[Xue Xiao colleagues] Spring is late

Jiang disaster fell to the ground weakly, his fingers trembled uncontrollably, his stomach was icy cold, the kind of coldness that can't be ignored even when the warm blood keeps washing the wound, the bone-piercing chill is like a cold spring that never sees the sun, for an instant Drenched his whole body.It was like countless days and nights when he leaned against the cold coffin, no matter whether it was windy and snowy or the sun was shining brightly outside, he was always isolated by the thick gray fog.He can't have ice and snow, and can't touch the warm sun. The only thing he has is the cold as iron in his arms, and the endless night with ups and downs and no hope no matter how the sun and the moon alternate.

How can it be painless to face each other for three years and guard the lonely city for eight years?How can there be no regrets!

I also thought countless times that when he entered the door with a vegetable basket many years ago, if the frost that pierced his abdomen was deeper and colder, would his regret and torture be less.The anxiety, helplessness, and painful past that have puzzled him for thousands of days and nights all have answers at this moment.

Even if he is ruthlessly corroded by wind, frost, rain and dew, there will be no light shrouded in the cracks.

Xue Yang's eyes were sore, tears were rolling in his eye sockets, and his slightly parted lips trembled in disbelief. He held the Shuanghua sword in his hand, and the ground was covered with blood dripping from his abdomen and palms.

He took Xiao Xingchen one step further and looked at him with tears in despair. He didn't know how to speak, he didn't know how to explain. He wanted to ask him why he didn't hide, but when he opened his mouth, he remembered that there was no need to ask again. If Xue Yang hides, he He was bound to be attacked and stabbed by someone, and he followed him all the way just because he didn't want anything to happen to him, obviously he just wanted to protect him!

But when the disaster came over his head, his mind was full of Xue Yang's cruel face, and it was a cold dead body on the ground...

He never believed him!

Xiao Xingchen shook his head in pain, Xue Yang pressed on step by step, until he had no way to retreat, he pulled his arm and pressed his fingers on Shuanghua again, his eyes were red and he gritted his teeth: "Xiao Xingchen...you are right?" I really have a cruel heart! You believe in the people of the world, you believe in a vicious child, you believe in a poisonous woman who killed countless pregnant women and children, but you don't believe me, Xue Yang!"

He raised his head to force back the tears welling up in his eyes, and took a deep breath: "The same wound, the same sword, today, I will fulfill your unfulfilled wish!" He grabbed Xiao Xingchen forcefully With his hand, he slammed into the sword again.

"No! Xue Yang!" Xiao Xingchen almost collapsed, his face turned cold, he yelled in horror, and with shaking hands, he pulled out the frost from Xue Yang's abdomen. His bangs were wet with cold sweat, blurring his tearful eyes.Xiao Xingchen hastily dropped his sword and stretched out his hand to help him, Xue Yang waved his hand mercilessly and said in a cold voice, "From now on, between you and me, we will never see or read."

Finally, tears rolled down his cheeks and flowed into his collar. Xue Yang picked up Jiang Mi and staggered to his feet. His arm was gently grabbed from behind. Xiao Xingchen burst into tears and asked, "You... Remember the past? Also... still remember Yicheng..."

Xue Yang closed his eyes and laughed: "Are you trying to say that I'm lying to you again? It's fun, isn't it? You lie to me and I lie to you, don't you think we've settled? I'll save you and come back and pay you back." For the rest of my life, let you do what you have always wanted to do, everything can be done again, and I hope you will be safe and happy in the future, and never meet Xue Yang again."

Xiao Xingchen grasped his arm tightly, and said stubbornly and painfully: "Do you think you can pretend to be at peace with each other by starting over? I thought you didn't remember, so I could lead you to live a different life from before, but After all, I was delusional..."

Xue Yang's pupils dilated for a moment. Hearing his words, he suddenly felt palpitations, almost painful to the bone marrow, and shouted hysterically: "Who wants you to be hypocritical! Aren't you afraid that I will kill people? But if I kill people, I don't care what kind of life I live. There are so many injustices in the world, if you want to take care of what you like, you can take care of anyone else, and you can give your kindness to anyone! I just ask you to stop appearing in front of me under the banner of doing what is best for me! I Are you just a failed experiment? That's why you persevere in trying to convert me again and again?"

He put his arms around Xiao Xingchen's waist, pushed hard against the tree, and sucked those lips like crazy, not like a kiss, but like some kind of wild beast biting and gnawing on the prey that came to his door, Until he bit his lips so red and swollen, he hooked his tongue and fiddled wantonly in his mouth, and let out a hoarse growl from his throat: "Can you feel it? What I want is not your pity, nor is it your merciful mercy that put me to death. As the object of your transformation, I also have a heart, and I will also feel pain! You have people in the world who trust the people in the world, but there is no Xue Yang! Don’t follow me anymore, summer insects can’t speak ice, the sun and the moon never change, You and I have long been separated from each other. I let you go and I let go of myself. Whether I live or die, right or wrong, God will take it. If you can’t see it, just use your ability to take it from me. Human head, I won't let you, and you don't have to back down..." He stepped back abruptly, staring coldly at the crumbling person in front of him, and said cruelly and mercilessly: "Do it! Use your frost, kill Me! To get rid of my stubborn stumbling block for the peace of the sea and the clean world that you want with all your heart!"

