disqualified lover

The sky darkened, and the surroundings were silent. Lin Jianqing and Chen Zui lay on the rocks, listening to each other's panting gradually, and watching the sunset clouds in the sky gradually changing from light purple to smoky blue, the restlessness in the body was relieved , the ups and downs in my heart also became ironic, and even the coming night was a little more gentle, no one moved, I didn't want to break this quiet and beautiful.

Lin Jianqing was still concerned about Chen Zui's body, and asked, "Are you feeling unwell?"

Chen Zui shook his head.

Lin Jianqing smiled again and asked, "Is that comfortable?"

Chen Zui turned his face to the other side.

Lin Jianqing smiled and turned Chen Zui over: "Little friend, you are very thin-skinned."

"I'm not thin-skinned, it's because you are too..." Chen Zui couldn't say that word at the moment.

"What's the matter?"

"It's nothing, I'm thin-skinned."

Lin Jianqing pinched Chen Zui's face: "You want to say that I'm too shameless? Too obscene? Too shameless..."

Chen Zui hurriedly covered Lin Jianqing's mouth. He never thought of putting these words on Lin Jianqing: "Don't say that about yourself, I just think you are too good at flirting. Only smart people flirt. I have no brains." So fast, I can't catch you."

Lin Jianqing bit Chen Zui's finger. He was just trying to hear what Chen Zui said about him, but he didn't expect to hear such sincere words and was a little moved.

Chen Zui withdrew his hand, Lin Jianqing asked, "Do you like me flirting with you?"

Chen Zui lowered his eyes and replied honestly, "I like it."

Lin Jianqing turned her head and stopped talking.For things like flirting, it's enough to stop at the end, too much will cause people to misunderstand.It's okay to let the other party misunderstand, but it's no fun to let yourself be misunderstood.But at this moment, it is quiet and peaceful, and you can still enjoy it to your heart's content.

The few days living in seclusion with Lin Jianqing in the deep mountains can be said to be the happiest time Chen has ever had.Of course, the material conditions are not good. He has stayed with Lin Jianqing in the most luxurious hotel and eaten the top-notch meals. Those are the real material enjoyments. How does this place compare with the previous relaxation methods? When they get up, they all look barren.

But Chen Zui felt that he had touched a different side of Lin Jianqing.He had seen Lin Jianqing's shrewdness, indifference, and gentleness before, but this time he had seen his innocence.When he wasn't flirting, when they weren't in bed but were together, he was joking, amusing, even a little mischievous, not as steady and invulnerable as he was always.

Maybe, a person who has been well-clothed all his life and grew up carefree always has a kind of innocence in his bones, a cuteness that is not polluted by the world.

This made Chen most feel that there might not be another person in this world who was more worthy of being loved than Lin Jianqing.

Indulging in this kind of tender feeling wrapped like warm water, Chen Zui couldn't help but hum softly, hummed the prelude, and sang a song.

This "Lin Shen Sees a Camel" was the first song he wrote for Lin Jianqing when he first met Lin Jianqing two years ago.

The wind slips through the fingertips / did not leave the shape to me

Running water overflows the body/doesn't wash anything

The flower fell between my eyebrows / Then, it continued to fall

Love I've Seen/It's Not Mine

Lin Shen never saw a deer / But I met a camel in the forest

At that time, Chen most had nothing, and his talents were squandered and wasted just to make ends meet. The burden of life almost crushed him, who was only 20 years old.There was no good thing in his life, no one he could rely on, but he met Lin Jianqing.

Lin Shen was supposed to see a deer, but Lin Jianqing was not the beautiful elk that symbolized love he met in the forest.Love was useless to Chen Zui at that time, and Lin Jianqing was the camel he met in the forest.It was not love, but it brought him something more needed. He needed a gentle camel to carry him out of the predicament of life.

Lin Jianqing would probably never think of what he meant to Chen Zui, maybe he could too, but no matter what it was, he probably didn't care.

Later, the song became popular, and Chen was the happiest. Even though Lin Jianqing didn't know anything, he heard it.

"It's really good, but it's not the original song. Have you changed the song?"

"Well, it changed a bit."

"You still know how to compose music?" Lin Jianqing was obviously a little surprised.

"Know a little bit."

"That's right, you work in a music company after all." Lin Jianqing sat up, "Let's go, it will be dark soon."

Chen got up with Lin Jianqing the most, and Lin Jianqing stopped talking about it.The two rarely discussed each other's lives. Chen Zui knew much more about Lin Jianqing's background and life, and got much more information from entertainment and gossip news than from him.Lin Jianqing never shared his work and life with Chen Zui. Of course, he was not interested in Chen Zui's work and life at all.

