Evil and punishment [criminal investigation]

It is cold and dry in the north in December, and the bare trees add to the depression.

Wei Yuan Psychological Clinic is a clinic with medical qualifications. It is located on the first and second floors of office buildings around the commercial street in He'an District.

Nie Cheng was wearing a mask and registered at the front desk. Hu Xiaofei came to pick him up at the door. The two of them didn't talk much, and only started chatting when they arrived at her office.

"The next consultant has an appointment in an hour, and we have limited time. What happened?" Hu Xiaofei brought him a cup of tea and asked straight to the point.

On the phone, Nie Cheng only said that he had something to ask for advice, and asked her when she was free, and did not make an appointment for consultation, so she was not counted as her consultant.

"I have a friend who experienced some things before that induced PTSD, and his condition has improved a lot in the past few years, but he suddenly became ill again last month, and," Nie Cheng said after deliberation, "a memory gap appeared. Wake up After coming, he..."

"Sorry." Hu Xiaofei said, "It might be impolite to interrupt you, but I've heard the beginning of 'I have a friend' too much, so I made it clear in advance that we can't do consultations with acquaintances, and pay attention to protecting your privacy. If you really have such a friend, you still need him to come and tell me himself."

Nie Cheng's face turned hot, but his expression was still natural, "I just want to ask your opinion, whether it is effective to need a psychologist to intervene in this situation, or should I go to the hospital for treatment."

"If his current condition is not bad, he might as well try counseling first, and take medicine if he can save it. It is also possible to find a psychologist in the hospital, but he must use a medical insurance card and may leave a record. If you come to us, it is recommended Our Director Wei Yuan." Hu Xiaofei smiled.

The atmosphere became more relaxed, and Nie Cheng also relaxed, and said straightforwardly: "Then can I trouble you to introduce this Director Wei Yuan for me?"

Hu Xiaofei didn't tease him, but brought him a form with basic information and questions, and then went out to arrange time.Not long after Nie Cheng finished filling it out carefully, she returned to the consulting room and said, "Director Wei has time now, and his next consultant will be in an hour and a half. Would you like to arrange an hour for you? His consulting fee is acceptable." ?"

Nie Cheng nodded, "Help me arrange it."

Hu Xiaofei took him to Wei Yuan's office, and winked at him, assuring that she would keep the stories about "a friend" he just told a secret.

Nie Cheng smiled and thanked him, and knocked on the door of Wei Yuan's office.

"Please come in."

Pushing open the door and walking in, he saw Wei Yuan making coffee. There were two cups in front of him, one of which was prepared for him.

Wei Yuan is 37 and eight years old. He is of medium build, with a neat side part, wearing gold-rimmed glasses with thin legs, and his eyes are sharp. He nodded and smiled at Nie Cheng politely, and said, "Please sit down. Do you want milk in the coffee?" ?”

"Director Wei, I'm sorry." Nie Cheng said hello, and sat on the swivel chair opposite the desk to look at him.

The documents on the table are placed in one corner, and there are no decorations that can act as barriers on the table between the two chairs, such as pen holders, photo frames, desk calendars, etc. Behind the desk is a wall of bookcases, painted in log color, all the cabinets They all have wooden cabinet doors, and you can't see what tomes are inside, and you can't see the spines of the books with various terms for mental illness.

Looking at Wei Yuan's back, he was browsing the form he had just filled out, with his back turned to him, giving him time to familiarize himself with the environment.

From the back view, he can feel that he is confident in his professional field. Thinking about it, he is just one of thousands of consultants for experienced professional consultants like Wei Yuan.

Nie Cheng relaxed a little, and when Wei Yuan brought the coffee in front of him, he had already calmed down completely.

"Mr. Nie, what happened recently?" Wei Yuan asked.

Nie Cheng clasped his hands in front of him, pressed his thumbs together and separated them, and said, "Some time ago, I suddenly had a memory gap of five hours." Then, he raised his head and looked at Wei Yuan, temporarily not intending to continue talking. .

"Has there been a similar situation before?" Wei Yuan asked,

Nie Cheng shook his head.

"What did you do before this blank time?"

"Eat dinner at home, read for a while, then don't quite remember."

"Dinner," Wei Yuan wrote down his words, and asked again, "After the free time, when did you start to have memories?"

"Several hours later. I fell asleep in the middle, and found that I forgot something after waking up." Nie Cheng said.

"Did you sleep?"

"Correct."

"Are you still at home when you wake up?"

"No, it's in the hospital." Nie Cheng hesitated and said, "Anding Hospital, I have PTSD."

Hearing the psychological terms, Wei Yuan was a little surprised, sat up straight involuntarily, glanced at the basic information form, and asked, "Is this the previous medical experience?"

"Yes."

"Is the induction of PTSD related to your occupation, Officer Nie?" Wei Yuan asked.

"related."

"When did the triggering event occur?"

"Two years ago."

"Have you had any symptoms lately?"

"Some insomnia."

"Can't sleep all night?"

"No. I don't take sleeping pills. I'm afraid that it will affect my work the next day, and I also worry about becoming dependent. I usually have to stay up until two or three o'clock."

Wei Yuan simply made some notes, and most of the time he focused on Nie Cheng, and the conversation was uninterrupted. He asked, "Can you tell me about what happened two years ago?"

