He wags his tail when he sees me

"People will die one day, so I think every day, when will I disappear in this world, when will I leave, gradually people will forget me, as if I never appeared.

Today is the fifth day of my return to China, and the touring exhibition will end in one more day. I don't know whether I should just take advantage of the trend and go back.

Seeing that he was getting older and older, his father suddenly wanted to stay with him, but he didn't know what to say when he stayed.

Obviously he is the closest person in the world, and he obviously has a lot of things he wants to express, but he can't say them all.

But after going abroad, maybe Yi Wentao is still waiting for him. He is the only one who can still remember a person's facial features clearly. Maybe it's a psychological hint from staying with him for a long time.

He is a good man and a long-lasting man. The watch in his hand was the first birthday gift I gave him for so many years since I met him on his birthday.

That birthday gift is still fresh in my memory, not because I remember his birthday so clearly, but I am sorry for him, because this watch was bought for Yi Wentao when I went to the watch shop with Lin Ji on his birthday .

Lin Ji cried aggrievedly at that time, and my heart throbbed with pain.

Yi Wentao likes that watch very much, but I know that I owe him too much.

Some things can’t be too sure, just like when I decided to go abroad, I pretended to be calm with Jiang Junchen, but I was very disturbed in my heart. Except for the occasional business trip, which is hardly counted, I have hardly traveled far. Just thinking about being in a foreign country where I am not familiar with my life is enough to make my heart flustered.

But I chose to forget at that time, and I chose to forget my fears. That kind of forgetting is spontaneous. I have seen many similar examples when I was a student. Things like amnesia and intelligence do not only exist in books. The human body is a very miraculous thing. It can really come out to protect itself when it is in pain.

But I know that I can't even hope for this kind of thing.

For a long time, there is no such thing as whether to forget or not, probably... Probably when I was lying on the operating table and thought I was really going to leave, I once gave up.

Maybe it's because I didn't want to die, maybe it's because of the doctor's superb medical skills. When I woke up and found that there was no one in the ward, my head was like a balloon sealed with cement, and it was falling straight down, but it was pressing on the nerves desperately. , Pain and a strong sense of tearing, eroding my limbs and bones.

In the year after Uncle Lin's funeral, I thought about what it would be like if I met the two orphans of the Lin family in the future. In fact, no matter what, I thought the world was so big that even if we met, we might just be strangers.

There used to be rumors about the son of a murderer, and my work was bought for a competition and then I was scolded on the Internet. I know that these are actually operated by someone behind the scenes. People who hate me and my father so much, except for the Lin family. There will be others.

But I actually accepted it. I didn't do anything, and I couldn't do anything. I thought I would never have anything to do with that family again in my life, but after all, I couldn't resist the arrangement of fate.

The moment I was lying on the hospital bed, I suddenly felt that what I did was not worth it. I had already ruined the rest of my life because of Wei Qiming. After that, I wanted to find something to relieve myself, even if I got rich later. , even if I can afford a house, I can still squander my time with a few rich men, but I don't actually think that this kind of life is what I want.

I was afraid of being alone, afraid of loneliness. When I was a child, I was often excluded because of family relationships. I didn’t even dare to say that I was a single-parent family at school. I was also afraid to mention in front of my father why everyone else had a mother, but I didn’t.

Money is a good thing, money can buy some things I desire, I thought I could only go down like this in my life, but who knew that there was an extra Lin Ji on the way I was running along the track, he made me have to stop When I got down and ran again, I had to change the original trajectory. He seemed to have grown there, and I couldn’t bear to crush him. I had to change myself to protect him.

I love him, just like when Wei Qiming sold my paintings and left me when I needed encouragement the most, talking about those high-sounding and dignified normal, ten years later I still can't forget him.

It's like I love Lin Ji, even if I know he's playing tricks with me, I'm still willing to accommodate him.

I am willing to do anything for him. When I am with him, I always have happiness that I do not have with others. That is my long-cherished wish.

I know that he still has me in his heart, but if I wake up on the operating table without incident, he will definitely leave me, but as long as I have something wrong, he will be reluctant, and he will know that revenge on me is What a stupid thing to do.

So I remembered the amnesia I had studied in my student days, stupidly, and started to write and direct a scene by myself,

I always thought I was disguised very well, but Lin Dongxu almost exposed my secret. From the first glance, I knew that he was a shrewd man, so shrewd as to be scary.

What is good is rewarded with good and evil is rewarded with evil? How do I know that retribution will come so soon.

