little turtle in the reeds

Seeing Xu Yiran staring in a daze, Yuan Ye grabbed Xu Yiran's bangs in a tricky way: "You haven't woken up yet?"

Xu Yiran was too dull, until his head was shaken by him, he didn't think of self-defense, as soon as he stepped back, he wanted to close the door and retract into his turtle shell.But Yuan Ye had sharp eyes and quick hands, stepped forward, grabbed his shoulders, and put his body against the door, not allowing him to hide, and declared with a merciful look: "Forget it, you are pitiful, the punishment is owed first." , let’s go to have breakfast.”

Unexpectedly, Xu Yiran was not only ungrateful, but also dared to grab the door frame and shake his head, silently rejecting him.

Yuan Ye didn't talk nonsense with him, he refused to leave, well, he let go of his hand neatly, kicked the door panel, leaving a shoe print on it, clearly intending to threaten people with force.

However, Xu Yiran seemed to be a different person, he didn't let go of his hand, and boldly fought for his own rights: "Comb, hair."

Yuan Ye was taken aback, looked at Xu Yiran's hair, and then remembered that just now he pulled Xu Yiran's bangs and messed up his hair.

The little turtle is very principled.

When Yuan Ye thought about it, Xu Yiran let out a sigh of relief, and suddenly his reaction became quicker. He turned around and ran to the bathroom. After two or three steps, he was dragged by his back clothes. The collar dragged away.

Yuan Ye held Xu Yiran in one hand, and the garbage bag that the latter dropped on the ground in the other. He hooked the door of the dormitory with his toe, and with a "bang", he took it.

Xu Yiran stared blankly at Yuan Ye. Yuan Ye dragged him forward and explained with a look of "for your own good": "Look, the dormitory is empty and everyone has gone to the cafeteria. If you delay, If you study early, you will be late."

Xu Yiran wanted to explain that he combed his hair very quickly, and it didn't take long: "No..."

"No?" After Yuan Ye threw the garbage bag into the trash can accurately, he turned his head and said sadly to Xu Yiran, "Little turtle, your thinking is very dangerous. Is it because you can't take the morning reading class? One day The plan lies in the morning, do you know, huh?" As he spoke, he had already pulled Xu Yiran into the cafeteria.

Xu Yiran saw his unique hairstyle through the glass door of the cafeteria, and was a little anxious: "Yes, yes..."

Yuan Ye sternly said, "Ke Ke Ke, you don't want to study, and you still find so many excuses!"

Xu Yiran: "..."

Even Xu Yiran can now tell that Yuan Ye did it on purpose.

Xu Yiran knew that he couldn't talk to him, so he stopped talking, lowered his head, and combed his bangs with five fingers.From the corner of his eyes, Yuan Ye caught a glimpse of Xu Yiran's drooping mouth, and he slapped his thigh with a smile in his heart. He pretended to be enthusiastic, and asked Xu Yiran if he wanted eggs or steamed stuffed buns.

Xu Yiran didn't dare to resist, but he didn't want to cooperate either, so he pretended not to hear, and looked at the ground without raising his head, as if he was studying the patterns on the marble with rapt attention.

Yuan Ye suppressed a smile, bought a lot of breakfast, found a seat to sit down, arranged Xu Yiran opposite to him, gave him one-third of the portion, and said: "Little turtle has a small amount of food, eat so much enough."

Xu Yiran finally couldn't help asking: "You, what, what?"

He couldn't speak fluently when the sentence was long. Fortunately, Yuan Ye had a quick mind and understood it immediately. After thinking about it, he answered him: "You are a little turtle, and I am a big crocodile." He bit off After eating half a bun, he swallowed it after chewing a few times, which made Xu Yiran tremble.At this moment, Yuan Ye bared his teeth, showing his fine white teeth, and continued, "Besides, I, a cold-blooded animal, enjoy the moment of 'crunching' the most, the moment when I gnaw the shell of a turtle."

Xu Yiran: "..."

As long as the tortoise shell is hard enough, even a crocodile can't do anything about it, Xu Yiran thought silently, and in fear, he ate up the breakfast Yuan Ye bought with difficulty.

Although Yuan Ye only gave him one-third of the portion, Yuan Ye was right in saying that Xu Yiran's appetite was really small.It was the first time he ate so much for breakfast, and it was very difficult for him to digest. His stomach was still bulging until after the morning reading class, and his stomach was bloated and uncomfortable.

