can you not tease me

Seeing his mother's tears dripping down, Beisong panicked instantly.His mother has always been a very strong person. A single mother raised her son to grow up alone. The difficult magic stick did not bend her back. She was never knocked down by the cold words and malicious eyes from the outside world. This is not even a drop of tears.

For so many years, the last time Beisong saw his mother cry so hard was at his father's funeral.

At this moment, all the self-blame and guilt rushed into Beisong's heart. His mother was not as strong as he imagined, and she was not an invincible woman.

Bei Song began to reflect on whether his feeling of coming out was too urgent, and thus he hurt the person who shouldn't be hurt the least.

"I'm sorry, Mom, I'm sorry..." Beisong repeatedly apologized to her, but apart from these three words, Beisong didn't know what else to say to make his mother not so sad.

Beisong's mother cried for a while, picked up a tissue to dry her tears, and then said in a hoarse voice:

"Since you know that you are sorry for me, you know that there are certain things that cannot be done, and some feelings are obviously taboo, why do you do that anyway? Let alone such an shady relationship, your infatuation for him will eventually have some effect. If there is no result, can the relationship you hold on to get the same response from the other party, even if you are truly in love with each other, so what? Then? What about the next thing? Such a period that is not recognized by the world, not blessed and not seen Love can only be together secretly. Do you feel good about this feeling? Even if you don’t care about these things, you can compromise and sneak around to keep outsiders from knowing, but now you tell me, what do you make me think? Put me in What kind of position do you want? My son is an underground lover for other men in a place I can’t see. Do you think I can agree to such a thing? Can I support and understand? Xiaobei, you like men, you are gay , loving you is not a shameful thing, and you don't have to say sorry to your mother for this, you can't marry a wife and have children like other children, but if your love is unclear, mother is firmly opposed. "

Although Song Jinyang had already made plans for each other's future, but he was not here at the moment, even if Beisong made plans with Song Jinyang and him, and now he praised Song Jinyang in front of his mother, it was useless.

Seeing that Beisong lowered her eyes and did not answer, Beisong's mother went on to say: "Xiao Bei, mother knows that you are a good boy, and also knows that loving someone is something you cannot control rationally, but have you ever thought that your love is very difficult?" May it cause a lot of burden and harm to the other party? Mom believes that Mr. Song is a very good person, but have you ever thought that such a good person, his career will not stop here, If he is not with you, maybe in two years he will be able to be promoted and become the dean, or a leading cadre in the education department, with a bright future. But what if he is with you? A famous professor and himself It’s not clear that the male student has an ambiguous relationship, and this alone is the most fatal injury to his future career, Xiao Bei, your love will hurt him sooner or later.”

Every word of Beisong's mother made Beisong unable to refute, and it was extremely heartbreaking.It's not that Beisong has never thought about these problems, but when he was in love, whenever he thought of this problem, Beisong would subconsciously avoid it and think about what Song Jinyang said to himself-"With me here, you don't have to be afraid of anything. "

Yes, his love has always grown under the protection of Song Jinyang, and Song Jinyang gave far more than he thought, so that Beisong forgot that the love between them was essentially hurting Song Jinyang.

He himself is just a student of Song Jinyang. After graduation, he separated, and this relationship broke up as soon as it broke up, but what about Song Jinyang?In his career, being unclear with his students is a stain in itself, and it is the greatest harm in itself.

Song Jinyang's future should be bright. He is a person who stands high on the clouds and people look up to, but because of himself, he has become covered in mud.

Beisong's heart was full of thoughts, as if choked in his throat, he couldn't say a word, and his eye sockets quickly became moist.

Beisong's mother knew that her words had pierced her son's heart, seeing Beisong's reaction now, her heart hurt like a knife.

Even if Beisong didn't say whether he and Song Jinyang were dating, but judging by Beisong's reaction at this time, how could this be wishful thinking and unrequited love?This clearly means that the two are already together.

The story has already reached this point, and Beisong's mother can't ask any more questions. No matter how she thinks about it, she opposes Beisong and Song Jinyang's relationship from the bottom of her heart.

This road is not easy to walk, and the ground is full of thorns. She feels sorry for Beisong, and does not want her child to be wronged in such an unequal love.So these words, good or bad, she can only pick them all out like this, and turn them into sharp knives to poke her son's heart.I only hope that his long-term pain is not as good as short-term pain.

Beisong's life is long, and a mother can't accompany him for the rest of his life. No matter what path he chooses, he can only walk down it step by step. This is irreplaceable by anyone.

This heart-to-heart conversation between mother and child ended in an unhappy breakup.Bei Song returned to his room, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep, the words his mother said still lingered in his ears, disturbing Bei Song's mind.

No one is more unwilling to be Song Jinyang's burden than himself, so Beisong has been working hard and studying harder than anyone else.He has been working hard to follow Song Jinyang's footsteps, hoping that one day he can truly walk shoulder to shoulder with Song Jinyang and not be a stumbling block in his life.

But will he and Song Jinyang really make it to that day?

Just as Beisong was getting more and more tangled and uneasy, his cell phone rang.Beisong saw that the caller was Song Jinyang, and immediately picked it up.

"Hey..." Beisong's nose felt a little sour when he opened his mouth.

Song Jinyang's gentle voice came from the other end of the phone: "I guess you haven't slept yet. I missed you, so I called you. I shouldn't disturb your rest."

"No." Hearing Song Jinyang's gentle and deep voice, Beisong's heart became even more sour, and his voice was choked up.

Song Jinyang keenly caught the strangeness in Beisong's voice: "You seem to be in a bad mood, what happened?"