The days when I was forced to be a heartthrob in a bloody text

Xu Shixi thought he had auditory hallucinations, and looked at Pei Yan dully. After a while, the base of his ears turned red, but he didn't feel sad. He didn't expect Pei Yan to be the kind of person who would make such jokes.

Pei Yan lowered his head and fiddled with the radio again without saying a word, as if he hadn't said anything just now, calm and composed, nimbly took out the small piece of sawdust stuck in the thread with the tweezers, reinstalled it and took it out. Wipe the case of the radio with a damp cloth, turn the volume to the minimum, and after pressing the button, there is a very clear sound from inside.

"...Fixed?" Xu Shixi took it over and looked at it.

"Well, there is something stuck inside and a lot of dust has accumulated, there is no other problem." Pei Yan closed the toolbox and said, "Go to sleep, I will put this back."

After Pei Yan pushed the door to go out, Xu Shixi regained his composure, got up and went to lie down on the bed.

All the sundries were piled up in a small cool room in the corner. Inside were many old wooden boxes, which were locked. There was a wooden cabinet at the door. Pei Yan pulled the wrong drawer, and when he opened it, he saw an old photo album with A few photos were scattered on it, and it should be Xu Shixi's parents who were holding Xu Shixi's hand.

Xu Shixi in the photo looks only two or three years old, wearing a bear hat, holding a plush doll about his size in his hand, Pei Yan has never heard Xu Shixi talk about his parents, at first I thought it was a bad relationship, but after visiting this small courtyard a few times, I didn't see anyone else, so I realized that his parents might be gone long ago.

When he returned, Xu Shixi was already asleep, and a thin quilt was left for him next to him.

The wooden bed in this room was larger than that in Xu Shixi's room, but the two boys were still a little crowded lying on it. When they turned over, they touched each other's shoulders, and when they moved their legs a little, they touched Xu Shixi's cold feet.

Xu Shixi hugged the quilt and curled up against the wall, feeling as if he wanted to make room for him. Pei Yan lay down and stared at his back, reached out and touched the cold wall, and moved out with the quilt in his arms. Move, and then lay down on your side beside the bed.Xu Shixi slept soundly and was not woken up, but frowned slightly.

This sleep was a bit uncomfortable, Xu Shixi had a dream all night, before opening his eyes in the morning, he habitually raised his hand to check the bedside table, trying to touch his mobile phone, but there was no bedside table in the room.

Pei Yan woke up a long time ago, and was sitting by the bed to reply to Gu Cong's message. Xu Shixi turned to his side and put his arms around his waist. Still wondering what it was, he stretched out his hand to touch the side of his waist, and then touched a Warm skin.

Xu Shixi completely forgot that he didn't sleep alone yesterday, so he woke up from the fright, opened his eyes and hurriedly retracted his hands, then sat up and pretended to be sleepy and said: "...Good morning."

Pei Yan watched him perform, but nodded silently, Xu Shixi smiled shyly, took off his sweaty short sleeves and changed into a new one.

Woke up a bit late today, Xu Shixi went out without even thinking about breakfast. He was still rehearsing in the morning, and he was busy until five or six in the afternoon. In the evening, someone in the group had something to do, so they left early today.

It was too late to go home for dinner at this hour, so he randomly found a small shop on the side of the road to eat something.

It was rare that there was nothing to do at night. When he came out of the store, the street lights outside happened to light up one after another. He walked around the small square he had to pass to go home, and saw someone feeding pigeons near the fountain.

He stopped and sat on the steps to watch for a while. The snow-white pigeon landed on the child's shoulders and flapped its wings from time to time. He quite liked sitting outside like this, just quietly watching the people passing by around him, feeling the inner Anxiety also faded away.

But after not sitting for a long time, when Xu Shixi looked up, he suddenly saw two familiar people in front of the fountain's radiant water column set off by the lights.

With one hand in his pocket and a cigarette in the other, Shen Zhouchuan nodded slightly, not knowing what he said. Lu Pingping stood still and stared at him for a while, then turned and left, as if she still raised her sleeves I wiped my tears.

Witnessing the scene of the suspected breakup, Xu Shixi felt that he should leave this place quickly, but before he could stand up, Shen Zhouchuan suddenly turned around as if feeling a sense, looked straight in the direction he was in, and then raised his foot and walked this way come over.

It was embarrassing no matter whether he walked or not, Xu Shixi stood up halfway, and then sat down again.

Shen Zhouchuan walked in front of him, the cigarette in his hand was almost at the end, "Why are you here?"

"Passing by," Xu Shixi said, "just sit here for a while."

Shen Zhouchuan probably also guessed that he saw what happened just now, but he didn't react, and sat down on the steps with him.

Xu Shixi was a little unsure what Shen Zhouchuan was thinking now, since Shen Zhouchuan left his house that day, he never contacted him again, and Yu Zhun also said that he hadn't heard from him for a long time.

The fountain splashed a lot of water when it landed, and even though it was still some distance away, I could still feel the tide in the surrounding air.

Shen Zhouchuan suddenly said, "What do you think of Lu Pingping?"

Xu Shixi was stunned for a moment, thought for a while and said, "She's a pretty good girl... Are you guys having a fight?"

Shen Zhouchuan didn't admit it, but he didn't deny it either. He sat quietly beside him. Xu Shixi felt that something was wrong with him. Although he didn't like to talk much, he was not such a taciturn person before.

