A mediocre little goblin's love story

When Lin Yiqing entered elementary school, he was eight years old.At first, he went to school with anticipation, because his parents told him that there would be many children to play with when he went to school.His parents were always busy with work, and he had to be alone at home a lot before he went to school, which made him often feel very lonely.

But after only a few days, he realized that he didn't like school life at all.

When he really saw those so-called classmates, he realized that everyone was so noisy.They can cry out at the top of their voices over a trifle.Because I want to eat, I will stare straight at the food in other people's hands.The position of the two numbers in addition is reversed, so the teacher needs to explain it again.

Lin Yiqing was completely disappointed in the school, and he couldn't like any of his classmates.After returning home, he told his mother, "I don't want to go to school."

Mother Lin was still very young at that time, she asked Lin Yiqing patiently: "Why? Has someone bullied you?"

Lin Yiqing shook his head, he was very quiet in class, no one noticed him.He also doesn't want to talk to any of his classmates, because he thinks those classmates are like some annoying meatballs with facial features, and they can't communicate at all.But he and his mother couldn't describe this feeling clearly, and he also knew that all children had to go to school.

He said to his mother: "I want to buy a dictionary, but the teacher said everyone should buy a dictionary."

Mother Lin thought that Lin Yiqing was just an ordinary child acting like a baby and wanted his parents to care more about him. In order to appease Lin Yiqing, she took him to the bookstore.

It was the first time Lin Yiqing went to a bookstore. He looked at many books on the shelves and flipped through them casually.

Mother Lin saw that he liked it and bought him some more children's books.

After returning home, Lin Yiqing quickly finished reading those children's books. Those fables with pinyin were too simple. He read them quickly and found them meaningless.

In the story, who wants to help whom, who desires what, who encounters setbacks and is trying to do what, he doesn't understand that kind of emotion at all, and he doesn't understand why the story must happen like that.

From then on, he looked through the dictionary when he had nothing to do, and he never told his mother that he didn't want to go to school.

Year after year, he spends most of his time at school in a daze, or observing others.He likes to watch other people's every move, guessing why the students laugh, why they scream, why they fight, why they cry.He even observed the teachers, the reasons for their anger, and the way they communicated with each other.When he observed clearly, he hated his classmates, school, and peers even more.

Lin Yiqing was keenly aware of the difference between himself and his classmates. His attention was more concentrated and his emotions were less likely to fluctuate.

The same math problem is extremely simple in his eyes, but some people really find it difficult.

His deskmate, who was a head taller than him, was beaten at home because he did not do well in math, and cried when he came to school.

When it was time for the exam, he kept peeking at Lin Yiqing's test paper.

Lin Yiqing remained calm and wrote the real answer in the small part of the test paper, but deliberately wrote a big wrong answer in the answer place.I didn't change it until it was time to hand in the paper.

It is conceivable that his deskmate was beaten again.

The exam at the same table copied Lin Yiqing's, but she failed in the exam several times, but Lin Yiqing always got full marks.

Finally one day the tablemate felt something was wrong, grabbed Lin Yiqing by the collar, and pushed him directly to the ground.

Lin Yiqing's waist was knocked against the corner of the table, and the pain was severe.He looked up at his deskmate, wanting to get up and push him down too, but for the first time he really felt the gap in strength, he couldn't beat his deskmate.

It was Lin Yiqing's father who came to pick Lin Yiqing home that day. The head teacher called the parents of the two children and said that the children had a fight at school and the parents had to go.

Lin Yiqing's father kept apologizing, apologizing to the teacher, apologizing to the parents of his classmates, and finally took Lin Yiqing home.

On the way back, he put Lin Yiqing on his back and asked Lin Yiqing, "Why did you start fighting? Was that child bullying you?"

Lin Yiqing whispered: "He is an idiot."

Lin Yiqing's father was taken aback, "Where did you learn the words? You can't say that about your classmates."

"All of them are idiots! The teacher is also an idiot!" Lin Yiqing became angry, thumping her small body on Papa Lin's back.He couldn't beat him, and he was wronged.

Lin Yiqing cried for a long time that night, and kept crying with her mother when she got home.He said that the stupidity of his classmates made him unacceptable, and the teacher seemed to be speaking in slow motion, and he was going crazy.

"Keep reading and reading! He keeps saying the same thing! I'm getting sick of it!"

His parents couldn't laugh or cry, and the child seriously believed that everyone in the school was stupid, and only he was the smartest and most special.

The two coaxed their son for a long time, and Lin Yiqing fell asleep after crying tired.

His father and mother did not fall asleep all night.

