The days when I was forced to be a heartthrob in a bloody text

At that moment, Xu Shixi's mind suddenly flashed many social cases he had seen before. He forcibly blocked these from his thoughts and said, "No, I came out by myself. What's wrong, Grandpa?"

"I just talked to the neighbors at the door for a while. I went to Lao Zhang's house to get a can of tea. I didn't lock the door. When I came back, I saw that Nuonuo had disappeared." The voice on the other side of the phone sounded very unsteady, "Go I couldn't find it in the alley."

Pei Nuonuo is not the kind of child who would run around by herself for no reason. Pei Yan also told her that if she goes out to say hello to her family, it is unlikely that she would run out by herself.

"Grandpa, you go home first, maybe she will go back in a while, it's okay, I'll look for it now." After speaking, Xu Shixi hung up the phone, squeezed out from the crowd, got on the bike and drove home.

He walked around in the alley near his home, but he didn't see Pei Nuonuo, and stopped a few children to ask, but no one saw a little girl.

After arriving home, he opened the door and went in. Mr. Xu was sitting in the yard. It seemed that Pei Nuonuo still hadn't come back.

Xu Shixi walked over and rubbed the old man's back to calm his breath, and then asked, "Grandpa, when did you find out she wasn't at home?"

"It's around 10:30." Mr. Xu's hands and feet were a little cold, and if something happened, he didn't know how to explain it.

It was almost twelve o'clock now, Xu Shixi searched at home, and if he was sure there was no one, he let the old man stay in the house, went to the neighbor's next door to ask them to bring some lunch to Mr. Xu, and then went out to look for it.

He called Pei Yan, but Pei Yan probably hadn't finished his tutoring yet, so he never answered.

The alleys here are criss-crossed, but the place is not big, and the neighbors are relatively familiar. A strange child will have a little impression when he comes, but no one has seen it after asking for a long time.

If it was another child, Xu Shixi might not be so nervous. He ran out to play for a while, and maybe he would go home after lunch. His fear came from the fact that he knew the ending of the past. Fate is often difficult to explain. He He tried to get Pei Nuonuo to avoid that house as much as possible, but he couldn't predict whether it would bring her other unexpected dangers.

When Pei Yan's call came, Xu Shixi had already cycled around this place for a few times. Looking at the number, he suddenly felt his throat was very dry, and his fingertips were trembling when he pressed the answer button.

"Why did you call all of a sudden?" Pei Yan asked him, there was the sound of pages rubbing against each other, probably he had just finished class.

"... Nuonuo seems to have disappeared." When Xu Shixi said this, he felt that the voice was not his, it sounded hollow and hoarse.

Pei Yan quickly rushed over, Xu Shixi had already searched for all the places he could find, and made many calls to Pei Nuonuo's small mobile phone, but no one answered, squatting under the wall in the alley, Xu Shixi raised his head and asked him : "...Call the police?"

Pei Yan pulled him up, but he didn't speak. He went into the room to take a look. Finally, in the room that was usually regarded as the living room, he saw half a bottle of medicine sprinkled under the wooden cabinet half a person's height, red and white intertwined. Dust rolls on the capsule.

There was a narrow gap between the wooden cabinet and the TV cabinet next to it, and a half-cut mineral water bottle was stuffed with a few pills in it.

He put the half of the bottle on the TV cabinet, turned around and asked Xu Shixi who came in with him, "Is there any place nearby where I can hide or drill?"

Xu Shixi didn't quite understand what he was referring to, and Pei Yan continued: "Waste brick houses, cement pipes, or places where old furniture is thrown away."

The urban area here is old, and there are many dilapidated houses that have been left unused since they were demolished. There are also some projects that have run away halfway through construction. There are often a few cement pipes piled up on the side of the road. Xu Shixi doesn't know why he looks for these places, but Pei Fen knew Pei Nuonuo best, so he didn't ask any questions, and led him along the road to find them one by one.

I searched the nearest construction sites, but I didn't see anyone, and the half-demolished brick houses on the side of the road didn't look like they could hide.

