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Yuan Ning kept the gift until the weekend.It was already late autumn, and the Double Ninth Festival was two weeks away. When Yuan Ning returned home, he bought some kite-making materials, and when he was preparing for the Double Ninth Festival, he and Zhang Xiuyan went to the ranch to fly a kite.After he packed the materials, he saw the gift from Lai An to Zhang Xiuyan.

Thinking of Laian's probing question, Yuan Ning's heart jumped twice, and an inexplicable uneasiness spread in his heart.

The weather in late autumn is very dry, there is not even a cloud in the sky, and the sky is so blue that it stretches as far as the eye can see.Yuan Ning returned home with his things, and saw Zhang Xiuyan sitting there reading a newspaper.Yuan Ning shouted happily: "Brother!"

Zhang Xiuyan looked at Yuan Ning who was carrying a bunch of things, put down the newspaper, and raised his eyebrows: "What are you holding?"

"Some materials for making kites." Yuan Ning reminded Zhang Xiuyan, "Brother promised last time, we will go to the pasture to fly kites together on Chongyang Ninth Festival! It's been a long time since we flew kites together!"

Zhang Xiuyan nodded.

Yuan Ning took the gift left by Lai An to Zhang Xiuyan: "My cousin asked me to bring it, saying that it was a gift prepared in advance for my elder brother."

Zhang Xiuyan frowned, and said, "When did he go looking for you?"

Yuan Ning honestly told Zhang Xiuyan everything Lai An said that day, and even said what Lai An asked if he liked Zhang Xiuyan.He didn't know Ryan's intentions, and he didn't dare to hide a word—that would make him feel guilty!

Zhang Xiuyan finished listening with a sullen face, and then said, "Don't pay attention to anything he said." He didn't expect Mr. Zhang to ask Laian for his opinion when he adopted Yuan Ning.He didn't dare to imagine what would happen to their family if Zhang Xiuming hadn't been found - he admitted that whitewashing peace was not right, but it was "Taiping" after all.Although there is sadness and pain in my heart, life can still go on.Lean maliciously maximized the contradictions and maliciously provoked the conflicts and pains that could have been avoided. Even if life can return to peace again, everything will not be restored to its original state.

Zhang Xiuyan took the gift back to his room and put it away.He took it out again when it was almost bedtime.The gift was well kept by Yuan Ning, and the wrapping paper and bow were still as freshly wrapped.Zhang Xiuyan stared at the bow in his pajamas for a long time, and finally raised his hand to untie it.

Inside is a square box, not very heavy.Zhang Xiuyan hesitated for a moment, and opened the box. Soon, rows of weird small square boxes of different sizes appeared in front of Zhang Xiuyan.Zhang Xiuyan picked it up and took a look, feeling a little hot in his hands.Condoms!This kind of thing is not popular in China, but Zhang Xiuyan has seen it before - it's all thanks to Luan Jia!

That damn bastard!It really is an "adult gift"!

Zhang Xiuyan threw away the small square box in his hand like an electric shock.

His puberty has come to an end, but he has never been tempted by a girl, nor has he experienced the so-called youthful impulsiveness, occasional erection or nocturnal emission in the morning, but he has studied physiological knowledge long ago and knows that this is a normal physiological phenomenon. So there was never a big fuss.

Zhang Xiuyan calmed down.He didn't think it was Ryan's style.Such a "normal" gift doesn't seem like Ryan would give it away at all.Did Ryan think he would be intimidated by this big box of condoms?

Zhang Xiuyan held the box in front of him.Soon, he found a sketchbook hidden under the neatly stacked condoms.

Zhang Xiuyan's heart beat violently.He remembered that Ryan was very good at sketching, even if he only listened to other people's descriptions, he could restore the scene at that time.What is painted here?Zhang Xiuyan feels that once the sketchbook is opened, something very bad will happen.

