disqualified lover

Chen Zui has been in a bad mood during this time, and he is not very interested in anything.

Ever since the last contact with Lin Jianqing years ago, when Zhang Kaili told him not to contact him again, Chen Zui had rationally believed that Lin Jianqing wanted to break up with him completely.

It's just that he still couldn't convince himself emotionally, and the unbearable pain made him always hold a little luck.Even so, the blow of broken love made him lose all vitality.

The scandal between him and Lin Jianqing caused a small disturbance on the Internet.Zhang Kaili's lightning speed made people delete the news, but Lin Jianqing's influence was too great, too much attention, and the scope of dissemination and discussion was not small.

Baohua Entertainment sent a lawyer's letter the next day, directly suing the media company that released the news, and didn't even bother to send out a clarification, nor did it explain the relationship between Lin Jianqing and the coder.With such a tough attitude, the public tends to believe that he is the one who cleans himself.

However, the aftermath was still there, and Chen Zui's song was temporarily suppressed because of this, without any action.Xiao Ying is very cautious, and doesn't want any negative impact on Chen Zui's appearance.Everything was just as they planned, waiting for the right time, waiting for the public's attention to turn away from Lin Jianqing.

Chen Zui was very idle during this period, and the more idle he was, the harder it was to get out of that depressed mood.

After lunch, Chen Zui said he was going to play the piano, and went back to the house by himself.After playing messily for a while, there was no sound. Chen Hao opened the door and entered the room, and saw Chen Zui sitting in front of the window, looking out dully, and started to wander again.

Chen Hao walked over, put his hands on top of his head, and said, "Brother, what are you thinking?"

"It's nothing."

"I'm due for dialysis this afternoon."

"Okay, I'll call Mao Sui." Chen Zui said and took out the phone.

Chen Hao took the phone away from his hand, bent over and hugged Chen Zui from the back of his neck, and rested his chin on top of his head: "Will you take me there? You see the weather outside is so good, and spring will come soon. "

"I don't want to move, and I'm still sleepy. Let Mao Sui take you there, he has a car."

Chen Hao didn't let go, but continued: "Look, there is still sunshine outside. I passed by the square yesterday and there were people flying kites. When I passed by the river, the willows started to sprout, and the peach blossoms also formed buds. It's so strange. These ornamental peach blossoms bloom first, then grow leaves..."

"Okay, stop moaning, I'll accompany you."

"Well, brother, you are the best." Chen Hao bowed his head and kissed Chen Zui's hair, not letting go.

Chen Zui parted the hands on his neck: "Okay, go and change your clothes."

The two of them walked outside, and the weather seemed to be fine. The sun showed its face from time to time, but when the cold wind blew, people were still shivering.Chen Zui went to the street to stop the car, but Chen Hao dragged him back.

"What are you doing?"

"The hospital is not far away, let's go on foot." Because Chen Hao has to be on dialysis all the time, he took this into consideration when buying a house.It's not far by car, and it takes about forty minutes to walk.

"It's cold, let's take a car."

"It's been a long time since I took a walk with you, let's visit you by the way." Chen Hao insisted.

Chen most helplessly smiled.

It got warm after walking for a while.Chen Hao took Chen Zui around to the river, and sure enough, the willow tree took out new branches and swayed gently with the wind.The moat that was frozen in winter also melted away at this time.I went to the square from the river again. At noon, the enthusiasm of the aunts in the square dance did not diminish.

Chen Hao pulled Chen Zui down on the lounge chair, went to the side to buy two ice creams, and handed one to Chen Zui.

"Everyone says eating something sweet will lift your mood."

Chen Zui took a bite. He doesn't like sweets very much, and the cream is so sweet that it feels greasy.

"Did I say I was in a bad mood?"

Chen Hao took a sip lightly, but he didn't dare to eat too much: "You are unhappy written all over your face, and I'm not blind."

"Oh."

"Brother, are you and Lin Jianqing really a couple?"

When Chen Zui heard those three words from Chen Hao's mouth, his heart trembled. He couldn't tell whether it was because he was worried because he heard "Lin Jianqing", or if Chen Hao was surprised when he knew about it.He just turned his head to look at Chen Hao.

"Don't be so surprised, okay, you are my brother, how can I not understand." Seeing that Chen wanted to argue the most, Chen Hao said simply, "I saw the scandal between you two."

In the end, Chen just said weakly: "We are not a couple."

"But you like him, right? Now you are separated, or he dumped you." I don't know if it was Chen's most delusion, he heard the second half, and felt that Chen Hao's tone had changed, and it was colder than this ice cream. cold.

Chen most thought about what happened to He Zhang before, and felt a little nervous: "Chen Hao, no matter what, this is a matter between me and him, don't try to discredit him."

"Is that how you like him?"

"It has nothing to do with whether you like him or not. You are not allowed to do this kind of thing again."

"Oh." The ice cream in Chen Hao's hands melted a little, and he licked off some more, looked at Chen Zui and said seriously, "Chen Zui, you still have music, and me, it's no big deal to lose love."

Chen Zui nodded.

Is it no big deal?He also felt that he was broken in love before, nothing special.He used to think that love was nothing more than nothing special.But it seemed that everything was different with Lin Jianqing. At those times, Lin Jianqing might not admit that it was love, but the happiest thing for Chen was indeed the feeling of passionate love.

Regardless of broken or passionate love, what Lin Jianqing gave him was a new experience, which naturally brought a new kind of pain, which he could not resolve for a long time.

