hope after despair

When I first arrived in City A, I was still a little uncomfortable, but with the help of my landlord, Grandma Zhang, my life in City A was pretty good.

After entering a key high school as a transfer student, I seldom went out for shopping, and basically traveled back and forth between school and home every day.The most fortunate thing is that Ji Mingzhe has not come to see me until now.

When I was in the middle of my senior year, almost everyone in the school knew me, which was not what I wanted, but those girls insisted on calling me "Flower of Gaoling" and "Beauty School Grass" and so on. Let me hide and hide all day, for fear of being discovered by these fierce girls, I know that these things that make me speechless are all caused by my appearance.

I thought that such a leisurely life would last forever, but unexpectedly one night, when I was walking alone on a forest path to relax, someone covered my mouth and nose and dragged me into a small dark alley.I thought it was someone looking for someone to beat me because they didn't like me, but unexpectedly I guessed the beginning but not the ending.

They really came to beat me up, because I usually don't pay attention to anyone, and the people who called them wanted to destroy my arrogance, but they changed their mind in an instant after seeing my appearance.

From their lustful eyes, I instantly knew what they wanted to do, and even felt sick because of it.

I broke free from their grip while they were arguing over who should go first, and started running wildly, trying to get rid of them.

Home, I can't go back now, so I can only find a place to settle down.When I ran to the street, I suddenly saw a familiar car parked on the side of the road. I gritted my teeth and knocked on the door. The people in the car watched me get in in surprise.

I looked out the window and saw that those people were still running this way, so I panted and urged the people beside me to drive.Seeing that I was in such a hurry, the people beside me drove towards a place I didn't know without asking any further questions.

I was relieved when I could no longer see those people, and I relaxed and looked at the person beside me who I hadn't seen for two years. He still had the same resolute face as two years ago, but even more Mature and more manly, he was also looking at me with a little surprise in his eyes, as if he didn't expect me to be here.

"Why are you in City A? Where is Jim Mingzhe?" He asked, and I couldn't help but sigh how small the world is. I didn't meet Jim Mingzhe, but I met the warden Qi Heng.

"I separated from him, I don't want to live a life of being fostered all the time."

He wasn't surprised, but asked an irrelevant question "Why are you wearing a school uniform?"

Looking at the large blue and white school uniform on my body, I couldn't help but smile and said, "I'm in school now, and I want to live a normal life in the future."

Qi Heng froze for a moment, as if remembering how anxious I was just now, he asked, "Then what happened to you just now? You were so anxious."

I replied lightly, "It's all because of my appearance..." Needless to say clearly, he looked at my more delicate and beautiful face and said, "Su Yang, it's been so long since I haven't seen you..." .He didn't say the next four words.

I turned my head and looked out the window, watching the street lamps retreat rapidly one by one, feeling inexplicably nostalgic.

"How are you doing after I'm gone?"

Qi Heng didn't expect that I would actually care about his life. He smiled and said, "It's the same as before, but I'm married to my fiancée now, and now I have a child who is just one month old."

I laughed too, but there was an indescribable feeling spreading in my heart. "Well, I wish you happiness." After I finished speaking, I didn't speak again. Qi Heng opened his mouth, but in the end he didn't say anything. He parked the car on the side of the road.

It was already late at night, and there was no one on the road, but he and I stared at each other for a long time in the car.

His hand slowly caressed my face, I didn't stop his movement, thinking to myself that this is the last carnival, because I have no future with him.

When he put the seat down and unbuttoned my school uniform, I knew he thought so too.I can't tell who kissed each other first, but in the end it was me who kissed him so hard, he stripped me and then pressed me under him...

The overnight car shock made me feel like my waist was useless the next day.The good thing is that today is the weekend and I don't have to go to school.

Qi Heng hugged me and imprinted hickey marks on my fair neck without giving up.I looked at the phone that kept ringing but was completely ignored by him for a while, and finally I picked up the phone.

The caller ID on the phone screen was 'wife', because I thought it was funny, I answered the phone and handed the phone to Qi Heng, Qi Heng looked at it and wanted to hang up, I patted his messy hands on me, stared After glancing at him, he said hoarsely, "Hello..."

Seeing that he didn't have any self-consciousness as a husband, I knew he married for his parents.The woman on the opposite side didn't know what to say, Qi Heng said directly, "If you have nothing to do, hang up, I won't go home for a few days if I have something to do." After he finished speaking, he hung up the phone and pressed me under him again. Zhu rolled his eyes and said, "It's daytime, or on the street, do you want to enter the police station?"

After listening to my words, he reluctantly let me go and put on my clothes again. I tidied up the clothes he messed up and urged him to drive to my house.

As soon as I arrived at my house, I ran into the house owner, Grandma Zhang. Grandma Zhang and I had a few casual conversations before we brought Qi Heng into the house.

As soon as he entered the room, he was impatient to love me, I pretended to be scared and said, "You are called a wretched minor, be careful and I will sue you."

He replied calmly, "If I remember correctly, you are already an adult, and you are just 18 years old this year."

Only then did I say what I wanted to say to him a long time ago, "I am so young that you can do anything, you must be either hungry or a pedophile!"

But he just smiled and said, "A pedophile? I only fell in love with you. It's a pity that you are too young. Otherwise, how could I have given you up to Jim Mingzhe."

I couldn't help but roll my eyes again after hearing this, "Then why did you ask me to call you Dad." He frowned this time, "One is to deceive others, and the other is to... let you feel the warmth of home." I know he This is not a lie, but "how can a father put his son to sleep, you are really boring."

He didn't pay attention to my joke, but asked seriously, "If I..."

Seeing his appearance, I knew what he was going to ask, so I quickly covered his mouth and said, "No if, it's now, don't talk to me about the future." Seeing his eyes gradually dim, I Then he knew he understood.

"Are you waiting for him?" He asked, I thought about it, nodded and then shook my head before saying, "Waiting but not waiting." As for Ji Mingzhe, I wanted him to find him , but rationality made him understand that the two of them had no results.

This time it was Qi Heng's turn to stop talking. When he hugged me again, the warmth seemed to return, and his low and hoarse words "Su Yang...I love you" came from my ears.

I lowered my head, buried myself in his broad arms, and cried, "Thank you." This was the first time I faced up to the impact of this man who was 16 years older than me.

In those lonely years, it was he who took me to see this gentle world, and also made me yearn for the outside world.

I think this will be the last time I meet him.