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As soon as Mr. Zhang finished speaking, the two ends of the phone fell into silence.

Zhang Xiuyan only opened his mouth tentatively, but after hearing Mr. Zhang's rhetorical question, he became a little more certain.He paused, and then said calmly: "I'm really doubting—doubting father, whether you don't know anything, or you know everything."

Even though the two were not talking face to face, Mr. Zhang could still feel the edge hidden in Zhang Xiuyan's words.Regarding Zhang Xiuwen's every move, if he really doesn't know anything, then his father is really incompetent.If he knew everything, why didn't he care about it for so many years?

Mr. Zhang said lightly: "What do you think?"

Zhang Xiuyan pointed out the facts: "Father, your attitude towards Xiuwen is completely different from that towards Ningning and the others." He and Zhang Xiuwen are strict, and he is naturally strict with Zhang Xiuwen, but it is different for Zhang Xiuling and Zhang Xiuming—even more different for Yuan Ning.

Zhang Xiuyan always thought it was because Zhang Xiuling was a girl, while Zhang Xiuming and Yuan Ning were still young.

Now that I think about it carefully, the difference existed from the very beginning, probably because Zhang Xiuwen had a pair of ambitious eyes from the very beginning, and from the very beginning he showed his desire to drill upwards.

Mr. Zhang said: "I went to the south more than 20 years ago." He pondered for a moment, and then went on to recall, "At that time, I met a friend who had no parents. Promise. He is the top leader in the local area. After I was transferred there, he was his partner. However, many things happened during that time. He died in an accident while on duty. I took his ashes back to Huazhong and buried him Next to your grandmother and aunt, take you every year to worship your grandmother and aunt let you worship him."

Zhang Xiuyan's brows twitched when he heard "no father, no mother, growing up in an orphanage".He quickly understood: "At that time, father, did you know that someone was hiding in the dark?"

Mr. Zhang said: "I know." His tone was slightly calm, "My friend used to be one of them, but he kept trying to break free. He didn't die immediately, but was sent to the emergency room for two rescues. God, before he left, he said something to me, he said that sometimes death is a kind of relief, but he has too many things he wants to do, so he is reluctant to die."

Zhang Xiuyan was silent.

Mr. Zhang said: "He said that it was my appearance, so that he could relieve himself with peace of mind."

Mr. Zhang has never mentioned these matters.

For him, this friend is a close friend and a confidant, who made him understand that living in this world is not only about hatred and fighting for power and profit, but also about lofty aspirations and lofty ideals.But he never thought that such an upright person would live in a deep quagmire since the day he lost his parents, and he couldn't break free no matter how hard he struggled.

To do what you want, you must first do what you don't want to do—or even hate.

Some things cannot be considered with the thinking of equivalent exchange. As long as you have desire or fear in your heart, the evil spirits who are watching secretly will have an opportunity to take advantage of it.

The existence of the other party is like a gangrene, which is extremely painful, but it is difficult to get rid of.

The conversation did not continue.Even if Mr. Zhang didn't say it clearly, Zhang Xiuyan understood some of Mr. Zhang's determination and what Mr. Zhang had done.

When he adopted Zhang Xiuwen, Mr. Zhang saw Zhang Xiuwen's ambitions and intentions, but he never pointed it out. Instead, he gave Zhang Xiuwen a chance--

If it weren't for the relationship with Zhang Xiuling, Zhang Xiuwen might have become the bait for Mr. Zhang to find the person behind the scenes.

Zhang Xiuyan hung up the phone and drove to Capital University.He sat in the car, watching the vines climbing out of the school wall for a long time, and his heart seemed to be covered with long vines, criss-crossing and difficult to sort out.

For the sake of the people you care about and value in your heart, sacrificing something you don't care about or value, seems to be something that doesn't need to be weighed at all.He is the same kind of person as Mr. Zhang, who always considers the pros and cons before considering feelings.

Will one day, what you care about today, what you value today, gradually become unimportant, and gradually become a part that can be sacrificed?

Zhang Xiuyan sat in the car in silence for a long time before he withdrew his gaze that seemed to want to penetrate the wall.He got out of the car, closed the door, and walked into the school.

Zhang Xiuyan was not dressed like a student, and he had a naturally serious face, which attracted many people's attention along the way.He didn't pay much attention, but turned to the student union office building and found Yuan Ning's office.

Yuan Ning was discussing things with other people, and through the window, he could see Yuan Ning's smiling side face.

Zhang Xiuyan watched Yuan Ning quietly, and at the same time recognized everyone around Yuan Ning. Song Xingchen and Hao Xiaolan had known each other for a long time. Those who can tell the name, those who can't tell the name but only remember the face.

His powerful memory even allowed him to recall how everyone met Yuan Ning and what kind of contacts they had.

After confirming the relationship, Yuan Ning has always been honest with him and did not hide anything from him.

Zhang Xiuyan was about to withdraw his gaze and turned to leave, but Yuan Ning seemed to have sensed his gaze suddenly and raised his head to look out the window.

