Fast Time Travel Novel Improver

After Song Yaze became "ill", Lin Yuguo pushed the company's affairs to his subordinates. He planned to accompany his increasingly weak brother during these few days.There was nothing else in his eyes.In the past, he would still think about his future career development; now, he just wants to accompany his brother through this last journey.

Fortunately, he has gradually recovered from the shock and accepted this reality; his misty confusion has been dispelled by the sunshine of time and replaced by heavy clouds.

Every day, he would push the wheelchair and take Song Yaze to breathe the moist air in the garden downstairs; he felt that the person in the wheelchair was getting lighter and lighter, and he would always feel distressed and almost suffocated; he always asked Song Yaze what he wanted to eat , wanted to do something, but Song Yaze always smiled lightly and said, "It's nothing."

He felt that his heart, along with his elder brother, was dying and hopeless.He feels that life is becoming more and more hopeless, even the colorful colors have disappeared, and the world is left with only black and white.In the past, when he saw a cute baby, he would always smile slightly because of this new and vigorous life; but now, he only has unspeakable grief.

It's winter in Chongqing.The cold and humid air makes people feel uncomfortable. Clothes are always dry, the road is rarely dry, and muddy water is always easy to splash on the clothes.At night, because of the cloudy sky, it is always difficult to see the stars; the sky is like a boundless black curtain, wrapping the world.Could it be that people live in this black bondage and cannot escape?

Pushing the wheelchair, Lin Yuguo said to his brother with a forced smile, "Brother, I will show you a surprise tonight!" After speaking, he ran to the front, squatted down to work for a while, lit the fuse in his hand, and ran back quickly , standing beside Song Yaze.

In the dark, extremely gorgeous fireworks bloomed.All the fireworks rushed into the sky with the sound, as if they were trying to blow up a hole in the black curtain, and then reach the truly vast universe, but unfortunately the result failed their wishes.They dedicated their lives to this icy sky and wrote a beautiful stroke, but they failed to break through the boundary.After all, they are still in the dark, and they are gone.

"Brother...do you remember? When we were still living in that small rental house, we said...we agreed...in the future...we will...will set off fireworks..." He looked at the fleeting fireworks and lamented life Impermanence, thinking of the warm memories of the past, couldn't help choking up, with tears in my eyes.

Song Yaze turned his head to look at Lin Yuguo. The passage of time made him a little sad. He said sadly: "Yes, we also have money to buy fireworks now..."

Lin Yuguo couldn't stop crying, which was the most frequent thing he did in this period of time.He tried his best not to cry in front of his brother, and more often he ran to a place where there was no one and cried to his heart's content, as if crying out all the water he drank in his life.

"Now I finally understand what you said...Whether a person is in pain or not has nothing to do with whether he is successful...I am successful now, but my life is so painful...I would rather be an ordinary person all my life, You've been worthless all your life, and you've been living in that slum all your life...I don't even want you to die..."

He squatted down weakly, lying on the back of Song Yaze's hand, looking at the protruding blood vessels, stroking it with heartache, swallowing the soreness in his throat, and then said:

"Brother... This world is too dark... This is hell! Why is it you... Why is God so unfair to you... After you leave, how will I live... From now on, I will be alone in the world! "

Song Yaze looked at him crying and said: "The human soul is immortal and will be reincarnated. After I die, I will be born in another world."

Lin Yuguo was sobbing softly. He looked at his smiling brother dubiously and said, "Really...really?"

"Of course, human body and soul are two things. Don't be sad, believe that I will pay attention to you in another world, and continue to love my brother in my heart... Lin Yuguo, don't deny this world with a moment of gloom. I believe that God will take me to a better place. In my eyes, you are the protagonist of this world, and my death will only make you stronger and on a better path!"

Lin Yuguo choked up, kept suppressing the sourness, and said, "Will you really be reborn in another world?" Look, a young man in his 20s actually asked such a question; How could a high-achieving student in the Department of Architecture do this?

