hope after despair

I dragged my exhausted body back to the special "cell" specially provided for juvenile offenders. I saw other juvenile offenders pointing at me and "whispering" with disgust and malice. I pretended not to see and went back to my bed. I didn't want to get up again, but the voice in my ear became louder and louder because I turned a blind eye.

I covered my ears but still heard their malicious words.

"New here, see, that person is the one I mentioned earlier."

"Oh, it turns out that he is Su Yang, no wonder he will serve and wait for the warden, he looks really good..."

"It's more than good. I've never seen such a beautiful person in my life. Looking at him like that, I can tell that I just went to wait for the warden again."

"Is the warden male or female?"

"Idiot, have you seen the female warden? Only men will be 'interested' in him. We'd better stay away from him, so as not to become a bitch like him in the future."

"He's so dirty... he's about the same as that bitch."

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The words in my ear did not stop at all, my heart was broken into pieces in their words, but my childhood experience made me listen numbly to this kind of thing without being able to refute.

Yeah 'I'm kinda dirty, but is this something I can control?Every time I was forced, I was physically and mentally exhausted, but what can I do?Even if I leave this juvenile prison, I have nowhere to go, no way to go...

I originally had a harmonious family, but since my father passed away in a car accident, my mother no longer cares about me. She is used to wandering around many men, using her beauty and her enchanting figure to conquer all kinds of things. man, and I was abandoned by her, that year, I was only six years old...

In the absence of food, I started begging on the side of the road, as long as I saw something edible on the ground, I would pick it up and eat it. Three years have passed.

Later, hungry and anxious, I started stealing food from other people’s homes. After stealing things again and again, I was caught and beaten, and I was finally sent to the juvenile detention center.

I thought that when I entered the juvenile detention center, I would no longer be hungry, and I would no longer be terrified and dirty all day long, but I didn't expect that in the first year of entering the juvenile detention center, I would be raped by several delinquents who were also juvenile delinquents. The teenagers beat me up because they always bullied me because I was thin and small.

Although I am always bullied, at least I don't have to go hungry anymore.As I grew up, my mother's good-looking genes played a role, but in this case I would rather be ugly than beautiful like my mother.

When I was 13 years old, my appearance showed, and I stood out from a group of rough and dark peers.

None of these peers are willing to make friends with me, because they say I'm a sissy, they don't play with sissies, but I just look better, and I have nothing to do with sissies in other places.

Until one day, the warden suddenly sent a message to see me. I thought it was something I did wrong, but unexpectedly it was my appearance that brought me the trouble.

I still clearly remember how the warden tricked me.He said that as long as I don't resist, he will stop others from bullying me.Because of his upright, resolute and righteous face, I easily believed him, but unexpectedly, he only managed to stop others from hitting me, but he didn't care about others' insults to me.

When he pressed me on the bed, I didn't know what he was going to do, so I just looked at him blankly. Unexpectedly, he started to caress and touch my body. This kind of action reminded me of my mother. Different men pressed under me, and all this made me start to tremble.

My trembling caught the attention of the warden, but he didn't stop stroking and stroking me, he just told me not to be afraid, it would be very comfortable.

Thinking of his promise, I tried my best to restrain my fear and did not stop his action. It was this temporary concession that made me lose the first time.

I didn't feel any pain, but I knew I was getting... dirty.

When he got up and down on my body to enjoy the pleasure and sensation that the flesh and desire brought him, I was so stimulated that I shed tears, but this did not satisfy him.

He used his tongue and head to pry open the teeth that were clenched on my lip, trying to make me make a sound, but under his persecution, I obeyed...

Of course, the matter between me and the warden cannot be hidden from other people. When I walked out of the warden’s office with bruised kisses, scars, and joy and love all over my body, my peers and other people around me Then he would look at me with a look of evil and heart.

I know that I can't get rid of the reputation of being a bitch and a bitch, but as long as I can survive, it doesn't matter what I do. It doesn't matter if I am insulted, it's better than not living.

This is the only comfort I can give myself.

It has been three years since I was 13 years old, and I have also been the warden’s bed and companion for three years. During this process, the warden has treated me well. Leaving juveniles opened me up to the outside world in a way no one else could.

I also gradually learned the identity of the warden. The warden is not actually the warden but the captain of the special police force who was sent to the juvenile prison as the director. His name is Qi Heng. He was just 13 years old when I was 29. I heard that He also has a fiancée, I don't know about the others, but I guess he must have a fetish, pedophilia, otherwise how could he have shot at me who is still young.

He also has a bad taste that I can't understand. Every time he takes me out to play, he will let me call him daddy, even in bed and sex.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help withdrawing my scattered thoughts, and fell asleep under deep exhaustion.