waiting in time

Li Yue walked out with Kang Ning in his arms. The night was dark, and there was no one on the street. Occasionally, a car roared by on the street.

Kang Ning nestled in Li Yue's arms, looked at him, relied on him and trusted him wholeheartedly.Li Yue's young body showed the outline of a grown man, which made Kang Ning feel at ease from the bottom of his heart.Kang Ning, who walked out of this bar, did not dare to trust anyone, and gave all his erratic feelings of belonging to Li Yue, and placed them on Li Yue alone.

Li Yue stopped a taxi and sat in with Kang Ning in his arms.The taxi driver looked at the two of them with strange eyes, a little hesitant, and didn't want to pull them.

"He was drunk," Li Yue said.

"Get in the car" the driver said immediately, "You are young, if you don't learn well, drinking will hurt your health"

Li Yue hugged Kang Ning and did not speak. The colorful neon lights outside were reflected on Li Yue's face from the glass window. The beast in my heart is soothed, calmed down, quiet and harmless.

Li Yue went home with Kang Ning in his arms, and walked on the familiar alley, the short alley, as if he had gone through a long life, those crazy, sad and desperate times will never return, Li Yue took Kang Ning Then he came back.

Li Yue put Kang Ning on his bed, Kang Ning slept soundly, he seemed to feel relieved all of a sudden, he slept in a dark, ignorant, and could not be woken up by any noise, he closed his beautiful and lively peach blossom eyes, The whole person looked quiet and well-behaved on the bed. Li Yue grabbed Kang Ning's hand and looked at him without blinking. Tears suddenly flowed from his eyes and hit Kang Ning's cheek. Kang Ning fell asleep ignorantly, nothing I know, Li Yue cried sadly, hesitating for his cowardice, letting go of his anger for a moment, because he couldn't let go of face and let Kang Ning get hurt, crying for Kang Ning, Kang Ning's pain, for what Kang Ning experienced at a young age All the pain, until seeing Kang Ning again, until seeing Kang Ning safe and sound from the bar, until Kang Ning was lying in his arms, sleeping deeply in his arms, Li Yue suddenly understood that he cared about Kang Ning so much, Kang Ning was in pain Yes, he is in pain, Kang Ning is injured, he is also injured, the bond between two people is so deep, how can they let go of each other's hands so easily, let go of each other, let one person sink in the mud and suffer all kinds of suffering.

Kang Ning didn't know anything. When he woke up, it was already daylight, and the room was empty. Li Yue didn't know where he was.Kang Ning slept comfortably, lying on the quilt, feeling at ease, there was Li Yue's breath in the room, Kang Ning felt as if Li Yue was beside him, Kang Ning lay softly on the bed, opened his eyes in a daze, looking at the ceiling on the wall , Everything yesterday is like a passing cloud, the most important thing is to grasp the present moment.Kang Ning has gone through everything, and now he is calm. Looking back at the past, he feels that his former self was wrong from the very beginning, and his parents divorced. He has done a lot of wrong things, but now that he thinks about it, his parents just gave birth to him and raised him, and they didn’t take the obligation of a lifetime of happiness for themselves. They also have their own pursuits and their own lives, and he shouldn’t force them or take their own destiny To bet on the unbearableness of parents.He was wrong, completely wrong, hurt his father, hurt his mother, and hurt Li Yue even more. He could see that the sadness in the corners of Li Yue's eyes and brows was all because of himself.Corning sighed softly.

Li Yue walked in, saw Kang Ning's eyes open, and said, "Are you awake?"

"Yeah," Kang Ning said lightly, with a calm expression.

Li Yue looked at Kang Ning and sat beside him, stroking Kang Ning's hair with one hand. Kang Ning narrowed his eyes. After what happened to Wang Jun, he suddenly became sensitive to the intimacy between men. He felt disgusted by all of Jun's physical contact with him, but he didn't find it strange or sensitive to Li Yue's intimacy with him. He just felt comfortable and safe. Maybe it was because they grew up together. The physical contact between them is so natural, and Li Yue's care and love for him is clearly expressed from these body parts, which makes him feel warm.

