Fast Time Travel Novel Improver

Wo Taifu lives next door to Song Yaze, and the layout of their rooms is roughly the same.The only difference is that there is an extra statue painting in Wo Taifu's room.The statue of the god is hung on the wall, and the god inside is also wearing a simple white gauze robe, walking barefoot on the barren yellow land, with a compassionate expression and fluttering clothes.Devout believers believe that gods come to the suffering world to save sentient beings.

The believers are always keen on repentance. They like to cry bitterly in front of the god statue, and repeat the same mistakes after wiping away their tears. It seems that repentance is just a routine errand for the god statue. Repentance is repentance, and life is life.Perhaps the little bit of discrimination they have is all used in this place, so that they have no ability to see the real right and wrong.

Wo Taifu was kneeling piously in front of the statue. Under the shrine, there was still a butter lamp with a good smell and a few white flowers, which looked very sacred.His face was softened by the light, but his complexion was not very good-looking.He closed his eyes and silently recited the confession gatha, which was what he did most often after meeting Song Yaze.

That day in the locker room, the "evil thoughts" that he insisted on were breached by "evil thoughts", and he couldn't control it. This made him regret the most.He scolded himself secretly, but he was always immersed in the infinite lust for that person. Every night when he fell asleep, it was the time he was most worried about, but also the time he looked forward to the most.He was always silently reciting the Qingxin gatha, but secretly thinking about what posture he should use and how far he would toss that person.He has received the most strict orthodox education since he was a child, and he can't indulge in female sex, let alone a man!

The taboo's bitterness made him even more happy in his dreams.He always fantasizes about imprisoning Song Yaze in a place isolated from the world, tying him up, whipping him, stimulating him with ice cubes and candles, stroking his trembling legs due to pain, and biting his chest forward.Blindfold his eyes with a black cloth, deprive him of vision, let him feel the greatest physical stimulation.Prick him with tiny silver needles and suck the oozing blood.Put him in the hottest clothes, or wear nothing at all, let him kneel between his legs, and do the most humiliating but sexy thing...

"Almighty God! Help me! The devil of sin will pull me away from you..." Wo Taifu muttered in a low voice, with a painful expression on his face.

But even when he asked the gods for help, the gods did not come to save him.He closed his eyes tightly, but in front of his eyes, he saw Song Yaze covered in welts, eyes covered, lying on the ground panting, spreading his legs to seduce him.Wo Taifu took a deep breath, as if he could even smell the bloody and fishy air.And this terrible fantasy has tormented him for a long time.He suppressed it vigorously, and the result became more and more severe. Perhaps this thing has a counteractive force and a multiplier effect.

Wo Taifu has thought about this question countless times, why he has such unbearable and exciting thoughts about Song Yaze, why he longs to have sex with him every day, but the answer is still unknown.Gradually, he seemed to understand that this kind of fanaticism and passion was innate to him.He seemed to be looking for someone all the time. Although he didn't know this person's appearance, height, or personality, when he saw Song Yaze, he could be sure that he was this person.

Therefore, he longed to caress everything about that man, and wished he could be happy with him all the time, so that he would let go of his dignity as a man early under his fierce offensive, and just think about bearing himself every day.Wo Taifu has the sublime side of God, but also has this devilish desire; it is because of his ascetic character that he has suppressed the dark side of his instinct for a long time, which on the contrary gave birth to this extreme sexual concept.

His admiration for God is sincere, but it has been forcefully instilled since he was a child, and has no real basis.Perhaps his belief comes from persuading himself, rather than yearning for the gods.But he is also a human being, whenever the temptation arises, he can always stop it in time.It's just that these days, he has encountered difficulties after all.

There was a knock on the door, and the tug of war in Wo Taifu's mind had to be intermission.He opened the door, and what he saw was the face he had imagined just now.It's just that in fantasy, this face is full of desire, dissatisfaction and hysteria, not as gentle and natural as it is now.

"Come in." Wo Taifu's voice was clear and pleasant, with an imperceptible hoarseness.

Song Yaze didn't know it, and there was a faint smile on his face, even a little grateful.He also carried several kinds of fruits in his hand, which was to thank Wo Taifu for his protection.

