I didn't save any more food today

After Chen Yan got off the plane, he transferred to the bus again. After sitting for more than three hours, he finally got off in a small county town.

Chen Yan got out of the car with a small suitcase and walked slowly along the side of the road while observing this strange county.

This is a small town with a very slow pace. There are no high-rise buildings. The houses are one by one. There are two people hugging the plane trees on the side of the road. There are very few shops on the side. In just 3 minutes of walking, you can see several piles of elderly people holding cattail fans and playing chess under the tree.

There is a kind of unique warmth.

Chen Yan observed the city almost carefully. The place he had longed for countless times finally came. It was a warm city just as he had fantasized about for countless nights.

Chen Yan found a small hotel to live in. The owner was a thin, dark middle-aged man, and he asked with a smile in his dialect, "Isn't the young man a local?"

Chen Yan nodded, "Is it so obvious?"

While the boss was registering him, he handed over a plate of small dark purple fruits, which had been washed one by one, and there was a layer of crystal water on the surface. He smiled and said:

"This is a mulberry fruit. It's sunny outside. Eat something to quench your thirst!"

"No, thank you, I'm not thirsty."

"Eat it, eat it, it's grown at home, it's clean."

"It's really unnecessary, I bought it on the way..."

"Hey, it's not something valuable, eat it quickly, you don't have it in big cities!"

Chen Yan hesitated for a moment, smiled at the boss, twirled one, put it in his mouth, and bit it carefully, the juice was clear and cool, with a sweetness that he had never tasted before. , Like a gust of fresh wind, his hot and swollen mind instantly sobered up.

Chen Yan looked at the boss, couldn't help but narrowed his eyes and laughed.

After the boss finished registering, he looked up and saw his appearance, and quickly took a tissue to wipe his hands, muttering, "Young man, that's not how you eat mulberries!"

Chen Yan watched him wipe his hands in a daze, watched him take the plate in a daze, and motioned to him: "Eat mulberry fruit, this is how to eat it!"

He picked up mulberries one by one, like eating peanuts, and threw them into his mouth accurately one by one, then raised his head and said: "It's easy to chew if you put them all in your mouth, it's clean and neat, you eat it in such a refined way, It's going to be full of juice!"

Chen Yan was dumb for a while, before thanking thoughtfully: "Thank you for your enlightenment."

……

He lived in this city for three days, he went to many places, stop and go, and enjoyed it a lot.

In the far north, a piece of news in the hospital spread quietly, and quickly spread throughout the hospital in a vigorous way.

Fu Yancheng is married.

And Fu Yancheng, who was so busy dealing with all kinds of gossip, couldn't get in touch with Chen Yan, and he didn't know whether to be lucky or something else.

Chen Yan didn't pay attention to the information from the outside world, his mobile phone was turned off directly, and on the last day, he went to a place that he had deliberately avoided before.

This place is in the vegetable market, and he has to walk through a few small alleys to get to the place he is looking for. It is a contiguous residential area, which seems to be a quiet place in the midst of the noise. Chen Yan slowly approaches, far away Seeing the door of the house he was looking for, someone was tending the flower garden in front of the door.

It was a woman about 50 years old, very neatly dressed, her hair was tied up, and she was wearing a slim dress. She still looked charming.

Chen Yan approached, the woman turned her head when she heard the movement, and Chen Yan finally saw her face clearly.

A pair of curved and slender willow-leaf eyebrows, big eyes, double eyelids, excellent facial features, and good temperament, like a young lady in the Republic of China.

Chen Yan looked at her quietly, his eyes were slightly red, and he was speechless for a while.

It was the woman who broke the calm first. She pursed her lips and smiled softly, "Young man, are you lost?"

Chen Yan blinked his eyes concealedly, and said with a difficult smile: "I came here to find a friend, but their family has moved away, and I happened to see you tending the flower garden, and I just wanted to raise some flowers and plants, Just come by and have a look, learn something, if you bother me..."

The smile on the corner of the woman's mouth deepened: "I thought what was the matter, you want to learn something else, you want to grow flowers, but you found the right person!"

Chen Yan smiled at her gratefully, and then followed behind her while helping her, while obediently listening to her talk about raising flowers.

After talking about it, the woman sighed: "It's about growing flowers. If you don't understand anything, you can ask people. It's nothing. The most rare thing is that you have a heart that cares for it gently.

These flowers and plants are very fragile, but they are also the most genuine temperament in the world. If you treat them perfunctorily, they will show you face. If you take good care of them, they will grow energetic the next day. to repay you. "

Chen Yan was quiet for a while, and said, "Auntie must be a very careful person."

The woman sighed, maybe it was easier to reveal her innermost feelings in front of strangers, she smiled wryly: "It's just a chat to relieve boredom, how can you be born careful."

