I don't want to cry and I want to die for love[Comprehensive]

Hanazawa Asahi ended up staying overnight at Osamu Dazai's house, and made a call to report to Hanazawa Ryo.

Hanazawa Ryo didn't know who Dazai Osamu was, and thought he was in Kawasaki Ukyo, and told him: "Don't do something disrespectful in Kawasaki's house, and thank him well. Be careful."

"Yeah, I see." Hanazawa Asahi hung up the phone of Hanazawa Ryo, and looked back at Dazai Osamu, who had already opened the bento he just bought, and took a bite with a blunt "owwow" Fried noodles.

He woke up suddenly.

A single man like Osamu Dazai who always buys bento for meals, will there be extra bedding at home?

Hanazawa Asahi didn't say anything until it was time to go to bed.After taking a shower, he showed such an expression in front of Dazai Osamu's door.

Osamu Dazai lay on the side of the bed nonchalantly, with a [Complete Suicide Manual] on his face, as if he had fallen asleep.

There are no unmade bedding, only a small apartment with one living room and one bedroom, not to mention extra guest rooms.Sleeping on the sofa was the second option, but there was no quilt or pillow, and the neck would definitely suffer when I woke up the next morning.

There was only one option left - to sleep in the bed.

At any rate, Osamu Dazai still had a place left.

The host who was invited was already sound asleep on the bed, which would not be the case for a normal person.

Hanazawa Asahi turned off the light and crawled onto the bed in the dark.It was also my first time here, and I didn't have a good grasp of the distance, so I pressed my palm on Osamu Dazai's arm.

"Pain, pain, pain." Osamu Dazai in the dark exhaled in pain, and he removed the complete suicide manual covering his face, "Asahi, a sleeping person is suddenly awakened, and the heart will not be able to bear it."

"Sorry." Hanazawa Asahi carefully moved his limbs to pass over Dazai Osamu's body, "If you slept in the bed, this tragedy would not have happened."

"I'm used to sleeping here, and I can't sleep in it." Osamu Dazai put the complete suicide manual on the bed cabinet, and distributed half of the quilt to Hanazawa Asahi, already impatient to go to sleep, with a clear voice Tiredness: "Good night."

"……Good night."

Hanazawa Asahi rarely suffers from insomnia, and his sleep quality has always been very high.Maybe it was because he was sharing the same bed with someone for the first time in his life, and it made him very uncomfortable when it happened for the first time.

He could clearly hear Osamu Dazai's breathing. In the silent room, even the slightest sound became very abrupt, and the distance between the two of them was not as big as a palm.

After all, it is a single bed.An adult male can stretch his limbs at will on the bed, and one more person.The space that was originally wide for one person will become narrow no matter how you say it.Hanazawa Asahi clearly felt the warmth of Dazai Osamu's skin.

Everything can't be ignored, and I can't help but care about it.

In order to prevent Osamu Dazai from discovering his abnormality.Hanazawa Asahi closed her eyes, trying to empty her mind, let the flow take its course, and wanted to go to sleep, but she couldn't do it all the time.He even started to have nothing to do, slowly counting Osamu Dazai's breathing like a sheep one, two, three.

Hanazawa Asahi felt that a long, long time had passed, and she still didn't fall asleep.The spirited ones can even get up and have a pillow fight.If it is Kawasaki Ukyo who is sleeping with him now, he has already quarreled Kawasaki Ukyo to play games together.

He has some regrets about staying at Osamu Dazai's house. He used to sleep at Kawasaki Ukyo's house. Even if there was a layer of futon on the floor, he could quickly enter the water, and he would not think a lot aimlessly like he does now. In the end, The purpose of the association is still Osamu Dazai.

Hanazawa Asahi spurned herself in her heart.

Different from his state of insomnia, Osamu Dazai fell asleep within a minute after saying goodnight to him, and his breathing has always maintained a uniform speed, which has not changed at all.

It is completely different from his distressed state.

Hanazawa Asahi tossed and turned several times on the bed, but Osamu Dazai didn't notice it, and slept soundly.

The night and silence constantly stimulate the secret emotions in people's hearts.

Hanazawa Asahi felt that if he continued to stay here, the things he was thinking about would be even more terrible, and he would not need to sleep tonight.

He got up from the bed in the dark, and while he was facing an enemy, he used his hands to explore the way on the bed, and carefully passed Osamu Dazai.After successfully getting off the bed, he breathed a sigh of relief, and walked all the way to the hall with the mobile phone on the bed cabinet.

After walking to the lobby, Hanazawa Asahi relaxed.He turned on his phone and checked the time. It was 2:47 in the morning, and he tossed and turned on the bed for nearly three hours, unable to fall asleep.

He also covered his face in a little convincing.

A lot of messy things flashed through my mind just now, and now I recall that the mood of playing games is basically zero.He sorted out the love letters he had sorted out today, and wanted to take a look.

When the brain is functioning, there will be no time to think about some things that are not there.

Hanazawa Asahi started working with a serious and rigorous heart.

The love letters are all just a few sentences, most of which use gorgeous words to describe Osamu Dazai's appearance and temperament, as well as women's admiration for Osamu Dazai.