Zhang Xiuyan put down the sketchbook.He carefully recalled what Yuan Ning said just now.Is that really all that Laian said to Yuan Ning?Ryan deliberately went to find Yuan Ning, in order to tell Yuan Ning the final verdict and why Mr. Zhang was asked to adopt him in the first place?

No, it's not like something Ryan would do.Ryan only saw Yuan Ning once, and would not think of Yuan Ning as "you must tell him these things" or "you must go see him"—let alone ask Yuan Ning to give him a "birthday gift".

Zhang Xiuyan felt as if he had returned to several years ago.At that time, he also had such hesitation—he wanted to find out the root of his pain, but he was unwilling to face the longing and unwillingness hidden deep in his heart.In the end, he was pushed behind by Ryan, tearing apart all the superficial peace, and seeing the most ferocious and naked side of reality.

Facing the magic box in front of us, people can't help but want to open it.

Zhang Xiuyan couldn't bear the existence of "uncertainty".He picked up the sketchbook and opened the first page.

When he saw the picture clearly drawn on it, Zhang Xiuyan threw it away like an electric shock.He has seen such a scene—he has seen it in a dream.The teenage boy was sitting beside him, sleeping soundly on the table, sleeping so soundly that he couldn't bear to wake him up.

It was a dream he buried deep in his heart, and he never told anyone.that devil!That damned demon!

The sketchbook fell to the ground, was gently blown by the wind, and turned to the next few pages.Zhang Xiuyan's heartbeat calmed down a little, and his eyes were caught by the things painted on it.

That is young, young, naked, nude——

Zhang Xiuyan picked up the sketchbook, tore off the pages with drawings, tore them into pieces one by one, and threw them into the trash can together with the condoms.After doing these things, the pictures on the paintings did not leave his mind, but became clearer.

Zhang Xiuyan sat alone until the middle of the night, until he could hardly keep his eyes open, and then he lay down on the bed and went to sleep.Since he stayed up all night, he didn't have any dreams, and slept until dawn.

Zhang Xiuyan was awakened by knocking on the door.He looked at the window with the curtains drawn, and saw bright light coming in from the outside.Condoms, sketchbooks, naked teenagers—his good memory is doing its damned good job here, bringing back everything he saw last night.

"Brother!" Yuan Ning's voice came from outside the door.That voice was still childish, far from the boy he had dreamed of.Even if it is, Yuan Ning is still his younger brother, a younger brother who gets along day and night.

Zhang Xiuyan had a splitting headache, as if he heard a gunshot echoing in his mind.A beast like Jaswin should be shot.It is even more unforgivable to have such thoughts for a child who is defenseless against himself!

That's not normal.

No, not right.Zhang Xiuyan pulled back his thoughts.Nothing abnormal.He didn't have that kind of thought at all, it was Ryan who was maliciously leading him to think that way.This is Ryan's best trick, even if you only have one or two thoughts in your heart, he will amplify it to ten or twenty.

So, nothing abnormal.

Zhang Xiuyan said, "Come in."

It was naturally Yuan Ning who knocked on the door.He looked at Zhang Xiuyan with concern: "Brother, aren't you going for a run today?" Although the weather was already a bit cold, he still wanted to go out to exercise with his brother!

Facing Yuan Ning's concerned gaze, Zhang Xiuyan's heart seemed to be burned.He shook his head and said, "I won't go today, you can go by yourself."

Yuan Ning ran over, his face full of worry: "Brother, are you feeling well?" As he spoke, he was about to reach out to touch Zhang Xiuyan's forehead.

Even before Yuan Ning's hand touched it, Zhang Xiuyan could still feel the warm temperature above.Warm, soft palms——

Zhang Xiuyan subconsciously avoided Yuan Ning's approach.

The atmosphere suddenly stagnated.

Yuan Ning's heart beat like a drum.He looked at Zhang Xiuyan and found that there was an unnatural dodge on Zhang Xiuyan's face.Yuan Ning remembered what Ryan said that day, when a person is guilty, even if he doesn’t say anything, his eyes, his skin—his upper and lower limbs, his ears, his mouth—all can speak .