Father Lin hasn't smoked for a long time. At this time, he was in a complicated mood and wanted to smoke. After being stared at by Mother Lin, he didn't dare to get a cigarette. He was so uncomfortable that he wanted to rub his hands all the time. "Hey, it's not good that my son is too smart."

Lin's mother really thinks this is not good. Lin Yiqing has been very sensible since she was a child, and she doesn't like to cry.But also not very gregarious, has no friends. "Although you are smart, you can't say that your classmate is an idiot. Otherwise, if you are beaten today, you will be beaten tomorrow."

Father Lin also sighed, he saw his son at the same table today, obviously he couldn't beat him.

From that day on, Ms. Lin began to spend as much time with her son as possible. She wanted to teach Lin Yiqing patiently. She couldn't look down on her classmates just because she was smart, let alone the teacher.

Father Lin also started to buy more books for Lin Yiqing, and also went to find out where the study and interest classes were more suitable for his son.

It's a pity that he had an accident before he could report to Lin Yiqing's class.He and his wife were both in the car when the accident happened, and they were fully responsible, and almost all the money in the family was lost.A complete small home collapsed, and before people could be immersed in sadness, everyone had to be forced by life to return to their respective positions.

Lin Yiqing suddenly became an orphan, and he was taken home by his aunt, who promised among relatives and friends that he would raise Lin Yiqing.

For the first two days, he couldn't even cry. He seemed to hear what his parents promised him, but suddenly there was nothing.He was still questioning how this happened, he couldn't accept it, and always felt a sense of illusion, but everyone regarded him as a child, told him nothing, and avoided him in everything.

In the middle of the night, he got up because he was too thirsty to find water to drink.

My aunt and uncle stayed up and watched TV in the living room.

The aunt said in a low voice: "I'm a little afraid of that child, why doesn't he cry?"

"The child is so pitiful. When he first came to our house, he was afraid of being born."

"I'm his aunt. Why is he afraid of me? There is absolutely something wrong with this child. My brother said at that time that he was different from other children since he was a child. I was scared when I looked at his eyes."

"What are you thinking about! A child." Uncle couldn't listen anymore, and he didn't like his wife who was suspicious.

The little Lin Yiqing hid in the door, he quietly climbed back to the bed, hid in the quilt and cried.He should cry, he has no parents anymore.

He went to school again. Some classmates at school knew that his parents had died in a car accident, and they kept repeating this incident in his ears.The child's malice was like the most straightforward knife blade, piercing Lin Yiqing's body again and again, until the blood could no longer be pierced, they laughed and let go, no longer playing this boring game.

Lin Yiqing knew that he couldn't beat those boys who hugged each other, let alone their parents, he always kept his head down and silently endured everything.

His deskmate still had to copy his papers for the exam, but he clearly said that if he copied the wrong answer again, he would be beaten to death.

Lin Yiqing pretended to be afraid and obedient on the surface, but in his heart he couldn't give in to these classmates whom he considered to be idiots.He thought of a way to make himself feel better, and he offered to help his deskmate with homework.

He has never been beaten, but he carries a lot of homework home every day and keeps writing.

My uncle sometimes went to see him in his room, and he didn't understand why elementary school students had so much homework.

Lin Yiqing didn't say anything, he thought maliciously, let those idiots stay stupid for the rest of their lives, it's better never to know that they are idiots, living like a pig, maybe they will be slaughtered one day.

He knew that his aunt didn't like him, so he had to watch his words more and more, so as not to cause trouble for his aunt's family.He is too smart, always aware of other people's impatience towards him first, take the initiative to solve the point that he becomes troublesome in the eyes of others, and never let others have the opportunity to attack him.

But he was too young at that time, and he didn't understand that it was this kind of maturity that didn't match his age that made his aunt not like him.

Until the younger siblings were born, Lin Yiqing's presence in her aunt's family became more and more redundant.He began to try his best to play the image of a good brother and take the initiative to take care of his younger siblings.

Uncle was nice to him, but when he hugged his younger siblings, his smile was completely different. It was because of blood relationship, closeness by nature, which made Lin Yiqing out of place.

After entering junior high school, Lin Yiqing, who had gradually grown up, finally understood why his mother told him not to look down on idiots.Because the advantages that people have from birth are not necessarily in IQ, nor in keen observation.Some people are born with wealth that others can't get in a few lifetimes of hard work, and some people are born with a good skin, and everything they do is flattering.

Lin Yiqing began to learn to gouge out his pride bit by bit. Although he was unwilling, he had to do so. He was just smarter, but not smart enough to change the rules of the world, nor could he easily change the rules of the world. The degree to which one can change one's destiny.If he doesn't properly conceal his arrogance, he will soon be shattered by the real reality.

