[Sword Three] White Two Black Three

Habit is a very annoying thing, even if you know a lot of things you shouldn't, you can't help it.

For example, I am used to roasting preserved egg and lean meat porridge as if I don’t know anything else. I am used to double-clicking the icon to enter the game when I turn on the line. I am used to having someone by my side here.This habit until... It seems that if you can't see that person, you will lose your mind.

Mo Ningye is not an ignorant young man, he knows what this feeling is.He used to face his first love girlfriend with such a mood.

This feeling of wanting to see him all the time, wanting to be with him, unable to take his eyes off... is because he cares, it is because he likes...

It's not that he hasn't struggled before, why did his good young man start thinking about the same man?What's more, that person is just a virtual character made up of a bunch of data, no one knows what the person behind the screen looks like, maybe he may be a wretched uncle.

But the heart that likes it is so easy to fall.

I fell into every thoughtful arrangement of his, I fell into his unwavering figure, I fell into his thought of always thinking about myself, I fell into...his "little ink" every time.

More and more sleepless days, Mo Ningye felt that he shouldn't go on like this.I'm a man, so I'm afraid of anything, just say it, no matter what the ending is, at least I can relax, and I don't have to face that person every day... Guessing his thoughts and remembering his every detail, but insisting on being a good friend.

This is not reality, Mo Ningye thought, what's great is just not playing, it's over once and for all.

It was easy to think, but I was still trembling when I really spoke.

This... After all, the object is a man... I always thought it was a friend of the same sex, and I still want to confess when I like it...

If it weren't for the awkward attachment in his bones, perhaps Mo Ningye would never have spoken.

But if he knew later, maybe he would rather he never said this.

It was very late that day, a few people did their daily routines and downloaded the dungeon to brush up their reputation, Xuexue was too tired to log off first, and there were only two of them left in the entire chamber of commerce.

The originally five-member team also left because of the downline, and only the two of them were left.Mo Ningye looked at the chamber of commerce, then at the only remaining teammate in the upper left corner, thinking, this is also considered being alone, right?Although, uh, the two of them are not on the same map.

He got up and poured water, took two sips, stared at the person's name in the upper left corner for a long time, and finally moved his hand to the keyboard, and typed a sentence with a slight trembling.

"Jiahao, are you free now?"

"What's the matter? Which dungeon do you want to go to?" Mo Ningye bet, Chen Jiahao asked this question with anticipation, this person doesn't like to have nothing to do.

"...No, I have something to tell you."

"?"

Hei San licked his lips and calmed down a bit, but his hand wandered on the keyboard for a long time and couldn't press a button.He even thought to just forget it, the status of a friend doesn't matter...

"Xiao Mo, what's the matter?" Chen Jiahao asked again after waiting for a long time.

There was a little ink sound, as if he had been injected with a stimulant. He took a deep breath, typed a line quickly, and took advantage of the courage he had finally mustered up before fading, and pressed the Enter key hard. .

"Chen Jiahao, I like you."

After thinking about it, I quickly added another sentence. "However, this liking is just my thing. I know, first, this is the Internet, it is all virtual, and it is impossible in our reality; second, this liking is largely because we are too used to being together Yes, so it may be a habit of liking. I just want to tell you here, there is nothing else, you don’t need to feel troubled.”

Then, holding his breath, he waited for the man's reply.

yes, what will happen?

In fact, Black Three didn't even dare to imagine.After pressing that key just now, it seemed that all the courage was gone with the pressing of the Enter key, and now the whole person was trembling slightly again.

"I like you too." After a while, Chen Jiahao replied. "I like you just like you like me, what are you doing so serious?"

When Mo Ningye saw it, he was almost breathless. He lost all thoughts of fear, anticipation, and panic, and said weakly: "Chen Jiahao, do you know what I like when I say like?"

"Oh, fool..."

Mo Ningye couldn't pick it up right now, he said to Chen Jiahao that idiot...however...

He rubbed the goosebumps on his arms, well, if he was a woman, he could understand and understand what Chen Jiahao said, but if he was a man, how could a fool explain this sentence in the same way?

Mo Ningye struggled for a long time on whether to be ashamed to ask, but just when he was holding his head in front of the screen and almost wanted to hit it with his head, Chen Jiahao typed again.

"I like you too, but I won't do anything to you, you don't have to think so much."

Can't, or can't - inexplicably, the only thing that popped up in Mo Ningye's mind when he saw this sentence was this question.

He thought for a while and only typed one word. "Um."

Because I don't know what to say.

It was already very late, and Mo Ningye, who had exhausted all his strength in confessing, yawned, said good night, and did not log off.

It's like fleeing from disaster, and what I'm afraid of is embarrassment.

But lying on the bed tossed and turned for a long time, obviously so tired that he couldn't fall asleep.

Hey, I'm still excited...

With his hands on his eyelids, his thoughts gradually became clear in the darkness.

He said that he likes you like you like me.

He said fool because I asked him if he understood what I meant by liking.

Can I understand that his liking is also my liking?Can this be understood?

The more I can't figure it out, the more irritable I feel, and I regret why I didn't bite the bullet and press to the end just now.