Xiao Xingchen's teary eyes were like a thunderbolt from the blue sky, he absolutely couldn't believe that he would make a mess of things, Xue Yang's questioning made him confused, his mind was full of not believing him.He wanted to say no, he had believed it and wanted to continue to believe it, but Shuanghua clearly pierced into Xue Yang's lower abdomen again, and the blood that kept gushing out really reminded him that what he said had no weight at all.

He didn't know if Xue Yang shed tears when he was stabbed into the lower abdomen by Shuanghua, but today his eyes were intact, but he saw the black eyes of the boy who never shed tears were like thick ink in a deep pool, washed black and bright by tears, the grievance inside The pain, struggle and torture made him tremble with fear!

He asked himself can he feel it?what do you feel?Is it the special feeling towards Xue Yang that he has been unwilling to admit for a long time, or is it that he has never thought of not forgiving him, those mistakes and those piles of lives, obviously he just wants to bear it with him.His eyes are intact, Song Lan's Baixue Temple is intact, no one is killed in Yicheng, no family is destroyed. He said that it is impossible to go back to the past and live in peace. How much joy and how much resentment, all of them are thick and colorful, and the traces have been branded in the heart, how can it be wiped clean?

But what exactly did Xue Yang want him to do?Did he really just give mercy?Is it pity for Xue Yang to be tortured day and night for eight years in order to revive him?Or pity Xue Yang for his inhumanity and spend the rest of his life to make up for his suicide?The reluctance to leave is really just what Xue Yang said, just wanting to imprison him and prevent him from killing people?

Why do you want to deny it so much?Why does he think that the heart will hurt so much that he can't breathe, it seems that he will die in the next moment!

It seems that the three souls and seven souls have all shifted, and all the thoughts and thoughts are crushed into dust. In a trance, I think of the snow and fog in the past, and the wind was long and long. He once leaned in his arms to feel the frost and snow, and also felt his body temperature. In the bosom lingering kisses, also once was at a loss confused.Abandoning grievances and grudges, past and present lives, why didn't he dare to admit that the little friend in Yicheng was Xue Yang? It was because he was tempted by the little friend, and also by Xue Yang!

So he crossed thousands of mountains and rivers to go back to Kuizhou, just simply wanted to see him, whether it was gentle or cunning, insane or stupid or killing countless people, let him carefully realize that Xue Yang and Xiaoyou were always the same person.

My heart is so happy, I think like crazy!

He turned out to have such unspeakable feelings for Xue Yang...

And what did Xue Yang say?There is nothing between him and him, in this life, in the next life, and in the next life, don't let him think about it!

So no matter whether it was evil or fate, Xue Yang would rather use his spiritual power to save him once for the sake of acquaintance, and he would not have anything to do with him again.

Pay back his life cleanly, and never owe him anything!

He couldn't remember those lingering hugs and deep kisses, he couldn't remember Xue Yang's being different and patient with him, and he didn't dare to think about whether everything Xue Yang had done to him was humiliation or affection...

He was hammered into hell by ambiguity, hammered into the dark night where there was no hope, and he suddenly realized that without Xue Yang, he was really homeless and had nowhere to go, and that ignorant, youthful and crazy ambition of Ling Yun was lost countless times. During the entanglement with Xue Yang, I realized that everything was not that important.

The night wind blew more urgently, and the crow, which had been dormant for a long time, fluttered its wings and flew towards the dead body not far away, making rough squawks of satisfaction while enjoying it.

Xiao Xingchen broke out in a cold sweat from the creepy sound, only to realize that the sky was completely dark and the stars could not be seen, and Xue Yang left him in this deserted place, and he has long since disappeared.

He was seriously injured, and his spiritual power had not yet recovered. Xue Yang walked heavily and couldn't control his sword. The road down the mountain was not easy, and he didn't feel much pain when the blood was scattered all over the ground. .There is endless darkness in front of him, even though he can see in the dark, he doesn't remember how he got to Danxia City, nor how he got to Qingmei Villa.The road was bumpy, and the trail was like a natural labyrinth. He was dizzy and dazed as he walked, and the strong smell of blood rushed to his nose one after another. He didn't know if he would be eaten by wild dogs and cats when he fell down. But I never want to try the taste of the separation of bones and flesh again.

The wound was not bandaged, and he pressed it with one hand indiscriminately. He was already numb without any feeling, only the blood was still slowly flowing out along the fingers, and the grievance and anger swam in his heart. Willing to rise up and toss, secretly hating Xiao Xingchen for always being like this to him, and it was not the first day that he knew it, and dared to keep thinking about it and hold on to many hopes.

The night wind made his breathing messy, and the crows' crows were loud and penetrating. Jinlin Tower seemed to be hundreds of thousands of miles away from him and he couldn't tell the direction. Probably... that was the only place he could go. !

leave him.

One does not need to die, and one does not live worse than death...