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"My father is a flower and bird painter, and my mother is a dance teacher.

When I was young, my father and mother were particularly prone to conflicts, and they avoided me on purpose, but one time when I came home from school early, I bumped into them arguing, and I sneaked away as if nothing happened look.

And in the following years, I have been secretly observing them, judging from the clues whether they have quarreled.

My parents and their quarrels are different from others. Other couples have earth-shattering quarrels. After the quarrel, the furniture has to be changed.

And when my parents quarreled, it was like Chaplin’s silent film. My father sat in front of the drawing board and wrote and drew. My mother turned on the loudest sound in his studio and danced alone. Time to leave.

The reconciliation was also because time passed and the anger gradually subsided. My father gave my mother a painting, and my mother gave him a dance, and then I continued to live as if nothing had happened.

Two people cold war, reconciliation, reconciliation, cold war, repeating itself again and again.

Every time they had a cold war, they would send me to my grandfather's house, and take me home only after they reconciled.Well, 365 days a year, 300 days are spent at my grandfather's house.Oh, and my grandparents passed away before they got married. "

Having said that, Chen Yan lowered his head and laughed at himself.

Wei Chengfeng has been watching him carefully, watching him describe his parents in a story-telling tone, calmly and peacefully, as if he was talking about two strangers, and his heart feels like being stung by a bee, with astringent pain.

Chen Yan gradually fell into the memory, and the depths of his eyes glowed with moist luster. He sucked in air without any trace, blinked his eyes slightly, smiled at the corner of his mouth, and said in a more relaxed tone:

"Maybe the less they pay attention to me, the more I want to attract their attention. I have done everything since I was a child.

Not studying hard, fighting in groups, dyeing hair, playing family fun, surfing the Internet, playing games, falling in love early, going to bars, staying out at night.

I have done everything I can, but I have never tried to run away from home.Because I was afraid that I would run away from home for a week and go back, but no one would find that I was missing.

Even so, my father is still immersed in his calligraphy and painting world, and my mother is still committed to competing with his calligraphy and painting, and nothing has changed.

On the contrary, I was going crazy. I was discouraged first, then changed slowly, and focused on studying. Later, I went to high school and occupied the teacher's catchphrase all the year round, showing my face in front of all school leaders. "

Wei Chengfeng had been listening to him quietly all the time, and he knew in his heart that what Chen Yan wanted was to talk, not comfort.

When he finally heard about the high school stage, he felt that Chen Yan would personally uncover the scar that had been pressing on his heart for a long time. He unconsciously began to hold his breath, for fear of revealing a word.

Chen Yan's eyes gradually drifted away, "It was a very ordinary night, I followed behind to assist the school leaders to patrol the night, in order to catch the couple who secretly dated in the school at night. There were twists and turns that night, and finally caught a male couple in the toilet .

It’s a bit funny to say, I’ve been in love several times when I was in trouble, and girls wrote love letters to me. I saw that people were beautiful, and I took them out. I agreed, in fact, I didn't have any special feelings in my heart.

I didn't think about making out with them, or taking advantage of them, and even dating was perfunctory, I just thought I didn't like them, and didn't think much about it.

It wasn't until I reacted that night when I saw the male couple in full view that I knew something was wrong with me.

At that time, my parents were divorcing. At that time, my mother complained about my grandfather. Why didn't she stop her when she wanted to get married? She was a little crazy. She hadn't contacted my grandfather for a long time, and she didn't allow me to contact him.

My mobile phone was confiscated, and the letters I secretly wrote to my grandfather disappeared. If I wanted to go out and make a public phone call, she would pick me up and go to and from school every day, so that I would not be alone outside.Later, I borrowed my classmate's mobile phone to contact my grandfather, and then called again, but it became an empty number.Later, I found out that my mother threatened grandpa to change the number.

That incident caused a lot of trouble in the school, and those two people almost became street rats, and the first time I came into contact with this aspect, I saw such a tragic scene.

Fortunately, it was dark at that time, so many flashlights were not shining on me, and the focus of everyone was not on me, otherwise, I didn't know what the consequences would be.

When I knew this about myself, I was terrified.My parents couldn't count on it, my grandfather couldn't contact me, and none of my classmates dared to tell them. I could only keep these in my heart silently. "

After he said so much, Wei Chengfeng's focus gradually shifted.

He reacted?

to whom?

Wei Chengfeng ground his teeth and thought of Lu Tingzhi inexplicably.

However, now is not the time to be jealous, and he has no legitimate right to be jealous, let alone the jealousy of 800 years ago.