Entering a dangerous building, when he climbed to the fifth or sixth floor, Xu Shixi looked out through the cracked glass window like a cobweb, almost dizzy, he looked up at Pei Yan, he hardly said a word , his expression seemed to be calm, but his lips were a little pale.

After searching for seven or eight hours without stopping, they were exhausted and the sky was getting dark. The two of them stopped beside an abandoned construction site and sat on a half brick wall. Pei Yan called Pei Nuonuo again. The phone was not turned off, but no one answered it. This was the first time he hadn't found Pei Nuonuo for such a long time.

He was about to hang up the phone and call the police, but suddenly he heard what seemed to be a slight voice behind him. He walked down the dirt road, and the east side of the construction site was full of cement pipes.

Pei Yan turned on the flashlight on his phone, walked over to take pictures one by one, Xu Shixi also went to look for it together, when he reached the last row of cement pipes, Pei Yan caught a glimpse of two star candy wrappers falling on the ground, the candy wrappers were very new and fresh It is clean, with clear creases, and it has been folded carefully.

He turned off the flashlight, raised his hand and tapped lightly on the cement pipe, and then heard a rustling movement inside, and then it fell silent again.

When Xu Shixi told him that Pei Nuonuo was lost, his first reaction was that he felt very tired. Since he was a child, during the years before his mother died, Pei Nuonuo liked to hide like this, especially when he accidentally broke into something. When disaster strikes.

If she didn't hide, if she was discovered, she might be beaten up, and then she would watch Pei Nianzhong beat up her mother and smash the house to pieces.

At first, I just hid in the closet, or under the bed, and then I would go out by myself when I got older, and hid next to the trash can or in the carport.

No one will care about her, it is impossible to expect Pei Nianzhong to go out to find her, Pei Yan can only go by himself, carrying a branch in the middle of the night, knocking on those broken pipes at the nearby construction site, Pei Nuonuo will come out most of the time when he hears it, Or see her on an old sofa next to the rubbish dump on the side of the road.

Once Pei Yan went out to look for her and found her hiding in a cement pipe not far from home. When she was pulled out, there was still a kitten wrapped in her belly.

At certain times, Pei Yan could clearly feel the imprint left by that chaotic home. He watched Pei Nuonuo grow up, and felt as if he saw himself through her, but Pei Nuonuo has been there for more than half a year recently. He hadn't run like this before, which made him almost relaxed, and he forgot the days when he was looking for people outside in the middle of the night.

"Pei Nuonuo." There was still no movement inside, Pei Yan called her name in a cold voice.

The stars are a little thin tonight, the neon lights on the bridge in the distance are bright, and the dark night is reflected in a faint red. I waited by the cement pipe for about 10 to [-] minutes before I heard the sound of someone crawling out.

Pei Nuonuo sat on the edge of the cement pipe, saw Pei Yan's face, and wanted to climb in again, but held back, Pei Nuo watched quietly for a while, tears fell down like broken threads, and it didn't take long for him to cry hiccup.

Xu Shixi wanted to hug her down, but Pei Yan grabbed her wrist to stop her.

"Didn't we agree that we can't run out of the house by ourselves, you have promised me that the last time will be the last time." Pei Yan squatted next to the cement pipe and looked up at her slightly.

Pei Nuonuo buried her legs in her knees and said nothing.

"Then tell me why today?" Pei Yan took her hand to make her look up, but Pei Nuonuo avoided it again.

Xu Shixi noticed that Pei Nuonuo was peeking at him, so he hesitated and said to Pei Yan, "I'll wait for you outside the construction site first."

He walked out around the pile of waste bricks on the ground, called Mr. Xu to reassure him, lit a cigarette while standing on the side of the street, and looked back inside. By the moonlight, he could vaguely see that Pei Yan was still there. Just now, Pei Nuonuo was squatting at that place, grabbing the edge of the cement pipe and jumped down by himself.

Pei Nuonuo squatted on the ground, still wearing sandals on her feet, tears fell on her toes, and she wiped them with her thumbs.

