Evil and punishment [criminal investigation]

Nie Cheng held him tightly, "Don't worry, listen to me. Whether it's traditional ideas or Yingzi's affairs, I'm not sure how much I am affected by these things. Maybe I need time to break through these things like you said. shackles, but I know what I will and will not do. Even if we are not together, I will never marry other women, let alone fall in love with others. I just said that I cannot establish an intimate relationship with others, but in In my heart, we are already..." There was rare anxiety and choking in his voice.

Jiang Zhun hardened his heart and planned to stand up.

Nie Cheng unbuttoned his clothes, and his voice was deliberately lowered, "I didn't mean to reject you. If you don't believe me, you can fuck me now. Although I feel a little ashamed, if it's you, I can. I am very willing. You are the person I admire and trust the most. Can you understand?"

Jiang Zhun, who originally planned to leave him to calm down, couldn't bear his posture. The tingling pain spread from the apex of his heart. He re-buttoned him, held his hands tightly again, maintained a half-squat position, hugged him Hold Nie Cheng with his elbows on his knees.

His emotions fluctuated with Nie Cheng's rapid breathing, and his body was slightly hot, but emotions could not solve the problem, so he calmed himself down and slowed down his attitude.

So he kissed the back of Nie Cheng's hand, and said softly face to face: "I don't understand. I just hope you can be my partner, if you love me, why is it difficult? Or tell me what kind of life you want ?”

Nie Cheng knew that Jiang Zhun had fallen out with his family early in order to persist in this relationship, and he was willing to be coerced by emotions, and he persisted with reason. If he bluntly said that the life he wanted seemed to be a request to him, he would be a little embarrassed to say it, but Now is not the time to be polite.

"We live together like we are now, like partners, but we don't belong to each other." Nie Cheng said calmly and accurately.

Jiang Zhun stared at him in astonishment, his heart hurting from his last sentence.

He suddenly felt that Nie Cheng didn't really believe in this relationship. He thought that his "not understanding" would make Nie Cheng more anxious, and he realized his own feelings when he was thinking about how to convey them, but on the contrary, he didn't understand. It might be him who the other party thought.

He found that Nie Cheng's thoughts might be a bit messy, but his thoughts were always clear. He couldn't figure out why he wanted to live like this, but he knew what he wanted to live.

Don't belong to each other... Jiang Zhun chewed this sentence repeatedly.

"I understand." He let go of Nie Cheng, stood up, and took a step back, "You don't hesitate to break your oath to be a policeman, you love this job more than most things in your life, you don't want to violate discipline in your heart, you Think I'm talking about a partner being the same as getting married, and you just want to be in a relationship. It seems to you that as long as you don't acknowledge the relationship, you're fine, right? Why are you suppressing your love? Is it shameful?"

Nie Cheng was dumbfounded, looking up at him blankly, feeling shocked that Jiang Zhun's analysis of the first half of the reason seemed to be correct, he seemed to think so, but he had never thought about the second half of the conclusion, these words are very strange .

He didn't know how to communicate with him for a moment.

While he was thinking about his state of mind, Jiang Zhun had already changed his clothes.

"You want to go?" Nie Cheng's tone was also a little angry. He strode to the door and blocked the anti-theft door. Seeing that he didn't have any luggage in his hand, he calmed down a little. He stood at the place where they kissed not long ago, feeling disappointed Said, "I thought we would be able to give an answer to this question today."

"I need to calm down and think about it, it won't be long."

"it is good."

Jiang Zhun drove out of the community, walked around the road twice and didn't know where to go.He didn't want to go home, it was too deserted, he wanted to talk to someone about this matter, but no one knew about their relationship.

He went through the people he knew in his mind and ran to Wensheng Law Firm.

He didn't say hello again and again, but he didn't expect this time to be in vain. Shen Chengwen was not in the court today because of the court session.He turned around and left. After a while, Shen Chengwen's call came, "You went to the office to find me? I have a court hearing in the morning, and then I went home directly. Come to my house."

Shen Chengwen lived in a high-end apartment in the city center. He could overlook the city from the balcony. He bought the penthouse, which also had an attic.

He poured two glasses of red wine and kept looking at Jiang Zhun, "What's going on, the state is not right."

"I want to ask you for help with something, let's talk to you."

"Yes, but you will be charged for chatting with me."

"no problem."

Shen Chengwen was taken aback, what's wrong with this guy, shouldn't he push me back?

"Do you know about me and Nie Cheng?"

"What's the matter with you?"

"Emotional matters."