Song Yaze gently stroked his head, just like when he was a child, and said softly:

"Of course. I will always watch you, my brother who has been in love since I was a child... I will watch you let go of the burden, meet someone who really understands you and love you, get married and have children; watch your career flourish; watch You will never suffer again; watching you help many poor children like us when we were young; watching your children and grandchildren spend their old age in peace; watching you die in contentment and peace..."

Lin Yuguo cried and shook his head, saying, "I can't do it..."

"You can do it!" Song Yaze said firmly, "You will do it, because you are a child who looks forward and has suffered. If my death will make you pessimistic from now on and reject the world, then It means that it is my failure, that I did not educate this younger brother well!"

"Lin Yuguo, I know you've been waiting for my answer. Then let me tell you now, I know what you think of me, but I really just regard you as a brother. I love you, but this is by no means out of the scope of family affection. After I die, you have to get out of this shadow, embrace this world, truly find someone who loves you, and grow old together, that is my wish!"

Lin Yuguo's throat was rolling, and his throat was so hot.He wiped away tears, gritted his teeth and said, "As long as it's my brother's wish, I will fulfill it...I can die peacefully for you, or live in pain for you..."

Hearing this, Song Yaze said sharply, "I don't want you to live in pain! If so, my illness and my death are meaningless."

Lin Yuguo sobbed, looking at his somewhat stern brother in puzzlement, just like when he was a child.

"You confessed to me that day that you love me, so do you know my concept of love?"

Lin Yuguo was a little excited and nervous. He wiped away his tears and listened to his brother's answer.

"Love is a gift from God to mankind. It means responsibility, commitment, giving, not possession. Movies and novels always exaggerate love. It seems that people should die without love. In fact, love is just a part of life. , without it, you still have friendship, career, and responsibility. You don’t have to die or live for love, and you don’t need to deny the world because of my death! Men, you must let go when it’s time to let go, and you must look forward. You are bound by the past. You are a very lucky person, and you have a thriving career at such a young age. Think about it, if you are always sticking to me, can you still have a complete life? "

Lin Yuguo was silent for a long while without responding.

"I hope you are a child with an active life. My death does not mean that your love is dead. You can love other people and live a happy life. I am just a stage in your life. My death means You have opened a new stage. In the world, not everyone can marry their first love, and neither are you! A manly man, if you love, you will love, if you don’t love, you will love, there is no need to be hypocritical. Those who have no fate with you, Don't love, because it's not worth it. Remember, you have to live upright, and don't be defeated by unfavorable love!"

Lin Yuguo's eyes widened. He never thought that love could be so free and easy: "Brother...I..." He faltered, unable to speak.

"Let me go, Lin Yuguo. If I live by your side all the time, it will only ruin you. You depend on me too much, from childhood to adulthood. Maybe my death is just God's arrangement, which can make you a real A man. You have to be a brave man in life, and don’t be afraid of all suffering, including my death.”

Lin Yuguo choked with sobs, his throat was sore, he looked at his serious brother and said, "Can I really...can you let go?"

"Of course. Time will solve all problems. Although you will be in pain, sad, and cry, but you will still change! I believe in you, you are a brave child, you have experienced too many twists and turns in life, more than ordinary All children must mature; and my death will make you grow up and usher in a more glorious life." Song Yaze was extremely firm, as if he was stating the truth.

Lin Yuguo swallowed sourly, and said slowly: "Brother... I will listen to you and try my best to be an upright person..."

……

Ever since she was discharged from the appendicitis operation, Qiu Ying has been counting down the days when Song Yaze will come to the house every day.In the first two months, Song Yaze still kept his promise and came here every Sunday; although his attitude was still not salty, it could be regarded as chatting with himself and getting closer.

But then suddenly one day, he excused himself by saying that he was busy with company affairs, so he didn't come. As a result, Qiu Ying didn't see him again for more than a month.

Unable to sit still, he went to Guoze. Unexpectedly, even Lin Yuguo hadn't come to work for nearly a month.He was a little strange, and finally learned the news that Song Yaze was seriously ill when he overheard Guoze's employees chatting privately by chance.

