I Want to be Alone, Beautifully

How does it feel to see a person who is extremely cold in nature, domineering, presumptuous, and unapproachable in the eyes of others, showing a pitiful cry in front of me?

Shen Yelan imagined it countless times.

However, when this day really came, she realized that the pictures she had imagined were not even one ten-thousandth of the reality.

The person covered in sweat pressed against her weakly and bonelessly, and pressed his forehead against her shoulder feebly, causing the messy, hot and cold breath to pour down on her neck, as well as the gradually unbearable breath. live voice.

have to say--

In fact, Xu Jiao's physical strength is very good. At the beginning, even if she was disturbed by the changing rhythm of ice and fire, she was too clear and didn't say anything that was too rude. Looking into Shen Yelan's eyes, in order to get through this time as soon as possible.

However, Shen Yelan didn't do what she wished, at the moment when Xu Jiao was too focused, she suddenly raised her hand and slowly walked towards the touchable, untouchable, and taboo places of the other party.

Once the rhythm is disrupted, the initiative...

There is no way to get it back.

……

The light outside the window gradually faded from its heyday, and after it faded, it was bit by bit eaten away by the cold night until it was completely swallowed up.

The original movement of the breeze blowing and the rustling of the branches and leaves was replaced by those little things that only dared to jump out of the night skin, calling out from time to time, and I don't know whose attention they want to attract.

The room was completely dark.

No matter how good Xu Jiao's physical strength was, she gradually softened at the moment, and even the part of the quilt that was pressed by her calf, after being sunken, the color of the surface layer also faded into small lumps.

Darkness can always magnify certain disdainful emotions in people's hearts——

So much so that Xu Jiao finally couldn't hold it back, the emotion in her eyes became hazy, and Qingming was completely lost. Relying on the other party's inability to see clearly, she said softly in a tired, pitiful voice:

"Please."

The first cry of pleading was like the first person on the battlefield to raise his hands to surrender, followed by a complete defeat, vulnerable to a single blow.

No matter what requests Shen Yelan makes, there is only one thought left in her mind:

Let's end it quickly.

Let her do anything as long as it ends quickly.

In such a lively picture, the system naturally cannot appear, that is to say, there is not even a voice to reawaken her clarity, like a person who fell into the game but was brutally shut down and returned to the exit of reality——

At the moment of surrender, Xu Jiao's emotions and desires were all given to Shen Yelan's control, and she was in control of life and death. She had to do whatever the other party wanted her to do, and she had no other choice but to be obedient.

At first, it was just physical tears flowing out of her eyes, but in the end, even Xu Jiao couldn't control the sound from her throat anymore, she was like a broken rag doll, calling out that begging and pleading name:

"Shen Yelan."

"Shen Yelan..."

In the hoarse, sobbing voice, all those unspoken requests were exhausted.

At this moment, how does she look like the aloof god before?

This is an ordinary person who was pulled down from the altar by the pagans and lost his godhood... and can only be slaughtered by others, powerlessly and at a loss, begging the enemy for tenderness and forgiveness.

Shen Yelan was finally touched, and changed her movements like giving alms, let Xu Jiao lie down, and then, she covered the man's ear, and chuckled happily:

"continue."

"Sister Xu Jiao keeps calling me, and I will always help you."

"If you stop, then I won't continue."

She wanted to use this method to imprint her name as deeply as possible in Xu Jiao's heart, the more memorable the better, she wanted to let Xu Jiao's future love and desires bear her own brand.

……

The light of the second day came longer than usual.

When Xu Jiao woke up, her whole body was exhausted as if she had been run over by a wheel, her eyelids were extraordinarily heavy, her arms, arms and legs were sore from excessive exercise, and she seemed to have no strength to turn over.

It's all because yesterday was too crazy.

From noon to sunset, and from evening to late night, and in most cases, she was tricked into sweating, so the consumption was naturally not small.

"Are you awake?" The system's voice rang out, the long-lost mechanical voice represented absolute reason, breaking through a road leading to sobriety in Xu Jiao's still chaotic mind.

Xu Jiao slowed down, buried her head in the quilt, and answered after a long time: "Yes."

The system asked: "Do you still think she doesn't like you?"

Xu Jiao: "..."

