The years you healed

On the way back, Jiao Chenxi sat in the co-pilot without saying a word, Wu Qi also drove the car in silence, and went straight back to the room when he got home, even Jiao Chenxi didn't catch his shadow.

"Ugh--"

Jiao Chenxi stood alone in the middle of the living room, with one hand on his hips, rubbed between his brows, and sighed softly.

Just as he was about to sit on the sofa for a while, the phone in his pocket suddenly rang.

The word 'boss' was noted on the caller ID.

Jiao Chenxi: "Hello? Boss, we have arrived home safely."

It was Fang Ning who called, probably because he was worried about what happened just now, and worried about his brother's condition.

His voice was a little hoarse: "Xiaoqi...is he by your side now?"

"No, he went back to his room."

After taking off his coat, Jiao Chenxi could take a good rest, turned around and sat down on the sofa.After staying at home for a long time, Leng Buding was exhausted after a busy day.

His lazy attitude immediately aroused Fang Ning's concern.

"Is it okay for you to leave him alone...?"

There were two times before that Wu Qi was almost life-threatening when he was alone, which frightened Fang Ning a lot, and he is still very worried about this.

But Jiao Chenxi waved his hand helplessly, and casually took an apple from the table.

"Boss, you are thinking too seriously. He is not a child now. If you watch him too closely, he will be disgusted. You need to give him some proper personal space. Besides...he definitely doesn't want to be disturbed now, let him alone It’s nice to be quiet.”

After the words fell, there was a long silence on the other end of the phone.

"Did I... hurt him?"

"Maybe." Jiao Chenxi did not deny it.

"But you don't have to blame yourself. If the family members don't get a good feedback during the patient's treatment, they will more or less have a breakdown."...not to mention the special situation of your family.

Jiao Chenxi didn't say the last sentence.For a boss of a listed company like Wu Qi, it seems that if he misses a second, he will miss [-] million. Now the burden is on Fang Ning's shoulders, and a slight mismanagement will have a great impact on the company's economy.

Jiao Chenxi paused, and said: "During the onset, the patient's thinking is particularly prone to develop in an extreme direction, and this is something beyond their control."

"So what your family members need to do is to persist and believe."

A heavy sigh came from the phone.

"I understand, Dr. Jiao. Xiaoqi, I will leave it to you."

Jiao Chenxi: "My responsibility lies."

From then on, Wu Qi's mood always suddenly became negative.

I don't want to see anyone, I don't want to say anything.Jiao Chenxi will also take care of his feelings very carefully, and just stay beside him silently.

"Chenchen, I... can I still be saved?"

He leaned against the wall of the study, looking out the window blankly.

Jiao Chenxi beside him didn't answer immediately, but slowly closed the book, pushed down his glasses, turned his head and looked at him naturally.

"I don't understand you."

Hearing this, Wu Qi said lightly again: "I mean, is there no need for treatment for people like me?"

Jiao Chenxi lowered his eyes and was silent for a moment.

"If you want to know what I really think of you, you can actually ask a lighter question."

"..."

Wu Qi's silence indirectly proved Jiao Chenxi's guess.

Once he starts to feel helpless and hopeless towards the world, then his thoughts will be messed up by bad emotions, and finally a kind of "I will leave this world quietly, the world will not find out, and I don't have to struggle anymore . ' Thoughts.

Jiao Chenxi took off his glasses, and looked out the window like Wu Qi.

"To be honest, I can't understand you 100%, because we grew up in different environments and circles are also different."

"A little doctor like me goes to and from get off work every day, and all he needs to deal with is the social circle of colleagues and friends. He completes the work on time and gets paid on time. There may be new troubles every day, but he gritted his teeth and persisted."

"It's not like you, who were born from a rich family. We are not on the same level." Jiao Chenxi said deliberately, while carefully observing the changes in Xia Wuqi's micro-expression.

Jiao Chenxi continued: "Just like most people's inherent thinking, they think that people with high social status don't have to worry about food and clothing, and have everything ordinary people can't get. In short, in the eyes of us poor, you don't lack anything. "

"..."

Jiao Chenxi: "However, it's not that easy."

He stretched out his hand and gently wrapped Wu Qi's clenched fist underneath.The moment of touching, Wu Qi froze.

Jiao Chenxi did not focus on Wu Qi's reaction, but continued: "My mother told me when I was young that life is not actually a race, because everyone's starting line is different. Some children may be born with Due to the doubling of the parents' doting, some children may grow up in the orphanage after birth, and they have never even met their parents. So for children, some things are not absolutely fair."

Wu Qi moved his gaze back in silence, and turned to Jiao Chenxi's hand holding him, thoughtfully.

Jiao Chenxi: "...She said that life is like climbing a mountain. No matter how high your starting point is, you have to work hard to climb up. No matter which step you miss in the process, you will fall at the foot of the mountain. Even if you Lying motionless on the mountainside also requires enough physical strength to maintain it."

