Wait till the sun rises

"I'm done." Xu Jiming pushed the rice bowl and stood up.

Han Ling looked at the half bowl of rice left in the bowl, and worried: "Son, are you sick? Is there anything uncomfortable?"

Xu Jiming said, "No, I have something to do at school today, so I'm leaving first."

"So urgent?" Han Ling looked at her son distressedly, thinking about what to do to make up for him at night.

Xu Jiming was hiding from people, to be more precise, he was avoiding Xia Yang. After that day, he went home in a panic and didn't contact Xia Yang until school started.

The winter vacation was over, and he couldn't avoid it when school started. He only said that he had too many things to do as the monitor at the beginning of school, so they hadn't seen each other for more than a week.

Xu Jiming stepped into the school gate with his schoolbag on his back. Li Annian was playing ball with some students, and he waved to him from a distance, "Hey, Xu Jiming."

Xu Jiming raised his eyelids and walked over.

Li Annian took a big sip of water, looked behind him and asked, "You came early, where is Xiao Xia? Why haven't you seen him these days?"

"Why are you here by yourself?" Xu Jiming didn't answer his question, but asked with a basketball in his hand.

Li Annian shrugged: "Father is not at home, and the internet is disconnected at home, so it will be boring for me to go back."

Xu Jiming snorted, and Li Annian said, "You didn't quarrel with Xia Yang, did you? This is really new."

Xu Jiming was silent.

"Are you really arguing?" Li Annian was a little unbelievable, "I said you two are actually arguing?"

Xu Jiming whispered, "Is it strange?"

Li Annian snorted, "Of course it's strange, don't you want to hold him in your hand? Why are you willing to quarrel with him?"

Xu Jiming pressed his tongue against the roof of his jaw, with a very ugly expression, he said, "Are you bothered?" He threw the ball away as he spoke.

Leaving Li Annian in a daze, it took a long while before he cursed.

——"Of course it's strange, don't you want to hold him in your hand? Why are you willing to quarrel with him?"

Xu Jiming was lying in a corner of the playground, what Li Annian said just now rang in his mind, his heart was in a mess, and he thought of the conversation between Li Annian and himself during the Chinese New Year.How did he answer then?It seems to mean that Xia Yang is just his younger brother, but any elder brother who has suffered a thousand dollars would have... that kind of thought about his younger brother of the same sex.

Xu Jiming raised his arm to cover his eyes, he thought there must be something wrong with him.

He knows the concept of homosexuality, sex, and love, so he also knows how difficult this group is.A seventeen or eighteen-year-old child is full of curiosity about everything, so he has been curious to check it out, and he still has sympathy for this kind of group in his heart, but he never thought that he would be a member of this group.

Xu Jiming wondered if he had been holding back for a long time?too lonely?Some children of the same age as me have girlfriends, and most of them probably have their own channels of relief like Li Annian, so should I have a girlfriend?

With a girlfriend, do you not have the energy to think about messy things?Xu Jiming thought, I don't cross the line, don't steal the forbidden fruit, can I just kiss my girlfriend?The soft lips were pressed together, Xu Jiming half opened his eyes, and met the light eyes of Xia Yang who was smiling close at hand.

Someone blocked the light, Xu Jiming suddenly opened his eyes and sat up, Li Annian took a step back in fright, "What are you doing? You scared me to death."

Xu Jiming grabbed the clothes on his chest and took a few breaths. Li Annian sat down opposite him and touched his forehead worriedly, "Are you okay? You look so ugly? Do you want to go to the infirmary?"

"Get out." Xu Jiming pushed his hand away, and closed his eyes wearily.

I really am... not normal?Xu Jiming exhaled slowly, and suddenly cursed.Li Annian sat on the side with a sad face, "I said, you have entered menopause early, right? How about I call Xia Yang?"

"No need." Xu Jiming stood up, patted the grass off his body and left.

Li Annian muttered to himself: "This conflict seems quite serious."

Xu Jiming's cell phone rang after evening self-study and school, he pressed it to hang up, and after thinking about it, he sent a text message, "I still have something to do, you go back first, don't worry me. Be careful on the road."

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The video on the laptop was coming to an end, Xu Jiming sat on the bed and exhaled slowly, his eyes were bright, his face was flushed, he picked up a tissue to wipe his hands, and there was a smile on his lips.

It seemed that he was holding back really hard, Xu Jiming thought, there was nothing wrong with him at all.

Sliding the mouse with his finger, Xu Jiming was in a good mood and was about to turn off the phone, but for some reason, he suddenly changed his mind.He searched for same-sex websites on the website, registered an account, and finally downloaded the movie by accident.

"Huh." Xu Jiming took a shower, even whistled in a good mood, resisted the discomfort in his stomach and finished watching the movie, and still feels that the chrysanthemum hurts.

Xu Jiming changed into his pajamas, and lay down under the quilt with a happy face. He thought that his brain was showing off, so he should go to school with Xia Yang tomorrow morning?And how to compensate him?

However, this good mood didn't last long. When Xu Jiming woke up from the dream again, he became flustered like never before, because he dreamed about Xia Yang again, and in the dream, the two had a very intense physical communication.

Xu Jiming grabbed his hair severely, and slapped him hard for the stickiness on his body. He really had desire/desire for Xia Yang.