When she didn't want to talk, Pei Yan never forced her, just waited by the side, and when he squatted until his legs felt a little numb, Pei Nuonuo whispered in a nasal voice: "Is it possible that I can't go to Brother Xiaoxi in the future?" Home?"

"Why do you ask that?" Pei Yan asked her calmly.

"...I soiled Grandpa's medicine." She pressed her toes and raised her arms to wipe her tears from time to time, "It wasn't intentional, it became sticky after washing."

"Do you want to go back and apologize?" Pei Yan asked after a while.

Pei Nuonuo nodded, and Pei Yan reached out to hug her up.

"Grandpa is very worried when you ran out," Pei Yan squeezed her hand, "it's agreed that I will tell my brother everything in the future, and I can't go back on my word."

Pei Nuonuo buried her head on his shoulder, and the cloth was soon wet with tears. When Pei Nuo heard her whisper that she wanted to go home, her footsteps paused a little.

"...Which home?" He suddenly realized when he asked this sentence, Pei Nuonuo should be talking about their home in that old building.

"Don't you like staying with grandpa?" Xu Shixi was still waiting for them by the side of the road. Pei Yan saw the faint orange fire between his fingers from a distance, so he didn't go over there.

"I like it," Pei Nuonuo wiped his eyes with his hands, and cried again, "I want to go home too."

For Pei Yan, he never regarded that place as his home, and even living in a hotel made him feel more at ease.

A few years ago, when he ran away from home in the middle of the night for the first time, Pei Nuonuo secretly ran over and hugged his leg. He was about to cry, because he was afraid of waking up others and couldn't leave by himself. Pei Min had no choice but to take her with him. Going out, staying outside for several days before going back, it became a habit later on, every time he left home, he would take Pei Nuonuo with him, Pei Nuonuo never said that he didn't want to leave, so he took it for granted that she didn't want to be there place to stay.

Now I suddenly realized that maybe Pei Nuonuo just didn't want him to go, and didn't mean to go with him. Even if Pei Nianzhong was nothing, he was still her biological father after all, and Liu Chunling didn't even spend time with her. Longer than his mother, but he wanted to take her away wishfully, but never asked her if she wanted to leave.

Pei Yan couldn't tell whether it was disappointment or some other emotion in his heart, and it made people feel tired all of a sudden, but it wasn't anyone's fault.

"Shall we go see Grandpa first? Reassure him," Pei Yan discussed with her, "and then go home."

"Okay," Pei Nuonuo hugged his neck and whispered after a while, "Brother, I'm sorry."

On the way back, Pei Yan told Xu Shixi about the matter, and when passing by the pharmacy, he bought a new bottle of medicine. When he walked to the gate of the courtyard, Pei Nuonuo was still a little afraid to go in, so Pei Yan put the medicine bottle in her hand, Seeing her enter the door, he couldn't tell what he felt, but his feelings for Pei Nuonuo had always been complicated.

Xu Shixi didn't eat anything all day, leaning against the wall, pressing his uncontrollable stomach, which had been trying to make a movement, but finally escaped danger and heaved a sigh of relief.

It was agreed that Pei Nuonuo went in first to apologize, but Pei Yan didn't follow in. When he walked up to Xu Shixi, Xu Shixi stopped him before he could speak, "You don't need to apologize, and don't say thank you."

Pei Yan swallowed those words back, and said, "I'll take you to dinner later, the dumpling restaurant at the entrance of the alley, or what do you want to eat?"

Xu Shixi was quite hungry, but he couldn't walk a step now, and finally sleepiness overcame his hunger, "I'm too hungry, I feel like going to sleep, let's save up and eat together tomorrow."

Five or six minutes later, Pei Nuonuo ran out from the inside. I don't know what old master Xu said to her. He didn't cry anymore, but he seemed shy with his hands behind his back. He walked over and hugged Xu Shixi for a while, and Xu Shixi kissed her She patted her forehead, but she didn't say anything. Pei Nuonuo is such a sensitive child, she doesn't need others to say anything, she knows she is wrong. There is no need to be too harsh, but it will put a lot of pressure on her.

