Meaningful

Chen Yishen really didn't have any musical talent, and he didn't intend to force himself, so he only heard half of the concert, and fell asleep amidst the sound of various intense instruments.

When Su Sunan called him, the people around had almost left.

He squeezed his eyebrows, and opened his eyes wearily: "Why didn't you call me? You're so ashamed..."

Su Sunan smiled and said, "Don't like it?"

"Well, I don't like it." Chen Yishen replied honestly, "Don't call me this kind of thing in the future."

Su Sunan got up and walked out, and said as he walked, "Then what kind of date do you prefer?"

"I'm actually quite vulgar," Chen Yishen followed him, thought for a while, and replied, "It's fine to eat and watch movies. I, who need art appreciation, will probably fall asleep."

Su Sunan nodded amusedly: "Okay, then go to the movies together tomorrow?"

"...You are quite efficient." Chen Yishen realized, "Did you wait for me long ago?"

"Yes." Su Sunan nodded, "I've been thinking about how to ask you out so that it won't look awkward—do you think it's awkward now?"

"I don't think it's abrupt, but I just feel like I've been put together by you, and I'm a little uncomfortable." Chen Yi shrugged deeply, "It doesn't feel good to be under the complete control of others."

"Well, I understand."

Speaking of this, Chen Yishen suddenly felt a little suffocated, probably thinking of the suffocation he had when he was a child, he sighed, and said, "Sorry, I didn't mean it..."

"What are you talking about?" Su Sunan patted him on the shoulder.

"I always hated this feeling when I was young, but I can't do anything about it." Chen Yishen's pace became slow, and the two walked on the tree-lined path, surrounded by silence, probably because of this environment, gave Chen Yishen some confidant Perhaps because Su Sunan is worthy of his trust at this moment, he took a deep breath and said with a wry smile, "I should have never told you about my family."

"Yeah." Su Sunan nodded, pretending to be listening.

"My guardians are the ones you saw that day... To be precise, they should be my aunt and uncle." When Chen Yishen said this, he hesitated a little. He seldom mentioned his own affairs, so he felt at the moment I don't know how to organize the words.

Su Sunan thought he didn't want to say it, so he said in relief: "It's okay if you don't want to say it, I have no intention of prying into your personal privacy."

"I know, it's not that I don't want to say it...it's just that I don't know how to say it," Chen Yi lowered his eyes and took a breath, "Actually, I know, from the perspective of you bystanders, you may think that I deserve it——I can obviously ask you They don't do anything, the reason why I am like this is because I am willing to be sucked by them."

"I……"

"Listen to me," Chen Yi said in a deep voice, "I don't know what kind of thoughts you have about dating me, whether it's for fun or for a try...forget it."

When Chen Yishen said this, he suddenly felt that he was quite boring.

He stopped: "Well, you think I'm crazy just now... If you just try something with me, we haven't developed to the point where I want to tell you about my family, even Let you bear some psychological burden."

"Chen Yishen." Su Sunan's voice suddenly lowered a little, and reached Chen Yishen's ears.

Chen Yishen walked in front, with his back turned to him at the moment, but he didn't turn his head.

Su Sunan asked him, "What do you think?"

"What do you think?"

"The relationship between us," Su Sunan held his shoulder with one hand, pulled him back gently, and then let Chen Yishen face to face with him, his tone was a little tough, and when he saw Chen Yishen's reddish eyes, he slammed The ground softened, "You...why are you crying?"

"...Can you stop talking nonsense?" Chen Yishen said "Damn" in his heart, and he cried?Why doesn't he know it himself?He subconsciously raised his hand and rubbed his eyes. He didn't know what was going on. He didn't feel anything at first, but after rubbing it like this, it actually became moist. "I'm not crying, don't talk nonsense."

"I didn't cry, I didn't cry," Su Sunan pinched his chin somewhat dumbfounded, and said, "Okay, isn't it just a concert, what's there to be excited about."

Chen Yishen threw the pot on Su Sunan's head: "Didn't you let this concert happen?"

Su Sunan: "...Yes, it's my fault."

Chen Yishen felt that he couldn't hold back his tears, so he turned around quickly and walked back at a faster pace: "Let's go."

Su Sunan hurriedly followed.

Chen Yishen also felt that this kind of self was a bit out of character, how old he was, and such a trivial matter could make his eyes turn red.

Chen Yishen has never experienced such a big thing, and this is really the first time that his eyes are red in front of others.

He himself felt very embarrassed when he thought about it afterwards.

When Chen Yishen returned to the room, he quickly locked himself in the bathroom. It was called a bath, but it was actually calming down his mood. Su Sunan followed into the room and only saw a closed door, and a translucent floor-to-ceiling window. Covered with layers of mist.

He felt a little helpless, stepped forward to knock on the door twice, and asked, "Are you all right?"

"...I'm fine, I'm taking a shower."

Su Sunan leaned against the door: "Yi Shen, I still say the same thing, I don't interfere in your personal affairs, but if you need help, you can tell me at any time."

"Are you annoying?" Chen Yishen said violently, "Can you let me take a quiet bath!"

"Yes," Su Sunan said, "Then it still counts if we watch a movie tomorrow?"

"It counts!" Chen Yishen answered him, "Appointment tomorrow."

"it is good."