Wei Chengfeng took this matter to the bottom of his heart and listened intently to Chen Yan's story about his past.

It was mid-autumn day, and it was still hot at noon, but they were under the long wisteria trellis, surrounded by lush flowers and trees, the noise from the outside world was cut off, and the sunlight was filtered through layers and scattered into speckled spots. Down, even the wind blowing in is cool.

Wei Chengfeng was in the tranquility with the breeze blowing the vines, and heard Chen Yan whisper in a relieved tone:

"That's when I learned that there is a kind of love in the world called homosexuality.

I was negative for a long time, and I was almost devastated. Then one day, I accidentally got in touch with that male couple. Gradually, I saw that they cheered each other up, they were very affectionate, transferred to another school, and worked hard together to rely on the same university. In my heart Just feel better.

From then on, I almost studied hard. I wanted to get a good grade in the exam, and I really got a good grade in the exam. Other parents expect their children to get a good grade in the exam. I think the whole world Parents are the same, so tell them the results.

They were indeed very happy and felt that they had educated me well, so I came out to them while they were happy.

After that, just like all those who disagreed with their children marrying and falling in love with people they didn't like, they adopted the most traditional way, which has not been outdated since ancient times, and locked me up.

At that time, I was about 16 years old. I had enough age, but I was not mature enough, and I didn't know how to use devious tactics. The rebellion that I didn't complete in my adolescence was completed at this time.

I ran away from home.

I thought my parents were not going to go out and find me.

I even thought that they might quarrel one day and forget about me being locked up.

Who would have thought that my parents, the two people who are almost isolated from the world, could drive a car to find me day and night.

Knowing that fatigue driving is prone to accidents, they still look for me all over the world.

And my mother was the awkward one, she wouldn't even ask my grandpa for help.

You can probably guess what happened next.My parents died in a car accident. "

After Wei Chengfeng finished listening, he was silent for a long time.

Chen Yan's address to his parents has always been alienated like a stranger, but in the end he called this intimate name, and the tone of his voice almost overflowed with self-blame and guilt.

Chen Yan didn't say what happened to him after his parents passed away, but he could roughly guess it.

He didn't even know how Chen Yan survived these years.

He himself was spoiled by his family, and he was more interested in boys since he was a child. He didn't think it was a big deal. After so many things happened at home, his family gradually relaxed, and he was the first to appear. cabinet.

It can be said that the first half of his life has been too smooth, he can't put himself in to understand Chen Yan's sorrow and helplessness, let alone empathize with his pain, but this does not prevent him from feeling sorry for Chen Yan.

Wei Chengfeng looked at Chen Yan, who couldn't hide his sadness, with a bit of sourness, and tentatively stretched out his slightly trembling right hand, which froze on his shoulder for a long time, hesitated for a long time, and then lightly patted it a few times.

After the filming was over, he didn't take his hand away immediately.

Wei Chengfeng stared deeply at Chen Yan, and slowly approached. Seeing that Chen Yan did not object, he hugged him carefully as if touching a fragile object.

Chen Yan in his arms remained silent all the time, but his fingers were tightly gripping his clothes, with his warm body in his arms, Wei Chengfeng was a little emotional for a while.

Wei Chengfeng's feverish mind calmed down slightly until he felt something wet on his shoulders. His throat was blocked instantly and his eyes were sore. He opened his mouth to say something, but in the end he didn't say anything, but just patted his head in distress. , rubbing his cheek against his soft hair.

Wei Chengfeng hugged him quietly for a while, feeling that the trembling body in his arms calmed down slightly, and then said:

"God is fair. He gave you too many hardships in the first half of your life, so you are destined to be lucky in the second half of your life."

Chen Yan froze for a moment, then came out of his arms in a little embarrassment, and took half a step on his hind legs.

His eyes were still a little red, Chen Yan tried his best to look as if nothing had happened:

"What about you? I think you've always been lucky. Don't tell me you're going to suffer a lot for the rest of your life?"

Wei Chengfeng deliberately made him happy, immediately rolled his eyes with a smile, and shamelessly said: "I will only be luckier in the rest of my life."

Chen Yan: "Hehe."

Wei Chengfeng hesitated for a moment, and finally sighed: "Don't think I'm lucky, but I never wanted such good luck before."

Chen Yan raised his eyebrows in surprise: "Oh?"

Wei Chengfeng took him by the hand and said with a smile, "Aren't you tired from standing for so long? Find a place to sit and I'll tell you in detail."

Chen Yan glanced at his hand held by him, and looked at the smiling Wei Chengfeng angrily, "You don't see the outside."

Wei Chengfeng smiled without saying a word.