Through another world, I still love you

When he woke up, the sky was already a little dark.Xi Murong sat on the stone bed and stared for a while, only to realize that Yano was no longer in the room.He closed his eyes, stretched freely, stretched out his hands and rubbed his face, got up and walked outside.

Houses here generally have no doors, but a rectangular opening more than two meters high is dug out of the wall, which is usually covered with a simple linen curtain.However, Xi Murong found a circular groove on one side of the rectangular opening. Xi Murong guessed that they probably removed the door during the warm season, and put the door back when the cold season came.The rooms of Hawke and Luo were covered by curtains, so Xi Murong couldn't see if they got up or not, but after listening carefully, there was no movement, and they should still be asleep.

Xi Murong rubbed his stomach, the meal he ate at noon had already been completely digested.Hawke didn't wake up, and he didn't know how to cook, so he had to go into the kitchen to see if there was anything else to eat, and eat something to pad his stomach.

This is the bad point here, except that there is something to eat when eating, and there is no snacks for the rest of the time, and he is always hungry, hungry, Xi Murong can't help but miss the things he ate before. Pastry snacks to come.

He was brought up by Xi Lei since he was a child, and was raised by a nanny together.At that time, Xi Lei was only eight or nine years old, and he had to take on the heavy responsibility of taking care of Xiao Baozi at such a young age.It is conceivable how difficult it is for a child to lead another child.

He has been squeamish since he was a child, especially when he was a child, he would be full every time he ate just a little bit, but he would cry hungry again after a while.At that time, my father was busy in the company, and my mother had her own job, so the job of feeding naturally fell on Xi Lei.

After a long time, Xi Lei has also figured out his habits. Whenever he is about to feel hungry, Xi Lei has already asked the nanny to prepare meals.Later, Xi Lei grew up and grew taller. When he was free, he would cook for him himself and make some snacks for him.

He remembered that when he was seven years old, Xi Lei asked the housekeeper to invite a pastry chef from outside to make pastries for him.Xi Lei is a smart person. After watching the pastry chef make things a few times, and after a few more pointers, he can actually make something decent.At that time, he was so attached to his elder brother that he felt that the things made by his elder brother were more delicious than those made by the pastry chef.As for Xi Lei, who dotes on his younger brother, seeing how flattering he is, he simply learned how to cook with the chef at home, cooking for him meal by meal.

During that time, he gained weight at a speed visible to the naked eye. Xi Lei was very happy about it. Seeing his brother so happy, he stopped clamoring to lose weight, and let Xi Lei change his ways to make him fat. .Only later, his father began to teach Xi Lei about the company. Xi Lei was only in junior high school at that time, and spent most of his time in school. His father took up a small part of his time, and there was almost nothing left for him.

He couldn't get used to it, he couldn't sleep well, and he couldn't eat well. The meat that Xi Lei had carefully raised disappeared at a speed visible to the naked eye.

Standing in the kitchen, Xi Murong suddenly remembered the distressed expression on Xi Lei who had been away from home for a long time when he saw him.Later, no matter how busy and tired Xi Lei was, he would find time to cook for him. Later, when he really had no extra time, he would make some snacks for Xi Murong before going to bed and store them up for him when he was hungry. Time to eat.

Heartache surged unsurprisingly, Xi Murong sat down while supporting the table with trembling hands, only to realize that tears were streaming down his face.

Xi Lei has always doted on him. He has always been the person in the family who has been with him the longest and who understands him best. He has always been his most trusted support.

But in a blink of an eye, he remembered how he looked when he saw Xi Lei for the last time.

At that time, Xi Lei was haggard, his tall and straight body was no longer, but his tolerance for himself never changed.He remembered the feeling when Xi Lei hugged him with his limp legs when he was about to die. His arms were still strong, his heartbeat was still familiar, and he would still make himself feel at ease.

He has never changed, what has changed is himself!

Xi Murong bit her lip tightly, feeling an uncontrollable pain in her heart.

It turned out that the person who hurt him the most in that family was the person who pampered and tolerated him from beginning to end, and who was both his father and mother in his eyes!

When Yanuo walked in, what he saw was Xi Murong leaning on the table, his eyes were red with tears.This time, Xi Murong didn't hide it anymore, he just supported his forehead with his hands, waiting for the last remaining pain to gradually dissipate.

Yanuo was very considerate and didn't make a sound, but walked to the table silently, put the bunch of fruits in his hands on the table, and quietly accompanied Xi Murong.

This time the pain was especially long, and when he recovered, Xi Murong's throat was already dry and his tongue was stiff.He wiped the sweat from his forehead and went to pour water out of the bamboo tube, but just as he stretched out his hand, he felt his fingers become cold, and a glass of water was already in his hand.