"I saw through the crack of the door just now that you have been kneeling down to worship the gods. I knocked many times before you opened the door..." He broke off a banana, peeled it attentively, and handed it to Wo Taifu, " You are a devout Christian!"

Wo Taifu lowered his head, and said slowly: "I won't eat after lunch, and I won't eat anything after two o'clock in the afternoon. You can eat this banana." The lower body is fully covered.

"Actually... I was drunk in the afternoon. Some words were inappropriate and might offend me. I'm really sorry." Song Yaze put the naked banana aside and said with a smile, "Thank you for your understanding..."

Wo Taifu looked up and saw his grateful expression, but immediately traced back to the unsightly scene in his mind.Normally, he would quickly recite the confession, but now that the devil has defeated the god, he said in a strange way: "Why didn't you eat it?"

This is a strange question. Song Yaze hesitated for a few seconds before saying, "I don't eat too sweet things."

"Forget it." Wo Taifu stood up, turned his back to Song Yaze and walked to the window.He was illuminated by the cold moon, and the frantic mood seemed to subside a little. "I'm not a devout believer, my behavior is very bad. I can't even... even the most basic religious rules..."

"No one is born a saint." Song Yaze walked to him, raised his hand and patted him on the shoulder, which was his habitual action when comforting others.But this ordinary action made Wo Taifu stiff all over, and the place where he was patted seemed to become numb and hot.He is too repressed on sex, and always maintains a life of abstinence.But the more he suppressed, the more he cared, the more sensitive he was, just patting his shoulder already made him feel abnormal.

"I don't know your Beimu's canon rules very well, but I can probably guess a few of them. Alas, those rules are easy to follow for a while, but it's too difficult to abide by them for a lifetime!" Song Yaze sighed.

Wo Taifu leaned towards Song Yaze with a gloomy expression: "It's really difficult, if you look at it according to Mahayana standards. Hinayana cultivation, as long as you don't do taboo things. Mahayana cultivation of mind, you can't even have wrong thoughts. "

"That's even more difficult!" Song Yaze looked sad, mourning for the Beimu people, "You guys are living so hard! The feeling of wanting to do something but not being able to do it must be very unpleasant. But if you don't even have a thought, you won't feel pain Bar!"

"You're right." Wo Taifu turned his head, stared at him with helpless black eyes, and said in a deep voice: "The most painful thing is to want to do it but not be able to do it. If I wasn't from Beimu, I would I made the worst mistakes, and I don’t know how to repent. As long as I want to, even if I force others and hurt others, I will do it!"

Song Yaze turned his head in surprise, this sentence was really not what Wo Taifu said.In his eyes, Wo Taifu's labels are piety and abstinence.But now, he only felt that Wo Taifu's eyes were very uncomfortable.

"It's a pity that I am from Beimu. I want to maintain my beliefs and my country. This is my natural mission. You may feel sad for me, but this is something I can't change. Some things, you don't want to do it It can be done." Wo Taifu looked heavy, and his mood was gloomy.

Song Yaze was deeply touched, and agreed: "That's right! Some things cannot be accomplished in fantasy, nor can they be realized by shouting slogans. People have times when they can't help themselves. Seeing others' feelings is not real. Once When you come to yourself, you will know how helpless the reality is.”

Wo Taifu sighed, with a complicated expression: "Are you also a person who has experienced helplessness?" He paused, and then whispered: "Can you tell me?"

"Of course." Song Yaze's tone was calm, and the years allowed him to recall the past so calmly, "I still don't love my mother. When I was young, I hated her very much. I hated her for beating me, scolding me, and taking it out on me every day. I never I have never experienced what a mother's love is. At that time, I swore that when I grow up, I will never ask her and let her fend for herself, that is her retribution."

Hearing that the person Song Yaze mentioned was his mother, Wo Taifu heaved a sigh of relief and secretly rejoiced.He didn't want Song Yaze to fall in love with or have loved anyone else. "And then? You didn't do that, did you?"