Brother found out!Brother must have found something!

The eldest brother must hate him, the eldest brother hates disobedient children the most—I hate bad children who want more when everyone is already good——

Yuan Ning took two steps back and kicked the wastebasket aside.He saw the gift wrap inside, the messy sketch paper and Ryan's "adult gift."Yuan Ning didn't have time to take a closer look, his mouth was pulled by his stiff head and he said stiff words: "Then I'm going for a run, brother, if you feel unwell, you should take a good rest."

Zhang Xiuyan regained his composure, nodded, and said, "Go."

Yuan Ning ran out of the house, only to see that the flowers on the side of the road were frozen by frost and looked wilted.Autumn is here, and everyone is not very energetic. The leaves are falling, the flowers are wilting, and the small animals are gradually disappearing. They are all preparing to hide for the long winter.

If you don't store enough food and fat to survive the cold winter, you will freeze to death.The same is true for human feelings. If it doesn't happen when you have the ability to protect it and manage it, then it is doomed to die halfway, and it will never blossom and bear fruit.

Yuan Ning took a deep breath and ran forward along the familiar sidewalk.I met many old acquaintances along the way, and they were all asking: "Hey, Ningning is back?"

Yuan Ning answered one by one, and ran forward, a little absent-minded, almost fell down.He stabilized his mind and ran three times around the lake. His legs were sore and numb before he walked back.When he walked to the door of the villa not far from home, Yuan Ning heard a sharp horn.He looked up and found a child standing on the slope in front of him in a daze, watching a car rushing towards him, but he didn't know how to dodge it!

The driver was also in a hurry, and he couldn't stop the car going down even if he stepped on the brakes.

Yuan Ning was stunned for a moment, then rushed over without thinking, and took the child aside in his arms.They both fell to the side, and Yuan Ning's right arm was bruised.

The sound of sharp brakes rang in Yuan Ning's ears. Yuan Ning turned his head and saw that the car stopped at the position where the child was standing just now, and even rolled forward for a while.If the child has been standing still, I am afraid that it has been read in the past!

The driver hurriedly got out of the car to check, and asked in shock, "Are you okay, child? What's the matter with this child? I kept honking my horn and didn't hide. It would have been terrible if you hadn't taken him aside."

Yuan Ning's right arm was in hot pain, but he shook his head and said, "I'm fine. This kid seems to live in front, let's send him back."

The driver drives the residents here, and he often goes in and out of here. After Yuan Ning said, he also recognized the dazed child.They sent the child to the villa in front, and a woman who looked like a nanny came out anxiously.The moment she saw the child, the woman's panicked expression eased a little. She stepped forward and grabbed the child and said, "Oh my little ancestor, why did you run out by yourself? It scared me to death!"

The driver told the woman what happened just now.The woman repeatedly apologized to Yuan Ning, and said: "This child is a little different from ordinary children. He has never opened the door. I didn't expect him to come out just as soon as I turned around. I searched for a long time before I realized that he might be outside. .Son, are you okay? Are you injured?"

Yuan Ning shook his head, said goodbye to the other party, and walked home alone.He had already recognized it just now, and that was a child he knew. He was Shen Jingjing's younger brother. He was diagnosed with autism since he was a child, and he never recovered after seeing many doctors.

There are too many misfortunes in this world, compared to how lucky he is.He has a healthy body, a family who loves him, and many good teachers and friends.So a little bit sad, so little miss, is simply insignificant.He will meet many, many people in the future, and maybe he will like another person-or a girl, or a boy.As he has always known clearly, he and his eldest brother will each have their own families, each with their own directions and futures.

So, there's nothing wrong with elder brother knowing - it's okay for elder brother to hate him.

Compared with his poor self-control, the eldest brother must be much better than him. In the future, he will go home less frequently, and the number of words that the eldest brother will go home will be less, and the inexplicable but deep-rooted dependence and longing will gradually fade away.