Her sigh was swallowed by the cotton, without causing any movement in the air.

Opening her eyes and looking around, Xu Jiao found that there was no sign of Shen Yelan on the bed. She stretched out her hand and searched indiscriminately under the blanket. Except for the place where she slept, the surrounding area was cold, which proved that the other party had been away for a long time. up.

Xu Jiao wanted to raise her hand to rub her head, moved her fingers, and then lazily gave up. She maintained her prone sleeping position and asked the system aloud, "Is Shen Yelan still at my house?"

The system can still detect this distance, and immediately replied: "Not here."

Xu Jiao scolded immediately: "This little bastard who doesn't even settle his bill when he's full—"

She laughed out of anger, her muscles ached and she turned over in despair, looking up at the ceiling, staring at the wall lamp for a while, and then slowly closed her eyes.

"I admit that this time I made a mistake in judgment."

Xu Jiao said slowly to the system from the bottom of her heart: "I originally thought that she was just new to this matter, or that she felt that I had taken advantage of it, so she wanted to redouble... um... to humiliate me and let me really feel it." The situation she was in."

but.

But in fact, it's not.

Xu Jiao met Shen Yelan's eyes yesterday while she was sweating profusely. Those eyes were full of concentration, persistence, and an amazing desire to control, as if she wished she could crush herself and eat it bit by bit.

The look in someone's eyes is not deceiving——

When people look at the person they like, there will be temperature in the eyes, either warm, or scorching hot. Anyone who has seen this look will never forget it.

Hearing her answer, the cold voice of the system continued to sound: "I found that your behavior was in conflict with the previous existence. When you found out that Shen Yelan had a tendency to like you, you directly chose to stay away and avoid the relationship with her as much as possible." touch."

"But yesterday, when she asked you to use this method to make up for it, according to your behavior pattern, the possibility of you refusing is very high, but you agreed uncharacteristically. Why?"

"I don't find that you have too much guilt for the previous offense that affects your emotional choices, and you are not a person who will be overwhelmed by desire. According to your previous behavior pattern, I think you I would rather find someone from the street to solve my needs than touch Shen Yelan."

"What changed your mind?"

Xu Jiao: "..."

So she really hates the system.

Raising her hand to feel in the bed, she could only feel for nothing for a long time. Xu Jiao no longer had the energy to direct her arms to work with heavy loads, and asked the system directly: "Where is my phone?"

System: "Yesterday when you were washing the dishes, you left them next to the sink, but you didn't bring them here. Please don't change the subject. Let me get to know you better, so that I can try my best to help you achieve your ultimate goal. I believe you can do it too." I don’t want to travel through time like this.”

After a pause, it said: "After all, there are more than 30 of your novels that have been completed, not to mention some of the deep pit masterpieces that were serialized in the early days..."

"Stop." Xu Jiao warned threateningly: "If you bring up black history again, our topic will be over."

The system was as she wished, and Xu Jiao's earlier works were no longer mentioned.

Xu Jiao was not in a hurry to talk about this, but said to the system: "Order a takeaway for me first? I want to eat maocai, which is slightly spicy. I can order the one on the street in front of our Eighteenth High School. That one is the best." Eat, let me think about what ingredients to add in it, kelp, beef, chicken wing tips..."

The system was silent for two seconds. Seeing her ordering posture, she couldn't help saying, "I'm not your smart butler!"

Xu Jiao softened her voice: "Hey, you probably don't want to see me become the first host in history to starve to death in the world without completing the task?"

"And you, a super artificial intelligence that surpasses existing technology, can't you even do something as simple as ordering food online?"

System: "The aggressive general method is invalid for me."

But after being quiet for two seconds, it continued: "Apart from these, do you want anything else? Rice?"

Xu Jiao hurriedly replied: "One bowl of rice is enough! Well, I also want to add duck intestines, ham, baby vegetables..."

……

Hungry stomach finally settled.

Xu Jiao originally planned to gather her strength to take a shower, but she found that her body was refreshed and cleaned up long ago, so while waiting for the takeaway to arrive, she spent all her time lying on the bed and cushioned herself with a pillow. Until the adjustment is comfortable——

"It's my own problem."

She said slowly in her heart.

The system looked like it was about to get to the bottom of it: "What's the problem?"