"Because this era is progressing, people with consistent social status are actually maintaining the status quo, and those who are truly stagnant will eventually be eliminated by the times."

Wu Qi looked at him expressionlessly, the feeling of knowing the reality but being powerless to change came to his heart instantly.

"Let's talk about those children who are pushed to the top by the powerful advantages of their parents. Once they get rid of the aura behind them, every step in the future must be beautiful. In the eyes of others, they can do it easily if they want to reach the sky in one step, but In fact, everyone's heartache and hard work can only be experienced by themselves."

Jiao Chenxi breathed a sigh of relief, and stared into Wu Qi's eyes.

"So, after I've said so much, you can now understand why I don't judge you lightly?"

"..."

Jiao Chenxi gently hugged Wu Qi into his arms, patted his back with his palm, and whispered in his ear.

"It's been hard work for so many years."

It has been several years since the discovery of the signs to the final diagnosis. Thinking that his inner struggle had lasted for so long, Jiao Chenxi couldn't help tightening his arms.

"Why... I have already overcome the most difficult time, why can't I get over this hurdle now..." Wu Qi's head hung on Jiao Chenxi's right shoulder, his tone was full of helplessness and despair.

"Why did I become like this..."

Jiao Chenxi pursed his lips and hugged Wu Qi tightly. The only thing he can do now is to listen.

"It seems like no matter what I do, I just cause trouble for people."

Jiao Chenxi's heart ached when he heard these words, and he stretched out his hand to stroke his head.

"It's okay, you've done a great job."

For a long time, Wu Qi didn't go out of the gate, talked less, and didn't laugh like before, and always liked to be alone in the room.

When Jiao Chenxi had nothing to do, he would go to the study on the first floor to read, or quietly go to the basement in the backyard to play games.

Such days didn't last long, and Jiao Chenxi was so bored that he couldn't bear it anymore.At the beginning, he would slowly talk to Wu Qi, but it seemed that Wu Qi was not interested, so he would shut up wisely.

Once when cleaning, he accidentally put Pippi in. It may be that Pippi's talkative nature aroused Wu Qi's disgust. He silently pressed Pippi's switch button and threw Pippi out.

"Leave me alone for a while."

This sentence was addressed to Jiao Chenxi, before the words were finished, the door was closed.

At this critical stage of the treatment, Wu Qi has already started to feel anxious and uneasy, but Jiao Chenxi can feel that every time he is in front of him, he will try his best to suppress his irritable side.

So recently, Wu Qi always pushes him away.

Jiao Chenxi held Pippi in his arms with the power cut off, facing the closed door in front of him, he lost his mind for a moment.

Just as he was about to turn around and leave, he heard heavy breathing coming from the room.

He rolled his eyes and realized that something was wrong, so he put down Pippi and rushed into the door.

In the room, Wu Qi half-kneeled on the ground with an extremely painful expression, propping up the bed with his hands, clutching his chest and panting heavily.

"elder brother!"

Jiao Chenxi was not in a hurry to help him, but quickly went back to the room to find medicine for him, and then returned as quickly as possible to feed him the medicine.

"It's okay, it's okay, this kind of situation is normal during the treatment stage." Jiao Chenxi comforted him while stroking his chest with his hands, letting him breathe in coordination.

"Inhale through the nose, exhale through the mouth."

Jiao Chenxi looked at Wu Qi worriedly: "Do you feel better?"

After a while, Wu Qi calmed down, opened his eyes and saw Jiao Chenxi beside him, and pushed him away without saying a word.

"!"

Jiao Chenxi, who was suddenly pushed down, hung his hands in the air, looking at Wu Qi with a bewildered expression.

However, after Wu Qi impulsively pushed the person away, he felt instantly annoyed, but still bit the bullet and pushed the person out.

Standing outside the door, Jiao Chenxi didn't know why things had turned into this way, picked up Pipi again, and walked downstairs step by step.

No matter what the reason is, Wu Qi's current situation is obviously contrary to expectations, and he even has a feeling of resistance to the attending physician.

If this situation is allowed to continue, it is difficult for Jiao Chenxi to imagine how the treatment can proceed.

He slumped on the floor of the bathroom, took a deep breath, and buried his head deeply in the crook of his arms.

It happened that this scene was seen by the guilty Wu Qi when he opened the door. He saw Jiao Chenxi sitting with his legs crossed, his fluffy hair was messed up.

He didn't make a sound, just watched quietly.

I don't know how long it took before Jiao Chenxi wiped his face with his hand, and when he raised his head, he met Wu Qi's gaze.

Suddenly panicked: "I..."

"..."

Wu Qi didn't make a sound, turned around and left in front of him again.

"elder brother!"