Hanazawa Asahi had a ghost in his heart, and when he saw the words of praising Dazai and loving him, they all passed quickly, and he didn't dare to take a second look.

Of the nearly sixty letters, only twenty of them revealed the women's overly intense emotions.Hanazawa Asahi even saw his name appear on the envelope, he was a little surprised.

When he finished reading the envelope on which he appeared, he felt a little creepy.

Maybe it's because she wrote a lot, and the things imagined in her mind gradually became [real].

"×year×month×day

Zhizhi went to work very seriously today, and it's really great that he didn't skip work.Mr. Kunikida won't lose his temper when he knows it, just keep it up.At noon, I made a delicious drunken crab stew, but it took me a long time to learn how to do it.You will love it. "

"×year×month×day

Zhi's working object turned out to be a little boy.It's nice to be able to get close protection most of the time, I'm so envious.Don't worry, Zhi, I'm not that kind of stingy woman, I wish you smooth work and complete the task as soon as possible. "

"×year×month×day

Zhi and Hanazawa-kun's relationship is getting better and better, I'm almost jealous.Go home for a while and see if I'm alright, I'm so lonely that I'm about to die.You can't help coaxing me, come and see me.The last time I agreed to come to my house to eat drunk crab stew, it turned out that Zhi let me go, it was too much. "

"×year×month×day

rule.

Why did you suddenly call him [Asahi]? You didn't even call me by my name, but you actually went to call someone by the name of someone you haven't known for a long time.

But when I thought that you and him would never get along that long, I calmed down.

I believe in you, Ji.

No one will see your real face but me. "

"×year×month×day

Your job is over, congratulations.Will be able to take a vacation for a while.Want to come to my house to play?I have been waiting for you. "

"×year×month×day

...Is it my fault?Am I not good enough?rule.why don't you come to me.

Did I do something wrong to make you feel unhappy, Zhi.You go to a coffee shop to find a waitress, would you rather find an ordinary person who doesn't know you and can't understand you, and invite her to die with you? ?

Only I can connect with you, don't you know?

Look at me, look at me, Zhi.

I'm almost unable to suppress my emotions. If you don't come to see me again, I'm afraid I will do something unforgivable. "

"×year×month×day

I saw.

I heard.

You are understood.

Except for me, you are understood and tolerated.

To be asked to [respect] unreasonable demands.

Doesn't he have a personality [emotional perception] that makes me feel cheated?Knowing that Zhizhi is so painful, he still has the audacity to ask you to survive.

You obviously feel pain just to be alive, unable to understand and out of place with everything around you.It is an excessive request to ask you to pretend to be yourself and to live in the same kind that you can't understand. But why, why do you have this attitude.

Don't show that expression, Ji.What is that expression? ?It was just a childish word spoken to you by a child, and you were actually moved.

I can clearly understand you, respect you, and die for love with you.There are many things I can do for you, why did you just listen to Hanazawa Asahi's words.

I can't understand.

The envy and jealousy from the past surged up at the same time, and I went crazy and couldn't bear it anymore. "

The date of inscription was yesterday, and the time when the envelope was delivered was about yesterday before he and Osamu Dazai went home.

Hanazawa Asahi felt terrified. Compared to Shunsuke Date, the murderer, the unknown stalker woman frightened Hanazawa Asahi both physically and psychologically.

He has come into contact with many crazy people, and they have all forgotten the social morality. Even if the woman eventually becomes a murderer, Hanazawa Asahi is not surprised.

Hanazawa Asahi silently put the love letter back in place.

Thanks to reading the love letter, he couldn't sleep at all tonight.

"Clap clap."

Hanazawa Asahi suddenly heard a knock on the door, and the 觳觫 who hadn't recovered just now climbed up his spine again.

He heard a soft female voice coming from the other side of the door.

"Zhi, haven't you slept yet? That's not acceptable. Going to bed too late is bad for your health."

Hanazawa Asahi didn't dare to make a sound, and tiptoed back to Osamu Dazai's room.

There was a "塁硁" sound from the other side of the door, and people couldn't help but associate it with fear at night.

"I put the letter in, remember to read it the next morning."

Before Hanazawa Asahi opened the door of the room, the door was opened, and he bumped into Dazai Osamu's chest head-on, subconsciously took a step back, and made a very obvious noise.

"Ji? Are you okay?"

Women's worried inquiries.

Osamu Dazai caught Hanazawa Asahi's hand, and he raised a finger on Hanazawa Asahi's mouth, signaling him to keep silent.

The voice is easy to handle: "I'm fine, good night."

"Good night."

The girl said very happily.

"Ji, Asahi isn't at your house, is he?"

Osamu Dazai poured a glass of water on the coffee table, and replied slowly: "I don't like women who invade my privacy, go back to bed early, miss."

The girl became panicked because of Osamu Dazai's words, and immediately replied, "I see. I'll go back to sleep right away. Good night."

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Dazai did it on purpose, he didn't sleep at all.

He wanted to play a trick, but Asahi didn't follow the routine and even ran out of the hall

In the dark night, both of us are insomnia(.)

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