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Yuan Ning went home holding the mimosa.

After dinner, Zhang Xiuyan asked Yuan Ning to distribute the gifts.The prices of the gifts vary, but they are all suitable for everyone. Ms. Xue and Zhang Xiuling expressed their joy in the most direct way, covering Yuan Ning in their arms from left to right.Aunt Shen watched with a smile.

Holding the racket, Zhang Xiuwen didn't open his mouth to say a few beautiful words as usual.He looked at Yuan Ning, who looked uncomfortable being hugged, his eyes paused slightly on that embarrassed little face.

Some people are naturally enthusiastic, lively and cheerful, and seem to be extremely nice to everyone, but in fact they don't really take it to heart.And some people are silent and introverted, just observe everything around them secretly, and quietly keep in mind what you said and what you need.

Yuan Ning is obviously the latter.

Mr. Zhang hasn't come back yet, and Yuan Ning's gift hasn't been delivered yet.Zhang Xiuyan said that Mr. Zhang had a meal and asked Yuan Ning to wait.

Wait until almost nine o'clock.

Yuan Ning was reading a book when Zhang Xiuyan suddenly knocked on the door: "Father is back."

Yuan Ning pinched the newly bought fountain pen, and his hands were so nervous that sweat oozes out again.He took two deep breaths so that his heart would not be so tight.Opening the door, Zhang Xiuyan stood outside with his usual serious expression.

Big brother and father are really like.

Yuan Ning asked softly, "Brother, will you accompany me?"

Zhang Xiuyan almost felt that he was called "Big Brother".He glanced at Yuan Ning: "Go by yourself."

Yuan Ning became nervous again.He glanced at Zhang Xiuyan, seeing that Zhang Xiuyan had no chance of changing his mind, so he could only walk to Mr. Zhang's study by himself.

The closer she got to the closed study door, the faster Yuan Ning's heart beat, thud, thud, thump sounded in harmony with the sound of footsteps, making it difficult for Yuan Ning to even breathe.He wiped the sweat from his palms and wiped the pen case carefully before he mustered up the courage to knock on the door.

Mr. Zhang's stern voice came from inside: "Who?"

Yuan Ning took a deep breath, and then said as loudly as possible: "It's me, Yuan Ning!"

Mr. Zhang frowned.If he and Zhang Xiuyan's brows were stretched out with a mold, they would definitely find that the word Chuan wrinkled on their brows was so similar.

Mr. Zhang said, "Come in."

Yuan Ning pushed open the door, walked in, carefully closed the door, trotted to the desk, stammered, but came in quickly and said: "Father, father, this is what I, I bought today, and I want to give it to you. I , I don’t know if it’s suitable or not!” He reached out and handed out the pen case.

Seeing Yuan Ning's nervous face, Mr. Zhang felt less unhappy about being disturbed.

This is the first time he has received a gift from a child. It's not that Zhang Xiuyan, Zhang Xiuling, and Zhang Xiuwen are not caring. It's just that he has everything and is very busy on weekdays, so no one dares to disturb him. Work.

Mr. Zhang didn't praise Yuan Ning, and didn't show much expression on his face. He just took apart the pen in front of Yuan Ning, took the ink next to it, added ink to it, pulled a piece of manuscript paper and tried to write a line.

Mr. Zhang commented objectively: "Not bad."

The tension on Yuan Ning's face eased a lot.He said, "Really?"

Mr. Zhang rarely said a useless nonsense: "Really."

Yuan Ning said: "I, I..." He hesitated for a long time, but said honestly, "Dad likes his pen very much. I don't know what my father likes, so I chose this one."

If it were someone else, he might not be happy to be compared with a deceased person, but Mr. Zhang saw the sincerity in Yuan Ning's eyes.

He is an honest and caring child.

Mr. Zhang said: "I like it too."

Yuan Ning's eyes lit up.

Mr. Zhang picked up the old pen on the table and handed it to Yuan Ning: "Here's the old one for you, practice your calligraphy well."

Yuan Ning had a sore nose, nodded seriously, and ran away holding the pen given by Mr. Zhang.

Mr. Zhang is also very good!

Yuan Ning returned to the room, tried to write two lines with the pen given by Mr. Zhang, and couldn't put it down.He wrote a full page according to Meng Zhao's request, and climbed to bed on time.Although a little excited, he forced himself to sleep.

Otherwise, I won't be able to get up on time tomorrow!

Zhang Xiuyan routinely "patrols the territory" before going to bed, and through the moonlight shining in from outside the gauze curtain, he saw the old pens on the desk.He is the person who goes to Mr. Zhang's study most often in his family, and he immediately recognized that this is Mr. Zhang's favorite one.He glanced at Yuan Ning who was curled up on the bed, walked over, and stretched out his hand to gently correct Yuan Ning's insecure sleeping position.

Yuan Ning hugged his hand.

Zhang Xiuyan swears that if this little stutterer calls him "Mom" again this time, he will definitely throw this little stutterer as far as he can.

Yuan Ning hugged Zhang Xiuyan's firm wrist, feeling certain in his heart, and his small brows relaxed accordingly.He leaned towards Zhang Xiuyan and murmured two words: "Father..."

Zhang Xiuyan: "..."

To shake off or not to shake off, that is the question.

In the end, Zhang Xiuyan still didn't wake Yuan Ning up. He lay down next to Yuan Ning and closed his eyes to rest his mind until Yuan Ning's breathing became gentle and long before he got up and went back to his room.

