If you wear it fast, you will return the scum

After the truth came out, I didn't come back to my senses for a long time.

How could this be, as if my world was turned upside down all of a sudden.

What I thought was true became false, and what I thought was false became true.

I can't tell what is real and what is fake, I just want to find him and ask him if he is real.But I know in my heart that it's all true.

He never seduced my father, he was just designed by Pingting.He didn't push me into the water either, I fell by myself.

So what have I done all these years?

Everything I do is based on hating him, but when that hate loses its support, the psychological wall I worked so hard to build crumbles.

Did he die, died under the poison?Or fell to the bottom of the cliff, leaving no bones?

I used to wish he would die soon, but now that he is really going to die, I want him to live again.

During that period of time, I got drunk every day and indulged in sensuality in Huajie and Liuxiang.

My mother called someone to persuade me, my father wanted me to change his mind, and Fengying also came many times.

But I don't want to go, I'm going to die drunk there.But I was born with a thousand glasses of alcohol, no matter how much I drink, I will never get drunk.

My mind is very clear, and as soon as I close my eyes, the shadow of that person and what I did to him will appear in my mind.

I hugged the young man's soft waist, but what I thought about was the night he spent in my room that day.It's funny how long I've known him, and that's the first time we've been that close.

When he devoted himself to me, he should still like me.Then it was gone.

He was blind, and I could no longer see any love in his eyes.

He was poisoned, but I stayed by Fengying's side every day. When I saw him, I would only persuade him to give up his life and leave the opportunity to Fengying.

I'm so selfish.

Whoever I love, I want to live.Whoever hates, wants to die.

But I forgot that he is also a human being, he will suffer, and he will be so exhausted that he no longer wants to love me.

When I heard the news that he was still alive, I was so overjoyed that I rode my horse and ran to Luzhou just to see him.

But when I saw him again, I finally understood that I couldn't go back.

He is no longer the wind sleeve who loved me back then, and I can't forget the harm I inflicted on him, so I brazenly begged to be with him.

He was tired, hurt, and just wanted to live quietly in that place.

That's okay, there is Jing Yilan taking care of you.He will definitely treat you well.I thought so, but I was so uncomfortable that I couldn't even breathe.

But because of what I said, he became poisoned.

I saw him bleeding from the mouth and nose in front of me, and seeing him slump, I was almost scared out of my wits.

Jing Yilan snatched him from my arms and channeled his inner strength.And I can only stand aside and watch them like a coward.

He doesn't need me anymore, my appearance is just to hurt him again.

I was driving the horse, and I heard from Jing Yilan that there was a way to save him.Only one thing is needed, a windy heart.

A life for a life.

I don't want Feng Xiu to die, but if he has to pay with Feng Ying's life if he survives, I don't want to.

Even though I already know the truth of the year, even though I know that Fengying is not as good as he appears on the surface, I still can't forget the friendship he showed by my side when I was in the most difficult time.

For my sake, Jing Yilan chose another path, and asked Fengying to use blood to delay the poisoning until the next six-petaled golden lotus bloomed.

In this way, both of them don't have to die, they can both survive.

I sincerely thank Jing Yilan for his concession. I know that he is actually a very gangster, a bit like his biological father. If he is really cruel, even I can't stop him.

He remembered the favor I owed him, and this concession was repaying my favor.

Fengying asked me to be with him, and I agreed.I still have nostalgia for Fengxiu in my heart, but I also have love for Fengying.

Four people, in pairs, can be considered complete.

I suppressed the slight sadness that flashed in my heart, and entered the wing with him.

If time ends at this moment, maybe it can be considered a complete story.

But Fengying's subordinates sent Fengxiu away.

Ziyun's methods were not very clever, and we quickly found out the coachman who was responsible for sending Fengxiu away. After following the clues, Ziyun's plan and Fengying's acquiescence were all hidden.

I thought Fengying was dissatisfied with Fengxiu, but I didn't expect him to end Fengxiu's life in such a hasty way.He was too eager and too stupid to show us off.