Xi Murong was stunned for a moment, looked up at Yano, and saw his retracted hand, and eyes full of worry.

He smiled gratefully: "It's all right, thank you!" He raised the bamboo tube in his hand, took a sip of water, and instantly felt that his dry throat was much moisturised.

Seeing that his face had softened, Yano said, "Is it a heartache? Do you have a heart attack?" Xi Murong shook his head: "I didn't have the same body before, but I'm not sure if this body is It’s not that I have a disease in this area. During the time I’ve been here, this body is usually fine, but as long as I… think of some people, my former relatives, my heart will hurt, very painful.”

Xi Murong finds it incredible, in fact, he is not that kind of cheerful personality, in the past, he didn't like to have deep association with anyone easily.He wondered why he was so relaxed in front of an unfamiliar person in this different world.Maybe it was the same situation they were in, maybe it was the man's taciturnity that made him feel at ease, anyway, Yano made him feel good, so good that he would trust him without thinking.

"Actually..." Yano looked at him, "Actually, I really want to say, if you think of your relatives, you will feel heartache, then try not to think about it. Because no matter what, we can't go back. But..."

He paused, looking at Xi Murong's eyes became complicated, "I know, it's hard to do, because I am the same. I can't help but think about some past events, and... some people from the past .”

Xi Murong noticed that when he said the phrase "people from the past", a trace of struggle and sadness flashed in his eyes.He didn't know what happened to Yano when he was in the original world, but everyone has an unspeakable past, and there are always some things and some people that are unforgettable.

In the end, neither he nor Yano can stop thinking about their past, because it is a part of their life, whether it is sweet or bitter, it is real.They have lost everything that carried their past, so why do they deliberately hide from the only memory that can see that past?

He glanced at Yano, whose eyes were dazed, and expressed his thoughts.

Yano listened quietly, without speaking, but Xi Murong understood that Yano's past was much more complicated than his, and that he didn't want to forget and give up that memory didn't mean Yano didn't want to.

The two of them didn't talk for a while, they were thinking about their own thoughts, although the atmosphere was silent, but this time Xi Murong didn't feel embarrassed.

"I don't know how I should face my past." Yano suddenly broke the silence with a deep voice, a trace of confusion appeared in his eyes, "I...in the original world, I fell in love with someone I shouldn't The person I like, we used to be so close, but later, I have feelings for him that I shouldn't have."

Xi Murong was surprised, what do you mean by having thoughts you shouldn't have, people you shouldn't like?Could it be that Yano fell in love with someone else's daughter-in-law?Although Xi Murong thinks that Yano is not that kind of person, who can explain things like feelings clearly?

"I didn't dare to get close to him, so I could only keep a certain distance from him and look at him from a distance. Gradually, we were no longer close, and he no longer relied on me. I was in pain, and I didn't care about what I thought. No, I want him. But I can't, I watched him get farther and farther away from me, watched him fall in love with a man who had other plans for him, watched him make mistakes step by step, watched him die In my arms."

Yano's voice was very flat, as if he was telling a story that had nothing to do with him. Although he didn't use a strong tone, Xi Murong still felt deep sadness and self-blame from his deeper and deeper voice.But he didn't speak, just listened quietly, just like Yano accompanied him to taste the pain, accompanying him.

"I really regret why I left him in the first place. If I had been by his side, he wouldn't have died. When he died in front of me, I thought, I must be with him, I can't let him alone When people leave, he will be afraid, he needs me."

Yano's tone suddenly became painful and hasty: "But why am I alive again after I die? I want to find him, but God made me travel to such a place where there is no him at all! I threw him It's gone, never to be found again."

At the end, Arno's voice trembled a little, which made Xi Murong's throat tight and his heart sore.He really wanted to comfort Arno, but when he opened his mouth, he found that no matter what he said at the moment, it was pale and empty.

The two fell into silence again, and Xi Murong looked sideways at Yano's clenched fist, feeling uncomfortable in his heart.

The night had completely drawn away, and the kitchen gradually became dark, but none of them went to light the grass lamps on the table, and just sat there in the dark, continuing to remain silent.

At this time, Hawke's voice suddenly sounded outside: "Huh? Where have these two guys gone? Could it be that they have already gone to the square? Why didn't you call us?"

"Kids have their own affairs, don't worry about them, are you hungry?" This was Luo's voice, and the two of them walked into the kitchen through the curtain while talking.

Xi Murong was a little dumbfounded, he already had things to do tonight, but now, his stomach is still empty! .

Just as Xi Murong was dumbfounded, the grass lamp on the table was lit, and at the same time as the light filled the whole room, the Hawks also walked in.

The author has something to say:

interspersed with the past, hehe