you better not like me

Chen Yan heard his muffled voice, with a strong nasal tone.A certain tense string in his brain broke in an instant, and he lost the ability to think in an instant.

Zhan Ke cried.

These words circled over and over in his mind, stimulating him crazily.

Chen Yan raised the hand that was hanging by his side uncontrollably, his body subconsciously wanted to comfort him, wanted to raise his hand to pat him on the back lightly.

However, the remaining rationality was also shouting, so Chen Yan's hand froze in mid-air.

There was Zhan Ke incoherently saying that he loved him while apologizing, and the wet cloth on his shoulder was full of Zhan Ke's tears.

Chen Yan wanted to say something, but he was afraid that what he said would be comforting words.

But this instinct hit him again and again.

Between coming and going——

"Cough...cough...cough..."

Chen Yan coughed.

He pushed Zhan Ke away, covered his mouth with his hand, coughed and was out of breath.

Zhan Ke stood up in a panic and froze in place at a loss.

"Yes, water." He just thought of it.

He strode to the kitchen and opened the refrigerator door, took out a bottle of water, and before he even had time to close the refrigerator door, he unscrewed the bottle cap as he walked.

Anxiously brought the water to Chen Yan, "Drink some water?"

Chen Yan didn't care about so much, so he took a gulp when he took it - the water just taken out of the refrigerator, when it flowed into his body, the cold tingled his whole body with pain.

The cough stopped.

Also sober.

"How is it?" Zhan Ke lowered his head and leaned over to look at his face, "Why all of a sudden... Is it me..."

As soon as he finished speaking, Chen Yan raised his eyelids and gave him a cool look, and swallowed the rest of the words.

Chen Yan put the water bottle on the table, leaned back somewhat exhausted, half-lyed on the sofa, and took a deep breath.

"If you come to me every time just to talk about something..." Chen Yan paused for a moment, "There's nothing wrong with this mess."

"Then don't look for me again in the future, I'm not willing to listen."

Not happy to listen.

Taking advantage of the opportunity, he confessed all the things he had hidden for five years or more, but Chen Yan said he was not willing to listen.

This is what he said from the bottom of his heart.

Chen Yan actually said that he was not willing to listen.

Give him hope first, then tell him it's just a joke.

Finally, after listening to his heart and soul, he said that he was not happy to listen to these "messy things".

Just a few 10 minutes.

He felt as if his internal organs were out of place in pain.

He even felt that this feeling could not be described with a knife stab.

This feeling is excruciating and painful.

Chen Yan's heart seemed to be locked in the deepest part by a thousand years of ice, not to mention warming it up, he couldn't touch it at all.

Chen Yan was right in front of his eyes.

But it's a hundred and eight thousand miles away.

After a series of blows, he could hardly even summon up the courage to reach out.

He couldn't help thinking about the past.

I refused again and again, indifference again and again, and that sentence of loving him that seemed to be stuck in my throat with glue, I couldn't say it.

How did Chen Yan greet him with a smile?

Chen Yan confessed.

He refused.

Chen Yan said with a smile: "Okay, we are still brothers, right?"

Afraid that he would refuse even to be a brother, he hurriedly blocked his escape every time without waiting for him to speak, "Oh, it's so big that brothers can't do it, right?"

How many times has Chen Yan been rejected?

Zhan Ke didn't dare to count.

How much courage did Chen Yan possess back then, and how did he wear out Chen Yan's courage bit by bit.

He didn't even dare to think about it.

He didn't even dare to think--

Back then, Chen Yan was enthusiastic and straightforward, brave and strong, and he loved to cry and act like a baby that only he could see.

But now Chen Yan.

He found sadly that he couldn't understand the current Chen Yan at all. He didn't know what Chen Yan was thinking, what was hidden behind Chen Yanyun's calm expression, and what Chen Yan was thinking when he was in a daze. Knowing whether Chen Yan has retained the old self, even a little bit.

The last thing he dared to think was that Chen Yan would become like this, and the culprit could only come and go with just one name.

Zhan Ke.

"When I was six or seven years old, I watched Doraemon and wanted to have any door, so I could go anywhere." Zhan Ke suddenly said, "When I was 17 years old, I grew up and was busy aimlessly, so I stopped doing this. It's an unrealistic dream."

"I'm 27 years old this year, and I still want a random door." Zhan Ke tilted his head and took a deep look at Chen Yan, then reluctantly withdrew his gaze, looked at the ground, and said with a wry smile: "I want to open the door and go back to being 17 years old." , hugged you hard when you first said you liked me, and then said I love you."