Yuan Ning calmed down, opened the door and walked into the house.He felt pain in his right arm, so he ran to find some medicine to apply.It's just an injury on his arm, and it's not easy for him to apply it himself.

At this time Zhang Xiuwen got up and came downstairs.

Yuan Ning hurriedly asked Zhang Xiuwen for help: "Third brother, can you help me disinfect the wound and apply some medicine?"

Zhang Xiuwen came over with concern and asked him how he was hurt.

Yuan Ning explained the accident just now in detail.Zhang Xiuwen rubbed Yuan Ning's head helplessly: "You can encounter this kind of thing every step of the way, and there is no one else but you." He has already given up letting Yuan Ning take care of these things, after all, Yuan Ning will definitely not listen to persuasion .

Zhang Xiuwen pulled Yuan Ning back to the room and asked Yuan Ning to take off his coat and top.The room was relatively warm, and Yuan Ning didn't feel cold after closing the doors and windows tightly, so he obeyed obediently.Because it took some time to send the child home just now, some of the oozing blood has clotted on the wound, sticking the wound and the clothes together, and the burning pain when taking off the clothes is stronger than when it was just injured.

Yuan Ning's little face was wrinkled, and she was about to cry.

Zhang Xiuwen looked distressed, but he still ruthlessly helped Yuan Ning clean up the wound, saying in his mouth: "I told you to be a hero. At such a young age, such things always happen to me."

"It's not that I met it on purpose," Yuan Ning couldn't help crying out, "I can't just leave it alone."

"Be patient, it will hurt." Zhang Xiuwen dipped a cotton swab in disinfectant and carefully treated the wound on Yuan Ning's right arm.As soon as the disinfectant water touched the wound, many tiny white bubbles appeared. Yuan Ning felt that his right arm seemed to be on fire, and it was smoking.

Yuan Ning felt sad, his wound hurt, and tears fell down his face.Zhang Xiuwen looked worried, but he didn't stop, but accelerated the speed of applying disinfectant.He said: "The eyes will be swollen from crying later, brother should suspect that I am bullying you!"

Yuan Ning's tears fell even more fiercely.

After Zhang Xiuwen sterilized the wound, he helped Yuan Ning apply a refreshing lotion.The burning pain on the wound gradually faded away, and Yuan Ning's tears slowly stopped.After crying hard, Yuan Ning's nose was still sore, but she didn't seem so sad in her heart.He has already entered junior high school, he has to study hard and take the university entrance exam. He made an appointment with Yuan Bo early on, and they want to take the Capital University entrance examination together!

Yuan Ning put away the worn clothes just now, changed into clothes, and went downstairs to have breakfast with Zhang Xiuwen.Zhang Xiuyan was already eating. Seeing that Yuan Ning had changed into a suit of clothes, his eyes were still red, and he frowned.Wanting to ask Yuan Ning what's wrong, he opened his mouth, but couldn't speak.

Zhang Xiuwen was used to Zhang Xiuyan's sullen face, so he didn't think there was anything wrong, so he took the initiative to tell Zhang Xiuyan about Yuan Ning's injury.

Zhang Xiuyan put down the milk in his hand.He asked, "Is it serious? Do you want to call Dr. Sun over to take a look?"

Yuan Ning said: "Third brother has already helped me treat the wound, and it should be fine."

Zhang Xiuyan didn't say much, and went out after breakfast, as if he had something urgent to do.Yuan Ning slowly finished his breakfast with his left hand, feeling like chewing wax, he couldn't taste any taste.After he finished his breakfast, the doorbell rang, and it turned out that Dr. Sun was found by Zhang Xiuyan.

Yuan Ning froze for a moment, feeling warm and astringent in his heart.Even though the eldest brother found out about his terrible thoughts, he still cared about him so much.Why is he sad!Didn't you decide long ago to forget about that thought?It was decided long ago, big brother will always be big brother!