Jing Yilan deliberately plotted against him, and he was so angry that he went to dig the grave.

I guessed the cause and effect of this, and I also knew that the poison that made Feng Ying's life worse than death was given by Jing Yilan.But I just watched the development of the situation and did not intervene.

I love Fengying, but I watched him crumble and die.

Because I feel guilty in my heart, I am ashamed of Fengxiu.I left endless scars on Feng Xiu's body, and Jing Yilan wanted me to watch with my own eyes, watching Feng Ying die in front of my eyes.

I was originally an aristocrat, and I should have everything.But I ruined it all myself.

In the end, I have nothing, lovers, friends, one by one gone.

I went to the ice room under the candy store and saw Fengxiu.

As expected, Jing Yilan did not cremate him, and my guess all along has been confirmed.He was hugged by Jing Yilan, a thick layer of frost formed on his body.

I saw his face, just as I remembered it.

He stopped ten years ago, but I have been walking in the world of mortals for so long.

I looked at his face and thought of him when he was a child.

I think of that short but precious time, his smile, the pastries I brought him, and the way he crawled into my arms and smirked.

If nothing happened, would he be so innocent and cute forever?He is still the Fengxiu who likes me, and his eyes are still full of smiles. Although he is not living a rich life in Lengfu, he doesn't have to worry about life and death.

But no more.There is no way to turn back time, and there is no room for redemption for what I did wrong.

He was dead, sleeping with wounds all over his body forever.

I put them in the coffin and buried them with soil.

Jing Yilan used the same poison to plot against me.When the bone-cutting pill breaks out, it's as if ten thousand ants are entangled in it, making one wish to use a knife to gouge out all the flesh and bones of his body.

But this is what I deserve.

I watched Fengxiu suffer five years in that brothel, and I should pay it back in the rest of my life.

I traveled all over the mountains and rivers, saw many scenes, and saw many people.

But the mountains, rivers, plants and trees are not as interesting as that person.

She is charming and charming, but she is not as romantic as that person.

In a trance, another scene appeared before my eyes.

Two people, one is me when I was 15 years old, and the other is Fengxiu who is smaller than me.

I said to him: "Fengxiu, I like you, and I want to treat you well for the rest of my life."

He threw himself into my arms with a smile, hugged my waist tightly, and said to me: "Okay, I can hear you clearly, you are not allowed to go back on your word."

I opened my lips, and the me in my memory also opened my lips and answered him, saying: "Okay, I will definitely not regret it."

Feng Xiu, this poison has already penetrated into the bone marrow, and I am about to die.

I don't ask you to look at me, I just ask you to be safe and happy in the next life, and never meet me again.

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I am Jing Yilan, but now, I am a dumb person in a candy shop.

His poison has flared up again.

When I found him, he was curled up at the foot of the bed, in such pain that he could barely speak.I was startled, and quickly went to pick him up and put him on the bed.

He was a little dazed from the pain, his face was like gold paper, and his lips were trembling.

I held his hand, slightly channeled his inner strength, and eased his pain.

Beads of sweat rolled down from the corner of his forehead and fell onto the pillow like tears.

I wanted to hold him tight, but I couldn't.It was him who was in pain, but my heart was also twitching, wishing I could take it on his behalf.

He shouldn't have suffered these things. If it wasn't for me, even if he was in the Nanfeng Pavilion, it would be better than what he is now.

He grabbed my hand so tightly that his nails almost cut through my palm.I didn't let him go until he passed out.

But he frowned tightly, but his consciousness had already plunged into deep darkness.

I stretch out my fingers and trace the outline of his face.Then I leaned over again and branded a kiss on his lips.

Only when he was asleep, I dared to make such a move.Sneaky like a thief.

I don't know which tendon I put on the wrong string in the first place to make that choice.If I had sent him away earlier, he would not have been captured by my father, nor would he have been fed such poison.

Or earlier, when he fled to the gate of the city, I should have taken him away.

I am looking forward to the time can go back to that time, I take him, fly away, no longer care about other things.If Nie Rujiu wanted to save Leng Fengying, he would find a way by himself.