Chen Yan didn't answer this time, but the woman seemed to have a good impression of him, and turned her head to look at him lovingly, "You must be a very filial person, if my son is like you, it will be fine."

Chen Yan's eyelids twitched, and he seemed to ask unintentionally, "Auntie, do you have a son?"

The woman didn't seem to want to talk too much, so she said "unfilial son", and asked Chen Yan, "What about you? Young man, how many people are there in your family?"

Chen Yan lowered his eyelids and said, "The only relatives left are my grandfather and myself."

The woman's gaze turned pity instantly, "You are also a poor child."

Chen Yan shook his head lightly, his gaze gradually became erratic, and he told his story in a calm tone:

"My parents, they all died because of me. I had a big conflict with my family in the summer when I graduated from high school. I was very desperate and ran away from home. My parents, because they were eager to find me, stayed up day and night. When I didn't sleep for three days, I got into a car accident because of fatigue driving."

The woman looked at him in surprise, and murmured, "My condolences."

Chen Yan smiled and said, "Thank you."

The woman said again: "You seem quite sensible, why did you run away from home?"

Chen Yan looked up at the woman fixedly, smiled bleakly, and said word by word:

"Because I'm gay."

The woman's sympathetic eyes instantly became evasive, and she hesitated to end the topic, but Chen Yan didn't allow her to dodge, changed her previous cute image, and said very quickly:

"At that time, I only knew a little about everything. I only knew that I was a different person from others. When I went out, I felt that others looked at me through colored glasses. I was extremely depressed. I was afraid that others would look down on me, fear that others would laugh at me, and fear that my parents would not agree with me. Acknowledge my son!"

The woman interrupted him: "Okay, don't talk about it, let the unhappy things go."

"I want to say! I hold my breath, do my best in everything, and try my best to please my parents. I didn't tell the secret until I got a good grade in the college entrance examination and felt that they were unlikely to abandon me. They, I long for them to understand me, long for them to comfort me, tell me, boy, you're normal, but no.

They were shocked, thinking that I was spoiled by others, locked me in the room and dealt with it coldly, only gave me three meals a day, waiting for me to beg for mercy, and waiting for me to turn back into a good boy with good morals and academics , I finally couldn't take it anymore!My head is full of crazy ideas.

Finally, one night when they brought dinner, I took the opportunity to escape and went to my former classmates. They were gay like me, but I was luckier than them in not being expelled from school.

I stayed at my classmate's house for a week before I dared to go home. I thought in my heart, if they told me to change anything, I would never come back again.Unexpectedly, they completely abandoned me. "

When Chen Yan said this, his eyes were a little blurred. He lowered his head and blinked his eyes, then looked up at the woman who seemed to be frightened, and smiled little by little:

"Later, I saw a psychiatrist for several months, until I met a boy in my class by chance, and I stopped going. Oh, auntie, I forgot to tell you, I majored in clinical medicine in college , at XX Medical University."

The woman's pupils shrank instantly, and she smiled weakly, "Young man, I'm a little tired, I'll go back to my room first."

As she said that, she turned around to leave, but Chen Yan grabbed her and said with a smile:

"Auntie might as well listen to me, I have never told anyone these words.

I got together with him later, and it will be ten years in December this year, but he has never come out to his family, let alone brought me back to his house, not even in the name of a friend, because he is afraid that his mother will see come out with something.He doesn't know how much I want to go to his house. Even if I don't come out, I still have a deformed sense of being recognized.

But my boyfriend, he never dared to mention the matter of going home, every Chinese New Year he would go home, and I would stay in the same house by myself, and I have come here all these years.It's funny, I have been in love for ten years, but I have never been recognized by others.

Sometimes I also think, let’s just live like this, don’t care what others think, just live your own life well, and life will pass quickly.However, he recently got married without telling me, and secretly had a child. It is said that it was because his mother had cancer. "

The woman's eyes were wide open, staring at her, her complexion turned pale instantly, panting as if she had trouble breathing, and clutching her chest in pain, the old God Chen Yan looked at her, and said faintly:

"Auntie, I went to your attending physician before I came here, and looked up some medical records in the name of learning and asking for advice. One of them is yours, but the forged medical record is so good that even Fu Yancheng didn't read it. Come out, if I hadn't checked for more than a month and found clues, I wouldn't have known there was something tricky about it.

Auntie, you don't have heart disease, do you? You have lied to Fu Yancheng for so many years. Auntie, you also know that your son is not a normal person like me, right? "

The woman froze as she struggled to catch her breath.

"Auntie, Fu Yancheng is a filial son who values ​​love and righteousness. He never thought that you would lie to him. Since he lost his father, he only obeys your words. He is afraid that he will provoke you, so he treats you wholeheartedly. Then Auntie, have you thought about your son?"