naive rivers and lakes

I have already explained to my senior brother that if possible, let him pay attention to the movements of that girl Tianqing, and after my senior brother left, he only left me a piece of paper with eight hearty ink characters on it: "Resign yourself to fate, ask yourself What a blessing." It's okay to let fate be, what does it mean to ask for more blessings, I'm fine, there's nothing to worry about. ,

Ah Yin raised her gray old eyes, glanced at me, and started playing chess by herself. I flipped through the book in a bored way, went to the opposite side of her, held the sunspots, and played, here is the flower mirror It's not good to hang around in someone else's place, and there will always be an institution somewhere in this place. I only have one life, and I cherish it very much.

"Naive, why did you come here? You have been here for 25 days." She asked me lightly.

"No reason, Ah Yin, it's better not to know so many things." I continued to talk to her in a coaxing tone, although she has eyes like ancient wells and no waves, and she doesn't look like a child at all, but I I still want to treat her as a child, and there is very little time for people to be treated as a child.Little girls deserve to be cared for.

"I'm not a child, I'm old enough to be your grandma, naive." She looked at me helplessly, with a face that was at most 14 years old, she was serious when she spoke, and didn't smile, I perfunctorily Cope with it and say yes, looking at her, like looking at some silent plant, the sense of existence is very small, just staying in one place, silently, her eyes are a silent gray, like after a heavy rain The accumulated water is dry and empty.

"You have a child's face, so you should be treated as a child, and I want to be treated as a child, but what a pity, I'm already past that age." I tilted my head and smiled, and dropped the chess piece with a snap , continued: "There is nothing wrong with being treated like a child, really."

"You're right. People are not wary in front of children." She said with no expression on her face, and said the last word quickly. I sighed, covered my face, and wailed: "Ah, I lost again. ah."

"If one day, Hua Fan is about to die, and you are the only one in this world who can save him, will you do it?" She suddenly asked me.

"I don't know. People are very complicated. There are no absolutes in everything. What if saving Huafan is good for me?" I lowered my head, fiddled with the black and white chess pieces, and put them away.

"There is no benefit, can you save?" She continued to ask.

"No." I said lightly, and answered quickly.He continued to answer: "When I said that sentence, I was sure that I would not save him, but I won't be sure in the future, people are very complicated."

Ah Yin didn't speak, but quietly accompanied me to put away the chess pieces.

No. 20, when I stayed on the mountain, there was a heavy rain on the [-]th day, so I simply stayed near the place where Mr. Wei lived, in a room for the sick, and Ah Yin stayed next to me. Trembling, I got up and pulled the quilt that I kicked aside. After I pulled it up, I didn’t fall asleep peacefully. It seemed that someone walked in. I was half sleepy and half awake, until the person stayed at the head of my bed, just stood there quietly. That said, the smell on my body is not strong, but I was forced by my old man to practice Taixu Kung Fu. After years of practice, my five senses are beyond ordinary people, and I can still smell the smell of Hua Fan.

He has always had that kind of smell, a mixture of musk and rose fragrance, not very heavy, but the fragrance is rich, and when one smells it, one is reminded of a rose in full bloom.The wild roses on the mountain seem to have become fine. They can bloom in full bloom from March in Yangchun to frost. The flowers bloom beautifully, and the color is as red as blood.

I held on for a while, and was about to fall asleep. Before he could say anything, I had a hug across the quilt. His slightly cold lips gently kissed the center of my forehead in the night. , I almost woke up, but I was very sleepy, and then the smell was getting farther and farther away, and I wanted to grab his hand, but I couldn't move, and I fell into a nightmare.

After waking up, the quilt all over my body was damp. I thought everything was just an illusion that I was pulled into a deep nightmare. I was so deceiving myself, but when I got up, I saw a hair, pure white, by the bed. There was a luster, like fine silver wire for jewelry.Well, it's no longer enough to deceive yourself and others.

Flowers, flowers, what are you thinking?

I simply collapsed on the bed, lit a candle, and burned the paper and the hair my senior brother left behind. It was raining lightly outside, I put on my shoes, looked at the food boxes on the table, and ate whatever I wanted After drinking that bowl of warm white fungus and lotus seed porridge, I just feel that it is better to drink less porridge in the future. I was rushed to the rivers and lakes by my father and was about to fight. Before I started, I was tricked here by Hua Fan , if it goes on like this, it's not very good.

I would have drowned in such small amounts of tenderness and care.

