After Hell

It was already noon when Qin Yijie returned to his home.

He casually kicked off the Fendi shoes on his feet, stood at the entrance, put his hands in the pockets on both sides of his trousers, and glanced indifferently at this exquisite and gorgeous "cage", feeling that it was colder than ever.

Years of evil, cold and fierce, snow and wind and gluttony, you can't blame others.The source of this bone-chilling chill came from the bottom of his heart.

Last night, he got the person he had wanted for seven years.At the same time, she also lost the purity she had kept for seven years.

From the moment he got it, his heart has been tossing and turning, dejected.

Just thinking that Zhang Xiaoheng might be a "money boy" made his heart feel like falling into a cold pool of ice, but the next second he was furious, wishing he could kill someone with a knife.However, if he can really "buy" Zhang Xiaoheng with money, and even let him belong to himself from now on, Qin Yijie feels that the fire in his heart is burning hotter and hotter, wishing that Zhang Xiaoheng will only be his exclusive "money boy" from now on.Such contradictory thoughts repeatedly wrestled and tore without restraint, without stopping for a moment.

Qin Yijie felt that he was going to be driven crazy.

How did things turn out like this?

This is not what he wants.He originally just wanted to guard Zhang Xiaoheng silently without disturbing Zhang Xiaoheng's life.

Qin Yijie walked slowly to the transparent floor-to-ceiling windows, and slowly slid down against the wall.Unconsciously bent one leg, staring at the window in a daze.

I don't know when it started to get dark outside the window, worrying and disturbing people's hearts.

Qin Yijie vaguely remembered that when he first came out of AfterHell, the sky was clear and the whole world was full of sunshine.

But now, the dark clouds are overwhelming, and the storm is about to come.A layer of gray veil covers people's eyes and hearts.

The change of weather is so apt and ironic.Just like last night and this morning, the relationship between him and Zhang Xiaoheng has changed.

The rain has been non-stop from this moment, and it hasn't stopped until the night comes.

The gloomy twilight was finally replaced by endless night, and Qin Yijie finally recovered from his confusion.The hands of the watch told him mockingly that four or five hours had passed.

In the dark courtyard, rows of holly trees could be faintly seen being torn apart by the strong wind and rain, constantly shaking.

Qin Yijie frowned and closed his eyes, and rubbed his Ming acupoint to feel less dazed.He leaned his head back against the wall, looking at the pure white ceiling, but couldn't help but recall the scene when he met Zhang Xiaoheng back then.

At that time, he was just in the first grade of junior high school. According to his father's wishes, he was admitted to the best private middle school in the city.In August, the sun is like fire.The sun spared no effort to exert every part of its light and heat, as if it wanted to dehydrate the city.

However, what really made him feel bad was not because of the unbearably hot weather, but because on what he thought was his first birthday after graduating from elementary school, his dad just gave him a huge sum of money as a birthday present.

Qin Yijie's mother died of illness when he was very young, leaving only his father to take him with him.

When his mother was still there, he could vaguely remember that she would cook him a large table of his favorite dishes on his birthday and make birthday cakes for him.But since my mother passed away, the memory has drifted away with time.Those old nostalgic days and warmth irretrievably began to turn yellow in the time.

Qin Yijie's father owns a foreign trade company. In recent years, the business has grown bigger and bigger, and his father has become more and more busy, so he has become more and more perfunctory when it comes to his birthday.

Even in the past two years, whenever his birthday came, he would start to find perfunctory excuses for himself: birthday is the day of his mother's death, so it is not suitable to celebrate it.

Every time it comes to his birthday, Dad will involuntarily think of his mother, and subconsciously avoid his son, so as not to think of his wife's tenderness.After so many years, this "dominant president" father with a successful career still can't forget his dead wife.Everyone's time is passing, but the heartache of losing a spouse has not healed with time.This was unexpected to Qin Yijie at the time.In his eyes, this shrewd and aloof father has never thought of marrying another woman for several years since his mother passed away.At that time, he was still very young and couldn't understand his father's feelings.As a result, the relationship between the father and son became very tense.