There were two knocks on the door, and Han Ling said, "Mingming, are you up yet? Yangyang is here." As the door opened, Han Ling smiled at Xia Yang who was standing behind her: "You guys are chatting, a while Let's have breakfast together."

The moment he saw Xia Yang, Xu Jiming's hand grabbing the quilt froze, and when he met Xia Yang's clear eyes, he turned his head away in a panic.

Xia Yang sat down on a bench beside him, and said with a smile, "Aren't you up yet?"

Xu Jiming said harshly, "Why are you here so early?"

Xia Yang smiled and said, "Didn't you agree to celebrate Brother Li's birthday? I came to buy you a gift." After a pause, he continued, "It's the weekend, isn't it so busy?"

Li Annian?Xu Jiming thought about it, and it seemed that there was indeed such a thing. Li Annian had been clamoring for them to celebrate his birthday with him a few months ago.

Xu Jiming lowered his head, and said uncomfortably: "Not busy or busy. Then what, you go out first, I will come after I change my clothes." I don't know if it was an illusion, but Xu Jiming felt that Xia Yang was a little bit clear. She glanced at him teasingly, and obediently went out.

When the door was closed, Xu Jiming breathed a sigh of relief, quickly changed his underwear, put on his clothes and went out.

Because there was something in his heart, Xu Jiming kept silent all the way, and ate lunch as if he was tortured, and the two sat on the bench in the community to bask in the sun.

Xia Yang rested his hands on the back of the chair and basked in the sun with his head up, like a big lazy cat.Xu Jiming couldn't help but glanced at it several times. He was obviously a boy like himself, so why did he think he looked so clean and beautiful?Xu Jiming's eyes slipped from Xia Yang's forehead to his lips inch by inch, thinking silently.

"What's wrong?" Xia Yang opened his eyes and glanced at him.

Because the sun was too bright, Xia Yang's eyes were half-opened, and the way he looked at him from a sideways angle was a bit seductive.

Xu Jiming suddenly felt that his throat was a little dry, and he looked away in a panic, not looking at Xia Yang.

"It's okay, it's sunny today."

Xu Jiming thought, maybe Xia Yang used to look like this, but his mentality has changed, so everything is different.

Bathed in the warm sunlight, Xu Jiming suddenly felt irritable.He wanted to get angry, but he didn't know who to vent his anger on, and he felt depressed and uncomfortable.

Sure enough, Li Annian called a large group of people to help him celebrate his birthday. In his own words, it was just a normal birthday, but no matter what, his birthday had to be a big one.

In the private room, Li Annian had a bright smile on his face, he hugged a few close friends to take pictures, and even posed stupidly with scissors hands.

After making a wish, the candles were blown out, and the cake was put aside. Xu Jiming lowered his head to drink, and suddenly a plate of cake was handed to him.

Turning around, it was indeed Xia Yang, "Let's eat."

Xu Jiming smiled, took the cake and put it aside, he raised his glass and said to Li Annian, "Brother, happy birthday." After speaking, he drank the wine in the glass.

Everyone toasted one after another, but Li Annian was slippery like a loach, why did his father come home at night, and he had to go to class tomorrow, and other reasons were brought out, and he refused to drink any more than a glass of wine anyway.

Concerned that there would be class tomorrow, everyone also quieted down and drank plain water one after another.

Xu Jiming obviously used wine to drown his sorrows, drinking one cup after another. He didn't look good when he drank, but the more he drank, the whiter he drank. Xia Yang was sitting next to him, and when he saw him like this, he reached out to stop him.

Warm fingers wanted to break Xu Jiming's hand, but Xu Jiming held on to the wine bottle and didn't let go. When Xia Yang's fingers covered it, he seemed to be shocked.

Xu Jiming lowered his eyelashes and looked at the empty glass in front of him, and asked hoarsely, "What are you doing?"

Xia Yang said: "There is class tomorrow, so I can't drink any more."

"Oh." Xu Jiming nodded, but still wanted to pour wine into the glass.Xia Yang pressed his hand, frowned and said, "Xu Jiming!"

Xu Jiming looked up at him, and was about to say something, when Li Annian noticed the movement here, and asked, "What's wrong?"

Xia Yang waved his hands and said with a smile: "It's okay, Jiming seems to have drunk too much."

His smile was sincere and bright, without a trace of shadow, the panic and irritability in Xu Jiming's heart suddenly ignited a monstrous fire like being ignited by alcohol.

He said, "Let go."

Xia Yang lowered his eyes and said softly: "I really can't drink any more, you haven't eaten yet, so eat some first."

Xu Jiming said angrily: "I said let go!" It was the first time he spoke to Xia Yang so harshly, Xia Yang couldn't help but stared at Xu Jiming with complicated eyes, but he didn't let go of the hand holding the wine bottle.

He said, "What's the matter with you? Are you uncomfortable?"

Seeing his concerned eyes, Xu Jiming said abruptly, "What's your business? Are you annoying?" His voice was so loud that the room fell silent, and everyone else turned their attention.

"what happened?"

"Drink too much, haha, peace is the most important thing, don't quarrel, don't quarrel."

Xu Jiming pressed the center of his eyebrows irritably, broke away from Xia Yang's hand and pushed the door open to go out.