I looked at the dark red umbrella next to the door, that umbrella was interesting, a branch of white plum bloomed, and the white one was also implicated into a beautiful appearance, I looked at the umbrella, twirled it in my hand, and put it back , I think a little rain doesn't matter, and the color of this umbrella is too bright, I don't like it very much.

But as soon as I walked out, there was a thunderbolt, splitting the large black cloud, leaving behind a blinding white light, the gray-white edge rolled up, and the black cloud piled up downwards, the sky seemed very close to people, so close I could touch it, and then, the rain fell without saying a word, covering my head and face, I turned around and went upstairs in a hurry, so as not to be drenched in water.Then I went out with the umbrella in hand.

I want to go to Mr. Wei, because Xueji protects his palace lord just like he protects a little cub, he won’t say anything when I ask, but Dr. Wei is different, there is a piece of reliable news in Jianghu, that is, Mr. Wei likes to solve other people's difficult and miscellaneous diseases.

Just right, I have intractable diseases on my body, maybe it can arouse Mr. Wei's interest.

I knocked on the door, and Mr. Wei was playing with a small green-gold snake. The snake was probably well-bred, and it would not avoid people when they came. It was spitting out bright red snake letters, as if it wanted to attack me. , Mr. Wei raised his hand and knocked on the snake's head, and the snake fell down honestly, and wrapped it around his wrist, peacefully, like a decoration.

"Why, aren't you leaving soon? Are you not willing to part with the Palace Master?" He narrowed his eyes and smiled maliciously. I put the umbrella away and closed the door. He looked at the umbrella in my hand and rested his chin on his hand. Glancing at me, he said: "The umbrella in your hand was made by the palace lord himself, and he gave it to you. Are you planning to just leave it here with me?"

"He's still doing this?" I wondered.

"For meditation." He said, looking at me a little coldly, or maybe it's my illusion that when Mr. Wei looks at people, it's no different from looking at things, as if he is calculating how much he will sell the person in front of him at any time. Well, when we first met, he still had a thin face, but now, I've been stared at so hard that my back feels chilly.

"Trouble you, return it to the original owner after I leave. My father said that if you take something from someone, you have to pay back, so I dare not take it." I said, lying casually, anyway, my old man never said that kind of thing Yes, but I know about favors, the worst thing to do is to be involved, and to be disconnected.And I always run around, in case I lose this umbrella, not to mention whether Hua Fan will care, as long as Xue Ji and Mr. Wei don't kill me, that's enough.

Although Xue Ji always looked disgusted with Hua Fan, and even set up traps when he went back, Mr. Wei also treated Hua Fan rudely, and directly put on the silver needle to lift the collar of his back, but in private, he respectfully called Hua Fan Dressed as a palace lord, I have already been alerted by these two people before I have spent much time with Huafan.

"Bai Sangong suggested that Palace Master Hua spend less time in the sun, is it useful?" I asked, but I was not very clear.

"It's useful." He said, narrowing his slender eyes, it was difficult for me to read his mind. .

"I heard that you are very interested in other people's difficult and miscellaneous diseases." I said, then pointed my index finger between my eyebrows, and continued: "My memory is wrong, can you help me solve it? If not, tell me if Hua Fan has any hope of being saved."

"Why are you asking this?" He said lazily.

"If he's hopeless, I'll stay away from him."

"why?"

"Young Master Wei, let's see my condition first." I said, not wanting to continue.

Mr. Wei checked my pulse, pinched my face, and finally ordered me to say: "Look at my eyes, don't move." I really want to say that your eyes are just a slit that I can't see, but I do. Seeing his eyes, it seems to be staring at a narrow, long and deep abyss, and I can't see the bottom of the valley. I looked at it for a while and felt a headache as if I moved away, and was pinched to death by him on the back of the neck. He also opened his mouth next to my ear, his voice was low and soft, like a spring breeze.

"There are some things, don't you really know? Really, don't you remember?" He asked, in a cold voice, and repeated it again.

I saw countless shattered lights and shadows, and it seemed that there was a thin young figure walking in front of me. I didn't know who it was, but I consciously wanted to call out a name, and I was sure in my heart who this person should be.

"What are you doing? Azure." I smelled the scent of musk and roses, mixed with the cold air, and broke into the room, into the vortex of my muddy and broken memories. My neck hurt, and I was beaten Fainted, fell into a familiar and strange embrace.

I remember what I shouted, but I don't know anymore.

Hua Fan knew about it, but Hua Fan refused to tell me. It was not until a long time later that I took a small jar of wine to rape him, and then I got an answer.

That was all many years later.