That's right, how can someone be hit twice by a car and have no sequelae.

Other minor ailments can be ignored, but the face amnesia scares me. During the period abroad, my memory began to decline significantly, and the people in my mind gradually became blurred. What’s worse is sometimes standing in front of a mirror , I didn't even know that the person in the mirror was actually me, I could be so serious that I forgot myself.

When I saw Lin Ji again, I had almost forgotten about him, but the apartment, the doll, and the two shirts reminded me of many things. "

Jiang Che sat in Lin Ji's studio and stopped writing. He sat on the Chaoyang desk in the studio, finished writing those words with a black marker pen, then tore it off, folded it and put it in his pocket.

From the time he knew that his sequelae were getting stronger and stronger, Jiang Che would write such a weekly diary every week, repeating it over and over again, with the same words, and he couldn't write the same thing every time.

Lin Ji had been sitting with Jiang Che to accompany him. When Jiang Che was writing, he was sitting by the side drawing.

He carried a doll of a deer on his body, hanging on the most conspicuous place of his trousers, hoping that Jiang Che would not forget him.

Recently, he followed Jiang Che closely, and the first sentence he said every day was, Hello, I'm Lin Ji, and he had to repeat it several times every time we met.

Fear is useless, we can only accept it calmly, let Jiang Che's impression of himself become deeper, so that he can let Jiang Che remember himself better, so he will wear a very iconic doll , the hair is also long, very individual, the little doll was given to him by Jiang Che before the two of them dated, Lin Ji called it a token of love, and it has been kept very well.

"You," Jiang Che smiled, stood beside him and patted Lin Ji's shoulder, "You draw very well, but have you ever thought about not imitating me anymore? I always feel that something is weird. .”

"But me," Lin Ji lowered his head, "I'm used to this kind of technique."

"Also, the whole picture looks gloomy." Jiang Che rubbed his head, "What's the matter with you, the good ones don't learn from the bad ones."

"Che..." Lin Ji said, lowering his head and obediently letting him touch him, his voice was low, and he didn't dare to speak loudly, for fear that he would frighten Jiang Che by speaking loudly in a moment of excitement, "Are you still going abroad?"

"What do you think?" Jiang Che asked him instead, "If I go abroad, what do you want to do?"

"I'll go with you," Lin Ji said firmly, then looked up at Jiang Che cautiously, and asked, "Is that okay?"

"It's up to you." Jiang Che's tone was very flat, "Just as long as you are happy."

"We, we haven't broken up yet." Lin Ji looked at him, "You can't leave me alone and go somewhere else."

Hearing what he said, Jiang Che was stunned for a moment, and then deliberately teased, "Since when have we been together? Do you think you've been pestering me for a few days and you're my boyfriend?"

Lin Ji was a little sad, holding Jiang Che's hand and refused to let go. He didn't know how to explain to Jiang Che, so that he would believe that he would give him a chance to start over.

It was finally hard for Jiang Che to be reassured. The trust between the two couldn't collapse so quickly. Lin Ji was extremely anxious, and was deeply afraid that Jiang Che would get angry and leave him on the spot.

He had had enough of not being tortured by Jiang Che for these years, if he could hold his hand this time, he would definitely not let him go again.

"You can't forget me, I've been waiting for you to come back, Che...don't be like this..."

Lin Ji's voice sounded aggrieved in Jiang Che's ears, so pitiful that he couldn't say anything to refuse to hurt him for a moment.

Jiang Che rubbed his nose and said with a smile, "I really forgot, what should I do? How do I know if you lied to me? If anyone on the street says he loves me and he's my boyfriend, then I'm not satisfied." Is the world full of lovers?"

"Who said that?" Lin Ji immediately became nervous when he heard it, and his sense of crisis was overwhelming, "They are all liars, they all lied to you. You obviously only want me, and no one but me."

Jiang Che almost froze when he heard his words, he cleared his throat and said with a smile, "You are the little liar, right?"

When Lin Ji heard this, he lost his composure immediately, stood up and hugged him, lowered his head to kiss Jiang Che, but he dodged him.

"Why?" Jiang Che laughed, "You want to kiss me? Am I such a casual person?"

"No." Lin Ji didn't kiss him, but hugged him tightly and dared not let go, "You are not a casual person."

"You don't remember me." Lin Ji buried her head in his neck, "But I still love you, and I will always love you."

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This is probably Chapter 3 from the bottom of the text. Thank you to the big babies who impressed me for always tolerant of my various deficiencies, and for always encouraging me when I wanted to give up.

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