Xu Yiran secretly rubbed his stomach for a while in class, but it didn't help.He had to run again between classes, and when he ran, his stomach twitched and he felt even more uncomfortable.When it was time to eat at noon, he felt a little sick when he saw the food.This is also because he already has stomach problems.

Xu Yiran lazily returned to the dormitory without eating a few mouthfuls, walked back and forth in the dormitory, and heard someone coming back from a distance, so he sat down in his seat and picked out a book to read.

It was Wei Shao who came back.As soon as Wei Shao entered the door, he took out a box of Jianwei Xiaoshi tablets from the drawer and gave them to Xu Yiran: "Are you still feeling uncomfortable? Can taking a tablet make you feel better?"

Xu Yiran took the Jianweixiaoshi tablets, stared at Wei Shao with a concerned smile, stood up suddenly, the chair was caught by the corner of his clothes, slipped, and rubbed against the ground, making an ear-piercing sound.

Wei Shao quickly supported the chair: "What's wrong?"

Xu Yiran: "Thank you, thank you."

"You're in a dormitory, why are you being so polite?" Wei Shao waved his hand, not wanting to take credit for others, "And it wasn't me who saw that you were suffering, it was Yuan Ye. During the meal just now, he asked the infirmary if he could buy stomach medicine , I heard that it was you who were suffering, so I said that I have Jianwei Xiaoshi tablets, and I will bring them to you after eating."

"Yuan, Ye?" Xu Yiran blinked.

Wei Shao: "Didn't expect that? I also didn't expect that he is more careful than us. But he is your deskmate, and he is closest to you. It is normal to notice that you are uncomfortable."

Xu Yiran didn't understand Yuan Ye's thoughts: Although he helped himself to cover up his stuttering problem, didn't he also put on a gesture of "Don't get me wrong, I just want to bully you and it won't be fun if others know it"?

Wei Shao continued: "Didn't you see, when I was having dinner just now, Yuan Ye urged me by the side, saying why you are so delicate after eating, I finished eating, and asked him if he would come back to see you together, and he Say no, I don’t know what that means.”

After listening to him, Xu Yiran suspected that the Yuan Ye he was talking about was not the Yuan Ye he knew.But Wei Shao is a very nice person, he even taught him how to wash clothes yesterday, he is not the kind of person who talks nonsense, so Xu Yiran believed that what he said was true.

Xu Yiran wanted to find a chance to say thank you to Yuan Ye, but Yuan Ye didn't go back to the dormitory to rest at noon, and he kept sleeping during class in the afternoon. Sulky.Seeing his unhappy appearance, Xu Yiran didn't dare to talk to him.

For a moment Xu Yiran wanted to ask Yuan Ye why he was unhappy, but then he quickly dismissed this terrible thought, and in order not to have such strange thoughts again, he paid more attention in class.

A few days later, it was Friday, and every class had to be cleaned. Lin Xiaoqiao picked a few boys from the back row to sweep the fallen leaves, including Yuan Ye.Yuan Ye had no objection at first, and they all walked towards the corner where the big broom was placed. He suddenly heard Lin Xiaoqiao arrange for Xu Yiran and a few other students to clean the windows. He paused, turned around and protested, "Mr. , you are calling all the boys in the back row, I am obviously sitting in the middle, why do you ask me to sweep the fallen leaves?"

Lin Xiaoqiao glared at him: "You guys are tall and strong, so you have to work harder."

Yuan Ye forcefully coughed a few times, and said weakly, "But I'm not strong at all, I can't sweep fallen leaves."

Lin Xiaoqiao: "..."

Next to him, Peng Zhuoyu laughed. Yuan Ye kicked him on the buttocks, kicked him in front of Lin Xiaoqiao, and said, "Mr. Qiao, look at how active Peng Zhuoyu is, asking to sweep the street!"

Peng Zhuoyu managed to stand still, turned around and said angrily, "Fuck, Yuan Ye, you..."

Lin Xiaoqiao: "Peng Zhuoyu! Yuan Ye!"

Peng Zhuoyu immediately lost his temper, and said dejectedly, "Mr. Xiao Qiao, I just laughed a couple of times. It's none of my business. It's all Yuan Ye's nonsense."

Lin Xiaoqiao asked him with a dark face: "Peng Zhuoyu, who allowed you to swear all day long? Do you remember that you are a student?"

Peng Zhuoyu: "Teacher, I was wrong."