Shen Chengwen was shocked: "Are you coming out with me, or are you two?"

Jiang Zhun raised his eyes, "You don't know?"

Shen Chengwen's astonishment became a little embarrassing, and he smiled: "Actually, I saw a little bit of it. You two were pretty good when you were in college...I'm not sure after working."

"When a person grows up, there are more things to think about." Jiang Zhun rubbed his brows with his finger bones and said.

He roughly talked about what happened between the two of them, skipping over the details and intimate parts, focusing on what Nie Cheng said today.

"To be honest, I really don't understand what he was thinking, and then the conversation fell apart." Jiang Zhun said dejectedly.

Shen Chengwen crossed Erlang's legs, crossed his hands on his knees, gave a meaningful "hmm", and said, "I was a trainee lawyer and I specialized in marriage cases when I first practiced. I have encountered all kinds of relationship problems. You Ah, it's not a problem at all."

He wanted to keep it a secret, but when he saw Jiang Zhun's quickly sinking face, he suddenly realized that his counseling skills were too proficient, and he didn't use the right place. Seeing that he was about to be beaten, he quickly changed his words: "It's not a problem, it's a knot in my heart. Don't worry about what Nie Cheng thinks, let me ask you what you think, he has already said that he loves you, what kind of life do you want?"

"I want him to be my partner."

"Specifically? Like sleeping in the same bed, or saying goodnight to each other every night?"

"I hope he belongs to me, in the emotional part. He is consciously living with me as my lover, and we have to take responsibility for each other, care, love, and be loyal."

"Are you worried about him cheating?"

"No, he won't."

"He didn't care about you?"

"No."

"Do you think your life would be different now if he admitted that he was your partner?"

Jiang Zhun thought for a while, "I know my relationship is confirmed."

"And then, tell the world?"

"No, but maybe I will hint it to a close friend?" Jiang Zhun asked uncertainly.

"What about other than that?"

"You can ask for kisses without any psychological burden."

"He rejects you now?"

"No, but... no." He originally wanted to say that Nie Cheng was not active enough, but when he thought about it carefully, it was because Nie Cheng was shy in this regard and had never been very proactive.

"That is, there is no substantial difference?"

"If you mean formally, maybe so."

Shen Chengwen sized him up with a bewildered expression, touched his chin and said, "Why do I feel that you are looking for trouble?"

"What did you say?" Jiang Zhun was taken aback.

"My feeling is that you two are living a good life. You have to press your head to get Nie Cheng to admit that you are a partner. This request itself is really not too much, but Nie Cheng cares unexpectedly about this point, and then you are not happy. In the cases I have encountered, and I have learned that many foreign partners have become neighbors, economically separated, and emotionally more independent, but they are indeed lovers, do you think they fit your view of partners?"

Shen Chengwen spread his hands, and continued: "You said you didn't want to show off by being a handsome guy, and Nie Cheng didn't refuse to make out with you, why did you insist on it?"

Jiang Zhun thought for a while following his words, and came to a conclusion: "For peace of mind."

"Well, if he doesn't admit that he's your partner, do you think you have moral issues and are forcing him?" Shen Chengwen thought for a while and asked.

Jiang Zhun's heart moved, and he nodded hesitantly. He felt that Shen Chengwen's understanding hit the bull's-eye.

Nie Cheng's "don't belong to each other" hurt his heart. In his understanding, this is tantamount to breaking up tactfully, and then maintain a lover's lifestyle because of years of relationship and both are single. Thinking about it now, this It's just his understanding, Nie Cheng may not think so.

In the same way, he felt that if he didn't recognize the partnership, he couldn't have sex with him calmly, but Nie Cheng didn't think so.In fact, he had expressed it very directly at that time, but he did not receive it.

I misunderstood, Jiang Zhun thought, covering his mouth and chin with his hands.

Shen Chengwen's words are a bit enlightening. No wonder this lawyer is so successful. He couldn't help but look at him a little bit higher and asked, "Then can you understand Nie Cheng's thinking?"

"I feel that understanding or not is only one aspect, and tolerance is the most important thing. Have you ever heard a saying that changing yourself is a god, and changing others is a psychosis. You might as well consider whether you can let go of this obsession. "Shen Chengwen suggested.

Jiang Zhun faced each other with both hands, thought for a while and said, "From this point of view, I can let it go."

Shen Chengwen patted his thigh: "Isn't that all right! What's better than having someone by your side?"

Jiang Zhun rarely nodded sincerely to his words.

"But I still want to know Nie Cheng's logic, and how he views our relationship." Jiang Zhun said confused.

