone for, but he was still looking for it in a daze.

If it is "Xiamen", he will definitely let such cowardly thoughts go.But as "Kou Fei", he wants to break through this bleak and tight shell.

Even with his life.

Kou Fei took a deep look at Shen Junqing, turned around, pushed open the door of the attic under his astonished gaze, and walked in.

The moment Shen Junqing saw him turn around, he rushed forward, trying to hold him, but a sharp pain came from the wound, as if the forehead scars all over his body were bursting open at the same time.He knelt in embarrassment on the ground made of cherry blossom petals, and the cold water invaded his thin skirt. At that moment, his heart fell into a dark and damp ice cave, and there was no possibility of recovery.

Kou Fei originally thought that after entering the attic, he would see someone he hadn't seen for a long time, but when he entered, what appeared in his eyes was a huge cherry blossom tree.

Under the tree, he saw Xia Nuan in the "Song Jiaqing" shell.

At this time, although Xia Nuan was leaning against Song Jiaqing's body, her eyes were bright red, but Kou Fei knew that it was his "Xiao Nuan", the genuine Xia Nuan.

Xia Nuan sat under the tree with her head bowed, showing the cute appearance that Kou Fei had seen before, like a quiet ink painting.But Kou Fei felt a strange voice coming from the ink painting room, and the owner of the voice seemed to be walking past him vaguely.Kou Fei heard that it was his own laughter and Xia Qiu's helpless sound deep in his memory.

——"Xiaxia" and "Xiaqiu" passed him shoulder to shoulder and came to Xia Nuan's side, but he didn't know anything about it.

This is an unreal dream.After his heart clenched at the beginning, Kou Fei came to this conclusion.In this dream, they are still the three members of the Xia family who used to laugh and laugh - there is Xia Qiu, there is Xia Tian, ​​and there is Xia Nuan.As if they had never been separated, they were playing and having fun under the cherry tree.

Layers upon layers of petals are laid out to form a soft and silky carpet, and the crimson flower forest is rustling one after another, dyeing the endless sky red, and the backs of the three are distant and blurred, like flowers in the mirror, moon in water, orchids in a dream.

Kou Fei quietly looked at the three people under the cherry blossom tree, only feeling that he was far away from them but also very close.He was so close that he could slap Xia Nuan awake with a slap, shattering a dream like a world of glass balls.

However, he didn't.He just approached slowly, chose an appropriate seat beside Xia Nuan, and quietly watched "Xia" and "Xia Qiu" slowly leave the tree and go to another place to play, while Xia Nuan used his unwell Reason refuses to go with them.

At this time, under the flower tree, only the two of them were left.

Before seeing Xia Nuan, Kou Fei thought a lot.The first thing he thought of was questioning, questioning the cause and effect of Xia Qiu's death that year, and what kind of relationship he had with "Song Jiaqing"; Humiliation; then breaking down and crying... He thought a lot, but when he actually saw this person, he felt unprecedentedly at ease.

At this time, Xia Nuan's eyes still had no ripples, but he was listening intently to every move of "Xia Tian" and "Xia Qiu" in the distance, and he didn't seem to feel Kou Fei's arrival at all.

Then, he was pulled into his arms.

Xia Nuan was in a daze for a long time, and her calm pupils fluttered for the first time, and after the fluttering, she struggled with all her strength.Helpless, Kou Fei hugged him too tightly, as if he wanted to hug him tightly and fuse him into his body, making it impossible for Xia Nuan to break free.

The rustling flowers rained down, and the figure of the two hugging made everything in the dream stand still.

Kou Fei hugged the man in his dream tightly, felt Xia Nuan's warmth in his arms, rubbed against his tender neck habitually, and said the opening words he had thought about ten thousand times.

—— "Xia Nuan, brother is here."

——"Don't be afraid."

The struggle in his arms stopped instantly, and Kou Fei heard a soft and soft response like a kitten's fluff coming from his arms.

--"Ok."

The sound of the cherry blossoms falling and the soft response concealed the movement of the scalpel piercing into the heart and Xia Nuan's muffled groan. There was a streak of blood spilling from the corner of his mouth, but Kou Fei gently wiped it away.Kou Fei stroked Xia Nuan's gradually pale cheek with one hand, looked at his own reflection in Xia Nuan's blood-red pupils, and in his astonished gaze, he stabbed the drawn scalpel into his heart.

He said, "I'm sorry, Xiao Nuan."

"I didn't want to do that."

"However, someone must atone for Xia Qiu and Gu Ze."

"Don't be afraid, brother will accompany you..."

Although his body was getting colder, the scar on his heart did not appear to be as painful as expected, but Kou Fei could still feel the gradual loss of his life, and his hand holding the scalpel was gradually weakening.When he raised his head with the last of his strength and wanted to look at Xia Nuan, the person he was holding burst out with great strength and pulled him back into his arms.Then, Kou Fei heard a soft whisper like a kitten's fluff.

——"Brother, I didn't kill Brother Doctor... I originally planned to save him..."

His throat seemed to be blocked by a large amount of stagnant blood. After coughing up a large pool of dark red liquid with difficulty, he tilted his head weakly on Kou Fei's shoulder.

——"Brother... really didn't make any progress..."

In the end, he rubbed the blood attached to Kou Fei's cheek, just like comforting each other when they were bullied as children.

——"Brother, I..."

The thick blood on his cheeks gradually cooled down, and all of Kou Fei's consciousness faded away with Xia Nuan's murmur.

The rain of cherry blossoms gradually distorts and darkens, and finally becomes a blurred black and white image.

Not far from them, "Xiamen" and "Xia Nuan" were looking up at the cherry blossom tree in full bloom, and their laughter was full of tenderness and lingering.

Before finally losing all consciousness, Kou Fei seemed to feel that someone was watching him.

That gaze was familiar yet unfamiliar, with a bone-chilling chill.

However, he no longer had the strength to open his eyes, and all his strength was used to hold Xia Nuan's increasingly cold palm.

Fingers intertwined, never separated again.

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