I don't want to cry and I want to die for love[Comprehensive]

Hanazawa Asahi and Dazai Osamu finished eating yam mud udon noodles, even though Hanazawa Asahi was so afraid that his mother would twist his ear off in anger because he was ashamed in the police station.You still have to go back, and you still have to face what you have to face. It is impossible for a person who is almost 20 years old to play the trick of running away from home.

Osamu Dazai's behavior in escorting Hanazawa Asahi almost went with the flow.

When he came back to his senses, Hanazawa Asahi and Dazai Osamu were already standing at the gate of the community, no different from usual.

"Obviously the incident is over, Mr. Dazai still wants to send me home." Hanazawa Asahi complained silently.

Osamu Dazai gave a strange snort, "I thought that because Asahi didn't want to go home to face her mother, it wouldn't be okay to accept her mother's punishment without deliberately sending it here. A bad boy should be punished for doing something wrong."

"I'm not a child who did something wrong and didn't dare to go home, so I won't cheat and don't go home--and, I don't regret beating Mr. Dazai violently. If I don't beat Mr. Dazai, Mr. Dazai will never forget Live, Mr. Dazai is too rascal, we must let Mr. Dazai improve his memory."

Hanazawa Asahi skipped Dazai Osamu and went straight to the door.He stood on the top of the steps, the same height as Osamu Dazai for the first time.He was a little pleased, and his eyes met Dazai Osamu.

"Goodbye, Mr. Dazai. Remember to buy a new mobile phone. My mobile phone number has been written on a small note and put it in your pocket. Remember to contact me."

After saying goodbye, Hanazawa Asahi still stayed where he was, looking at Osamu Dazai with burning eyes, and had to wait for an answer before going upstairs and going home.

Osamu Dazai was no match for Hanazawa Asahi, and his fiery eyes made him feel uncomfortable.Osamu Dazai waved at him: "Goodbye, Asahi, remember to tell me next time we meet, what it's like to be spanked by your mother at the age of 19."

"You are dreaming, Mr. Dazai." Hanazawa Asahi gave up after getting the answer, and turned to press the button of the elevator.

Osamu Dazai at the back watched Hanazawa Asahi going to the elevator door, and turned to leave at the same time.

Hanazawa Asahi is actually very clear, even if he stubbornly asks Dazai Osamu for a simple word [goodbye], it will be very difficult for him and Dazai Osamu to meet in the future.

Without [task] contact, it seems that the bridge has been quietly broken. The two stand on the corner of the cliff and look at each other. No matter who they are, it is difficult for them to go to the opposite cliff and touch each other.Broken bridges, if there are no new workers to repair them, the bridges will always hang on both sides of the cliff and will not be repaired naturally.

Most likely we will never meet again.

Hanazawa Asahi is actually very clear.

Although he recognized Osamu Dazai as his friend, Osamu Dazai also responded to his status as a friend.

After this brief meeting, Osamu Dazai's attitude towards him who will never meet again can be understood after careful consideration.

According to Osamu Dazai's character, the small note in his pocket may one day fall into the water, hang himself, make some messy suicide supplies, break his clothes, drop a small note from his pocket or be soaked by water. Submerged, unable to read the original words.

In short, there are various reasons to prevaricate him who met again.No matter how much he beat Osamu Dazai with his fist, he wouldn't take this matter deeply into his mind.

Will definitely do this again next time.

The elevator arrived, and the people in the elevator came out.The only person waiting for the elevator was Hanazawa Asahi Tsubasa. He stepped into the unoccupied elevator and pressed the floor to which his home belonged.

He doesn't want to lose his friend Dazai Osamu, Dazai Osamu is very interesting, even if it is a simple communication, there will be no topic to feel awkward.Moreover, Osamu Dazai will take care of him as a friend, and he should have the degree he should have, so that he will not make others feel disgusted at all.

The elevator closed slowly.

Osamu Dazai.

A hateful man.

Hanazawa Asahi murmured his name in his heart.

Just when Hanazawa Asahi was complaining about Osamu Dazai, completely by accident, his personality was activated.By the time Hanazawa Asahi reacted, it was too late to stop.

Hanazawa Asahi's emotional perception, activation conditions, as long as you say the name of the other party in your heart, and at the same time someone is within 30 meters of your own range, you can easily activate it.

He seemed to be suddenly pulled into a certain space from the elevator car.

Hanazawa Asahi felt drowsy water poured into his nose and mouth, and the suffocation that made people unable to breathe came from all directions.He couldn't breathe, his vision was shrouded in darkness, and emotions of emptiness and sadness surged.

