Wait till the sun rises

It was already late at night when I returned to the community, and one of the street lights in the community was broken, so the surrounding area was a bit dark.

The cold night wind seemed to be able to penetrate the layers of clothing wrapped around the body, directly touching the skin, and the teeth chattered in the cold.

There is no moon or stars in the sky, and it is dark.

Xu Jiming looked up at the sky, feeling dazed for a moment, was that night seven years ago the same as today?Silent, dark, the only difference is that it was summer then, and now it is winter.

"Go back." Seeing that he was not moving, Xia Yang stretched out his hand to pull him.Xu Jiming held back his fingers just as he was about to withdraw them.

Xia Yang's fingers trembled. He didn't know if his fingers were frozen or what. Subconsciously, he wanted to withdraw his hand, but Xu Jiming held it tightly and refused to let go.

On such a cold night, white "fog" will be sprayed out with one mouthful.

Xu Jiming grabbed Xia Yang's right hand, as if grabbing the last life-saving straw in the waves, and refused to let go.The dim streetlights stretched their shadows, Xia Yang turned his head to meet Xu Jiming's eyes.

The night wind whistled past him, stirring his hair. Xu Jiming felt that something was wrong with him today, and he desperately wanted to have physical contact with Xia Yang.

At this moment, he really wanted to ask Xia Yang, what kind of mood did you have when you kissed me on that summer night seven years ago?Just for comfort?Or is it because I am your only relative in this world besides Grandpa?So you are scared and want to keep me in this way?

Xia Yang stretched out his hand and took out his mobile phone to take a look, and said, "It's getting late, are you going to drag me here to spend the night?"

Looking at Xia Yang's drooping eyebrows, Xu Jiming said, "You..."

The gentle ringtone of the mobile phone rang in such a night, and Xia Yang's mobile phone rang.

"Brother Han? Are you still asleep?"

Xu Jiming held Xia Yang's hand tightly. Xia Yang glanced at him and said, "Me? Well, I'm not home yet. I'm outside... for a stroll."

I don't know what was said there, Xia Yang said: "Okay, I will see you tomorrow."

When Xia Yang hung up the phone, Xu Jiming said softly, "You two have such a good relationship."

Xia Yang's fingers trembled, and the phone almost fell to the ground. He looked at Xu Jiming anxiously and said, "No, we are just good friends. He has helped me a lot, so don't think too much about it."

Xu Jiming said: "I don't mean anything else, I just..." Just what, even he himself couldn't explain clearly.He could only hold Xia Yang's hand and walk forward: "Go home."

Xia Yang stood still, refusing to take a step forward.Xu Jiming turned around, and saw Xia Yang put the phone in his pocket, looked him straight in the eyes, and said, "Are you still minding what happened seven years ago?"

Xu Jiming's eyes widened. He didn't expect Xia Yang to bring up this matter. He fixedly looked at Xia Yang's face, and Xia Yang looked back at him.

"Actually, I didn't have any other intentions at the time." Xia Yang said softly, "You don't have to be so, so, on guard. I was just afraid at that time, afraid that grandpa would go, and I was the only one in this world. I drank too much at that time I'm in a mess, so I kissed you, I wonder if you will stay by my side forever, and I don't need to be alone. "

Xia Yang looked directly into Xu Jiming's eyes, and said hoarsely: "I was young and ignorant at the time, if you went to study abroad because of that incident, I don't blame you. There will be a better friend than you."

Xu Jiming's lips trembled, Xia Yang raised the hand holding the mobile phone to cover his cheek, and slowly squatted down, with a slightly choked voice: "You really don't have to be so uncomfortable, I'm not... …homosexuality.”

On such a cold night, he held his hand and squatted in the icy cold wind, weeping violently and silently.

Xu Jiming's face was as white as paper, and the hand by his side trembled slightly. After a long time, he squatted down and hugged Xia Yang.

tight.

·

"When people drink alcohol, they will be overjoyed and sad, and will do things beyond their control. Xiaoxia's parents died when she was young, and the closest people are only you and grandpa. If something happens to grandpa, then he will only have you. And you will pay Girlfriend, you will have your own family and children, and then you will naturally have to distance yourself from him."

"He may not even know what he's doing, he just wants to keep you."

In the pitch-dark room, Xu Jiming leaned against the head of the bed, his eyes were open, but his eyes didn't know where to fall. His eyes were out of focus and empty.

Li Annian's words many years ago came to mind again, and today he finally confirmed that he was right.Xu Jiming slowly closed his eyes. Surprisingly, he didn't feel so sad, but breathed a sigh of relief.

Is it right for me to leave?If he had stayed at that time, would Xia Yang have forced himself to do something he didn't like—to be with a man in order to keep him by his side?

The pale and sad face of the old man in the ward appeared again in Xu Jiming's mind. I haven't seen him for many years. How is the old man?

·

The next day, Xu Jiming and Xia Yang went to the hospital to see Han Rui. When they arrived, Han Rui had packed up and was sitting by the bed waiting for them.Seeing them coming in, he got up and said with a smile: "Here we come."

Xia Yang put the porridge aside and said, "You are..."

"I'm fine, ready to leave the hospital."

"what did the doctor say?"

Han Rui picked up the millet porridge that was put aside and drank it naturally, and said, "I'm an adult now, so I don't need to ask the doctor everything."

Xia Yang said: "You are an adult, why did you bring yourself to the hospital? I'll ask the doctor, don't move here."

Han Rui looked at Xia Yang's leaving back, and said with emotion: "Such a good man, I don't know which girl will be cheaper in the future."

After finishing speaking, he looked up at Xu Jiming who was opposite him, shrugged his shoulders, "Don't look at me like that, although I'm male and I like men, but I won't attack him. As for you..." At this point, he He lowered his head and blew on the porridge in the spoon before saying: "If you don't care about him, get out of here. If you dare to make him sad, I'll kill you."

Xu Jiming ignored the violence contained in his words, just said: "Why?"

Han Rui glanced at him with great interest, and after a while he smiled and said, "You can't deceive anyone with your eyes. I can tell that you like him very much."

"As for people like me." He put the untouched millet porridge aside, and sat on the edge of the hospital bed in a graceful manner, "It's better not to spoil other people's good children."

Xu Jiming said: "He, does he know you?"

Han Rui shook his head with a smile, and said: "How do I know, maybe I know, maybe I don't know." He stretched his long legs on the bed, then lay down and leaned against the head of the bed, crossed his hands on his chest, from bottom to top He looked at Xu Jiming.

"I can help you chase him."

Xu Jiming shook his head and said, "He and I are just friends."

"Friend?" Han Rui chewed on these two words and laughed.

Xu Jiming sighed, and found that he had a mismatch with this person and couldn't communicate at all, so he said he would go out and have a look.

Han Rui smiled behind him: "I don't know what your difficulties are, but I will help you watch him before you change your mind."

Xu Jiming turned his head slightly: "Aren't you his friend?" The implication is why as a friend, you should push your friend into the fire pit.

"I just want to give him the best." After Han Rui finished speaking, he laughed too. He shrugged and winked at Xu Jiming, "Okay, I lied."

——"This road is too lonely and cold, I want to bring someone with me."