Don't run after school next door!

It was late, but no one was sleepy.Fang Xun thanked his friends and asked them to go back first.Now there are only four people left, their family plus Lin Zan.

Lin Zan has been standing next to Fang Xun. He already knows that this incident happened because Fang Xun came out of the closet, so he has no reason to go away.

"Let's go, go home." Fang Xun finally said.

They took a taxi, and Jiang Yue sat in the front seat alone.The car was very quiet, but her mood was fluctuating.

From her point of view, what did she do wrong?She just didn't want her young son to go astray, and she didn't want him to be alone in the future.She didn't notice that Fang Xuan went out, but that was also because she was too worried about her son.Isn't she in a hurry when her daughter is gone?She is also anxious, she even has reason to be angry.

Jiang Yue explained to herself in her heart, but she couldn't convince herself anymore.The moment Fang Xuan passed her, didn't notice her at all, and just walked towards Fang Xun, she could no longer use such lame reasons to numb herself.

She was cold all over, she didn't have the courage to reprimand Fang Xuan, and she didn't have the energy to say a word to her.

She thought over and over again, since when did something go wrong?

Was it the last time Fang chose to return late and she ruthlessly knocked out that little octopus ball?Or, earlier?

Oh.She remembered.

In the days when she just got divorced, when she was betrayed by her ex-husband, and when her world was bleak, she saw Fang Xuan like this: a little trouble.

God, why did she give birth to such a fool?Read picture books to her and she'll just obnoxiously lick the floor.She never had that cute childish look that my mother liked, she was always drooling dirty and smiling like a complete idiot.

Not clever at all, and always had to be watched over.Otherwise, she would bump her head against the corner of the table and knock out a big bag, or she would scream from the scalding hot water.

She didn't like her father either.If she is a lovely little daughter, then Dad will come home often for her.Jiang Yue hated her for being useless, hated her for causing trouble, and hated her for encroaching on her time.

Did she make a mistake at this time?

Jiang Yue reflected and gradually became puzzled.Why did she feel that Fang Xun was the best gift in her life when she gave birth to Fang Xun, and she naturally put a filter of maternal love on him, thinking that he was good in everything, but Fang Xun didn't have that kind of affection?

Not right either.She loves Xiaoxuan.She is his own daughter!

Jiang Yue suddenly pinched her thigh with her nails.

When she could only use the reason of "biological daughter" to explain her love for the other party, she couldn't help but flinched, and her conscience was whipped.

This kind of strong and complicated emotion completely overwhelmed her brain, and she couldn't think of a result.She opened her mouth slightly, the desire to vomit rose from her stomach, her eyes were dry, but she wanted to cry.Something was urging her, making her want to stand up immediately, wave her arms and run.

So uncomfortable, so uncomfortable that I wanted to scream.

Her face had become distorted, no one could describe the expression on that face, it was frightening and unbearable.People turn their heads immediately after seeing it, or they will be deeply touched and trapped like her.

As soon as the car drove downstairs, she opened the door and rushed out.

Several people in the car followed out in amazement, only to see her hunched over, leaning on a tree, retching unceasingly.The sound of vomiting was extremely unpleasant, but indescribably pitiful, as if her internal organs were about to be spit out.

"Mom." Fang Xuan was startled, and subconsciously let out a very low voice from his mouth.

Fang Xun patted her on the back lightly, and walked towards Jiang Yue again.Lin Zan saw that there was a small supermarket open nearby, so he ran over immediately, intending to buy a bottle of water for her.

"Mom, are you okay?" Fang Xun walked behind Jiang Yue.

Jiang Yue put her hands on her chest, barely stopping her retching.She didn't look back, she leaned on the tree and stared blankly at the ground.

Her heartbeat gradually stabilized.

However, her senses became sharp again.The night wind blows over her body, the coolness is comfortable in the summer night, but she captures the sadness similar to the passage of time.The wind brushed her cheeks without hesitation, and what she had missed could never come back.

She clearly feels the time.The pain she suffered was slow and came up little by little.The pain was not sharp, just like a blunt, rusty knife pulling slowly on the heart. It was because she, who was frightened by the bow, had reduced her ability to bear the pain.

"I'm sorry..." She wanted to speak calmly, but the corners of her mouth were so sore that she couldn't continue.

Tears came crashing down, smashing her so weakly that she couldn't help but burst into sobs.

The failed mother covered her face, squatted down, buried her head in her knees, and cried heart-rendingly.

Lin Zan, who came back from buying water, looked at the situation, pursed his lips, and stopped a few meters away.Fang Xuan walked over in small steps, her expression timid.

Fang Xun glanced at Fang Xuan who was walking beside him, and then at his mother who was crying hard. He probably understood something.

As Lin Zan said, how others treat you, you will have such emotional feedback to him.He had troubled with pure sincerity, hated the part of himself that acted out of reason and worldly morality.