But I will only regret it, just now, even if I lent him another courage, I am afraid that he would not dare to ask.A man confessing to another man... After all, it's too shocking...

Perhaps this kind of ambiguity is the best answer that can be obtained now?Mo Ningye thought for a while, and agreed with his own judgment.

Chen Jiahao has such a temper, he will leave a way out for himself when he says and does things, he will not do anything, not to mention he has always shown his image as a gentle and kind person, if he really knows whether he likes it or not, then he is not like him Bar?

At least, he didn't reject himself, and even said he liked it... Maybe this is really the best answer that person can give himself.

But today I confessed so boldly, what will happen in the future?What would he think of himself?Will it be awkward for the two of them to get along in the future?Or, will it be different because of each other's love?

Tomorrow, what kind of tomorrow will it be?

While thinking wildly, he gradually fell asleep.

The next day, when I went online with trepidation, I jumped out of the reading stage, and someone on the chamber of commerce channel asked, "Little Mo, how are you doing everyday?"

It's Chen Jiahao...

He seemed to be the same as usual, and he greeted himself as soon as he went online, talking about what he was going to do.

I was relieved in my heart, but a little dissatisfied and unwilling.

Maybe it's just that he hides it too well?After all, Chen Jiahao is not such an impulsive person as Mo Ningye, Mo Ningye thought, no matter what, someone replied last night that he liked.

But, but, no matter how anxious Mo Ningye was, the other person was always as calm as water, without any difference at all.

For a few days, it was like this for a few days.

This person is still as gentle as water, but Mo Ningye always feels... This water should be the water of early winter, and it is bone-chillingly cold when touched.

From the beginning, Mo Ningye was startled, panicked and somewhat expectant until he gradually became disheartened.

He began to think, maybe, the liking this person said was just a liking between friends.He did not refuse at that time, but he did not agree either. Perhaps his unspoken agreement was not acquiescence, but... a kind of tactful rejection.

It's just that I thought too well, but I forgot the possibility of being rejected; it's just that he said it too ambiguously, so friendly that I forgot how unacceptable it is for likes between the same sex.

Maybe this person didn't directly scold him for being a pervert, he had already given himself enough face, and given enough face for the friendship between the two of them for so long...

Feeling a little cold, but also a little discouraged, looking at the man as usual and then looking back at his restlessness, gradually, a feeling of awkwardness came up again.

If you don't live or die, isn't it a matter of liking or disliking? As for being so tired?They're all men, so what can't you let go of?If you love, you will love, and if you don't love, you will not love. Are you still afraid that you will be clingy?

He felt that all he wanted was an answer. Is it so difficult?

But subconsciously, he would take the initiative to call for whatever he could do with Xuexue during this time.It seemed that he hoped that Chen Jiahao would give him a clear answer, but also... was afraid of hearing the result, or at least he didn't want to ask for an answer.

And Mo Ningye gradually learned to calmly observe Chen Jiahao's interactions with others from the perspective of a bystander.

The more irrelevant the mood, the more it seems to see.

He found that Chen Jiahao was kind to everyone, gentle, responsive to every request, no matter if it was someone from the chamber of commerce, including Xuexue, or even teammates from the field team, who would occasionally come online.

When their apprentices had just graduated, they went to the Second Tianzi Peak with them.There is a natural barrier at Tianzi Peak, with stone pillars standing one by one. If you have to jump over it, you need two other jumping skills to assist you. If you are not careful, you will fall to your death.The apprentice is not serious at ordinary times. To put it simply, it is a 70 graduate who just messed around. When he encounters this kind of practical operation, he gets stuck and lives and dies non-stop for more than half an hour.Both he and Xuexue were bored, and each sat cross-legged to watch a movie or read a novel outside. Only Chen Jiahao patiently taught his apprentice how to dance time and time again, explaining each step in detail.

He didn't actually walk away, he said he went to see a movie, but in fact, his eyes never left the screen.He looked at Chen Jiahao's meticulousness, patience, gentleness and consideration, no matter how many times his apprentice died, or even how many times he accidentally fell to his death during the demonstration, he didn't say anything serious.Gradually, Mo Ningye smiled.

Maybe I'm really not the only one, it's just that I couldn't see it clearly.

It was on this day that he made up his mind.

He is not afraid of death, at least he is not afraid of being stabbed to death with a knife, but he hates tormenting slowly like a frog being boiled in warm water.

After leaving Tianzi Peak, everyone dispersed.On that day, the officials were engaged in activities, and there were rare item tasks in several places, and some special places were officially decorated with fireworks, so everyone was very busy.

The team dispersed, and he glanced at the list of the chamber of commerce. This person was in Daoxiang Village.

Daoxiang Village is also one of the places where fireworks are held. Is he...alone?

Without letting herself think too much, Mo Ningye directly whispered to Chen Jiahao. "Are you free? I have something to tell you."

"what happened?"

Perhaps it was because he had thought too much during this period and had rehearsed the worst possibility in his mind time and time again, Mo Ningye was very calm at the moment.

He said slowly: "Chen Jiahao, I've been thinking about it for a few days. In fact, the liking you mentioned is the liking between friends, isn't it?"

