Nandou Seiki no University Life

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Olivia's Secret Diary Excerpt

Nth day

"He doesn't like me being too cold when I hold hands

not close enough for hugs

He doesn't like me not being serious when I talk

I'm too careful when I'm silent

i know he doesn't love me

His eyes speak his heart

I can see through his heart and the back of other people staying

His memory is not clean enough

I saw his heart in all his and her movies

He doesn't love me but he won my heart nonetheless"

I don't know when it started, this song became my favorite song, but I had to change a few words slightly.The day he came to see me without makeup, it reminded me of him years ago, even though he has no hair now.

He later agreed to be my boyfriend, but I knew he just wanted to give me a gift and comfort before he died, and he wasn't really being my boyfriend because he didn't love me.

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He was sleeping and I was writing gibberish.

I heard the sound of a car outside, they should be coming.

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Today, when the medicine started to take effect in his body, I finally shed tears in public. If Queen Celine was in my situation, I would definitely fight to the end, but I am not Queen Celine after all.

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Fortunately he is still alive.

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Day N+1

They put their main energy into studying today, but I doubt if they really learned it. Some people are obviously in a daze.

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He opened his eyes once just now, but we all wondered if he really woke up.

I saw his trance eyes wandering around but not looking for me, because he doesn't love me.

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Day N+2

I asked a wrong question today.I don't know why I suddenly asked Lao Sha what it was like to run to another world and put another self in the grave?As a result, Lao Sha's expression became like he just swallowed a whole bitter gourd raw.

Xiu Wu later told me quietly that Lao Sha regarded the other self called the Holy Emperor as his elder brother in his heart. It was a strange feeling, but I really felt sorry for my question just now.

Here comes Shusha, this marshmallow fell in love with the wrong person just like the other person in the room, and so did I, but they fell in love with someone who really existed, and I fell in love with someone who once stayed with me. Phantom in mind.

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How happy I was to see him wake up again, even though he still wouldn't love me.

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Day N+3

He can stand up and walk from the bed to the door by himself, and he can eat by himself, and chat with everyone, and we are very happy, although I found that Sean and Ray were actually very depressed.

I talked about a lot of interesting things today, and I also confessed to them that Queen Celine was also on my murder list back then, and she was second.

The first one is of course him, but I didn't say that I actually wanted him to pay more attention to me, because he doesn't love me.

I have never really cared about the position of heir, and I am not Queen Celine, I just want to fight ordinary hooligans.

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A miracle really happened!Death star get out!Really miracle! !

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Day N+4

We took them to the snowy field where he almost died. Both of us tacitly did not mention the specific situation at that time, but we still betrayed Rao who had used fighting spirit to prolong his life.

They started a snowball fight.We and Xiu Wu watched them fight.Shaosa, who can't use his left hand, and Sean, who is currently promoted to the No. [-] attention target, face Rey alone.

His eyes spoke his heart.

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Day N+5

I drove them to an observation deck, Sean "□□" his bald head, told him not to grow his hair, and gave Nandou Liusheng another hairstyle. I agreed, but only secretly.

Xiu Wu drove away Xing Xing, who claimed to be a rambunctious child, and put the black woolen hat back on his head.I love how he looks in black and no makeup.

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I remember when he put on makeup for the first time that year, I deliberately shouted at him: "Ghost!!!" At that time I laughed at him for being ugly, but secretly I cried even more ugly.

But I know he'll be back to his old self soon because he doesn't love me.

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Day N+6

Had a great day, but Rey was acting strangely, which is worth noting.

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I know he will remember and appreciate what I have done for him, and will continue to treat me like a family member, but still won't give me that kind of love.

In fact, the song I really want to sing is "He Doesn't Love Me".

But is it really him that I love?

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