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Chen Zihang sat across from Chu Shaoyang.He didn't like this situation, and he didn't even need to raise his head to know what kind of cold gaze the person opposite was looking at him.

But this is not what he wants, he wants to hug Chu Shaoyang, he wants to tell the only person he has always liked that this is not like this, he wants to say a lot...

No one knows how much Chu Shaoyang struggled during the week he left.

It was really pushed to the limit, Chen Zihang lowered his head, the dark color in his eyes was exaggerated.This week, in addition to texting and calling Chu Shaoyang every day, he actually wanted to go directly to Chu Shaoyang countless times, but he endured it again.

Because he doesn't know what to do.He didn't know what was the right thing to do.He originally thought that he had chosen the right path, but Chu Shaoyang told him at home that he was wrong.

But no matter what...you still have to make it clear.

"Chu Shaoyang, have you thought about our future?" Chen Zihang lowered his head, the black-haired boy looked sad and dull, and his lowered head looked like a big dog, but his words were calm And low, "I have thought about it."

Chu Shaoyang raised his brows, thinking about what the fuck you are asking, if he hadn't thought that he might be with Chen Zihang?But he still answered patiently, "Of course I thought about it, you haven't forgotten, right? I told you, we went abroad and got a marriage license. If it wasn't for this old man, I wouldn't be like this..."

"Then what else?" Sitting across from him, the still, sculpture-like boy finally raised his head, his dark eyes seemed to hold a whole starry sky, "What else? Family, friends, or... external force?"

"I've been thinking about this." Chen Zihang didn't bow his head this time, but stared straight at Chu Shaoyang with a flat tone, "I don't know what your family is like—doting or pampering, but you must understand , you have to know that not everyone's family is like yours."

If Chen Zihang hadn't met Chu Shaoyang, he probably wouldn't have the courage to come out in his life. Although he looks like an extremely proud person, he has a lower self-esteem than anyone else in his heart, or he will force himself to straighten himself in the future, or If you don't get married for the rest of your life, you still have to suffer all the time, until you are old, and you will not be able to escape until this life.

But there are not so many ifs.The fact is that he met Chu Shaoyang, and he has someone he really likes, so even if he stepped on the tip of a knife, he still has to go on. Only he himself knows how profound the weight is.

All his persistence since he was 17 years old, the severing of relations by his parents, the incomprehension of the people around him, the discrimination of everyone, even if he was betrayed by his relatives, no one would accompany him. He knew the consequences clearly, but he would still... go down.

"I was born in a rural family, so I can't say I have prejudice, but in their view, homosexuality is a kind of disease, which is very normal." Chen Zihang said indifferently, as if he was talking about other people's affairs, "It's not like there are such examples. A few years ago, when I was a kid, I watched a gay couple in love get sent to a mental hospital, and in there, really go crazy."

He still remembered that when he was only a few years old, he looked at the crazy old man with disheveled hair in the village and was very puzzled, but when he asked the adults, the result was that he was "ill".I have a very serious illness, what kind of illness?I like men's diseases.

This incident caused an extremely serious psychological shadow on him who was still young. From that moment on, he knew clearly that if he chose this path, the consequences would be irreversible.

It's just that if feelings are so easy to control, then it's not called feelings.

"Chu Qingqing's matter is hidden from you, I'm sorry," Chen Zihang suddenly changed the subject, his eyes were slightly red, but there was no tear, "I don't know what you mean by the girlfriend you said to me. No, and it is absolutely impossible to say that I want her to be my girlfriend on any occasion."

While talking, he paid attention to Chu Shaoyang's expression, but he could only see a calm look on the latter's face.

"Are you...baby kiss?" Chen Zihang was still smart, and he guessed the reason immediately, "This matter was ordered by my parents, but it was just a joke. We said that but we didn't get together later. There are a lot of people, and they haven't mentioned much over the years, so I didn't expect..."

I didn't expect it to be brought up, I didn't expect Chu Shaoyang to know this.

"I'm sorry for hiding the matter about Chu Qingqing from you. I know she may have feelings for me, but I want to deal with it before you know it." Chen Zihang lowered his head, "But it's really my fault. I didn't treat you completely. Be honest, sorry."

Chen Zihang is not a god.He wouldn't know that Chu Qingqing's family had been educating her that the outstanding brother next door to her was her future husband since she was a child, and he wouldn't know that Chu Qingqing worked so hard to get into Shangyang for him for this reason, let alone Maybe he knew that this child whom he had always treated as a sister next door had secretly wanted to be close to him—he knew a lot, but he didn't know more.

When Chen Zihang finally realized that something was wrong after Chu Qingqing came to him again and again, he subconsciously chose to hide it—because of his family, his future, and various other considerations, he chose to hide it. Then find a way to resolve this matter tactfully.

From the beginning to the end, Chu Shaoyang did not speak.After he finished speaking, Chu Shaoyang remained silent for a long time.