Yuan Ning turned over and slept peacefully all night with "good dreams".

Early the next morning, Zhang Xiuyan led Yuan Ning to finish the run along the lake, walking back one after the other.Yuan Ning pinched the small towel hanging around his neck, and felt that it seemed strange to be so silent all the way, so he couldn't help shouting: "Big, big brother."

Zhang Xiuyan was used to Yuan Ning's stuttering, so he looked at Yuan Ning and waited for him to continue.

Yuan Ning said, "I had a dream last night!"

Zhang Xiuyan almost staggered.

Zhang Xiu looked at Yuan Ning seriously.

Yuan Ning bravely shared his joy with Zhang Xiuyan: "Dad came to see me in my dream!"

Zhang Xiuyan: "..."

Yuan Ning said: "Mom and Dad must be watching me not far away. I want to grow up and study hard, so as not to let them down."

Seeing Yuan Ning's seriousness, Zhang Xiuyan's mouth moved, but he didn't say anything to correct Yuan Ning.Let him think so!

Zhang Xiuyan said, "It's good if you have the determination."

Yuan Ning nodded vigorously.He grabbed the corner of Zhang Xiuyan's clothes: "I think father and father are very similar!"

Zhang Xiuyan knew Yuan Ning's father.In his opinion, Yuan Ning's father's actions are respectable, but unwise.

With that kind of talent and education, you can give it a try. If you guard a small village, what can you change?It will only waste my knowledge, drag down my family, and finally leave such a young child to die.

Zhang Xiuyan never wanted to train his younger brothers and sisters to be selfless people, let alone instill in them the spirit of dedication.Although Mr. Zhang is too busy to spend time with his family, he will have three meals with his family as long as there is no entertainment, and he will never completely ignore his family because of business affairs—Mr. Zhang is just as inarticulate as he is.

Zhang Xiuyan squatted down in front of Yuan Ning, and looked at Yuan Ning: "Do you want to be that kind of person?" Like his father who left nothing for him?

Yuan Ning was taken aback.He is still too young, and he has never imagined what the "future" will look like, let alone what kind of person he will become when he grows up.

His parents are very good. After their accident, many people cried for them and their eyes were swollen.But he was always mad at them then, and they always had one reason or another for coming back late or not, leaving him at home alone—or sending him to Granny.

He doesn't like grandma's place. The aunt always scolds him, saying he's weird, talking bad about his father, and gossiping about his mother; But he told his parents that he fell by himself.

Yuan Ning has seen her mother carry a child who was injured in the village to treat the wound, and she has also seen her father carry the child with a fever in the village to the town to see a doctor overnight, but he is always accompanied by the big locust tree by the window , sprouts in spring, blooms in summer, leaves in autumn, and leaves bare in winter.

Every day he could see it was different.

Later, someone took a fancy to the big locust tree and said that he was willing to spend money to buy it and give it to Qiancun to repair the school building.

Mom and Dad agreed, and the big locust tree was quickly dug away. He could only lie on the window and stare at the empty ground in a daze, waiting for them to come back.

Does he want to be like that?

Yuan Ning shook his head and said, "I don't want to."

Zhang Xiu looked at him strictly.

Yuan Ning said: "I don't want to be a very powerful person, I just want the people I like to be well and live happily every day." He raised his eyes to look at Zhang Xiuyan's face, fearing that Zhang Xiuyan would Get angry because of your own selfish thoughts, "Brother, brother, is it wrong for me to think so?"

Zhang Xiuyan said: "No, you are right to think so." He stretched out his hand and hugged Yuan Ning, who was dripping with sweat, "Just like I scolded you last time, I didn't tell you not to help others. It’s about measuring your own ability—if you have the energy to help others, you should help.”

Yuan Ning was stunned, and quietly put his arms around Zhang Xiuyan's neck.

Zhang Xiuyan froze.

Yuan Ning buried his head into Zhang Xiuyan's neck, tears streaming down his face.

Zhang Xiuyan hugged Yuan Ning and stood there stiffly.

This little stammer is trouble!

Yuan Ning cried, sobbing and said: "The night before my parents left, I kept crying. My mother said that they would spend a lot of time with me in the future, but the parents of the elder brothers and sisters in the village are not at home all year round. They I can’t ignore it. I’m still making trouble after listening to it, and it took a long time for my mother to coax me to sleep.” He hugged Zhang Xiuyan’s neck tightly and sniffed, “I’ve been thinking, Mom and Dad must be angry with me. Not coming back."

Zhang Xiuyan tightened his arms slightly.

Yuan Ning wiped away tears with the back of his hand, but his voice was still crying: "I am obedient now, and my parents will come back to see me. If they know that I think so, will they be angry with me again?"

Zhang Xiuyan said firmly, "No."

When it comes to spending time with their families, many people always feel that there is still a lot of time——

I always think that there will be many days to be reunited with my family in the future, and I will have a lot of time to spend with my family in the future, so I always focus on my career, love, and ideals in my heart.

If Yuan's parents knew what kind of life their only son lived after their unexpected death, they would definitely regret it?

Regret that Yuan Ning was given so little time, and Yuan Ning was left with so little things—they didn’t even have time to instill their ideals and ideas into Yuan Ning, and they didn’t have time to guide Yuan Ning to think about what he should grow into. what kind of person.

So Yuan Ning faced this vast and strange world alone with a blank heart.

Zhang Xiuyan stretched out his hand and patted Yuan Ning's back, and said slowly, "Believe me, brother, you are right to think so."

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