This question triggered the memory switch in Nie Cheng's mind, and the complicated images and screams flashed across his mind in an instant, and the sharp pain and thick hatred poured out from his heart, as if returning to the time when the incident happened again, Recording transcripts again and again, repeating the case to colleagues; spending night after night with eyes open, once falling asleep, it will be a series of nightmares.Even if Jiang Zhun was with him, he would inadvertently lose his mind, as if he was at the scene of a crime, and he would even hear piercing screams in his ears, and sometimes he would stand up suddenly while eating in the restaurant, and look around blankly...

stop!

His hands that were calmly clasped just now were tightly clenched, and he sat on the chair quietly as if he had gone through a [-]-meter sprint, panting lightly, and had to suppress his breathing to keep calm.

Wei Yuan did not divert the question, but waited patiently.

"I...can't do it yet." After a while, Nie Cheng calmed down and said.

Wei Yuan nodded, and asked again: "Did you encounter traumatic situations or things that frightened you during your free time?"

"I don't know. But I think something important must have happened during this time, and I want to recall."

"Okay, I'll help you. When was the last time you had symptoms?"

"More than a year ago, during the execution of the mission."

"What were the symptoms at that time?"

"Cold sweat, shaking hands, a little nausea, but nothing serious."

"Have you ever had amnesia before?"

"No."

"What scene reminds you of those things?"

"The female corpses at the murder scene are mainly this." Nie Cheng said.

"You know your own situation very well, and from your description, the onset has also improved, which is a good thing. PTSD is a stress disorder. It is important to adjust your state and mentality, but if you don't solve the root problem, you will still It will recur. Your amnesia this time is probably also caused by PTSD. To recover the blank memory, you must first face the past and face your traumatic events." Wei Yuan said.

Nie Cheng was silent.Doctor Ma also advised him to remember the past before forgetting.Although he was afraid of that incident, he didn't completely forget it like this amnesia, but he just didn't want to face it again.

Although it is indeed easier to tell Wei Yuan these things than to face Hu Xiaofei who he once knew, but there are too many secrets about the Guo Ying case and this incident, he dare not easily confide all his feelings to an unfamiliar psychiatrist.

"I know your profession is special," Wei Yuan saw his concerns, "Don't worry, I also have my professional principles, respect the privacy of patients, and will not tell anyone without your consent. But the process of treatment requires surrounding You can’t be too secretive about the support of other people, if you have close people around you, you might as well ask them for help.”

Nie Cheng thought about it, hesitated to speak, and finally just nodded and said, "Okay."

The rest of the topic was lighter, but he was still not completely out of vigilance.

An hour passed in a blink of an eye, and Nie Cheng only took a symbolic sip of the coffee in front of him.

When he left Wei Yuan's office, the lady at the front desk thoughtfully handed him a glass of water and asked him if he would make an appointment for the next consultation.Nie Cheng hesitated a little and made an appointment for this Sunday afternoon.

Psychotherapy takes time, and he didn't plan to see any effect in one go.Although his previous attending physician, Dr. Ma, was very good, but he knew his situation too well, so it was difficult for him to speak to her about this matter.Wei Yuan's method is well-regulated without any deviation, and it was recommended by Hu Xiaofei. He needs a doctor, so he plans to continue to try.

Seeing that he was willing to continue consulting, the front desk lady began to introduce the membership recharge system to him.Nie Cheng applied for the membership card with a little helplessness, remembering to say goodbye to Hu Xiaofei, and asked her if she had time now.The front desk said that Dr. Hu is doing consultation now, so I'm afraid it's inconvenient.

Nie Cheng expressed his understanding, sent her a message, and walked out of the consultation clinic.

The chilly wind on the first floor of the office building refreshed him a bit. The one-hour consultation was like an exam without gunpowder smoke.He shook his head secretly, looking forward to Sunday's consultation again.

Except for the bloody hoodie at home, everything went well for the next few days, and I didn't find my secret rubbing arrangement again.There was no major case at the district bureau, and there was no new development about the discovery of the body by the river on December 12. Only Zhang Jieming sent him frequent messages. This week, he sent the amount for half a year this year, implying that Jiang Zhun’s condition is not good. opposite.

It has been two years since he left the branch office and has not contacted Jiang Zhun again.But on Tuesday, when Wei Yuan talked about "people close to him", the first thing he thought of was Jiang Zhun, even though the name was followed by a series of sweet or astringent memories.

Not to mention anything else, as far as he is eating beef ramen now, Jiang Zhun brought him here.The soup is clear and meaty, the noodles are yellow and bright, and then half a bowl of chili red oil is dyed, just looking at it makes people greedy.Jiang Zhun said that before he moved when he was a child, his father always brought him here for breakfast.

Just for this bowl of beef ramen, Nie Cheng thought maybe he should take the initiative, someone has to take the first step.

He opened the address book and followed the alphabet to J. His fingers stopped on those two words for a long time, trembling a few times but did not press down.

One, two, three, returning to his senses, he slammed the side of the phone to lock the screen, exhaled twice, put the phone in his pocket, checked out and left.

After returning home, he took a bath to warm up his body, and lay down under the blanket irritably.

After three o'clock, I watched the strong wind blow away the night outside the window, and the milky white morning light lit up.