The night was completely shrouded, and Chen Zui rode very slowly.Maybe it was because she sang this song to Lin Jianqing herself just now, not only did she not feel complete, but she was very sad.It could also be because of twilight, which is always easier to be sad.

Lin Jianqing put her arms around Chen Zui's waist and asked, "Chen Zui, what do you mean by this?"

"Song?"

"Well, the lyrics."

Chen Zui thought for a while: "Probably a frustrated person who encountered some kind of surprise unexpectedly."

"Then this person must feel happy."

"Maybe, but it must be lucky enough." Lucky enough, unlucky enough.

Lin Jianqing was very satisfied with Chen Zui's answer. Lin Jianqing had been wondering what the song was trying to express, because Song Zhaowen told him that this was a song He Zhang wrote for him.

He still remembered He Zhang's excited and at a loss look when Song Zhaowen first introduced him to him.

At first, Lin Jianqing didn't have any thoughts about He Zhang, but thought he was warm and cute, and very considerate to herself.Later, I often saw him on various occasions. After watching a lot, I couldn’t help paying attention to him. I thought he sang well. Hearing Song Zhaowen’s predecessors praise him, I felt that he should be a very hardworking person. Good impression.

What really moved Lin Jianqing a little was that He Zhang sang this song "Lin Shen Sees the Camel" at the concert of ten thousand people, implicitly expressing that he wrote this song for a person he had admired for many years, and now he finally To catch up with that person's footsteps.

At that concert, Lin Jianqing didn't know why he was invited as a special guest. Later, Song Zhaowen revealed the mystery for him, saying that he was the person He Zhang had admired for many years.

Later, he listened carefully to every song of He Zhang, only to realize that this innocent and enthusiastic kid in front of him was actually quite talented.Lin Jianqing couldn't tell whether he was attracted by He Zhang's admiration for him for many years, or because of his talent, but in fact, it was true that he liked He Zhang more and more.

If it was just his talent and admiration, He Zhang could at most be a boyfriend in Lin Jianqing's heart.Lin Jianqing had thought carefully about his future as a gay man, and found that he didn't have many choices, and He Zhang could be considered a qualified candidate.

The He family can also be regarded as a celebrity in society, and He Zhang himself also has a double master's degree from an Ivy League school.

Of course, the He family is much worse than the Lin family, but the circle is so big, it is not difficult for Lin Jianqing to find a gay person who is right with him.It is easy for him to find a good-looking body and interesting thoughts, but it is really difficult for him to find a homosexual who is well-matched and his parents can like him.

And his parents themselves are very opposed to him marrying a man, but if this man is someone his family likes and is a good match for him, the resistance will be less.

Lin Jianqing carefully calculated her future, and found the easiest way out of many obstacles.

However, his current relationship with He Zhang has not been settled, and Lin Jianqing enjoys this ambiguity very much.In his opinion, a relationship without ambiguity is like making love without foreplay, lacking soul.

And ambiguity also means freedom. He is like a hunter who keeps He Zhang in captivity, and the hunter is free.He was not so eager to put himself into the siege, the scenery outside the siege was still very beautiful, especially that scenery was Chen Zui.

Lin Jianqing was even surprised by himself. After Chen Zui had been with him for more than two years, he still wasn't tired of it.At first, I just felt that I had never slept with this cool boy and bad boy, and I just wanted to try something new.But he didn't expect that the more he tasted, the more fresh he was. Apart from being on the bed, Chen Zui could always surprise him, such as this drag racing.

In addition, Chen is the most sensible, never embarrassing him, and will show his favor clumsily.Whenever Chen Zuo took the initiative to coax him, his reluctant and unsure of what to do always made Lin Jianqing feel that Chen Zui had feelings for him.

I have to say it feels good.

Even if it was a transaction, Lin Jianqing couldn't be in love with a pure body. He needed emotional communication, and besides the body, he also needed spiritual comfort.So Chen Zui performed very well, he was a [-]% competent lover, and Lin Jianqing was very satisfied with everything from his skills to his attitude.Lin Jianqing was really reluctant to let him leave Chen Zui now.

In two years' time, Lin Jianqing will be in his thirties, it's time to start a serious relationship with He Zhang, and when the time is right for marriage and family, Lin Jianqing will get rid of the mess outside.

At that time, give Chen Zui the apartment in the city center, and give him a car and a sum of money.From the age of 20 to 24, he took Chen's best years, and Lin Jianqing would not treat him badly.

[The author has something to say]: What is an exquisite egoist, just look at Lin Daying.