Fast Time Travel Novel Improver

Sunny Saturday, August [-]th

I finally saw him today. I haven't seen him since we parted at his house last time.I miss him, but unfortunately it's too late, he doesn't want me anymore.

I never regret anything I do, that kind of negative emotion is useless to me; I was born to struggle, to change my own destiny, I have no time to regret and do useless work.

But today is the first time I have some regrets.He has changed, like a different person. From his eyes, I can see that he has really completely abandoned me. In this world, I have no one to rely on anymore.

My parents are poor people who can only pray and don't use their brains. Their life can be said to be humble.They are engaged in the most inferior jobs, get up early and return late to set up stalls, live in fear every day in the hands of urban management, and every time they spend money, it is like drawing blood.

In my memory, I have never spent money with peace of mind, and I have to consider every penny before deciding whether to spend it.They are so poor and humble, they care about a few cents, and quarrel over oil, salt, soy sauce and vinegar. Not only are they materially poor, but their spirit is also poor.

Although they are my parents, I have never looked down on them.

I sometimes complain, why did God let me be born in such a poor family?Why do I just stare at the thing I love, but I can only sigh? !I hate, I hate this world, this hierarchical society!

I admit that I am arrogant, but I want to live with an attitude of pride, and I don't want to be that lower-class person who nods and bows!I would rather give everything, my love, and even myself, and I want to live the life of my dreams, which is a life of spending money with peace of mind, and a life of arrogance to everything.Overriding everything, that feeling of flying through the clouds is the ultimate enjoyment of life!

When I saw him today, I was so moved.I have to admit, I really like him, and that quickening pulse is the most honest.If I had power, I would have brought him under my command, not only could I enjoy his sex to the fullest, but I could also swallow his family property.Yes, I am greedy, I love money, power, and pure love, I want them all.

Bai Liku was already dead, he had already died on the night of his adult day, he sold himself just like that for money; that night was not a carnival night, but Bai Liku's funeral.Only Bai Li is alive now.

Sometimes, Bai Liku would revive in my bones, he would always accuse me, scold me angrily, and belittle me as an unscrupulous and despicable person.Why don't I know?But whenever I think of those days when I was slaughtered because of poverty, I would rather abandon my self-esteem and lower my character, and let those who once despised me look up and worship me.

Coming back from the dinner today, I kept asking myself, if I had to choose between love and money, which would I choose?My gut tells me that I will choose money.I'm really poor and scared, enough is enough!But I have to admit that I like Song Yaze, and even have a crush on him.His unafraid and calm appearance at the dinner table is exactly what I am missing.

Maybe it's because people pursue and cling to what they don't have, I was fascinated by him, and sadly, there is no going back.As I thought about it, my heart felt as if it was being pricked with thousands of silver needles. The pain was so painful that I couldn't breathe well, and I didn't even bother to pay attention to Jiang Yuan.

How I wish he could always stand behind me, just like before; Yes, I am selfish, but I can't control it; I like him, and I just want to get him, so that he only has my existence in his eyes.

But I am no longer worthy of him, I have done too many wrong things!When I think of this, it hurts so much!Pain!He is so beautiful and warm, how much I want to spend my life with him, die quietly in his arms, close my eyes in his tender kiss; yes, selfish, I hope to die in front of him, but I am so selfish My love is also selfish!

Oh, God!Jesus!I must have committed a great crime in my previous life, which made me live in such pain and entanglement!Why am I so far away from him?I really want to give him the best, but my body is already broken; and my possessive love never allows anyone other than me to get close to him.

I am extremely confused, I foresee that my love will turn into a puddle of muddy water, I am too humble to give him a high-level lover; but my lofty heart, which is beyond self-control, just makes me fall in love with such a beautiful person .

I'm living in a quagmire, I'm afraid I won't be able to pull out this foot!