Xu Shixi can actually understand what she thinks, dropping a plate and dropping a medicine bottle is a small thing in itself, but sometimes these things seem to become triggers invisibly, and he can imagine what it is like In the scene where the adults quarreled and accused each other endlessly, they might forget about it after a night of sleep and a drink, but for Pei Nuonuo, it might be the uneasiness engraved deep in her heart.

Pei Yan thought that Pei Nuonuo might be in a hurry to go home, but she didn't expect that she followed Xu Shixi into the yard, then turned around and pulled him to make him squat down, and whispered to him, "I still want to live at Grandpa's house today, Grandpa will be sad when he leaves."

Pei Yan pinched her earlobe and asked her to wash her face.

After walking too much, both legs were sore. Xu Shixi fell asleep almost as soon as he lay down, but his sleep was very shallow. He woke up after only half an hour of sleep. When he opened his eyes, he saw the table next to him. There were a few fast food boxes on the table, and Pei Yan just came in from outside with a water glass.

Pei Yan handed him the cup and said, "Drink some water. I just went to buy dumplings and fried rice. Let's see what you want."

After resting for a while, my stomach felt even more empty. Xu Shixi got up and sat at the table with Pei Yan to eat. It happened to be still hot, and he took a bite of the fried soup, which flowed into the plate. The taste was quite familiar, and he said : "It's delicious, where did you buy it?"

"The Wang Ji Sheng Jian you mentioned last time." Pei Yan took out the vinegar bag from the bag and stood aside.

The shop is two streets away from here, and it's quite far away. Yu Zhun took him to eat once before, and when Xu Shixi passed by after school, he took pictures of it for Pei Yan. It happened that the place was very close to the tutoring center, so maybe it was finished. The tutor could stop by for a meal, but he didn't expect that after so long, Pei Yan still remembered that he ran over to buy it in the evening.

"You didn't scold Nuonuo just now, did you?" Xu Shixi was stunned for a while while biting the pan fried, then changed the subject.

"Talk to her a few words and tell her not to be an example." Pei Yan took a pair of chopsticks himself, "I feel quite scared every time, but she has been disobedient about this matter."

"I think you should find a chance to talk to her," Xu Shixi said hesitantly, and he didn't know whether he should talk too much, "She was afraid that she would be blamed for what she did wrong, but in fact, the troubles she caused are not a big deal Yes, I don't think it's wrong, when someone accidentally breaks something, don't let her always be afraid of it."

"Yeah." Pei Yan nodded, Pei Nuonuo felt quite insecure, he could feel it, but he didn't know what to give her.

In the past few years, he would occasionally feel tired carrying Pei Nuonuo, and felt that he was her only support, and he had to support him when he was tired. Only later did he find out that this little girl was also his support, and he could hardly hold on in the past. In those few years, she was the only reason he was willing to endure.

It was quite sunny outside during the day, and he ran around the whole noon. After eating, Xu Shixi felt that his eyes were a little dry, so he went to find a towel and wet it.

Before the paper was finished, he was afraid that he would fall asleep on the bed, so he sat on the chair and pressed the towel with his hand. After pressing for a while, he was a little tired. Just about to change his hand, Pei Yan came in and pressed the towel for him.

"I'll get it for you," Pei Yan said.

Xu Shixi didn't resist, and let go of his hand. The temperature of the towel was just right, but there was only a thin layer. He felt that he could even feel the warmth of Pei Yan's palm.

After applying it for a while, he started to feel sleepy again. He vaguely heard Pei Yan talking, and called his name softly, "Xiaoxi."

This was the first time Pei Yan called him without his first name, and his voice sounded a little gentle. Xu Shixi was taken aback for a moment, but his sight was blocked by the towel, so he couldn't see the expression on Pei Yan's face clearly.

Xu Shixi had no time to think about whether he was too sensitive, or whether they were really getting too close during this period of time. This kind of ambiguous atmosphere mixed with embarrassment was mixed with embarrassment. He raised his hand next to Pei Min's ear He snapped his fingers.

The sound was very crisp, and even with a gust of wind, a small piece of air around it exploded.

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