"Corning" Li Yue called softly.

"Hmm..." Kang Ning was drowsy, squinting his eyes.

Li Yue looked at Kang Ning and stopped talking.

Kang Ning suddenly hugged Li Yue's waist, leaned into Li Yue's arms, and whispered, "Li Yue, I was wrong"

Li Yue stroked Kang Ning's hair, one by one, the smooth and soft hair slipped away from his fingertips.

"Just change it," Li Yue said softly.

"What if I keep making mistakes?" Kang Ning asked.

"You will change it," Li Yue said firmly.

"Oh." Kang Ning stopped talking.

"You have suffered," Li Yue said pitifully.

"I deserve it. I have hurt many people and done many things wrong," Kang Ning said apologetically.

"They hurt you, you are just fighting back," Li Yue said.

"Wrong is wrong," Kang Ning said stubbornly.

"Well," Li Yue responded softly. Li Yue disagreed that Kang Ning was wrong. He felt that Kang Ning's parents' inappropriate actions had hurt Kang Ning. All of Kang Ning's actions were just a child showing his existence to his parents in his own way, demanding Parents valued themselves, but Kang Ning's mother took a laissez-faire attitude towards all of Kang Ning's behaviors out of guilt for Kang Ning. Kang Ning's father took care of him for a while, and then left. It's because the two parents didn't fully fulfill their parental responsibilities. If his mother was stronger and his father stayed by Kang Ning's side at this time, all of Kang Ning's behaviors might be restrained, and he wouldn't suffer from things in the bar in the future, but Everything can't be repeated. Now Kang Ning is fine and has not suffered any substantial harm. This is the best ending. The wound in Kang Ning's heart will heal slowly in the days to come.

"What should I do now?" Kang Ning said a little confused.

"Keep reading," Li Yue said.

"However, my high school test scores this year are not ideal, only more than 200 points, such scores can only be admitted to vocational schools," Kang Ning said with some uncertainty.

"Repeat your studies, you can't enter the middle school," Li Yue said firmly.

"It seems like this is the only way to go. I will never be able to keep up with you when I enter the middle school. You will get farther and farther away, and finally leave me behind." Kang Ning was a little sad. Slow down, he will go far, but if Li Yue is more ordinary, more ordinary, this is not the Li Yue I have been looking up to and following, he naturally likes the strong.

"I won't abandon you," Li Yue said.

"Yes," Kang Ning said sadly.

"Just try to chase me," Li Yue said.

"What should I do if I can't catch up?" Kang Ning blinked at Li Yue and said.

"I'll wait for you right here," Li Yue said.

Kang Ning laughed, and the smile bloomed like a flower petal, "Okay, you must wait for me, I will definitely catch up with you"

Li Yue looked at Kang Ning who was smiling, and smiled himself.

Kang Ning went back after having dinner at Li Yue's house. Li Yue wanted to follow him and stay with him, but Kang Ning refused. Some things had to be faced by himself, and no one else could replace them.

Kang Ning walked into the small courtyard of her own house, it was still the same courtyard, nothing had changed, Zhang Ailian was at home, had just had dinner, and was about to go out, when she looked up she saw Kang Ning walking into the courtyard, she walked out happily, tenderly "Ningning, are you back?"

"Mom, I'm back," Kang Ning said gently.

Zhang Ailian was happy to see, the old Kang Ning came back again,

"Mom is going to cook for you." Zhang Ailian turned and went into the kitchen, quietly wiping away the tears from the corners of her eyes with one hand.

"Mom, I ate at Li Yue's," Kang Ning said with a smile.

"Oh, you're at Li Yue's house? You and Li Yue have reconciled," Zhang Ailian said happily.

"Yeah..." Kang Ning looked at his mother who couldn't laugh or cry, and felt a little moved.

"Okay, hehe... Li Yue is a good boy. Mom is happy that you follow him. Those friends of yours in the past were all gangsters in society. They are too unseemly. They will spoil you."

"Mom, I have cut off contact with them," Kang Ning said with a smile.