"Take the broom and go downstairs." Lin Xiaoqiao said, "Hurry up."

Peng Zhuoyu: "..."

He glanced at Lin Xiaoqiao sadly, saw his ugly face, and knew that he had better leave early, so he held his nose, took the broom and walked outside. When he passed by Yuan Ye, he stomped on Yuan Ye in resentment.

Yuan Ye immediately cried out in pain, hugged his feet exaggeratedly and said that he was injured: "Mr. Qiao! I can't even walk! Do you want me to go downstairs and sweep the floor!"

Lin Xiaoqiao: "..."

"Stop shouting." Lin Xiaoqiao got a headache from his quarrel, and was really impatient to control him, "If you want to clean the windows, clean the windows, and then call me to let you write an inspection."

"Good teacher!" Yuan Ye's goal was achieved, he stopped coughing immediately, and his feet didn't hurt. He took a rag and went to clean the window.

Lin Xiaoqiao shook her head helplessly, looked around, saw other students busy in an orderly manner, and went back to the office first.

Yuan Ye pretended to clean the window for a while, and saw Lin Xiaoqiao left from the corner of his eye, so he walked to another window and said to the classmate who was cleaning that window, "Let's exchange, you clean that one, and I clean this one." fan."

That classmate nodded, and Yuan Ye occupied the window, showing a triumphant smile to Xu Yiran who was facing him.

Xu Yiran was silent for a while, and continued to rub his side. Yuan Ye was separated from him by a wall and a window, but he flirted with him without hindrance.Wherever Xu Yiran's rag was, Yuan Ye's rag was also wiped, Xu Yiran stopped, and Yuan Ye also stopped to look at him.

Xu Yiran: "..."

Yuan Ye pushed the window open and asked Xu Yiran, "Why didn't you clean it?"

Xu Yiran didn't speak, and as soon as he raised his hand, Yuan Ye imitated him and raised his hand with exactly the same movement, and when Xu Yiran lowered his hand again, Yuan Ye lowered his hand again.

After repeating this several times, Xu Yiran finally asked, "Why, what?"

Yuan Ye's eyes were gloomy, and he looked at Xu Yiran without saying a word. Xu Yiran clutched the rag uncomfortably, and wanted to turn around and leave, but before he left, Yuan Ye resumed his previous cynical smirk.

"I want to see how long you can bear it." Yuan Ye said, "I thought you would never say it when you were upset."

Xu Yiran's pupils constricted, and he suddenly realized that Yuan Ye imitated his actions of cleaning the window, maybe he was imitating the scene of others learning how to speak.

Yuan Ye threw down the rag, leaned on the window sill, leaned forward, and asked him: "When you speak, do you feel uncomfortable if someone imitates you? Do you feel uncomfortable when you are accused of being speechless? Is there any?" Want to curse? Now I can give you this chance."

Xu Yiran's face tensed immediately, and he took a step back unconsciously. Yuan Ye raised his eyebrows and wanted to speak again. Xu Yiran backed up again and again, collided with the classmates who were sweeping the floor behind him, and fell to the ground.

Yuan Ye's face darkened slightly, and he smiled again in a blink of an eye and said, "Hello..."

Xu Yiran got up and ran towards the toilet. As soon as Yuan Ye uttered the word "Hello", he lost his audience, so he had to disappear with the wind, and there was no more words.

Looking at Xu Yiran's back, Yuan Ye dropped the rag and cursed secretly: "Damn it."

He frowned on the spot and turned around a few times, then plucked the short hair on his head with his hand, and suddenly froze.

"Hair? Bangs?" Yuan Ye murmured to himself, remembering the first day in the bathroom, Xu Yiran saw that half of his collar was not turned out, so he reached out and took out the half and tidied it up. Frowning, thinking, "Is he a clean freak? Can we start from this aspect?"

A classmate next to him pushed him wonderingly: "What is a person talking to himself?"

Yuan Ye waved his hand, picked up the rag on the ground, wiped the window carelessly, and thought deeply: You can't eat hot tofu in a hurry, and you can't push people into a hurry. You have to take your time, you have to be more tactful in your speech, and you have to think about the way you do it. ——

In short, the first step is to let Xu Yiran dare to open his mouth and talk more.