Back then, Qin Yijie watched his father busy processing mail in the office, and silently chose to leave.

It seems that when all the students around me celebrate their birthdays, that day will become colorful, with gifts carefully prepared by their parents and sincere blessings from friends.As for him, without the company of his parents, without birthday gifts, he couldn't even hear a happy birthday from his father.

Every time Qin Yijie thinks of this, he feels unspeakable irritability and loneliness in his heart, as if he is not recognized and has no existence in this world.

His birthday happened to be on summer vacation in August. Several of his close friends had gone on a trip, and no one could come back to celebrate his birthday.Loneliness and indifference filled the heart of this boy who had just entered his teenage years.

Bored, Qin Yijie asked the driver to drive him to the gate of the private middle school he was about to attend.I don't know why, but today he doesn't want to stay at home alone, the house is so deserted that he can't stay for a moment.Although the school is on summer vacation, it can be said that it is the place where he will study for three years in the future.Taking advantage of the absence of classes during the summer vacation and the small number of students in the school, he just happened to be able to experience this strange place quietly and with a little hope for the future.

Stepping into the spacious and majestic school gate, Qin Yijie walked slowly along the boulevards in the campus. There were rows of sycamore trees with spreading branches beside the avenues, providing shade for the teachers and students walking through them.

The fresh smell of trees and sunshine in the air calmed the inexplicable anxiety in his heart.

The boulevard ends at the school library.There are several wooden benches placed side by side outside the library, and a tall acacia tree is planted behind each bench one or two meters apart.

This layout gives people a very comfortable feeling, which is very suitable for students to chat or read books in the shade after class.

Ever since Qin Yijie entered the campus, he fell in love with the careful layout and pruned green plants in the campus.Although I haven't officially started studying here, everything on campus looks refreshing.

At this moment, he saw a slender young man sitting under a locust tree closest to the library.The tall acacias cut off patches of sunlight, leaving behind a few brilliant beams of light. The man's white shirt, his gray western-style shorts, and his thin white slender legs all reflected mottled light spots, which were unreal.Three points, five points, no, maybe seven points.

Beside the boy was a transparent round glass jar, which was filled with colorful objects, but because of the distance, Qin Yijie couldn't see what was in the jar.

The young man was lowering his head and concentrating on fiddling with something. His serene and beautiful profile and nimble fingers were silently attracting Qin Yijie to walk towards him.

Qin Yijie recognized that man's clothes as the school uniform of the students here. When he was only a few steps away from the boy, Qin Yijie saw the school badge on his chest clearly.He vaguely remembered that when he came to this school for an interview, the teacher showed him that it was the school badge of the third grade.

The boy felt someone approaching him, stopped what he was doing, raised his head and looked at Qin Yijie standing in front of him.

"Are you a first-year freshman who came to visit the campus?" the young man asked him in a friendly and gentle tone.

The moment Qin Yijie heard the boy talking to him, facing the face in front of him, he was stunned.The young man's gentle demeanor, fair face, straight nose bridge and soft facial lines all made him feel relaxed for no reason.And what attracted him the most was the young man's pair of bright and charming almond eyes, which looked like a clear spring in this hot summer day, bringing a touch of cooling and peace of mind.

"Yes, yes." For some reason, when Qin Yijie answered his question, he suddenly stuttered: "You, are you a third-year senior?"

The young man didn't laugh at him when he stuttered, but patiently slowed down his speech: "Yes, I'm in the third grade when school starts."

"What are the seniors doing?" Qin Yijie was embarrassed to continue staring at him, so he could only shift his gaze to the young man's hand, seeing the blue square piece of paper he was holding, he couldn't help showing a little curiosity.

"Origami cranes." The young man looked at Qin Yijie with a smile, and the corners of his mouth curled up nicely: "My sister's birthday is in a few days, and she specified that she wants a thousand paper cranes."