In the midst of pain, he opened his eyes. In his vision, there were only blurred black, white and gray, which were divided into three simple colors.

The feeling of loneliness and sadness makes people want to cry, Hanazawa Asahi's eyes can't stop the tears from gushing out, they keep gushing out like a bank bursting.

……What's this.

Hanazawa Asahi tried to wipe away the tears with his fingers, but couldn't stop it.Tears flowed from the crevices of the fingers.He burst into tears, flooding him with a flood of negativity.

Dazai... the mood of Mr.?

A single tear can't stop the fall at all.Only by shedding tears can we ease the pain in our hearts.

This feeling only lasted for three seconds, a short three seconds.

Hanazawa Asahi felt that it was very long, and after three seconds of contact, the aftertaste left was enough to make Huazawa Asahi unable to recover for a long time.

Maybe Osamu Dazai walked far away, maybe it was because the elevator's ascent speed happened to exceed the range of 30 meters.

Personality suspended, forced to interrupt.

He leaned against the wall alone, and slowly squatted down along the wall.The cheeks were buried between the arms, and the tears were like rain, which could not be contained.Unlike physical pain that leaves tears, the tears shed are worthless at all.But now Hanazawa Asahi can only shed tears to relieve her inner emotions.

Tears soaked Hanazawa Asahi's sleeves.

His mind was a mess, a mess.

Hanazawa Asahi was speechless, and had never experienced it since he had a personality.

He has used personality to cry people, emotionally connected, and grief cannot be stopped.Hanazawa Asahi couldn't compare which of the two was more lonely and sad.

But Mr. Dazai, with a smile on his face, why does the emotion in his heart——

He didn't even think about it.

In the eyes of Hanazawa Asahi, Osamu Dazai makes jokes every day, taking pleasure in teasing others.I am happy every day, although I always talk about dying in love with beautiful women and finding some non-painful ways to commit suicide, the painful things are lightened by my bluffing behavior.

Hanazawa Asahi didn't know how to face Osamu Dazai.

It is forbidden to use personality to spy on other people's inner affairs.

In addition, Hanazawa Asahi has lost contact with Dazai Osamu, and Dazai Osamu did not buy a mobile phone.Since the end of the case, he has been even more infrequent in the chat room.

It's not good to ask Osamu Dazai directly, and Hanazawa Asahi couldn't say it.

Hanazawa Asahi had no choice but to be stuffy in his stomach, as if nothing happened.

Today's joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys all changed because of Dazai Osamu, and some time ago, it was also because of Dazai Osamu who cried several times.

With tears on his face and red eyes, Huazawa Asahi opened the door, and said in a low voice, "I'm back."

Hanazawa Ryo, who was watching TV in the lobby, was about to turn around and reprimand Hanazawa Asahi for what he did in the police station today.As soon as her eyes fell on Huaze Asahi's face, she asked in panic, "What's wrong? Asahi, why are you crying like this."

Hanazawa Asahi actually doesn't like to cry.

If the lacrimal glands are not congenitally overdeveloped, the possibility of tears falling after the age of 14 may be exponential.

Because she was afraid of being scolded by her mother, she would go out and cry out aggrieved before going home, let alone something Hanazawa Asahi would do.

Hanazawa Asahi has a very strong and sunny personality.

Hua Zeliang couldn't understand the matter of his son very well.

Hanazawa Asahi spoke in a nasal voice, with tears in the corners of his eyes, "It's nothing, Mom. I'll go to bed after taking a shower. I have to go out early tomorrow, and I haven't seen Kawasaki and the others for a long time."

Seeing that Hanazawa Asahi really didn't want to talk about it, Hanazawa Ryo didn't want to force it, "If there is anything, you must tell mom. Although mom can't solve the problem, it will be much easier to say it."

"Hmm." Hanazawa Asahi replied vaguely.

After taking a shower, he plunged his head into the pillow, burying his face in the soft pillow.

The impact of today's accidental link was so great that he was still in tears until he took a shower.

Until he covered himself with the quilt and was about to go to sleep, Osamu Dazai's emotions still flashed through his mind.

He turned off the light and got ready for bed.

As a result, I tossed and turned on the bed and did not fall asleep for a long time.Because my mind was full of thoughts about Osamu Dazai, I couldn't fall asleep at all.

Woke up in the middle of the night, picked up his mobile phone from the bed cabinet in the dark, and checked his previous chat records with Osamu Dazai.