I can support Feng Xiu and let him live a life that countless people envy.

But it was too late, I woke up too late.

He saved my life by letting me out of the cellar, but I blinded him and made him like this.

I am a broken man, a prisoner, and a coward.I am not good enough for him.

That day, I knelt down to a dude in the city.

When I went back, Fengxiu told me that I looked like a person.

He said, I am like myself.

I had mixed feelings for a moment, not knowing what expression to make.

Later, he said, he loves me.

I was surprised by his words and suddenly thought I was hallucinating.But what he said next told me clearly that what he said was true.

So he loves me, so he loves me.

My kindness to him was not as good as he was to me, but he remembered it and kept it in his heart.He likes the candy I buy him, and he likes me buying him the candy.But because I hurt him, he didn't dare to say it, but kept it silently in his heart.

He grew out of the mud, but he had a heart of innocence.His heart is simple, pure, and kind, but the first time I saw him, I pierced his heart with a sword.

Fengxiu, you are so good, why did God let you go through this.

I looked at him all day long, and every look seemed like the last.I like the satisfied expression on his face every time he eats candy, the way he chats with the guests, and the way he arranges the candy while humming.

I engrave every scene in my heart, and this has become my deepest memory after his death.

He left in such a hurry that before I had time to react, he was gone.

He was sent away by Leng Fengying's maid, who took him to see how kind we were to Leng Fengying, so he left heartbroken.

That number was not very clever, but to him, it was deadly enough.

Why did I have to boil medicine for Leng Fengying that day? I should have been with him, so that when he woke up, I would be the person next to him.

But I know that was just the straw that broke the camel's back.

He was injured too badly, and I had carried him too many times, his heart was riddled with holes, that's why he easily believed the maid's words.

I killed Ziyun with my own hands. When I killed her, she cried and begged.

I looked at her coldly, and thought to myself, if begging is useful, can my wind sleeve be brought back to life? If not, then why are you begging me?

After he died, I guarded the candy store by myself.

Sometimes I would peel off the candy wrapper and eat one by myself, but since he left, all the candies seemed to have changed their taste.

Bitter, unpalatable.

I miss the candied haws he fed me, the malt candy he handed me, and the way he acted like a baby.

How could I not recognize him at that time, he was obviously so playful and so beautiful.

How could I tie him up and run behind the horse like an animal? I should carefully hold him in my arms, hold him in my hands, hold him in my mouth, and offer him with my heart.

But never again.

He was lying in the ice room under the candy store, cold all over, and he would never open his eyes again, never smile at me again.

I expect him to call me, cold hero, or Xianggong, whatever, as long as he is willing to talk to me again, even if he wants me to pick off the stars from the sky, I will do so.

But there is no regret medicine in the world.I pushed him to a desperate situation step by step, and now I want to turn back, how could such a good thing happen.

I love him, wind sleeve.Whether it was the little Feng Xiu who saved me at the beginning, the Feng Xiu who became a prostitute later, or the Feng Xiu who poisoned my heart later, they are all the people I love.

I have lost the one I love, and the only way I can be redeemed is by killing all who have hurt him.

Thinking of this, I lowered my head and kissed his cold lips again.

wait for me.

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[System prompt: The strategy goal Jing Yilan's favorite value reaches 100, and the regret degree reaches 100, the task is completed. 】

[System prompt: The branch character Nie Rujiu has a love value of 100, a regret degree of 100, and the task is completed. 】

[System rewards: 38000 experience value rewards, 200 million gold coin rewards.Rare currency pure gold reward x15. 】

At the same time, another system message sounded from Zhan Zhuyan's end.

[The progress of the total task has reached 100%, the content of source matter is 100%, the degree of compatibility between soul and body is 100%, and the resurrection is complete. 】

In the underground base, Zhan Zhuyan, who was originally lying on the experimental platform of the "Islay", opened his eyes suddenly. He was stunned for a long time in confusion, and when he woke up, there was only thick ecstasy in his eyes .

"Congratulations to the host, Mr. Wen is about to wake up." Amaterasu said.