Seeing him standing there fixedly, Yuan Ning quickly ended the conversation with Song Xingchen and the others, left them and ran out of the office, looking at Zhang Xiuyan with bright eyes: "Brother."

A layer of gray mist covering Zhang Xiuyan's heart suddenly dissipated.He glanced at Song Xingchen and the others in the room: "Is the matter over?"

Yuan Ning nodded: "The chat is over, let Xiaolan and the others complete the rest." He turned around and talked to Hao Xiaolan and the others, and pulled Zhang Xiuyan out of the office building.Talking to Zhang Xiuyan about what we were discussing just now, "Now we are also in our third year, and some things have to be handed over to the juniors one after another. I am thinking about sorting out the history of cooperation with large and small companies, and let them Learn to develop new cooperative enterprises - after all, the economy is developing fast now, and various enterprises are updated faster than the student union, so we can't live on our laurels every year."

Zhang Xiuyan said: "This is what it should be." He held Yuan Ning's hand lightly, not too hard, but he didn't let go.

Yuan Ning realized that something was wrong with Zhang Xiuyan from the very beginning, so he deliberately took Zhang Xiuyan around to the quiet school road, and held Zhang Xiuyan's hand even tighter: "Brother, what's wrong with you?"

Various thoughts flashed through Zhang Xiuyan's mind, for example, if Yuan Ning was just an ordinary child, what would happen after he came to Zhang's house, would he be treated as a bait like Zhang Xiuwen, would he be in pain and pain all the time? Fear—fear that I will step into the abyss with one foot.

If Yuan Ning hadn't found Xiu Ming by chance, if Yuan Ning hadn't been so brave and generous to admit the feelings buried in his heart——

Zhang Xiuyan suddenly thought of the dream of that day.

If it wasn't for Yuan Ning, he might just live his life step by step.Even if he meets Yuan Ning at the last moment of his life, he will not be able to take a step due to various considerations.

Zhang Xiuyan stretched out his arms to hug Yuan Ning.

"It's nothing," Zhang Xiuyan said, "I just want to see you suddenly."

Yuan Ning was stunned for a moment, and let Zhang Xiuyan hug herself tightly.

In this relationship, Zhang Xiuyan, who seems to be always calm and composed, has always been more worried about gains and losses.

Zhang Xiuyan has his responsibilities, his ambitions, and the things he wants to do and must do, but the only thing he wants to hold on to is the people in front of him, so he is desperate and fearless.

Sensing something was wrong with Zhang Xiuyan, Yuan Ning took Zhang Xiuyan's hand and walked out of the school with Zhang Xiuyan.He dragged Zhang Xiuyan into the car, sat in the car and asked, "Brother, did you find anything?"

Zhang Xiuyan and Yuan Ning looked at each other for a moment, and told Yuan Ning all the conversations with Zhang Xiuwen and Mr. Zhang.

After Yuan Ning listened in silence, he put his arms around Zhang Xiuyan's neck and kissed Zhang Xiuyan.

Suddenly hearing Zhang Xiuyan's inference and verification, Yuan Ning suffered no less shock than Zhang Xiuyan.But Yuan Ning is different from Zhang Xiuyan. He has encountered more things since he was a child, and he has seen and heard more things than others. Naturally, he has accepted all kinds of unexpected changes faster than others.

Yuan Ning was quiet for a while. Seeing Zhang Xiu staring at him steadfastly, he straightened his mind and said slowly, "If I were in the third brother's position, I might do the same thing. In such a situation, I saw a way to escape. No matter how difficult the way out of the predicament is, no matter how high the price is, I will definitely accept it with gritted teeth."

Zhang Xiuyan was silent.

Yuan Ning said: "If I were in my father's position, I might do the same thing. A child who has never met, and a best friend who died because of an 'accident', I might also choose to take this opportunity to find out where my best friend died. the truth."

Zhang Xiuyan stretched out his arms to hug Yuan Ning.

Yuan Ning said: "But neither of us is in the position of third brother and father." He raised his head and kissed Zhang Xiuyan's forehead, "Others said that the road we chose was difficult, but we are the luckiest, we have no experience. I have experienced the suffering of my third brother who was in a desperate situation, and I have not experienced the pain of my father losing his best friend. Brother, your dream will not come true, so I will not allow you to treat yourself so harshly. You are tied to work all your life and never think about yourself. .”

Zhang Xiuyan quietly let Yuan Ning hug him tightly, kissing him on the face.

Yuan Ning smiled: "I am very, very selfish. I hope that all the people I like can live happily every day. No responsibility, no ideal, no changing the times and changing the world can compare to half a finger of the person I like. So you have to be prepared, brother, if you want to do something to make yourself unhappy in the future, I will definitely hold you back!"

Zhang Xiuyan's mood also relaxed.He kissed Yuan Ning's smiling eyebrows: "Okay, you will hold me back from now on."

Some worries, some self-doubt, Yuan Ning understands even if she doesn't say it out loud.

Yuan Ning said, "Let's go back to Central China after climbing this week. Let's have a good talk with my father." Only through open talks can the two sides communicate with each other and clear up blind spots.