Relying on his common sense, Yuan Ye unprofessionally set the first step of "forcing Xu Yiran to get rid of his stuttering plan", completely unaware that it was himself who robbed Xu Yiran several times a few days ago, and put People are bullied beyond words and take pleasure in it, snickering sympathetically.

first diary

July 20, 9xx

周日

clear

It has been a week since I transferred to another school. The teachers are very caring, most of the classmates are friendly, and my life is stable and peaceful. I really want to live like this, but I know this is a luxury.With O around, the days are terribly lively, and there is almost no time to write. I am afraid that from now on, the diary will become a weekly diary.

At first, O troubled me deeply.This person is a bully in the class and seems to have a lot of opinions on me. On the first day I transferred to another school, I was blocked in the toilet.At that time, I didn't know what this person was thinking, and I suspected that the brain circuit was abnormal, maybe it was a genetic mutation.

I thought that silence was the best weapon against this person, but I didn't expect O to be good at self-aggrandizement. I'm so boring, but I can still make him pry with interest.Finally, he picked up a corner, grabbed a deadly handle, and laughed at it wantonly.I am not born with a stutter, probably because I lacked empathy when I was a child, I didn’t love animals, and I didn’t care about the weak and weak classmates, so God came to punish me and caused a car accident. From then on, the happy family was broken, my mother was paralyzed, and I suffered from stress. stutter.My father had a hard time raising the family, and my temperament changed a lot. My father didn't notice, but I can't complain.Everything is fate.

There are many hateful defects in the world, such as stuttering, lameness, baldness, and eunuchs, and I am just one of them.So do I deserve to be laughed at?no.Everyone today praises the equality of all people. I share a piece of world with normal people. I am a carbon-based living body. After death, I will turn into a pile of loess. I should have loudly preached "I stutter is none of your business" Cowardly, timid, incapable of action, suppressing all the anger in my heart, I dare not stand up and resist, then there is nothing to complain about being bullied.

When O laughed at me, I was afraid of him, but I despised him in my heart. I thought I couldn't escape this kind of person. I thought it was fate, so I should look away.That's why I was so shocked when I knew that O was hiding things for me, and even fighting for me.I have never met such a person, he actually used his way to help me, I believe in Marxism, but I want to say to God, forgive me, I shouldn't call him an idiot, crazy in my heart (here erased).

Originally, 17-year-old boys are easy to understand, they are all idiots (here is crossed out), but I really don’t understand O.He's against me for everything, he messes up his shirts and won't let me tidy myself up.I restrained my hands every day, otherwise I would have shaved his head off, stripped his clothes off and put them on again.Every time I see the ugly centipede-like marks on his shirt, I will secretly make up my mind to ask Wei Shao about housework in my free time.It turned out that living on campus had to wash and mend clothes by myself. Without a washing machine, life was really difficult!

Seems off topic.Speaking of O, I said he is difficult to understand because he obviously has all the shortcomings of underage boys, but he always does unexpected and moving things.For example, the day before yesterday, he told me in his own way that he was going to help me get rid of my stuttering problem.If it was someone else, I would have doubted his motives, but this word came from O's mouth, and I couldn't help but believe it.But I really don't know why he would do it any more than I don't know why I believe him.One of the two of us must be neurotic.

I discovered something yesterday, and I'm probably sure that it's me who is crazy.I always doubt people, how can I be so bad!I have had enough of myself.Every day I remind myself to remember to be grateful and remember the help of others, but I still can't do it, I still remember his disadvantages!I should have seen in every little thing what a man he was!

I can't be so excited, I want to keep all my emotions in my heart.

The thing is, when I went back to school on Sunday, I arrived a little early and wanted to sit alone on a bench by the lake.I saw O's back from a distance, and hurriedly hid.He stayed in the reeds for a while and then left. I was too far away from him to see what he was doing. After he left, I went to have a look.

To be honest, I was stunned at the time.In the reeds, there is a little turtle, lying in a green plastic basin, with a clump of wet grass on its body, holding a small fish the size of a thumb and gnawing on it.It ate so deliciously and was so courageous that it didn't even move when it sensed me coming.

At that time, I was ashamed of my shallowness. I was the cold-blooded crocodile, and it was time for me to shed a few crocodile tears.I don't know how to help the weak, I don't have sympathy, so I have to doubt other people's intentions to help me.Not only did I suffer physically, but mentally as well.I am a bad person.

Worse still, knowing all this, I am still afraid of O.He made armor with laughter and cursing to cover up his softness and kindness. I know this, but I am a coward who lacks courage. He guides me ahead, and I am still timid to take this step.

This is a big step for me.

I should be ashamed of myself.