"Mom is so happy." Zhang Ailian looked at Kang Ning, really happy, Kang Ning changed, changed for the better.

"Come in quickly." Zhang Ailian came over to hold Kang Ning's hand, and Kang Ning let Zhang Ailian hold her. Zhang Ailian looked at Kang Ning excitedly. Kang Ning was thin and haggard, but in good spirits.

"Mom, I'm sorry, I made you worry about it a while ago." Kang Ning looked at Zhang Ailian. In the past year, he was not the only one who suffered, as did his mother. Zhang Ailian was obviously old. There are a few strands of white hair hidden in the meticulous hair.

"As long as you are well, it doesn't matter what happens to your mother, it's just that you suffer, and it's your mother who is sorry for you." Zhang Ailian looked at Kang Ning apologetically.

"No, Mom, you are fine. Everyone has the right to pursue happiness. I shouldn't force you to be with Dad. This will hurt both of you," Kang Ning said.

Zhang Ailian burst into tears, Kang Ning panicked, hugged Zhang Ailian, and said, "Mom, don't cry."

"Ning Ning, grown up and sensible, mother is happy, really happy, mother has always felt sorry for you, now hearing you say this, mother is satisfied." Zhang Ailian snuggled into Kang Ning's arms. The boy's shoulders were still small, but Solid and steady, Zhang Ailian felt gratified that her son had really grown up and was able to take on things.

For the first time, "Mom" Kang Ning felt that his mother was really old and needed him to take care of him. He grew up and his mother was old.

Zhang Ailian did not go out, she stayed at home with Kang Ning, asked some things about Kang Ning outside, Kang Ning picked up some interesting things and told Zhang Ailian, Zhang Ailian heard it interesting, and laughed happily, mother and son were talking intimately, heartfelt Closely next to each other, as if returning to Kang Ning's youthful time, so beautiful and intimate.

Zhang Ailian arranged a table of dishes for Kang Ning, and Kang Ning said, "Mom, call uncle over and let's have dinner together."

Zhang Ailian's happy expression froze on her face, she seemed a little uncomfortable, and said, "Why did you call him here, you finally came back, let's have a good talk, as long as we are good."

"Mom, go call him, I want to meet him, I want to see if my mother will be happy with this person," Kang Ning said.

"You are still young, what will you look at?" Zhang Ailian said indifferently, Zhang Ailian refused, but she was still worried, worried that her son would feel embarrassed seeing that man, but the first time her son mentioned her lover, she was not angry and had a calm expression Zhang Ailian was happy that her son was finally able to accept her significant other. Although they were embarrassed at the beginning, she was having an extramarital affair, but she was happy to be recognized by her son.

"Mom, I want to see him, you go and call him" Kang Ning insisted, Zhang Ailian thought that the two would meet eventually, and she couldn't afford to wait anymore, she and Kang Dong had been divorced for a year, Guo Quan kept urging her to move out, the two Living together and getting married, she kept refusing because she was worried about Kang Ning. Now Kang Ning insisted, Zhang Ailian agreed and said, "I'll call him." She hid in the room and called her son to talk about this topic. Zhang Ailian still felt a little unnatural.

Kang Ning was alone in the living room, watching TV. He didn't know what was on the TV. He was in a trance with a lot of thoughts. He knew that he had to take this step, fulfill his mother, liberate everyone, and don't trap his parents in the A circle surrounded by guilt, but he has perfected everyone, who will perfect him?He is still young.

Zhang Ailian stayed in the room for a long time, and when she came out, she looked cramped and said, "he will come."

"Well" Kang Ning responded and stopped talking. The happy atmosphere of mother and child in the room suddenly cooled down and became awkward. Zhang Ailian suddenly felt sad. Her son was not sensible, and she was sad. Choosing between her own happiness and her son's happiness, she chose her own happiness, she chose between her son and a man, she gave up her son, thinking about it, long ago, when she made these decisions , she has already lost the qualifications to be a mother, she is too selfish, she only thinks about her own happiness, not her son's happiness, she is a failed mother.