Qiu Ying inquired about the address of Song Yaze's house in a daze, then drove the car in a daze, and then arrived at the door of Song Yaze's house in a daze, and rang the doorbell in a daze.

Like Lin Yuguo at that time, he seemed to be living in the clouds, with thick fog in front of his eyes, nothing alive, and even his brain couldn't move. He could only see a distance of three meters in front of him, and he had no strength anymore Go and see the scenery elsewhere.

Lin Yuguo opened the door, glanced at the distraught Qiu Ying, rarely said anything to choke him, but said solemnly: "Brother is in the room, go in and have a look. Don't talk to him for too long."

Maybe it's because of the heartache that I have experienced, and I can better understand the pain of others.

Qiu Ying stumbled into the door, walked into the bedroom, and saw Song Yaze lying on the bed, already asleep.His original round face has become a pointed oval face; his hair has also grown a lot, matching his pale complexion, he looks like a fragile glass man, which will shatter with the slightest touch.

Qiu Ying was speechless, he looked at Song Yaze's face, he felt very familiar yet strange.He felt hot in front of his eyes, and quickly covered his face with his hands, tears flowed from between his fingers.He was afraid that his sobbing would disturb the glass man's sleep, so he ran out quickly, closed the bedroom door, and then wept muffledly on the sofa in the living room.

"It really can't be cured..." Qiu Ying cried for a long time before saying to Lin Yuguo.

"Well...he only has three months." Lin Yuguo said in a sad tone with a trace of pain on his face.

Qiu Ying didn't speak any more. At this time, he was not chattering like usual at all, unable to say a word.

Song Yaze actually slept very lightly. When he heard the movement, he walked out of the bedroom and saw Qiu Ying, whom he hadn't seen for many days, crying like a child.

"Brother! Why did you come out?!" Seeing his brother coming out, Lin Yuguo looked very worried, and hurried up to help Song Yaze sit on the sofa.

Qiu Ying raised her head and saw Song Yaze, who was as fragile as a paper man, and couldn't help feeling a chill rushing up from her belly, making her whole body stiff with ice.

"Why are you crying? I'm not dead yet!" Song Yaze chuckled, but this smile made both of their hearts tighten at the same time.

"You...you promised me...none of it...you promised me to make up my birthday, but you broke your promise...you promised me to come to my house every week, but you also broke your promise... ...From now on, you will never come again..."

Qiu Ying said tremblingly, her voice was out of tune, "You...why do you always lie to me...don't you always say that you will do what you say...how can you say that it doesn't count..."

"Since I'm a liar, then you should learn your lesson and don't be a liar like me..." Song Yaze laughed instead, which added a little life to his original sick face: "In the future, you must work hard and be a good person, but Don't be too old..."

Qiu Ying nodded like a chicken pecking rice, wishing to nod his head to the coffee table in front of him: "Of course...I promise you...I always...I promise you..."

After sitting for a long time, Song Yaze went back to the bedroom to sleep.While the medicine Yu Zhan gave him made him lose weight, he also became more and more lethargic, sleeping more than twelve hours a day.

Lin Yuguo sent his brother back to the bed, covered him with a quilt, and went out.He stood in a daze for a long time, looking at Song Yaze's bedroom door, then suddenly picked up the mobile phone on the table, and made a call that he hadn't contacted for a long time.

"Hello, Miss Su? I want to ask you something..."

Lin Yuguo talked with the person on the other end of the phone for a while, then hung up the phone with a heavy heart.

Qiu Ying glanced at the solemn Lin Yuguo, and asked, "Who are you calling? Why is your face so ugly?!"

"I want to get married." He sadly said the words that were originally full of joy, his voice trembling.

"What?! Are you fucking sick! Your brother is going to die, and you still want to get married? Do you still have a fucking heart?" Qiu Ying was taken aback when she heard these four words, and jumped up and grabbed it. Lin Yuguo's collar.