Xu Jiao's eyes were half closed, and her long eyelashes fell down, as if she wanted to block her three-acre land, and she didn't even want to let the light enter, her eyes were full of peace.

After exhaling lightly and long, Xu Jiao's voice slowly rang out in the room: "The night I drank too much, I confused her with someone..."

"I don't know if it's because of the wine, or if my memory made a mistake at the time, but I always feel that Shen Yelan that night is very similar to the person I knew, which caused my mind to be distracted when I woke up and saw her. "

"Obviously knowing that I was affected by drunkenness, my memory may be biased, but I... will still subconsciously look for that shadow on Shen Yelan's body."

"When she asked yesterday, I agreed with one gulp—"

"If it was that person, she would not have made such a request. Shen Yelan did."

So, Shen Yelan...just Shen Yelan.

Xu Jiao finally woke herself up from that illusory dream.

Before waiting for the system's response, after Xu Jiao finished speaking, she adjusted her mentality and continued: "I made this choice. If this world still ends in BE, it must be my responsibility. In order to make up for this mistake , I will be more active than before, and I will work hard to eliminate Shen Yelan's blackening value."

"This time it's real," she said emphatically.

System: "...So your efforts in the last world are just pretending to fool me, and you are still passively sabotaging your work, right?"

Xu Jiao laughed: "Oh, with our relationship, how can you tell the truth? It hurts my feelings."

system:"……"

It concluded indifferently: "I hope you will do what you say... After all, before entering this world, I remember someone who promised to be full of love for this world."

Xu Jiao: "?"

She was surprised: "Ah? Is it me?"

When the system was warmed up by her rascal's core, Xu Jiao smiled again and said, "Okay, just kidding, wait, I'll start greeting her when I'm full."

……

Xu Jiao made sure that she was doing well in front of the system.

Even after eating the slightly spicy Maocai meal, he turned around and asked for Shen Yelan's chat account from Su Xi, and forwarded a bunch of high-quality, carefully selected chicken soup articles to it, guaranteeing that people will read it The kind that can sublimate the soul.

pity……

She waited a week for no reply.

After going back to school and filling out the application, Xu Jiao finally couldn't hold back, and sent out a punctuation mark in the dialog box with Shen Yelan.

"?"

Still haven't waited for a reply.

Xu Jiao pursed her lips, threw the phone aside, sat on the desk boredly, casually flipped through the "Walden" she used to hypnotize before going to bed, shook her feet, and noticed that Xiao Huang was under the desk Between her and her legs, rubbing back and forth with that big hairy head.

She enjoyed Xiao Huang's flattery, leaned over and touched its ears softly, then rubbed its head, doubting the system in her heart:

"Did I guess wrong?"

"Or is there a sullen soul under this guy's boring appearance? The one who looks serious but is full of tricks in his heart?"

"If she really likes me, the news of her sweetheart should be returned in seconds, right? Or is she playing hard to get with me?"

Xu Jiao couldn't understand it.

She didn't know that this question of hers would accompany her throughout the summer vacation of her third year of high school.

……

"There is no next time."

Shen Yelan got off the plane, and in the loess-filled Gobi Desert, raised her hand to gather the scarf around her neck, and said coldly to Dongqing who came to pick her up.

Dongqing raised her hand and patted her on the shoulder vigorously, and slapped her reelingly with a smile: "Little friend, don't be ungrateful. You didn't have this attitude when you begged me to help you make money. Why now I have something to ask for?" You, will you turn your face and deny anyone?"

"It's not good to be a scumbag, apprentice." She taught earnestly.

However, Shen Yelan's complexion was still as ice and snow, and she was not easily melted by her attitude. After standing upright again, she looked at the surrounding environment, and looked at Dongqing emphatically, with a bit of anger in her tone:

"Is that what you said, you just have one breath left, bedridden and just want to see me for the last time?"

"Now it's time to shine?"

Dongqing touched her nose, raised her eyebrows, and said again: "I'm really short of people, so I'm afraid you won't come? Hey, look at your stinky face. Why, I called you out of the bed before you even ate. down?"

Shen Yelan gritted her teeth and remained silent.

I have eaten it——

However, after she received the news, she didn't even have time to take care of Xu Jiao, so she just left her at home. She planned to get off the plane and send a message to explain, and then ordered a lighter takeaway. As a result, the signal along the way was only a weak bar.