Qin Yijie looked at the inadvertent pampering on the young man's face when he mentioned his sister, and felt a little envious in his heart.He thought of his father's attitude towards his birthday for a moment, and his originally bright eyes dimmed in a blink of an eye.

What's the use of giving more money, don't get distracted at all!How can it be more meaningful than the gift made by the senior for his sister? !

The young man seemed to see that Qin Yijie was in a bad mood at the moment. He guessed that he might have said something wrong, so he reached out and patted Qin Yijie's shoulder familiarly and said, "Do you want it? I'll make one for you?"

Qin Yijie looked at him blankly, but the young man didn't wait for him to answer, and his subordinates started to move.

Qin Yijie looked at the man's beautiful and slender fingers, and nimbly began to fiddle with the blue piece of paper.

One click, one click, stacked on his heart.

In less than half a minute, a blue paper crane appeared on the boy's palm: "Then, let's make one for you to play with, don't despise it as childish."

Qin Yijie looked at the little paper crane, and his heart suddenly shrank.

The little gadget that usually seemed inconspicuous to him was folded for him by the senior who could be regarded as a stranger in front of him.

On this day of his birthday, this day when he was lost and alone, at this moment when they had just spoken a few words.

"Senior, it's my birthday today." Qin Yijie said abruptly, his heart was blank, and he didn't know why he said those words.Perhaps, he was looking forward to something, what he was looking forward to meeting on his birthday.

"Ah, then I wish you a happy birthday." The boy was slightly surprised, and then a sincere smile appeared in his eyes.

When Qin Yijie heard these words, he suddenly felt his vision brighten up.Even though he was under the shade of a tree, he seemed to see the faintly visible colorful spots in the sunlight that was trying to get in through the gaps in the leaves.A gust of summer wind blew past his ears and nose, bringing the unique freshness of the acacia tree into his heart.

In that moment, his wish came true.He couldn't tell what he was looking forward to, but he knew that when he heard the phrase "Happy Birthday" and saw the sincere smile of the person in front of him, he felt his heart was filled.Then, he remembered this person.

"Thank you, thank you. What's the senior's name?"

"Zhang Xiaoheng." The young man looked up at the sky, picked up the glass bottle and stood up: "It's getting late, I have to go home. You can go shopping slowly." After speaking, the young man smiled and rubbed his height Qin Yijie's head, which only reached his jaw, turned around and left leisurely.He didn't even ask Qin Yijie's name.To the senior in the third year of junior high school, Qin Yijie was just an ordinary junior who passed by.

That simple but special day made Qin Yijie stare at that person for the next seven years.From caring about him at the beginning, occasionally looking at him more when he met on campus, to when that person graduated, Qin Yijie felt inexplicably lost in his heart.Just like that, the first love slipped into Qin Yijie's heart quietly with a touch of unknown and ignorant longing.

Looking at that time from an adult's point of view, it's really silly.Who will remember that strange person, who will be so happy and moved by receiving that childish gadget.

However, although time has been unable to stop its running pace, every frame of emotion in time has been deeply imprinted in memory.At that moment, it was real and touched Qin Yijie's heart.

The rain flowed down the window, watching the rain wash away like a waterfall, Qin Yijie woke up from that unforgettable memory.The sound of rain from the window suddenly reminded him of the tears Zhang Xiaoheng was forced to lie under him last night because of the humiliation and pain.

A sharp pain suddenly surged in his heart, and Qin Yijie suddenly felt that it was difficult to even breathe.

When he left beside Zhang Xiaoheng just now, he pretended to be calm.When he walked out of After Hell's lounge with slow, heavy steps like a can of lead, the moment he closed the door, he was so trembling that he could hardly stand still.

God knows how scared he was at that time, he was afraid to see the disgust towards him in Zhang Xiaoheng's eyes.So he didn't even stay to help Zhang Xiaoheng clean up his body, but chose to flee cowardly.It was he who chose to break his qualification to watch over him. Although alcohol was involved, he didn't want to use drunkenness as a poor excuse.

Qin Yijie deeply understood that he had no way to go back to the past.

Seven years of innocence were lost in one day.

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