When the fierce and foolish meet the pure fishing system

Luo Yunting lowered his head, he could see the white and fragile neck of this man, the ears under the black broken hair, and the drooping eyelashes, he couldn't see Luo Yunting's expression clearly, but he seemed to be able to feel it. People's uneasiness.

This is the first time Luo Yunting told him about these things. This person used to look like he could do everything well, and nothing troubled him. He would not pay attention to these things, because these things are important to him , are trivial and easy.

Luo Yunting has never shown such an appearance in front of him. Luo Yunting is intelligent, indifferent, indifferent, and ignoring world affairs.He has his own world, so he doesn't care about outside things, although he can do everything well, let everyone praise him and think he is a perfect person.

But now, this person suddenly showed his fragile appearance.

why?Luo Yunting is the closest to perfect person He Feng has ever seen.As soon as he saw Luo Yunting, he felt that this person was the one he liked.But, what kind of appearance does Xi Yu like?Is it the perfect Luoyun Pavilion?Is it him who has a sense of distance?Is it him who seems omnipotent?Or is it the fragile and insecure him in front of me now?

He stared at Luo Yunting, and suddenly remembered how he was when he saw this person for the first time.

During the sports meeting, the sun makes people's eyes turn white, the hot wind floats, and the smell of summer can be smelled everywhere.Luo Yunting sat in the last row of the playground stands, plugged in headphones, closed his eyes and fell into a light sleep, the sun lingered on his dark hair and fair face, quiet and uncontested - that's what He Feng had seen The most beautiful picture.

At that time he knew nothing about this person, he didn't know who this person was, he didn't know his name, he didn't know his character, he didn't even know what this person looked like when he opened his eyes, he didn't know what he looked like when he smiled He doesn't know his appearance, but he doesn't know his voice... He doesn't know anything, but he knows that his heart is moved.

From then on, a person lived in his heart.What about his life?It seems that there is something more, and it seems that something is missing.With the presence of one more person, he will always pay attention to this person, and at the same time examine himself. The two figures of himself and this person become clear in his heart.He cared about Luo Yunting's every word and deed, and at the same time he cared about his own, his life seemed to be occupied by these things.

However, he felt more and more alone.He still likes to lie on the table and listen to the birdsong outside the window as before, he still likes to go to class and sleep, he still likes the afternoon sun, he still likes the warm wind, he still likes the sand scorched by the sun, he likes The rustling sound of leaves when the wind blows, I like the way the shadows of flowers and trees fall on the ground... But it is different. Before, there was nothing in his heart, neither joy nor sorrow, neither sensibility nor emotion. irrational.

What now?When he didn't confess his love to Luo Yunting, when he didn't have that kiss under the starry sky corridor, his heart was sweet and sad, like honey sprinkled in his heart, but there were ants gnawing on it.It's sad, painful, worrying, melancholy, hesitant, timid, stubborn...but I only need to see this person every day, no, as long as I think of him, I feel a sense of emptiness. Fulfillment - is he talking nonsense?In fact, this is not contradictory. He clearly knows that everything is not moving forward. He clearly knows that these are his own thoughts, but he feels that he seems to have obtained something precious. It seems that as long as he has this thing, Nothing else matters.

After being together, there are actually some changes.He wished to be with Luo Yunting all the time, to hold this person's hand all the time—that is, to have a desire to be skin-to-skin.This kind of desire is different from those deeper and more superficial things. He just wants to be with this person, he just wants to hug him, and hopes to have no distance from him.

But Luo Yunting didn't want to do this - he was never afraid of anything, but Luo Yunting was not.In fact, in He Feng's subconscious mind, Luo Yunting is the same person as himself, the same indifference, the same arrogance, and the same does not belong to this world-so, Luo Yunting should not be afraid of anything, Luo Yunting should not You should care about other people's eyes, and you shouldn't care about other people's gossip, just like He Feng doesn't care about other people's bad words, nor does he care about other people's blessings.

But Luo Yunting cares.

This person is actually different from what he imagined.

Sometimes, this person is braver and more active than he imagined, and sometimes, this person is more fragile than he imagined; he often feels that Luo Yunting is lonely, but in fact this person is always surrounded by many people, He thought that this person would not care about other people's eyes, but in fact he did, Luo Yunting told him that in his heart he was not as indifferent as standing in front of others, he was afraid of many things, he was cowardly and timid.He told himself that he has done a lot of things well, not just being able to make everyone amazed and envied casually as everyone seems to do, in fact, he has put in a lot of hard work.