Now it seems that this kind of feedback between people is exactly the affirmation of that part of myself.The existence of order, the existence of human ethics and morality, and the fusion of the wild and natural part of existence form a complete him.

If you do a kind thing that you don't really want to do, you can still be happy about it without thinking about it.This is justified.

Fang Xuan also squatted down, and gently stroked his mother's back with his palm: "Mom, why are you crying?"

Jiang Yue's back trembled greatly.

Her teary eyes were dim, she raised her head to look at her daughter, and finally finished the sentence just now: "Xiaoxuan, Mom is sorry for you."

Hearing what she said, Fang Xuan's eyes filled with tears. She bit her lip and said after a while, "It's okay. Brother has found me."

Jiang Yue let out a deep cry from her throat, knelt down on the ground suddenly, straightened her upper body and hugged her.She kept saying: "Mom is sorry for you, mother is sorry for you."

For those who never noticed, and never cared about malice and neglect.

Her conscience was condemned, and she dared not long for forgiveness, but suddenly realized that she was completely wrong.She treats one more favorably than another, and abandons such a well-behaved daughter, what kind of mother is she!She is worse than the ex-husband who abandoned his wife and son.

Fang Xuan hadn't been hugged like this in many years.For some reason, a lot of sadness also surged up in her heart. She couldn't explain why, as if she had always been so sad.

It's just that she endured it for a long time.I couldn't help it today for no apparent reason.

She buried her face in her mother's long hair and smelled the nice, warm scent of shampoo.She was a little happier again, she liked her mother's arms.

Mom was still crying and saying sorry, Fang Xuan imitated the comforting movements in the TV series and patted her on the back with the palm of his hand.

"Xiaoxuan, mom will take good care of you." Jiang Yue cried with red eyes, hugged her daughter tightly, and made the only promise that could be said.She dared not say anything else brazenly, dared not beg forgiveness.

Fang Xuan nodded vigorously, and then asked in a low voice, "Will Mom like me like Brother?"

"Yes." Jiang Yue said hurriedly, with tears welling up in her eyes, "Yes."

Fang Xuan couldn't help but raise the corners of her mouth, revealing her dimples.

Fang Xun stood beside him for a long time, and when he heard this, his heart became lighter again, and he looked at Lin Zan.

Lin Zan received the signal from his eyes, walked over, and handed him the water in his hand.

"Mom," Fang Xun unscrewed the bottle cap and handed her the water, "you can drink some."

Jiang Yue raised her head to look at him, Fang Xun did not look away, looking at her peacefully and calmly.Jiang Yue took it, turned the mouth of the bottle to Fang Xuan, and gave her a sip: "Come on, drink water, Xiao Xuan, don't cry."

Fang Xuan laughed after drinking: "I don't cry. Mom drinks."

In the middle of the night, the neighborhood is peaceful, and the evening wind blows the leaves above the head, and the rustling sound will be heard all night long.

Jiang Yue pulled Fang Xuan to stand up together, and then looked at her son standing aside.

"Fang Xun," she said, "let's have a good talk, as you said."

After finishing speaking, she put her gaze on Lin Zan: "It's so late, you should go up too, and go to our house to rest."

It was almost two o'clock.Everyone was very tired. When they got home, Jiang Yue took a look at Fang Xun and told him to take Lin Zan to wash up.Tomorrow, she will calmly listen to his thoughts.

After tidying up, Fang Xun took Lin Zan to bed.

"I'm sorry," he apologized first, "for not telling you about coming out in time."

He spoke earnestly.Lin Zan smiled, and took his right hand: "It's not in time, you want to hide it from me, right? That's fine."

"Well. I wanted to tell you today. During the day, my mother took my mobile phone away."

"Then it doesn't matter." Lin Zan scratched his palm, "But why didn't you tell me last night?"

Fang Xun gave him a hand, and the two of them lay down together. He put his arms around Lin Zan again, and said softly, "You were in a good mood last night, so I didn't say anything."

Lin Zan leaned into his arms, raised his head and rubbed his chin, without making a sound.

Fang Xun turned off the light, hugged him again, and closed his eyes: "Lin Zan, let's talk to my mother tomorrow."

"Ah."

He downplayed his determination to face it together, because he felt it should be taken for granted.Fang Xun's heart moved slightly, and he kissed him on the forehead.

Even though you don't know it, I said I love you last night.Moreover, today I found that I love a little more.

The author has something to say:

I want to beep a little bit.Although it is an article, there are still a lot of my personal feelings in it. I have a lot of new insights in writing this article.I don't want to preach, I have tried my best to restrain myself, and the writing is not too revealing, but it is relatively clear from the characters in the novel.If some readers feel that there is disagreement, please also reserve your own opinions.Don't worry about my shallow thinking, maybe I'm wrong at this stage.