Most of Osamu Dazai's chat records are playing tricks on others.Occasionally say something that makes people feel at ease, but it is broken in the next second, making the teeth itchy with anger.

right.Mr. Dazai must be the one who gives people such an over-the-top impression.

Personality gone wrong?

A person with the same name and surname happens to appear within 30 meters?

Or, it is really Mr. Dazai's real appearance.

Messy thoughts flashed through Hanazawa Asahi's mind, while flipping through the previous news records, while feeling the same body with his past self, his teeth itched with anger.

Finally, unable to resist the hypnosis of the biological clock, I felt drowsy, and fell asleep completely as soon as I closed my eyes.

Hanazawa Asahi closed her eyes, and let out the sound of even breathing.Still holding the phone in the palm of his hand, Osamu Dazai's name appeared on the screen, and the light on the screen became darker and darker, and finally the room became completely dark.

Hanazawa Asahi was dreaming.

He had this awareness instinctively, but he couldn't use clear thinking to break the dream.

It was pitch black in his field of vision, he seemed to be standing on the surface of the water, and there were circles of waves under his feet.Obviously, in the real real world, it is impossible to clearly distinguish the black water surface and the black sky in the darkness.

The dream is full of dream fantasies, and there is a long white line between the water surface and the sky, dividing everything.Bolan also seemed to be off-white, and his body exuded a faint soft light.Just like black and white comics, it clearly tells you everything the dream wants to tell you.

There is no human voice in the space, and there is nothing else except the sound that I accidentally made.Huaze walked forward towards the sun, and heard the sound of her treading water in her ears, and the water surface followed her forward pace, creating waves one after another, until the end of the black space.

Hanazawa Asahi didn't know how long he had walked forward, it felt very short and very long.Ambiguous senses are the characteristics of dreams, and Hanazawa Asahi wants to get out of the dream that is completely inconsistent with him, and his brain keeps conveying the message "this is a dream".

Someone spoke.

It was as if the lighting suddenly cast light into the darkness, and another figure appeared in the endless darkness, he said helplessly.

"You are really impatient, how about a little patience?"

Exactly the same as Huazawa Asahi, the person who spoke had a thin white soft light covering his body.

He was wearing a white shirt and a black suit that was too big for him.However, Mr. Dazai, who was fifteen or sixteen years old, also stood on the water, his kite-colored eyes were as sharp as a falcon, and the soft kite-colored eyes were so indifferent at this moment, like a very Dark brown.Neither warm nor clear.

He stood expressionlessly, obviously not moving, but ripples suddenly appeared on the surface of the lake, the water ripples expanded outward bit by bit, and kept touching the water ripples at Huaze Asahi's feet.The water patterns are thus neutralized and blend together like a normal semicircle.

Fifteen or six-year-old Mr. Dazai obviously looks well-behaved in terms of hairstyle and face shape, especially the overly large black coat, which makes him look small, like stealing the clothes of an office worker and putting it on Like a child in yourself.Hanazawa Asahi didn't know why, but felt that Mr. Dazai in front of him was covered with thorns all over his body, and he couldn't touch it, and he would get hurt if he touched it.

If you don't reach out to touch him, 15-year-old Mr. Dazai will remain this way forever.

In the space, only Mr. Dazai, who is fifteen or sixteen years old, is indifferent, with Hanazawa Asahi.The voice just now should be the fifteen or six-year-old Dazai-san...?

However, the voice just now was not at all like a child's voice, it was more mature - it was the voice of 21-year-old Mr. Dazai.

Hanazawa Asahi is still hesitating whether to talk to 15-year-old Osamu Dazai.

The black lake surface suddenly stirred up waves, and the wind was strong, Hanazawa Asahi completely subconsciously stretched out his hand to block the wind in front of him.With a flash in front of his eyes, he saw Osamu Dazai who he was most familiar with.

The sky is no longer endless black. At some point, a full moon hangs in the sky, although the light is very dim.But enough to make the dark space shine.

Osamu Dazai, who was wearing a camel-colored windbreaker, showed his most familiar smile as always, so frivolous that people couldn't help but want to talk to him.He didn't seem to see Huazawa Asahi, so he turned his head and left, following the reflection of the full moon on the lake.

When did Hanazawa Asahi meet such Dazai Osamu, the Dazai Osamu in his memory took pleasure in bullying him, even if he left without saying anything, the next time we met, he would still smile as if nothing happened.