"Oh." Chu Shaoyang finally spoke, but Chen Zihang's heart sank.There is no other reason, the sarcasm in Chu Shaoyang's words is too obvious.

"OK, your words are right, no problem, and the reason is great," Chu Shaoyang tapped his finger on the glass table lightly, with a mocking tone, "I also admit that I really don't think as much as you do."

Those worries and considerations mentioned by Chen Zihang just now, Chu Shaoyang really didn't think about it, and he didn't think about it, because he was spoiled by his family and grew up, the young master had "long live love" and "love" in his mind. First", but never considered how much it would cost to take this road.

"But I don't think it's fair to me that you think so much, you want to solve these things alone, and carry them over."

"Who do you think you are? A hero? A protector? Face your parents, your relatives, everyone around you alone? Oh yes, plus everyone around me? You are so powerful, a great hero, to solve these problems alone Very happy, aren't you?" Chu Shaoyang squinted his eyes and smiled, but the smile didn't reach his eyes, "Chen Zihang, I admit that I don't understand you, my fault, my fault, but you don't understand me either."

He, Chu Shaoyang, may have nothing, and he may not have thought about anything as carefully as Chen Zihang, but he is better than Chen Zihang in one point - even if he fails, even if there is any external force, as long as Chen Zihang is there, he can hold on.

"You will face this scene sooner or later." Chu Shaoyang casually stroked the teacup on the table, staring at Chen Zihang, with a calm and calm tone, "If you choose your family, you should choose me, if you choose your relatives, you should choose me, if you choose anyone, you should choose me. ..You have to face it sooner or later, so what's the point of procrastinating?"

"If we don't consider this point, if we don't have this awareness, I think we can stop here." Chu Shaoyang stood up without looking back, "There is no such a beautiful thing-to have both?"

Behind him, the black-haired boy was still sitting on the sofa, with a rare dazed expression on his face, moving his lips, wanting to say something, but he didn't say anything in the end.

Chu Shaoyang was actually not as calm as Chen Zihang.After taking a simple shower and returning to his room where he had hardly stayed, Chu Shaoyang lay on the bed in a daze.

What Chen Zihang said is correct...he is actually an idealist through and through.He didn't think about what his family would do, or how outsiders would see him. He was self-willed enough and self-willed enough, but Chen Zihang was not.

Compared with his spoiled young master, the burden on Chen Zihang's shoulders is indeed... more.

But no matter what, you still have to face it.Chu Shaoyang turned over, lay on his side and closed his eyes.It's not that Chen Zihang is forced to be hostile to everyone for him, nor is it that it's really impossible to "have the best of both worlds", but if you don't even have this awareness, what are you talking about?

When Chu Shaoyang woke up the next day, Chen Zihang had already left.

It's impossible not to be disappointed at all. To be honest, after explaining Chu Qingqing's matter clearly, Chu Shaoyang did know that he had misunderstood part of it, and he unilaterally listened to one person's words, but what he cared more about was not Chu Qingqing. Qingqing, but Chen Zihang's attitude.

After tidying himself up, Chu Shaoyang put his schoolbag on his back and opened the door, wanting to go out, but when he opened the door, he saw a person standing at the door, which startled him.

"! Chen Zihang, you are poisonous!" Startled, Chu Shaoyang took two steps back, and only then did he see clearly the person standing at the door—carrying a schoolbag, with his usual expressionless face, except for the dark circles around his eyes. all good.

"Here you are." Chen Zihang didn't say a word, just stretched out his hand and handed a bag in his hand to Chu Shaoyang, "Breakfast."

Chu Shaoyang silently looked at the bag in front of him.It contained porridge and steamed stuffed buns. Chu Shaoyang usually bought food with Chen Zihang and brought them to the classroom in the morning, but now Chen Zihang bought them and asked him to take them away... saving a lot of time.

Glancing at his watch.It is indeed late.After hesitating for a while, Chu Shaoyang took the bag, "Thank you." After saying this, he passed by Chen Zihang without stopping.

Food needs to be eaten, and because we are afraid of waste, we still have to get angry. This is a matter of principle, and if we don't solve it, we can't continue.

The author has something to say: In order to post this point, I held back for two days without commenting (laughing and crying), I don’t whitewash anyone, and I don’t blackmail anyone. All people have shortcomings, and they all need to be corrected.Although I feel helpless to write a little sweet article like this, but the reality is still not a fairy tale orz solved it, come out, continue, if it can't be solved, just say bye.

In short, I think the subtitle of this chapter has proved my attitude very well ^_^ Idealism VS Realism.

PS: Gong Shoudu is only 17 years old, the requirements should not be too high orz I am now watching the sophomore in high school and I am mentally retarded (X.

PSS: I feel like I don’t even dare to read the comments after posting this article (cheek), I wrote this article mainly to give myself and some people an explanation, I wish you a happy reading, and there are little angels who don’t understand Calm down ^_^