There was no immediate answer, and it took him a while to reply: "I don't want to hurt you, I think it's good that we are like this."

There was a sneer on the corner of Mo Ningye's mouth. "But you have already hurt me. Chen Jiahao, I know that I told you that I like it because I have a problem, but, if you like it, you like it, if you don't like it, you can't accept it, so just say it, what's the hesitation?"

"sorry".

"I said at the time that liking you is my business. Whether you like me or not is not in my consideration. I just want to tell you. You think you can only accept brotherhood and you also say, why do you play well?" So ambiguous? Don't you think that this is the most embarrassing thing for me? "

There was no sound for a long time, and after a while, a few words were answered there. "come on."

Um?What does that mean?

However, Mo Ningye, who was used to obeying Chen Jiahao's arrangement, did not think too much, and accepted Chen Jiahao's call first.

Turning to the map, the first thing I saw was white lotuses and colorful fireworks dotted in it. He really came to enjoy the fireworks. So, is he alone?

Mo Ningye was very annoyed that she was entangled in this problem. She was clearly prepared for the worst, and she was clearly prepared to hear him say "I'm sorry, there can be nothing else between us", and she even thought about starting tomorrow. Re-training a new account and doing everything all over again, I want to train Tiance Niang... But, I still care about this person in my heart...

Chen Jiahao stood on the shore, waiting for him to come over. "Little Mo, have you thought about it? We are the same gender, not in the same city, and you don't even know anything about the reality of me. You said you like me, have you thought about it?"

"I have thought about it, but, can this be the reason why I don't like you? Chen Jiahao, what I like is you, and what I like is your mood, not that I have to be with you. At that time Before I said that to you, I was already mentally prepared to be rejected by you, Chen Jiahao, you and I are brothers, you really don't know my temperament? I would rather die than live on, if you don't reject me that day , but now you come to tell me that you don’t want to be hurt? Your unwillingness to be hurt really hurt me the most.”

The man standing opposite him was silent.

However, Mo Ningye's ten fingers were flying like flying to hit the keyboard with "cracking" sounds, and it was unclear whether it was the keyboard or venting. "If you rejected me at that time, I wouldn't think too much about it. A friend is a friend. I can't accept it. At least I understand your thoughts. On the contrary, it's your attitude, which is so ambiguous, that makes me think. Chen Jiahao, how can you compensate me?"

"You said."

"Give me a happy day today."

So, there was silence again, for a long time, so long that Mo Ningye couldn't help but want to rush, and only new content appeared in the chat box.

"I've thought more than you. I've been thinking about a lot of things since you said you liked it. It's a game, you and I know it, but it's true that we have feelings. You're my best friend, It's also someone I care about very much, but what you said about liking scares me, what will we become? Even if you don't say that you are the same sex, don't say whether it will develop into reality, Xiaomo, will your liking be possible? Habit?"

"It's a habit, but habits can't turn into liking? Habits just let us form a team to do tasks together, but I like you because I noticed you as a person. Your temper, your temper, and even your tone of voice, because I like it You, I will pay attention. Just like now, I can guess that you are talking with helplessness and confusion, this is not because of habit, Chen Jiahao, do you not understand, or do you not want to understand?"

He said bitterly again: "If you don't like me, you can only accept that we are brothers, and you also said clearly that I don't need you to think so much for me!"

The man really sighed. "Xiao Mo, why don't you think about why I even consider you? If I just want to push you away and reject you, I just need to think of a perfect wording that won't hurt you, but I don't care. What matters is how true your liking is, don't you still understand?"

Mo Ningye stared blankly at this sentence for a long time, then said with trembling fingers: "You mean, you like me?"

The man turned around and looked at him. Mo Ningye felt that this virtual character was really staring at him through the screen, and his cheeks turned a little red.

"I like you."

Mo Ningye was stunned, but suddenly blinked and laughed.He felt that his heart was overflowing, and the previous anxiety and hatred caused by not knowing the other person's mood disappeared.

He sat alone in front of the screen, grinning silly.

He looked at the screen, and typed carefully word by word: "Chen Jiahao, I like you."

I like you, I really do.

The author has something to say:

San Jie yelled loudly, San Jie hated all the pig heads named Chen Jiahao! ! !

Well, Chen Jiahao's children's shoes, you will not admit that you are a pig head, you will only despise me with your little eyes that disdain to argue with me, but this is not a reason for me to say that you are not a pig head, so, you Still a pig's head, a pig's head!

The above are the broken words of the Three Precepts.

Some people, once they live in their hearts, become long-term customers, no matter how long it has passed, they will never leave.

Even if you feel that you have set up a towering and solid heart wall to keep him out, it only takes a little spark to explode, and the so-called solid heart wall is just a tofu dregs project made of paper to make you feel at ease .

My heart is full of memories with him.

I have been in love with him for a year, but I have been waiting for him for ten years.

Damn, this article is so depressing!

If I knew this earlier, I would not borrow this person's name if I thought of a name.

However, when thinking of that surname, the first name that comes to mind is still his.

Sanjie continues to scratch the wall =-=