It was completely reflexive to catch up with Osamu Dazai, and asked why Osamu Dazai ignored him.If it was a smiling gag again, Hanazawa Asahi wanted Dazai Osamu not to do it.

Anyway, he caught up.

Osamu Dazai and him are always separated by a specified distance, no matter how hard Hanazawa Asahi runs forward, he will not be able to catch up.He watched as Osamu Dazai drifted away, engulfed by darkness, and white smoke rose quietly, blocking the road ahead, and he couldn't see anything in front of him.

Hanazawa Asahi was not reconciled, relying on his own memory, he stretched out his hand and grabbed it in the direction of Osamu Dazai, shouting loudly.

"Mr. Dazai."

Osamu Dazai seems to have heard it.

Before being completely engulfed in darkness and thick smoke, he turned his head to look at Hanazawa Asahi.

In the iris-colored eyes covered by a layer of shadow, it seemed unbelievable, and he smiled helplessly.

"—"

He opened his mouth to say a certain word, but Hanazawa Asahi was too far away from Dazai Osamu, and he couldn't hear anything.

Hanazawa Asahi saw that the darkness in front of her eyes became bright, and from a certain point, a fierce white light burst out.

He saw a sky full of stars emerging from the night.

Osamu Dazai turned around, behind him was a full moon, faintly emitting light.

He reached out his hand to Hanazawa Asahi.

The road was shrouded in mist, and Hanazawa Asahi, who couldn't tell where the real road was, had to choose to rush around.Trying to reach out and grab Dazai Osamu's hand, and question him loudly.

"Where are you going, Mr. Dazai?"

Under Hanazawa Asahi's illusion, he felt that he was about to meet Osamu Dazai.He desperately grabbed towards the front, and caught a certain hard object in his hand.

Hanazawa Asahi thought he had caught Osamu Dazai's clothes, but he opened his eyes to see it.

It was the mobile phone I was holding when I was sleeping at night. I clicked on the screen and saw that it was only past four o'clock.Can still sleep for a long time.

Hanazawa Asahi let out a bit of a headache, and moaned helplessly as he scratched his messy hair.

"Why do I have such a strange dream? It's still about Mr. Dazai."

He attributed all his mistakes to the chat records he saw before going to bed, and he was so angry that his head hurt, and Osamu Dazai took revenge on him when he was dreaming.

As a result, Hanazawa Asahi, who fell asleep again, had a painful dream, and thought that Osamu Dazai had intentions not to let him have a good sleep.

He dreamed about a hundred different methods of suicide that Osamu Dazai had in his dream.

Whether it was death by swallowing poison, jumping off a building, entering the water, or hanging himself.Or walk to the side of the road by yourself, be smashed to pieces, and fly out like meatloaf.Holding your feet alone in a closed room, spending a month without eating or drinking, etc.

Various methods of suicide regardless of simultaneous pain.

Hanazawa Asahi's fingers were hooked on the quilt as painfully as eagle claws, and her eyebrows were furrowed.This time, no matter what, I didn't have the cognition of "I'm dreaming", and I watched Osamu Dazai's suicide method over and over again.

When I went to meet Kawasaki the next day, Hanazawa Asahi had two big dark circles under her eyes.

Mr. Dazai, a sinful man.

hateful.

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As of midnight of the Mid-Autumn Festival, there are less than 30 comments, so there is no update.Fever yesterday, no update.The past few days should be five or six thousand words a day_(:з」∠)_

This chapter is two in one.

Dreams have metaphors.

Asahi only glimpsed a corner of Dazai briefly.

It is impossible for Dazai to take the initiative in an ambiguous state, and Asahi also needs to make some changes hey w

There will be no single arrow in this article, which is more natural.I'm not interested in Dazai chasing his wife Shura field_(:з」∠)_ because I feel ooc, two people will increase their affection for each other just because of each other's psychological changes.

And if Dazai goes too far, Asahi will beat him up and tell me that he doesn't like it.

I wrote this article for Dazai. Dazai's single arrow does not satisfy my love for Dazai.Basically, two-thirds of the whole article is written about Osamu Dazai, so it is a very simple piece of love essay, 20 words (holding the chin)

Asahi dreamed of Dazai wearing a black suit because Dazai said before that he didn't like to wear it. Asahi subconsciously thought that Dazai had a bad boss, and Dazai had worn similar clothes before.Totally by accident (x

I didn't expect so many Ghost Slayer fans, I was ready for my Ghost Slayer article to be a hit (.) Ghost Slayer is really good

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