Lin Yuguo opened Qiu Ying's hand indifferently, with faint sadness flowing in his eyes: "What do you know... I am fulfilling my brother's wish and let him leave without regret..."

Qiu Ying was stunned for a moment, and then said with a complicated expression: "Your boy...you are kind enough..."

the first time

Lin Yuguo decided to get married, and he planned to let his brother die without regret.Under the fireworks that day, he promised Song Yaze that he would live upright and be a brave man, but love made him a coward. He felt that the world was already gloomy.He has faded away that youthful and pure aura, and replaced it with a vicissitudes of life, as if he was ten years older, although his eyes are still watery, his skin is still smooth, and his back is still straight.

He didn't want to give up hope, he couldn't watch Song Yaze get thinner and weaker, and then died of illness, no matter what, he wanted to give it a try, no matter what the price was.His heart lives in a sea of ​​sourness and pain every day, impregnated by the salt inside and rotten.

While his brother was asleep, he secretly sorted out the diagnosis report, planning to collect all the materials and go abroad to treat his brother.

This afternoon, just after the rain, the sky cleared, and even a faint rainbow appeared.The sun seems to have finally woken up and climbed out from the thick gray clouds and fog. What a lively picture it is. This is a rare weather in Chongqing, and even the fog makes the picture beautiful.

Lin Yuguo sorted out the medical reports in the drawer, and carefully read the heart-wrenching diagnosis instructions on them.But when his eyes were blurred with tears, he found a small clue on it - the pinyin under the patient's name was not "songyaze" but "lixia"!

It's not my brother's name!

Misdiagnosed!This was Lin Yuguo's first thought. The overwhelming hope rolled over, and the impact made him tremble all over. He was short of breath, and even his hands trembled uncontrollably.He took a breath of cold air, and then another breath of hot air. The shock and joy made him almost go crazy.At that moment, his eyes were almost dazzled, he couldn't see anything, he couldn't hear anything, and he almost cried.

He quietly opened the door and found that Song Yaze was still sleeping.He closed the door again calmly, picked up the car keys, and ran all the way to the hospital, found Yu Zhan, and questioned him with a report.His face was flushed, and his whole face was full of anxiety, joy and tension. How he hoped it was a misdiagnosis by the hospital!He would rather not go to the so-called doctor-patient lawsuit, but also get news of his brother's health.

Yu Zhan was still silent and cold, his poker face was always expressionless, but when Lin Yuguo questioned himself with a stack of reports, there was a crack.He pursed his lips tightly and furrowed his brows tightly. After a while, he still couldn't say a word.

Seeing Yu Zhan's unusual silence, Lin Yuguo, who has always been smart, thought for a while, and then he was slashed by lightning.Shocked, yes, maybe shocking is already hard to describe his mood at this time, his mood is complicated, surprise, joy, doubt and anger exist at the same time, but these four emotions are burning to the peak at the same time!He trembled and broke out in a cold sweat. The world in front of him was also spinning, and he felt dizzy.He didn't believe that his brother would deceive him, but that was exactly what happened.

"Since you found out, I don't want to hide it anymore. Your brother is not sick, he just took a medicine that can cause symptoms of advanced cancer. The attending physician that day was actually my classmate." Yu Zhan admitted frankly No, he is not a habitual liar, once caught, he will confess.

Lin Yuguo's lips trembled, his jaw trembled, his hands and feet trembled, and there was no place in his body that was peaceful.He seemed to see great hope, which made him dizzy; but what followed was anger, monstrous anger, and his rationality had been overturned by this anger.

He was like a plucked lion. After the shock and joy, it was the anger of being deceived. His blood pressure shot up, causing his chest to heave violently.What he breathed in was cold air, but what he exhaled was scalding hot air, full of angry heat.

He punched Yu Zhan in the face, even the lens flew out and fell to the ground with cracks.This punch startled the other patients in the hospital.After being beaten, Yu Zhan fell to the ground, but he still looked calm, even though his jaw was so numb from the pain that he couldn't even feel the bleeding.