Hearing the footsteps outside gradually going away, Chen Yishen turned up the sound of the water flow to the maximum, closed his eyes and slid down along the bathroom wall.

He inserted one hand into his already drenched hair, flicked it lightly, and closed his eyes tightly.

It's not that Chen Yishen didn't leave a way out for himself, the bottom line of the way out he left for himself was that he must wait for Chen Ning to finish college before leaving this mess, not because of his holy father, but purely because he owed it to others.

To be precise, he owed his uncle.

Chen Yishen closed his eyes tightly, and when he was thinking about this matter in his mind, Su Sunan's expression when he said that sentence came into his mind unexpectedly.

He knew that Su Sunan always gave him full respect, but sometimes he felt that he would be sorry for Su Sunan's respect.

When Chen Yishen got out of the shower, Su Sunan was making a video with Su Yaya. This time, Chen Yishen didn't go up to talk to Su Yaya. He found a headset and put it on, and closed his eyes while playing music.

He could feel that Su Sunan had finished the call and hung up the video, as if he stayed on the balcony for a while and then went in to take a shower.

Su Sunan probably thought he was asleep, so he turned off the light, and the room fell into darkness.

Chen Yishen turned off the music, but wanted to sleep, but couldn't fall asleep.

He turned over, the bathroom door was opened, Chen Yishen quickly closed his eyes and pretended to be asleep.

About three to five minutes later, the position beside him moved, Su Sunan lay down, Chen Yishen didn't move, but Su Sunan put a hand on his waist, just like what he did last night.

The moment Chen Yishen was about to speak, he suddenly felt something soft and soft landed on his forehead, his heart beat violently, and even his breathing became a little short for an instant.

"Not asleep yet?" Su Sunan came to his senses and asked in a low voice.

"...Mmm." Chen Yishen opened his eyes, turned over and rolled into his embrace.

Just as Su Sunan was about to speak, Chen Yishen blocked his mouth. Compared with yesterday's kiss, his kiss was like the difference between heaven and earth. The enthusiasm caught Su Sunan completely off guard, and even put him at a disadvantage, in a state of being controlled by Chen Yishen. .

Chen Yishen rolled over and pressed Su Sunan, biting his Adam's apple, obviously aware of the changes in his body, he subconsciously stretched out his hand to touch Su Sunan's lower body——

no response.

Chen Yi was stunned: "Su Sunan?"

"...Sorry." Su Sunan quickly turned Chen Yishen down, sat up, and turned his back to Chen Yishen, "I...not ready yet."

Chen Yishen wondered if there was something wrong with his charisma.

It shouldn't be.

He has been in the night scene for so many years, and others have always taken a fancy to him and come to ask him out. How could it fall on Su Sunan, who has no reaction at all?

And they're still in a normal relationship.

Chen Yishen stared at his back, remained silent for a while, and said, "You asked me a question today."

"Ok?"

"You asked me what I think is the relationship between the two of us." Chen Yi took a deep breath and said, "I can't explain clearly, but what do you think the relationship is between the two of us?"

Su Sunan paused, then turned sideways suddenly, lit a cigarette: "Do you mind?"

This seemed to be the first time Chen Yishen saw Su Sunan smoking.

He thought he wouldn't smoke.

"I want it too." Chen Yishen leaned forward, and the two lit a lighter before Chen Yishen continued, "What do you think?"

"What I can tell you is that this is the first time I have developed such a relationship with a man," Su Sunan said in a deep voice, "In the first 30 years of my life, I never thought about developing such a relationship with a man ...But obviously, during the time you lived with me, I was moved."

Chen Yishen's heart also moved slightly.

"It's deep," Su Sunan sighed, "I can't promise to be with you forever. I believe you understand this. Nothing in this world is eternal. It's like Yaya's mother and I used to be with you I made an oath in front of the priest, but in the end I still came to this step... The only answer I can give you is that I am with you because I really like you, and at a certain moment, I had a desire to The idea of ​​being with you all the time, but otherwise, I can't promise anything."

Chen Yishen stopped talking.

He knew that every word of Su Sunan's words was very rational, and it could even be said to be the best answer he could give.

But this was still not the answer Chen Yishen wanted.

In fact, he knows that he doesn't have any position. After all, what he can't do himself, why bother asking others to do it.

Chen Yi took a deep breath, and said "Yes", "Of course I know that even the law can't bind a marriage relationship, let alone our kind..." Chen Yi smiled deeply, "But at least you are with me now because It really touched my heart, didn't it?"

"Yes." Su Sunan admitted frankly.

"Then I can understand," Chen Yishen said, "Because you have never liked a man before, so you can't have sexual impulses towards me?"

Su Sunan: "..."

Su Sunan: "We must discuss this?"

"This is also very important in a romantic relationship," Chen Yishen said, smoking a cigarette, "Actually, you don't have to be afraid, I'll teach you if you don't know how."

"...I'm not afraid." Su Sunan couldn't help crying and said, "It's not because of this reason, it's just that I feel that I... am not ready yet."

"After all, it's the first time." Su Sunan said.

"Okay," Chen Yishen nodded, "I'll wait for you."

The author says:

After a bit of deliberation, I still plan to become a V... I am too poor recently and want to earn money for milk tea QAQ, everyone, don't run away! !I will probably enter V on this Friday, I hope you will support me a lot.