After graduating from junior high school, he went to the best high school in the local area with his own efforts. After meeting the classmates who were really from a wealthy family, he realized more clearly that the resources he had were not enough for him to make something earth-shattering. matter.

Poverty is like a spider's web, sticking him firmly to it, making him unable to escape.He cannot see the further world, nor can he express his true self.After all, he was living wisely and stupidly no differently, and every day of his life he had to be numb and trapped in that little world.

The reality made Lin Yiqing recognize himself.He started to become quieter and less attractive, but he still couldn't give in completely.He just learned a protective color called mediocrity, he still has pride in his bones, and he can still see through people's hearts.

He has always liked to play a game through the big and small trials in life. He likes to speculate on other people's psychology, study that person's behavior pattern, and predict his next move.He has met many people, but he has never met anyone that he can't figure out.

No matter how malicious he speculated, those people would talk and do things as he expected.

He fell in love with this kind of game that can penetrate people's hearts, and also liked to influence other people's actions.There is no purpose, but he finds it interesting to see that others will be affected by his words.

But there are always surprises in everything.Lin Yiqing guessed many times what Xue Hong was thinking and what he was going to do, but Xue Hong's reaction always deviated from his expectations.

Suddenly one day, he was shocked to realize how pure and straightforward Xue Hong was.

When he was with Xue Hong, he was very relaxed.Xue Hong was too simple, he didn't need to set up defenses at all, and he didn't need to reserve some limits for his psychology.For the first time, he was willing to be an ordinary person, to feel the simple emotions of the relationship between him and Xue Hong.

Until one day, he accidentally learned that Xue Hong was half-human, half-fox, and that Xue Hong was an ignorant mixed-race vixen.

In an instant, many things became clear.Xue Hong is the most special one. He doesn't need to use human logic to speculate. How can a fox speculate?Xue Hong is such a special and magical existence.

Xue Hong is probably the only person Lin Yiqing doesn't want to describe as stupid, he thinks that kind of stupid is very cute, only Xue Hong is an exception.

Xue Hong is foolish and easy to deceive, Xue Hong relies on him wholeheartedly, and under his influence, Xue Hong tries hard to be a human being.What Lin Yiqing longed for, he gave to Xue Hong.What he imagined he should have was also given to Xue Hong.He will never be jealous of Xue Hong, because Xue Hong is his perfect sustenance.

Others couldn't understand why he would rather choose to be sent to such a school than covet a year of ease.Only he knew what role he was trying to play during his senior year in high school. He was Xue Hong's family, the only family member who depended on each other for life.He was taking care of Xue Hong, but Xue Hong made up for a vacancy in his heart.

If his parents are still there, what will his parents do for him before the college entrance examination?Probably do everything possible to let him live comfortably and concentrate on studying.He will worry about his future, and will run around to inquire for him.Will be pleasantly surprised by his excellence, and will stay up all night because of his depression.

Only in front of Xue Hong can Lin Yiqing feel a real sense of satisfaction and be content with a simple life.He is no longer obsessed with the ugliness of human nature, nor is he looking forward to the destruction of the world.Half of his life is real, and the other half becomes illusory because of Xue Hong.

Probably God finally realized what he owed him, so he sent a little fox to make him feel that the world is beautiful.

It's a pity that this kind of beauty was soon broken, when Xue Hong rode on his body and made him painful with the fascia gun.Something is different.

He let Xue Hong get off him, but he couldn't get up for a long time because he was hard.

I don't know when, pain became his source of pleasure, and Xue Hong became his source of desire.The time Xue Hong accidentally helped him masturbate, because of a strong sense of shame, he ejaculated.Only today|he understands what that feeling means to him.He had suppressed it for too long and had to use this kind of stimulation to make himself sexually aroused.

Lin Yiqing accepted the matter calmly, and even used his learning ability to learn enough knowledge.

He is not unique, there are many like him in the world.But he couldn't tell Xue Hong, because Xue Hong wouldn't understand.

The self-control that he has always been proud of has locked him firmly, restrained his actions, and restricted his impulses.He will not tell Xue Hong this secret, because he does not want Xue Hong to become unlike Xue Hong.

Xue Hong is the purest and purest little fox, even though he tries so hard to be a human being, Lin Yiqing will not really make Xue Hong completely human.Human beings are stupid and selfish, what good is being human?

The college entrance examination is over.Lin Yiqing completely gave up the opportunity to break through her class and become a master.Because he deeply knows that once he tastes the taste of resources, it will be difficult for him to escape those nested rules.He just wanted to protect Xue Hong, and tried his best to be an ordinary person, only in his safe area, to protect Xue Hong well.Although he had a vague feeling that the increasingly dazzling Xue Hong would not belong to anyone in the end.