She was depressed, and said to Dongqing: "Stop talking nonsense, and quickly take me to a place with a signal."

Holly smiled and didn't move.

Shen Yelan inexplicably had a bad premonition: "What?"

Holly looked at the sky pretending to be brisk: "You know, this area is chaotic, and there are always inexplicable stray bombs flying around."

"So?" Shen Yelan asked patiently.

Holly: "So just one second before you came, our signal base station was blown up by mistake, and people from foreign base station companies stationed here happened to be kidnapped again. It won't wait two months, it will probably be restored." No signal."

Shen Yelan: "..."

Shen Yelan: "???"

She looked back and forth in astonishment, and asked again: "Then what if you didn't pick me up today?"

Dongqing let out a haha, and patted Shen Yelan's arm vigorously again: "How could it be! Disciple, you are lucky and lucky, how could you not find me? For the sake of our years of relationship, I will be here Waiting for you here until twelve o'clock in the evening! How about it, are you loyal enough?"

Hearing her words, Shen Yelan suddenly felt an urge to kill his teacher.

In other words, if I couldn't reunite with Dongqing due to some accident today, then I could only resign myself to fate in this unfamiliar corner and live on my previous sparse skills.

Seeing that the murderous intent in her eyes was about to condense, Dongqing knew she was wrong, and humbly gave up her position to Shen Yelan, and said:

"Don't be angry, apprentice, you see that you came to stay with me for three months. Our boss is very generous with this order. When you go back to school, what kind of girlfriend do you want, right?"

Shen Yelan remained unmoved, sat in the car and closed his eyes to rest, and said lightly:

"I just want that one."

Dongqing recalled the appearance of Xu Jiao she had seen in the clubhouse at that time. She held Shen Yelan's seat with one hand in the back row, leaned over and looked at her with her head tilted: "I didn't expect that I would teach you a kind of love." ?”

Shen Yelan didn't say a word.

After driving off-road, bumping on the rough road, Dongqing had nothing to do, continued to gossip, and asked Shen Yelan: "Then how long have you liked her?"

"She likes you too?"

All of a sudden, the vehicle passed a deep hole, almost knocking all the people in the vehicle out of their seats. Shen Yelan raised her hand in time to grab the handle on the top, stabilized her body, opened her eyes, and looked at the car calmly. Looking at the scenery ahead.

Although Dongqing has never had any unforgettable love, she is also someone who has seen the world in Fengyuechang. Seeing her so calm appearance, how can she not guess the answer, and when she sat down again, she sighed.

A sentence of education came from the back row:

"Good apprentice, listen to Master's advice—"

"Passionate since ancient times, empty of hate."

Shen Yelan turned her head to look at her indifferently, and continued the next sentence with a blank face: "The origin of good dreams is the easiest to wake up from. It comes from "Flowers and Moonshen" by Wei Zi'an in the Qing Dynasty. Being able to hold back such a poem will tire you out." Are you out of your mind?"

holly:"……"

The scumbag who was exposed by Xueba slapped his seat and said murderously: "Today I will clean up the house as a teacher! Don't anyone stop me!"

……

Shen Yelan squatted in that crappy corner for more than two months.

If she hadn't decided to volunteer to fill in the report earlier, she would have had to follow Dongqing in the future. She was late even for the school report, missed the guidance of her seniors, and obediently went to the college office.

Therefore, the counselor also educated her earnestly: "We will regard it as giving up the degree automatically within a week of the start of the semester. If you have something to do, you can call the college to ask for leave, but this can no longer be the case."

The dusty Shen Yelan bowed her head and apologized: "I'm sorry, teacher, next time I will be there early."

Before getting to know all the freshmen's personalities, the counselor didn't mind making a good impression on the new students. After exhorting the new students in a business-like manner, he uncovered the matter and gave Shen Yelan all the information about the previous freshmen. There is also a general map of the school.

After Shen Yelan finished the process, she turned all the way to find her dormitory building on the huge campus. After tidying up the dormitory and briefly saying hello to her dormmates, she finally figured out that she had no signal and no electricity behind her. Too lazy to charge the mobile phone, plug it in again, and turn it on.