In fact, when I went out on a date with Lu Pingping today, I was fine. I went to see a new movie in the afternoon and ate Japanese food nearby in the evening. Lu Pingping is a very cheerful girl. When I was with her Even if you don't speak much, the atmosphere will not be awkward.It was just an ordinary date, but when he walked to the fountain just now, Shen Zhouchuan broke up unexpectedly.

Lu Pingping actually expected that she could feel that although Shen Zhouchuan was very kind to her, he didn't seem to like her that much, but it was still a little sad to hear him say this.

Shen Zhouchuan apologized sincerely, but Lu Pingping didn't want to get entangled with him, and didn't want to ask why, so she left without saying a word.

It should be said that every girlfriend he had had before broke up like this. In fact, there was no quarrel, and there was nothing unpleasant, but at a certain moment, he suddenly felt very tired.

"No," Shen Zhouchuan said, he even smiled, "I'm so scumbag."

Xu Shixi went in without knowing, and didn't ask any more casually.

The number of people in the square gradually decreased, and even the pigeons flew away a lot. Shen Zhouchuan looked at the fountain not far away with a cigarette in his mouth, and had no intention of leaving yet.

"Have you ever had a boyfriend?" Shen Zhouchuan asked him suddenly.

Xu Shixi was drinking from a mineral water bottle, he choked up when he heard his words, and after a while he said: "No."

"Then why do you know you like boys?"

It's a bit difficult to answer this question, Xu Shixi couldn't come up with it, he hesitated, and said, "Maybe it's just a feeling?"

Hearing what he said, Shen Zhouchuan put out the cigarette in his hand, then stood up and threw it into the trash can next to him, turning his head still with a very indifferent tone, "I'm going first."

Xu Shixi watched him leave blankly. After sitting outside for so long, it was a little cold even in summer. He was about to go home when he suddenly received a message from Fang Xiaochun.

Fang Xiaochun: Have you seen Shen Zhouchuan these days?

Is it Xi or not Xi: Well, I met you outside just now, what's the matter?

Fang Xiaochun: Lu Pingping said in the group that they broke up, is it true?

Is Xi not Xi: It seems to be true.

Fang Xiaochun was leaning on the sofa in the living room playing games, when he suddenly saw the message from Lu Pingping in Qunli, he didn't even remember how many times Shen Zhouchuan had broken up with someone like this, he thought he was serious this time, The result is still the same.

Lu Pingping has known him for many years and they have a very good relationship. They used to be neighbors in junior high school, but later he moved. Unexpectedly, they went to the same school in high school.

When I first heard her say that Shen Zhouchuan was chasing her, I thought it was unreliable and reminded her several times tactfully, seeing that she was still a bit reluctant and wanted to give it a try, so I didn't say any more.

Fang Xiaochun: Can you stop hurting others?Is it fun to lie to yourself?

Shen Zhouchuan saw this message when he took out his mobile phone, and directly pulled out the phone after a long absence.

Fang Xiaochun quickly picked it up and said, "Why do you have to provoke her? You don't like her."

Shen Zhouchuan smoked a lot these days, his voice was a little hoarse, "How do you know I don't like it?"

Fang Xiaochun opened his mouth, but was unable to speak.

He still remembers a time when he went to Shen Zhouchuan's house in the second year of junior high school. At that time, Shen Zhouchuan was still outside making up lessons and did not come back. He asked him to go to the room to play computer first.He remembered that he had logged on to a game website on Shen Zhouchuan's computer last time. He forgot the name. He didn't know whether Shen Zhouchuan had deleted it or not, so he wanted to check in his browsing history, but when he clicked on it, he found that Shen Zhouchuan had searched for a lot of homosexuals. related stuff.

At that time, Shen Zhouchuan didn't know about Shen Pingjiang's mess outside, and he searched for those things by himself.

Fang Xiaochun had heard of homosexuality before, but he was shocked for a long time to face the impact of those search records.

He was still resting on the mouse, with his index finger half-hanging, hesitating whether to click in to see it, but Shen Zhouchuan called suddenly, saying that his computer was broken, and asked him to go to the next room.

Fang Xiaochun agreed, and lied to him that he had just arrived at his house, had not had time to enter the room, and the half-hanging finger did not drop in the end. Shen Zhouchuan didn't want him to know about it, so he pretended that he hadn't seen anything.

But after a few days after going back, he still couldn't hold back, he searched the Internet himself, why he likes Shen Zhouchuan probably started from that time.

Shen Zhouchuan didn't know that his secret at that time had been broken long ago. After waiting for a while, he still didn't hear Fang Xiaochun's words, and he became a little impatient, "Are you still busy? If you don't, I'll hang up."

Before Fang Xiaochun had time to speak, the call was dropped, and he stared at the call interface in a daze for a while.

Shen Zhouchuan walked to his own villa, looked up at the window with warm yellow light, the nanny should have returned home by now, the only possibility is that Shen Pingjiang came back, there is a very good chance that he did not come back alone.

He held the key in his pocket, but suddenly he didn't want to enter that house. He didn't know when it started, and he became the same person as Shen Pingjiang.

What Fang Xiaochun said is not wrong, he has been deceiving himself and others.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-04-0217:15:38~2020-04-0317:58:08期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: 2 bottles of eucalyptus; 1 bottle of Bizan (Beibei) and Hanhanchi fish;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!