White-eyed wolf

6.

When taking a bath at night, Yu Yun "drives" Shen Zhao out of the bathroom.

Said it was "catch up", but in fact it was just "tactfully" expressing that I can do it alone.

The water temperature in the bathtub was just right, and the heat was so steaming that people drowsy, Yu Yun hugged his legs and sank, half of his face submerged in the water.

I saw it when I was undressing, and Shen Zhao should have seen it long ago.

--scar.

The scars where steel plates were placed after fractures, the scars where visceral hemorrhage opened the abdomen, and other scars that cannot be guessed...they are ugly and twisted around the body, proclaiming how tragic the owner of this body has been through harm.

How did you survive?

Yu Yun counted these scars in detail, and the more he looked at them, the more incredible they became.

All those things that I didn't have time to think about during the day all slipped into Yu Yun's chaotic brain while taking a bath.

Brothers, lovers... Isn't this incest?

Is this relationship allowed by yourself?

Is it possible for me to like someone to the point of disregarding morality and ethics?

What happened in those forgotten years?

……

Unexpectedly, no matter how hard Yu Yun tried to recall, there were only some flashing fuzzy images in his brain. He vaguely remembered knowing Shen Zhao before, but he always felt that he was not what he is now at that time.

If Shen Zhao lied...what to do?

Some things are scary when you think about them. When you don’t remember anything and your life is a blank slate, you feel like you’re in an isolated island. Everything outside is strange and there’s nothing anyone can do about it. believe.

All Yu Yun knows is what Shen Zhao told him, his name, his past job, the relationship between the two of them, etc... This means that Shen Zhao can completely create a different kind of life for Yu Yun. new life.

And Yu Yun couldn't even be sure if he was living in a falsehood.

In this case, Yu Yun's trust and dependence on Shen Zhao did not arise from an equal relationship, but because he had no choice.

Yu Yun had an intuition that Shen Zhao must have concealed something or had already concealed something, and unless he remembered it, he would never tell himself for the rest of his life.

...but what is he planning?

No matter whether Shen Zhao lied or not, his care these days is true, his tears are true, and even his steadfastness in coma is true...

With a broken body, a blank soul, and nothing else besides himself, what is Shen Zhao planning?

Should he figure out everything before?Or should I live without knowing anything like now?

One century after another, problems came one after another, but Yu Yun couldn't solve them, his mind was buzzing and he had a splitting headache.

But he dare not call Shen Zhao.

So that night, Yu Yun had a dream.

In the dream, he was still in a coma, and his soul fell into a dark space behind the wall. In the dark space, there was a very dark and deep staircase, with no end in sight, leading to the depths of the ground.

The old lady didn't know when she appeared, she told Yu Yun that she was the guide.

What is the guide, and where do you want to lead yourself?

Although his mind was full of questions, Yu Yun didn't ask any questions and just followed the old woman to the ground.

The old lady seemed a little surprised by his arrival, and asked how he found it here, Yu Yun said that she didn't know either.

The old woman said that there are many ghosts and monsters here, and told him to be careful, but Yu Yun didn't see anything along the way.

Probably because the world of materialists does not allow strange powers and chaos, Yu Yun thinks so.

But what happened to the old lady?

Yu Yun really thought about this question for a few seconds, and finally he suddenly felt relieved, why did he compare himself to a dream?

He was thinking wildly all the way, and when he came to his senses, the old lady had already led him to the end of the stairs, and there were three doors erected in front of him.

These are the three doors of eternal life, one to store happiness, one to store sorrow, and the last one to extract these joys and sorrows.

The old lady explained that the happiness or sadness of a person's life is fixed. Generally, these two emotions come alternately with life events, but the door of eternal life in front of you can allow you to advance part of the happiness in advance, so that you can spend it. Live the most difficult moments of your life.

Although Yu Yun thought it was ridiculous and inexplicable, he was really curious, what would it be like if he took all the happiness in this life at once?

Anyway, it's a dream, so it doesn't matter how much you take.

He has never been so eager for happiness as he is now, so longing that he will not hesitate to leave endless sadness in his later life.

He said he wanted to extract all the joy that was left in this life.

The old lady agreed, neither curious nor surprised, just like a machine without emotion, she opened the door of eternal life to store happiness, Yu Yun thought that happiness should be gorgeous and bright, but in fact there was only a glaring white light inside the door.

The white light flashed and then went dark. The old woman sighed and said to Yun that his happiness was only 18% left, and even if it was all extracted, it wouldn't last long. He asked him if he was sure he wanted to mention it?

Yu Yun's firm heart suddenly hesitated.

He knew it was a dream, but he was still reluctant to part with it. His happiness was only so small. If it was all taken away, how would he get over the remaining 82% of sadness?

Why is this happening?

Yu Yun was suddenly depressed, why is it so difficult to be happy even in a dream?

Just when he decided to give up extracting happiness, someone suddenly whispered in his ear: "Don't be reluctant, I can share all the happiness with you."

Yu Yun turned around to see who this person was, but suddenly woke up.

Shen Zhao has been sleeping very lightly these years, and when Yu Yun moved a little, he woke up.

"What's wrong?" Shen Zhao asked him hoarsely before opening his eyes.

Yu Yun was still in shock, looked at the ceiling and muttered: "I just dreamed that I was only 18% happy..."

"What?" Shen Zhao didn't understand.

Yu Yun blinked, stretched out one hand to press the temples on both sides of the quilt, and told Shen Zhao the dream just now while he still remembered.

What he said was brief, and of course he also skipped the part where someone gave him happiness at the end.

After listening silently, Shen Zhao pulled Yu Yun's hand back under the quilt and put it into his chest.

"If you are really only 18% happy, then I will make up for the remaining 82% for you."

Shen Zhao spoke so seriously, like a solemn promise.

Yu Yun looked at him, feeling a little touched in his heart. He lowered his eyes and said, "...this is just a dream, you don't have to take it so seriously."

Shen Zhao laughed, and kissed Yu Yun's forehead: "Yes, it's a dream, so you won't only have this little happiness, sleep peacefully."

Yu Yun nodded and closed his eyes.

The room quickly returned to silence.

About ten minutes later, Yu Yun opened his eyes again, and in front of him was Shen Zhao's magnified sleeping face. He originally had that kind of good-looking face. When he was asleep, his eyelashes drooped, and he was unexpectedly gentle.

Yu Yun had too many things he didn't understand, and suddenly he didn't want to ask any questions.

If memory is a Pandora's box, never open it.

I... can I trust you?Yu Yun asked silently in her heart.

At this moment, Shen Zhao suddenly embraced him and gave him a strong hug.

His embrace was very warm, his heart was beating "plopppppppp", every sound seemed to be answering——

of course.