A bunch of junk messages popped up, accompanied by strange group messages.

Before being contacted by Su Xi, she didn't download this chat software at all, so she didn't set the filter for adding friends. At this moment, there are everyone in it, and all group messages are jumping around.

In this pile of news, there was a person's profile picture that she was somewhat familiar with.

It's a giggly big yellow dog.

Shen Yelan has seen her several times.

At the same time, there are a series of shared articles in it, and at the end, a question mark is sent over, as if to test whether I am there.

This person's name is...

“My dog ​​is super cute”

Shen Yelan: "..."

She opened up those shared articles one by one. Although they were a bit out of date, she still read them patiently, and sent an editorial message:

"Is it Miss Xu Jiao?"

"Sorry, something happened to my friend before, I left in a hurry, so I didn't have time to contact you, where are you now?"

……

"What kind of friend can keep her offline for three months?"

"System, do you believe this reason? Anyway, I don't believe it."

Xu Jiao was studying by herself in the old teaching building with her friends, and when she heard the movement of her mobile phone, she picked it up and looked at it for a long time, criticizing Shen Yelan's lame reason from the bottom of her heart.

The system was silent for two seconds, "But she never lies, at least to you, doesn't she?"

Xu Jiao pursed her lips, "Wait, I'll talk to her after I finish this set of six levels."

Then Xu Jiao became obsessed with the sea of ​​questions, and accidentally stayed in the classroom until almost eleven o'clock in the evening. She was the only one left in the whole classroom. The gate is closed.

Xu Jiao nodded casually, thinking about the answer to the reading question she just asked.

At this moment, the classroom door was pushed open again——

Xu Jiao thought it was the security guard who came to remind her, so she raised her eyes casually, but saw a person with a darker complexion than before, a little familiar, but also a little strange.

It's Shen Yelan.

The reason why I say unfamiliar is because the feeling on this person has changed. The black eyes that people dare not look directly at in the past are now like tempered blades, exuding a sharp cold light, and the darkened eyes outside the corridor Still shining brightly in the light.

It's autumn in the north now, and the temperature drops at night. Shen Yelan wore a very thin gray windbreaker. The coat was long enough to reach her calves. As she walked, it caused a flying arc.

She closed the classroom door behind her back, covering the silence of the room again, and walked towards Xu Jiao's direction step by step.

Xu Jiao raised her eyebrows and said the same words as when they met last time: "Long time no see."

Shen Yelan stopped in front of her, looked down at the papers on her desk, and asked in a low voice with a hoarse voice:

"I sent you a message back, didn't sister Xu Jiao see it?"

Xu Jiao let out an "ah" and realized later: "I forgot to return—but how do you know I'm here?"

"If I remember correctly, we don't seem to be a professional."

Shen Yelan stared at her for two seconds, and in her understatement of "forgot", she was quiet for a long time before answering: "I have learned from the cafeteria, your college classroom, the dormitory of your department, and the school that is far away from your major. , the teaching building near the dormitory, I found them one by one."

Xu Jiao was speechless to herself.

She knew how big the school was, but just hearing about the project of finding someone made people feel hopeless.

Shen Yelan is really...

Before she could figure out how to describe this person, she suddenly saw Shen Yelan walking up to her, raising her arms to hug her, lowering her head and smelling the smell of the new shampoo in her hair, with uncontrollable emotions in her voice, deep Shen said:

"I miss you."

Xu Jiao: "..."

Did she take the initiative to deliver it to her door before she had any influence?

The problem is that the two of them don't seem to be lovers, what should I pick up?

Xu Jiao hesitated for two seconds, and was about to politely answer "Me too", when Shen Yelan let go of her hand, lowered her eyes and said firmly, "I want you."

Xu Jiao: "...?"

She tapped the pen on the topic, and calmly replied: "Just think about it." She didn't even look at where it was.

Hearing her rejection, Shen Yelan didn't know why, her eyes were filled with emotion, she suddenly raised her hand and pressed the back of her hand holding the pen, and said word by word:

"I want you."

"Right now."

"This is the second time."

Xu Jiao was shocked by her declaration, the pen fell out of her hand, and she asked the system in her heart: "Did I go the wrong way? It's not enough to influence her with love, I can only..."

"Melt with your body?"