At this time, Lin Yuguo was like a mad beast. He couldn't speak anything, and every muscle was beating crazily.He stared at Yu Zhan for a few seconds, and then walked out of the hospital with a heart that was about to jump out of his chest.

On the road, his hands could hardly even hold the steering wheel steady, and he stepped on the accelerator to accelerate crazily, his mood was extremely complicated.At this moment, he didn't know that his face was covered with tears.What kind of tears are these?The joy that the person you love the most is still healthy, and the anger of being cheated by the person you love the most is, more often than not, sadness.He loves Song Yaze, but his heart hurts so much.Why, why did my brother lie to himself?

After entering the door, he locked it tremblingly, not even bothering to change his shoes.Tremblingly, he pushed open the bedroom door, only to find that his brother was still sleeping peacefully, and the sunlight outside the window was still so beautiful, illuminating most of his bed.At this moment, he loves Song Yaze so much, and hates Song Yaze so much!He really wanted to kill and eat the sleeping man.Who let him torture himself like this?Since childhood, he has always tortured himself.He was about to be driven crazy by this kind of torture, and he was driven into a demon.

He closed the curtains with a gloomy expression, and the room was darker in an instant, but he could still see things vaguely, and his face darkened accordingly. He has always been kind, learning to be as warm as his brother , but now, he has changed.This change triggered an idea that has been circling in my mind, but never dared to put it into practice.

He took off his coat, kicked off his shoes, and went onto the bed barefoot, lying beside Song Yaze.He looked at his brother's sleeping face obsessively, caressed gently, raised his chin, and intersected with the lips that could only be enjoyed in dreams.Saliva is also naughty, always sliding down the tongue.Lin Yuguo was going crazy, he realized that this body would not leave him, which made him too excited and impulsive.He kissed fiercely and even tore his clothes uncontrollably.

He subconsciously pushed it up, this is the instinct of human beings, and it is also the thing he most wants to do but dare not do over the years.And this kind of oppression finally made Song Yaze wake up from his deep sleep. He looked at Lin Yuguo lying on his body and thought he was just dreaming. After a few seconds, he asked in surprise, "Lin Yuguo, what are you doing?" Woolen cloth?!"

Lin Yuguo didn't speak, but raised his hands and pressed them on the top of his head. Under his brother's shocked eyes, he panted heavily, and said in a low voice: "Brother...you lied to me...why?"

Song Yaze was even more shocked. Guilt and guilt hit him at the same time, which made him unable to react for a long time. He looked at his younger brother with lustful and painful eyes, and his heart felt sad. He turned his head to the side and said, "I'm sorry, I did lie to you. But I didn't do it for myself."

Song Yaze's words came from the heart.In his eyes, dying in the novel world is no different from dying in the real world, both are life.In reality, he has a tiring career and an ineffective mother; but in this novel world, he also has a thriving Guoze and a younger brother who loves him deeply.

In theory, the novel world is more comfortable than the real world.The reason why he chose to leave is because of Lin Yuguo, because he is the protagonist of this novel, and only by getting married and starting a business can he be on the right track and truly start the path of the protagonist.

When Lin Yuguo got married, the novel "Ordinary People" really opened a new stage, the stage where the protagonist sweeps everything and controls the world.He loves Lin Yuguo very much, and hopes that his younger brother can truly become a protagonist. At that time, he will not only be a "Guoze", but the whole world will be in his hands.Guoze is just the starting point of his career.He didn't want Lin Yuguo to stick to himself, ruin his own luck, and miss the chance to reach the pinnacle.

"Lin Yuguo, you shouldn't..."

"Are you going to make a long speech again?" Lin Yuguo interrupted him directly. He put his lips close to his brother's ear and sucked it for a while, which made Song Yaze tremble. "Brother...you lied to me. I believe you It won't hurt me, maybe your intention is good, but I don't want to hear it now, I just want to...be integrated with you..."

