you better not like me

"Then you," Ji Yi's mother tremblingly picked up an apple, "do you want some fruit?"

Ji Yi stepped forward, took Chen Yan behind her, and said to her: "He won't eat, I brought him here just to tell you, the wedding date is fixed, the invitation is sent out, don't let your daughter check on me again. "She frowned slightly, not wanting to look at the person lying on the hospital bed.

Every time I see this scene, I can't help but waver in my heart, should I treat her better, it's the last day.

But feel sorry for yourself.

Back then, he left her behind and ran away.

Over 20 years of indifference.

I'm sick and need money, and I don't know where I got my contact information.

The daughter still throws photos on her face, points to her nose and says she is "deadly gay".

Even made an accomplice.

She was always vacillating between coming and going.

So I was afraid to go to the hospital.

"Mom didn't. Mom was just worried that you wouldn't listen to what Mom said, and the road was going wrong." Ji Yi's mother pinched the bed sheet with her hands on both sides of her body. She looked at Ji Yi with a worried look on her face.

Ji Yi lowered her head, and stood there in a somewhat dejected manner, wanting to refute but feeling powerless.

"Auntie," Chen Yan said with a cold face, "yes, the date of the wedding is fixed. After the wedding, I will apply for a marriage certificate. Ji Yi and I have been hooked up for a lifetime. This should be what you are satisfied with, the so-called 'right way', but I am I should tell you frankly that I don’t love her, and she doesn’t love me either. I will satisfy her material life, but I can never satisfy her spiritual needs. Similarly, she treats me too.”

From the first time Chen Yan came to see Ji Yi's mother, she was arrogant and arrogant, and never even gave her a good face.Time and time again, she hinted that "your daughter will not be happy with me", but Ji Yi's mother is too worldly. Seeing him in a suit, leather shoes, driving a good car and living in a good house, she feels that it is worthwhile for her daughter to marry him.

No matter how he hinted, she seemed to be cut off from seeing and hearing, and she couldn't perceive it.

Or rather, it doesn't matter.

"Okay, how about your wedding arrangements?"

Yes, it doesn't matter.

In her eyes, the only criterion for her daughter, who has not seen her face for more than 20 years, to live the rest of her life well is whether the person she marries is rich enough.

Chen Yan felt very sad.

He has always been able to understand Ji Yi's feeling of wanting to explain but being too lazy to explain, and also afraid of explaining.

Stuffed in the heart, not up or down.

Say, can't tell.

Swallow, can't swallow.

Ji Yi took a deep breath, and took out two invitation cards from her bag.

Put it on the side of the fruit plate.

The hospital was too quiet, she could only take two steps to and fro, and the sound of her high heels stepping on the ground was harsh.

"I can get married," Ji Yi said, "but I don't have a 'Gaotang'."

That night Chen Yan had two nightmares in a row.

I dreamed of my parents who didn't know my face, pointed to the photo of myself and Zhan Ke, and asked him if he was gay.

The photo was Chen Yan's favorite group photo before.

It took Zhan Ke a long time to shoot.

Before filming, he promised Zhan Ke that he would never be known by outsiders.

So in the dream, he panicked and desperately asked: "Where did the photo come from?", while eagerly explaining: "Yes, I am, but what's wrong with this? It's normal...I'm normal, right? I I just like men, I am not a pervert, I am normal, you see, I am no different from normal people."

In the dream, his parents were like Ji Yi's mother, they seemed to have their senses blocked, they just pointed at him, calling him perverted, saying he was not normal.

Then I dreamed of Zhan Ke, like a ghost, and asked him in a very stern voice: "Didn't it mean that there will be no third person to know?"

As soon as the camera turns——

It was the day Zhan Ke agreed to his confession.

Chen Yan couldn't tell how happy he was at that time, much happier than the day he got the admission letter from Tsinghua University.

He was so excited that he didn't fall asleep all night.

The next morning, I went to find Zhan Ke at six o'clock in the morning, and stood at the door of his dormitory, waiting while enjoying myself. Zhan Ke's roommates came out one after another, and they helped him in and shouted at Zhan Ke twice.

When Zhan Ke came out, before Chen Yan could stop smiling, Zhan Ke grabbed the collar and dragged him into the door.

Pushing him against the wall, it was cold and terrifying, the hands and voices that grabbed his front were very loud, warning: "If a third person finds out, I will kill you."

Chen Yan, with the germination of first love, a heart that danced all night and refused to rest for a moment, with fiery and sincere, greeted the cold water poured by Zhan Ke.The fine and dense pain flowed into the internal organs along the blood, as if the whole body had been split open, painful and dull.

So that it lasts forever.

While Chen Yan hoped that someone would know that this person belonged to him, at the same time he was afraid that someone would associate him with Zhan Ke and be dumped by Zhan Ke.

They moved out in their senior year.

Chen Yan especially likes to hear the sound of Zhan Ke entering the door when cooking, and then asks "Are you back" with a smile, although Zhan Ke will not answer him in many cases, only when he is in a good mood will he say "Well, I'm back ", but Chen Yan was still very happy.

He felt like he had a home.

His dreams are all about the "big plans" of the future, and Zhan Ke exists in every scene.

Chen Yan woke up at five o'clock, and when he heard Zhan Ke ask him in his dream, "Is it wrong for us to do this", he woke up with a start.

Drenched in cold sweat, his body was stiff, and he stared blankly ahead.

The moonlight coming in from the window is the only light.

"Fuck." After a long time, Chen Yan cursed secretly.

He even felt that his voice was coming from afar.

Chen Yan touched the cigarette case on the bedside table and lit one.

The scarlet light shattered the night.

He started dreaming again.

He started about two years ago, and his dreams gradually became less and less.

Unknowingly busy all day long and under the influence of alcohol, he gradually ceased to dream.It seems that the body, which is always at the limit, has no strength to give the brain the useless dreams.

Chen Yan turned on the phone and saw the time and date.

It's getting closer and closer to the 15th.

He doesn't feel like getting married.

The main reason is probably that he doesn't need to worry about anything, just go through the cutscene and get the book.

The wedding company would always call Ji Yi, because they didn't leave his mobile number at all.

Ji Yi said that it was a great gift for him to go through this cutscene.

So let him not worry from beginning to end.

Chen Yan sat by the bed and opened WeChat.

With Ji Yi——

- don't worry about what she says

- really easy to get mad

-her daughter got caught by me, sent some fucking private eye to investigate me

Skimming miscellaneous news.

Chen Yan saw a friend request.

This person doesn't seem to be interested in the "net name" these days, and the name directly uses two big characters——

Zhan Ke

Hold.

Hold.

"Fuck." Chen Yan stared at the friend request, cursed, and then laughed.

I can't tell what I'm laughing at, maybe I'm laughing at myself, maybe I'm laughing at Zhanke.

Laughing at them for so many years, going around for what the fuck is it.

agree.

-?

- want to introduce me to a psychiatrist

Chen Yan pinched out his cigarette.

Throw yourself hard on the bed.

There was a bang.

He smiled.

He is perverted.

He is abnormal now.

He just couldn't help it.

Chen Yan thought.

Whoever asked Zhan Ke to come back, he deserved it.