In the evening, Chen Hao also took the initiative to ask Mao Sui to have dinner with those brothers, and everyone would be lively together, maybe it would be better.

Chen Zui drank a lot, and when he was in a bad mood, his self-control would always be low, but unless he was too drunk, he would magnify his emotions more often. For example, Chen Zui was a little drunk now, smiling at those people , but thought of Lin Jianqing repeatedly in his heart, thinking of wanting to cry.

Afraid of losing his composure in front of a group of friends, he dragged Chen Hao home before the dinner was over.The state of drunkenness made him light-headed, dizzy but extremely sober, he suffered from insomnia, and at night when he didn't feel sleepy, he couldn't stop thinking about Lin Jianqing.

I don't know how long it has passed, but I took the phone by the bedside and checked the time, it was already past one o'clock in the morning.He put down the phone, rolled over to sleep on the other side, and suddenly the phone rang.

Chen Zui turned around again, thinking irritably, who would call him in the middle of the night, could it be that Mao Sui and the others had just ended their quarrel.

He took a look at the phone, sat up instantly, and turned on the light in the room.

The three words on the screen turned out to be Lin Jianqing.

Chen Zui was stunned for two seconds, the phone was vibrating in his hand, and he finally confirmed that it was real and he was not dreaming.His fingers trembled a little. He didn't open the screen the first time, but only answered the phone the second time.

His Adam's apple was shaking up and down, but he couldn't make a sound for a while.On the other hand, Lin Jianqing asked without hindrance: "You should sleep now."

Chen Zui put his hands over his eyes to block the light, and let out a low "hmm".

"I didn't mean to disturb your sleep right now, I just got home." Lin Jianqing's voice was indeed very tired.

Chen Zhi coughed twice, cleared his throat, and said hoarsely: "It's okay, I haven't fallen asleep yet."

Lin Jianqing smiled softly, and this laughter made Chen Zui's breathing stagnate, the familiar feeling of trembling heart, but because of missing him too much, Chen Zui's heart beat fast.

He chuckled and said, "Drinking? It is indeed easy to lose sleep when you are slightly drunk."

"Well, I drank a little with my friends. Brother Lin, you..."

"Well, I'm calling to tell you that I'm free on the 18th of next month, you come to the apartment," what a familiar tone, as if the separation between them never happened, as if they were back to their old relationship, Lin Jian Qing would look for him whenever he was free, and they could still make out in the apartment as before.

"Let's go and clear the house."

No, there is no going back at all.

Chen Zui pressed his eyes lightly with his fingers, but hot liquid still dripped out.His voice became hoarse and his nose was blocked badly.

"no need."

"I told you the house is for you."

"You don't owe me anything, you don't need to give me the house."

"I will do what I promised." Lin Jianqing insisted.

Chen Zui straightened up with a "chuckle", feeling his heart was on fire, and shouted, "I fucking said no."

"Chen Zui, calm down."

Chen leaned on the bed most weakly: "I'm sorry, but there's really no need. If you still care about our past, don't talk about the house."

Lin Jianqing stopped talking about the house, and instead asked, "Chen Zui, have you signed with Xiao Ying's studio now?"

Chen most didn't know where Lin Jianqing learned about it, but they were all in the same circle, so it wasn't surprising to hear it, so he admitted it.

"You want to be a singer, right?"

"Hmm." Chen was at a loss, not knowing what Lin Jianqing wanted to say.

"I heard you sing very well. You should have a bright future as a singer."

"Thank you." Chen Zui became more and more puzzled.

"But you shouldn't take He Zhang's song, you give him back his song." Lin Jianqing asked with confidence in a neither humble nor overbearing tone.

Chen Zui was stunned suddenly, and raised his voice: "What did you say?"

"The song you gave Xiao Ying was taken from He Zhang. That's not good. If you need someone to write a song for you, I can find someone for you." Lin Jianqing still had that superior tone .

Chen most felt that his heart had been punched hard, and all the blood quickly faded away, leaving only a cold, hard, dead heart.

He couldn't even express his temper, and even felt powerless to accuse He Zhang of being shameless, so he just asked, "Did He Zhang tell you?"

"And your former boss, Song Zhaowen. They didn't want to make a big deal out of it. I thought I was familiar with you before, so please let me tell you something. Xiao Ying and I are old acquaintances. I will take care of her and take care of you in the future. .”

Chen couldn't fail to hear these words. He and Xiao Ying had known each other for a long time, so Xiao Ying could help him more, or Xiao Ying could slap him to death.That's right, for a small character like him, no matter if he offended He Zhang or Song Zhaowen, he couldn't bear it, let alone Lin Jianqing.

He thought that He Zhang would let him go when the contract expired, it seems that he was really naive.

"Okay, I will give the song to He Zhang."

"That's good, you have a good rest, good night." Lin Jianqing was about to hang up the phone.

"Wait." Chen Zui stopped him.

"If you need anything, just say it."

"Lin Jianqing, let me ask you one last question."

"You said."

"I've been with you for almost three years. During these three years, have you ever fallen in love with me even for a single moment?" Asking this sentence, Chen Zui almost exhausted all his strength, no matter how ashamed he was. Humble, he also wants to know the answer.

Lin Jianqing fell silent, and the sound of his slow breathing came from the receiver.

After a long time, it was almost suffocating for Chen Zui before he heard Lin Jianqing take a breath, and replied calmly and definitely:

"no!"