Yuan Ning obediently asked Dr. Sun to show her wound.

Dr. Sun said: "There is no muscle or bone injury, it's just skin trauma. It's okay. You have taken care of it well. I'll give you some new disinfectant and medicine, and you can take it to the school for someone to give you medicine." "

Yuan Ning thanked Dr. Sun: "Thank you Uncle Sun!"

"Thank you, I have a high salary." Dr. Sun said a joke, and laughed himself first, "Only when you are sick, your elder brother will be anxious to dig me out of the bed. It all sounds different!"

"I think the tone of the eldest brother will always be the same," Zhang Xiuwen interjected with admiration, "I really don't understand how you can tell the difference."

Dr. Sun said: "You can hear it if you carefully distinguish it."

"Forget it." Zhang Xiuwen shook his head hastily, "When I heard the voice of my eldest brother, my scalp became numb, and I felt that his next sentence should teach me a lesson! It's just a childhood shadow!"

Yuan Ning also smiled, but the smile disappeared once it reached his lips.Their childhood is over, they have to learn to grow up!

For the next two weeks, both Yuan Ning and Zhang Xiuyan had something to do and didn't go home.The school student union decided to organize old and new members to go climbing in Chongyang to make contact with each other. Yuan Ning called home and told about this, and began to prepare for climbing and camping with others.It is worth mentioning that although Du Xiaojie and Zhou Yulin expressed no interest in joining the student union at the beginning, they still couldn't resist Yuan Ning and Song Xingchen's instigation to join in.

On the day of the Double Ninth Festival, a group of students from the Student Union arrived at the gathering place early. Some carried tents, some carried picnic gear, and happily set off towards the selected mountain.They are all teenagers, with smiles on their faces, as if they are not going on an autumn tour, but to conquer the world.

He decided to stay on the top of the mountain for one night to watch the sunrise, so he chose a mountain near the urban area with patrolmen guarding the top of the mountain.A group of people ran and stopped, breathing more and more fresh air, and felt that their entire chest was opened, and it was full of joy.

It’s great to get out for a walk once in a while!

Yuan Ning hung the camera around his neck, snapping pictures of everyone.In the evening, the top of the mountain was a bit cool. After the picnic, they got into the tent in twos and threes to talk, play chess, cards, and games, and relax thoroughly.In the middle of the night, Yuan Ning quietly walked out of the tent and looked at the starry sky in autumn, feeling that the stars were so bright that he couldn't take his eyes off them.The patrol booth in the distance is lit, and there are small moths flying under the lights, as if they are looking for a suitable angle to jump towards the bright light in front of them.Some moths bumped against the hot lampshade one after another until they fell straight to the ground before giving up.

Yuan Ning felt sleepy and got into the tent.He and Zhou Yulin squeezed into a tent, Zhou Yulin was reading a book there, saw him come in, put down the book, and lay down to sleep.

Yuan Ning fell asleep in a daze without dreaming.Before dawn the next day, Senior Brother You's voice rang outside, loud and energetic: "Get up, get up! Otherwise, you will miss the sunrise! Get up, get up! Don't come in vain!"

Yuan Ning got up quickly, tidied himself up, and walked out of the tent to see that the mountains in the distance were faintly white.He ran to Senior Brother You, leaned on the railing and looked at the sleeping world without blinking.

After a while, the warm sunlight emerged from the bottom of the mountain, and the light clouds floating on the mountain were a little golden and a little crimson, like the shy cheeks of a young girl.Then the mountains lit up, the forests lit up, and so did the rivers and rivers, as if someone had lit up all the lights on the earth in an instant, making the whole world bright and warm!

Everyone was attracted by the change that happened in an instant, and no one opened their mouths to say a word.

The melancholy in Yuan Ning's heart seemed to be completely taken away by the breathtaking beauty of the sunrise.

There are so many beautiful and beautiful things in this world!

The author has something to say:

Brother: That year we agreed to fly a kite together...

Ningning: _(:з」∠)_