Lin Yuguo was a little manic, and it was extremely easy to subdue the thin Song Yaze, and he did it.The person under him turned into a pool of clear hot spring, allowing him to feel the warmth in it to his heart's content, and vent his mental fatigue for many years to his heart's content.He was a weary man, and this love, this tormenting love, kept him from resting for a moment.And now, he's finally freed himself, he's really happy.

He was reluctant to close his eyes, fearing that he would miss some good scene, but he did enjoy all of it.This is a moment that he can only get in his fantasy for so many years. He smiled, and his dream finally came true; but he cried again, weeping with joy.He kept galloping, he was really tired and depressed.Love, let him lose control, he is a rough and cruel lover.

As for Song Yaze, he felt pain more than his younger brother's comfort and happiness.He is 32 years old, but he is busy working every day, supporting his family, and has never been in love.This is his first time with a man and his younger brother!He felt that all this was unexpected, but it was expected.He began to regret, regretting that he thought of pretending to be sick on the spur of the moment. This is the second time he regretted it on impulse.Perhaps it is the best solution to confess to Lin Yuguo instead of blindly evading.

When Lin Yuguo was finally satisfied, Song Yaze was almost tormented by the pain and his mind was confused.Lin Yuguo covered Song Yaze with a quilt. At this time, he was a little tired from overindulgence.He put his arms around Song Yaze, and said softly in his brother's ear: "Brother... I don't regret it, I'm going to do this, and I've wanted to do it for a long time. You are mine at last... I will give you everything Want... whatever it is..."

As he spoke, he began to cry. Tears slid down his face and dripped on Song Yaze's face, which made Song Yaze a little sober.

"Lin Yuguo..." Song Yaze murmured.At this moment, his mood was too complicated, like a piece of white paper being splashed with chaotic colors by various paints.His younger brother's confession made him suddenly sober, he can no longer escape, the previous escape has already brought this kind of consequence.

Lying in Lin Yuguo's arms, while enduring the pain, he was more emotional, maybe he should face this passionate love honestly instead of hiding.These days, his heart felt as if being pierced by needles, as if being scorched by fire. He felt sorry for his younger brother, but he didn't want him to lose that top-notch life.He is in a dilemma, in a dilemma, alas, how tormented he is, the degree is no less than that of Lin Yuguo.

"We can get married abroad...we can donate to poor families...or we can go back to the original village and help those people...as long as it is what you think, I will be satisfied..." Lin Yuguo's throat was sore, tears welled up Like a broken bank, which made him look like a crying child.

At this time, Lin Yuguo's mood was extremely sad, but also extremely happy, because his brother would not die, and he finally got him.He really wants to give his brother all the good things in the world, as long as he is with him.He loves him very much; he depends on him very much.Song Yaze is his godfather, his love, and his spiritual support. He can give up everything, even success, and become that mortal again, but he can't lose this brother.

Song Yaze looked at Lin Yuguo who was in pain, and a heavy and sour mist appeared in his heart.He was silent, not because he didn't bother to speak, but because he really didn't know what to say.

"Brother...promise me, continue to love me...continue to love me, whether as a lover or a brother...don't hate me for doing such a thing...please..." Lin Yuguo hugged Song Yaze tightly, crying bitterly , How humblely he begged, like a believer who confessed in church.

Song Yaze felt the slight trembling of his body, and couldn't help feeling sad, and his nose was also sore following Lin Yuguo's crying.His heart ached, not because someone had died, but because his heart trembled.He may not be able to love Lin Yuguo as a lover, but the affection and care he has for his younger brother is real.

"If I accompany you through this life, it will mean that you will lose your pinnacle career and perfect family, are you willing?" He was silent for a long time before asking back.

"Don't talk about a business family, even if I go back to that dilapidated village and cut firewood and plant the land every day, as long as you are with me, I am willing!" Lin Yuguo hugged his brother tightly, sobbing.

Song Yaze paused for a moment, then raised his hand, embraced the back of his crying brother, and said softly, "Then I promise you..."