Is this Luo Yunting that He Feng likes?

Yes.

He likes him.In other words, he couldn't help but like him.

So what does he like about Luo Yunting?He couldn't tell.

He once said that he likes this person's appearance - this person's tall and thin figure, beautiful face, fair skin, jet black hair, intoxicating eyebrows... But it's too thin to say it like this, a little Not enough to describe his mood.But if it is said that he likes this person's character, it seems wrong, because Luo Yunting's character is shaped by this person himself, not what he imagined - there is a gap between the two.

Like a person, there is no way to disassemble this person into individual elements, I like this element, that element, the weight of the elements I like is greater than the weight of the elements I don’t like, so I like you, I like you The weight of the elements accounts for 80.00% of the total elements, so I like you very much, I like every element you split, so you are the one I would naturally like...

This is not right.

To like a person is to like the whole person.There is no way for people to disassemble it.

When He Feng saw Luo Yunting's sleeping figure sitting behind the stands, seeing him sitting under the cherry blossom tree with his eyes closed, feeling the warmth in his coat, looking at his own reflection in his eyes, breathing When he smelled the breath on his body, He Feng knew that he liked this person, to the point of losing himself, to the point of becoming more lonely, and to the point of pain.

Even when he got him, he remained blue.

But what is he worrying about?

He doesn't know either—that's how young people's emotions are, like a young trapped animal, struggling to find a way out, but in fact, all the webs are woven by himself, and he is unwilling to stay in the maze. Get out—and pretend to be trying to find an exit.

So, no matter what, it's painful.

Even if there is nothing to worry about, even if there is nothing to worry about, even if you get everything you want, it is still painful.

Teenagers are probably different from adults.Unlike the young man who has a wonderful thing which he loses with age-so that whatever he gains he is confused and miserable; grown-ups are different-they have lost this wonderful thing long ago. things, and all the pain has healed itself, so they seem to be sensitive, but in fact they are dull, their pain is pure—pain because they can’t get what they want, this pain can be cured as long as they get it up.

This kind of strange thing only appears when you start to like someone, and you will realize its loss.So when you like someone, you will be more lonely and painful.

Such a wonderful thing?

He Feng didn't know what it was, and he didn't know if others had it. He guessed that most people would have it.

He knew he was having it and was losing it.

Seeing Luo Yunting's disappointed look, he stretched out his hand to touch the man's face, then leaned down, lifted his chin, and kissed his forehead—a light kiss, and quickly let go .He held Luo Yunting's hand, turned around, and continued upstairs with this person one after the other.

He could feel the momentary stiffness of this person when he kissed Luo Yunting's forehead, and he hesitated when he took this person's hand - but Luo Yunting did not say anything after all, nor did he break free from his grip. hand.

When you reach the third floor, turn left from the stairs and go straight to the end. There is a bathroom. There is a side staircase at the door of the bathroom. It is more convenient to go up and down from here—but He Feng seldom goes here. He likes to go to the middle of the building. Spiral stairs, because romance?Nope, just like it.

The bathroom is very bright, the tiles are white and reflective, and the lights are a bit dazzling.

The location inside the cubicle is not spacious, so they locked the door of the bathroom, and changed clothes beside the sink without entering the cubicle.

Luo Yunting turned his back and walked to the position by the door.He also carried it on his back, and walked to a position near the sink.

He took off his clothes very quickly, and heard rustling sounds behind him, Luo Yunting was also taking off his clothes - this sound made his heart itch, he wanted to turn around, but he restrained himself, he knew it was impossible .

Luo Yunting was unwilling.

There was a mirror on the wall of the washbasin. He didn't notice it at first, but he glanced at it inadvertently, but saw the figure with his back facing him in the mirror.He saw Luo Yunting's white back.

His mind was flustered all of a sudden, and he quickly looked away.He felt his heart beating wildly.

The light above the sink was a little harsh, and he couldn't look into the mirror, nor could he face the direction of Luo Yunting, so the space he faced was relatively narrow.There is a pleasant smell in the air, the smell of mosquito coils specially placed in the bathroom, this smell is not strong, it is faint and wafts in the air.

He tried to focus on the silly dinosaur suit in his hand. This dinosaur suit is not thin, and it is filled with cotton so that the clothes can stand up and look like a dinosaur. It is a bit like pajamas, but more like The doll in the shape of an animal in the playground, except that he can show his face and limbs.

He was trying to open the zipper on the side of his clothes, when Luo Yunting suddenly called him softly: "He Feng."

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