Shen Chengwen nodded thoughtfully, then rubbed his hands and leaned forward, "Nie Cheng's thoughts are very complicated, many causes and one effect. I have always been particularly interested in him."

"Huh?" Jiang Zhun raised his eyebrows.

"Don't get me wrong, I have always wanted to recruit him as the Minister of Criminal Prosecutions. I must know more about it. And you also know that I have a hero complex, and I admire him and Zhengyu very much." Shen Chengwen smiled.

"so?"

"Aren't you particularly concerned about the 'retribution'? I think he has a survivor mentality and is prone to feel guilty towards those around him. What you said about PTSD is also reasonable, not to mention that he has a medical history. Based on what I know about him, as a friend Understood, definitely not as deep as you, he seems to be suppressing himself all the time. You remember that once Zhengyu and I secretly went to your grappling and fighting class, and then insisted on going to the field to practice, you threatened that you were afraid of making a mistake and throwing me into a concussion , don’t play with me.”

Shen Chengwen couldn't help laughing. Recalling the past, his tone was a bit brisk, "I went to find Nie Cheng, he was easy to talk, and he agreed to let me feel it. At that time, my eyes blurred, and I was lying on the ground. Meng, especially Violent! At that time, I felt that Nie Cheng was actually very aggressive, and he didn’t talk too much. You can’t separate him from daily life by saying that he was fighting. Don’t forget that he still had thorns and thorns when he was in school. When I was in the limelight, but I really haven't seen it after graduation, I mean that state."

His words also touched Jiang Zhun's memory. In the past three years, he was so familiar with the forbearing, resolute, and silent Nie Cheng that he almost forgot the brisk, laughing, and unyielding young man.

Where did his aggressiveness go?

"Growing is one aspect. Did you encounter any problems after working, such as pressure from your superiors?" Shen Chengwen asked.

"His master is a very conservative person."

"How is his relationship with his master?"

"Father and son are the same."

Shen Chengwen nodded towards him, "This may be the key. He was deeply influenced by his master, but he was in conflict with his own inner thoughts. In addition, he experienced the death of his relatives, and many complicated reasons made him cautious and conservative. It's normal to be suspicious. Forcing him to admit a certain identity is also a kind of depression, can't you be more considerate?"

Jiang Zhun stared at the ground in front of him as if static, and was silent for a long time. He was not thinking about Nie Cheng's question or Shen Chengwen's analysis.

"You're right, maybe you know him better than I do." Jiang Zhun said sadly.

His words must have scared Shen Chengwen so much that he almost jumped off his chair, and quickly stated: "I'm just a bystander, and I'm superficial. The specifics still have to be combined with your understanding of him." Then he changed the subject and said, "Speaking of which, your high school I know you, after all these years, why didn't you get rid of him earlier?"

Jiang Zhun smiled, "How do you call it done?"

Although it was only three years ago that they confirmed their relationship with their bodies for the first time, it was not without intimacy before that. Even as early as graduating from high school, Jiang Zhun believed that their lives should be closely connected. He felt that this was also Nie Cheng's idea .

But due to rationality and reality, they are all waiting for the test of time. Busy work and various worries are flooding their lives, and the two tacitly maintain their tacit love.

In fact, it is also a kind of beauty, Jiang Zhun thought.

"Thank you very much today." Jiang Zhun looked at the time, it was exactly two hours, "The consultation fee will be transferred to you later."

Knowing that he was going back to talk to Nie Cheng, Shen Chengwen didn't keep him, so he got up and sent him to the door, saying, "I'm just kidding, you're serious."

Jiang Zhun waved his hand at the door, signaling that he didn't need to see him off.

Shen Chengwen carefully and thoughtfully told him to drive carefully, and after closing the door, he breathed a sigh of relief. When he talked about the survivor's mentality just now, he was really worried.

Jiang Zhun may have forgotten what he was like before. Although Jiang Huai didn't go to his house anymore after his death, he occasionally met him. Every time he met, he was very nervous. He didn't want to see his suppressed pain, nor did he To his cold eyes.

When he learned that he was assigned to a dormitory with him in college, he almost chose to repeat his studies for a year to study abroad. Only after contacting him did he realize that he was much better. He was positively influenced by Nie Cheng.

Judging by the personalities of these two people and Jiang Zhun's set of moral theories, he should be the stronger party in the relationship, right?Shen Chengwen silently put a question mark in his heart.

Jiang Zhun, who bid farewell to Shen Chengwen, also had a silent question in his heart, Shen Chengwen was a good analyst, why was he still single?