"Yes, I found that I can't do that." Song Yaze nodded, "Although I don't love her, I can't abandon her according to my original idea. Even if she is unreasonable, I still have to pay for all her expenses. I have some My friends called me stupid because they didn't put themselves in their shoes. After all, she gave birth to me, I really can't ignore her, even if I am helpless, I have to do it. The reality is much more complicated than I imagined .”

What Song Yaze said came from the heart.But Wo Taifu was only happy to monopolize his thoughts, but didn't listen to his words very much.When Song Yaze stopped talking, he responded as if coping: "Oh, that's right!"

Seeing his perfunctory, Song Yaze thought that he didn't want to listen to this family's gossip, so he changed the subject again: "Recently... is there anything else important? Such as correcting official affairs, giving a speech or something?"

"No. Your job is very simple, just live here. Especially recently, Sidon is reorganizing the army and deploying troops on the border. You symbolize that Sidon will not invade Beimu, and you must not leave now." Wo Taifu looked. Resolute, as if giving orders. "And, preferably always!"

Song Yaze frowned, looking troubled.Never leaving also means that Caesar will never withdraw his troops, which is not what he wants to see. "I still hope that Caesar can withdraw his troops as soon as possible. If I leave earlier, it means that the war will end one day earlier. Since Caesar withdrew his troops from Dongxia, he will naturally not invade Beimu."

Hearing this, Wo Taifu's heart suddenly tightened, and great disappointment and anger surged up, causing his blood to surge up: "Impossible, you can't go back!"

"Why?" Song Yaze was surprised and looked at him puzzled, "Don't you want the war to end as soon as possible?"

"I don't care about the war, it has nothing to do with me. As long as you stay here, it's fine." Wo Taifu looked anxious and hideous.

Song Yaze saw that his facial features were quite distorted, and his originally handsome face was unbearable to look at.He was silent for a long while before slowly opening his mouth: "Didn't you study the classics? Didn't the above say that you should be kind? I thought..."

——I thought you were benevolent and kind, but I didn’t expect you to be on the same level as Caesar, even more hypocritical than him!

He paused, but swallowed the words.Being in a foreign country and living under the eyes of others, it is better to be cautious.

Wo Taifu wanted to open his mouth to speak, but he just kept his mouth open, with a complicated heart.He was originally kind, and when he saw suffering and death, he would shed a few tears of sympathy.But now, he has finally fallen from the altar, he is no longer a kind and compassionate believer.Perhaps it was love that aroused his selfishness and burned away his philanthropy.

"Wars in the world are normal, and all countries are fighting for their own interests." Wo Taifu smoothed things over for himself, with a natural expression on his face, "Wars that can be resolved become win-win cooperation. If they cannot be resolved, someone must shed blood .Even if there is no war, as long as people's interests are not dead, disputes will continue forever. It's just another way. Everyone is selfish. You should learn to get used to it."

Song Yaze was silent for a while, and said solemnly: "You are overgeneralizing. People are indeed selfish, but they don't only love themselves. Even if there is a conflict, if there is more empathy, the way to resolve the conflict will be more gentle. , there is no need to solve it through war." He paused again, then lowered his voice and said: "You see the problem is too extreme, it is either Utopia or Shura Field. In fact, there is an intermediate solution, which is both restrictive and win-win .”

Wo Taifu was stunned, and it took him a long time to say: "Maybe when the darkness of human hearts disappears, the war will really end, but this is impossible. Maybe I should face up to the darkness of human nature instead of rejecting and hating it With that said, he turned around and looked at Song Yaze, his eyes darkened.

"Forgive me..." Song Yaze opened his mouth slowly, paying attention to Wo Taifu's face, "I think you'd better be honest with yourself and accept your own shortcomings in order to be happier! Since you are a human being, don't take God for granted. The standard requires yourself. If you can’t do it, it will be painful to death, why bother! It’s not as good as people who don’t believe in religion, at least they live happily and don’t have so many things..."

Wo Taifu was silent, frowning, with a serious and tense look, even Song Yaze became nervous.After a while, he breathed a sigh of relief, relaxed a lot, and put a weird smile on his face: "You make a lot of sense..."