After Hell

In the past few days, no matter what Zhang Xiaoheng did, he couldn't quite lift his spirits.When he was in big class at school, he often lost his mind.When working part-time, he occasionally makes a small mistake or two.

Obviously, he has returned to the same peaceful and busy life as before, but Zhang Xiaoheng's heart is no longer what it used to be.

Zhang Xiaoheng didn't want to lie to himself, didn't want to pretend that he didn't know anything.He knew very well in his heart why he always felt like he was worried about something in his heart.

——Because of Qin Yijie.

City S has abundant rainfall in spring.Especially in April, from the first few days of the Ching Ming Festival, it will rain every now and then.The rain is not big or small, but it is continuous, and there is a kind of misty poetry in it that the spring rain is misty and the sky is not visible.

Zhang Xiaoheng had just left the house, and the road was still wet. He avoided several puddles and walked along the stone-plastic fence beside the flower bed.

It has been raining all morning since this morning, and it has stopped by now.Nai He stared at the wet ground, he was not in a good mood.

Counting the days, it has been four days since Qin Yijie said goodbye to him in the hospital.The decisive figure of Qin Yijie who turned and left that day always appeared in his mind inadvertently.

Every time Zhang Xiaoheng thinks of the lonely back of the tall boy crying and leaving, he will feel a pang of sourness in his heart.

Zhang Xiaoheng walked, unconsciously slowing down.Thinking of Qin Yijie's figure, Zhang Xiaoheng recalled what Edmond said to him in the AfterHell bar the day before yesterday:

"I probably know something about the relationship between you and Yijie. I don't know if he has made it clear to you about the misunderstanding between him and you. If not, I hope you can tell him the next time you meet him. A chance to clarify the misunderstanding. I have known Yijie since he was a child. I know him very well. He has no bad intentions, but he has some problems with emotional expression. It is inconvenient for me to participate too much in the relationship between you young people. It should be Let the young people discuss it by themselves..."

In fact, since breaking up with Qin Yijie in the hospital that day, Zhang Xiaoheng's heart has never been at peace.

Qin Yijie's condition that day was very bad. Although he told Zhang Xiaoheng that they had known each other for a long time, he didn't mention the series of things that happened to them recently.Zhang Xiaoheng could also see that Qin Yijie was in a very low mood that day, so in that situation, it was impossible to discuss everything clearly.Zhang Xiaoheng thought about letting Qin Yijie leave first, and when Qin Yijie recovered a little the next day, he was having a good talk with him.

But on the second day, when Zhang Xiaoheng went to the university for class, he didn't meet Qin Yijie all day.So Zhang Xiaoheng thought, maybe Qin Yijie didn't recover, so he didn't go to school that day.

Another day later, Zhang Xiaoheng also failed to meet Qin Yijie as he wished.Zhang Xiaoheng himself is not passive and dawdling, so after the first big class, he simply took the initiative to go to the teaching building where freshmen often go, intending to try his luck and see if he could meet Qin Yijie.As a result, I went back and forth twice, but I couldn't see him.

After lunch, Zhang Xiaoheng thought about it and felt a little uncomfortable.How could he always meet that kid on campus from time to time?Now I want to "encounter" but I can't.Zhang Xiaoheng asked the freshman counselor about the course arrangement of the students early in the morning.Obviously freshman students have classes today, why can't they see that kid Qin Yijie?

On the third day when Zhang Xiaoheng was frowning, his good friend Liu Zhaofeng couldn't hold back and asked:

"I said Xiaoheng, what's the matter with you these days? Why are you looking for trouble when you have nothing to do, and you have to take a shortcut and walk around the freshman activity area before you come to class? Are you losing weight? You're not fat..."

It was only then that Zhang Xiaoheng realized that for the past few days, he had always thought about "encountering" Qin Yijie in his heart.He scratched his head guiltily and explained with a wry smile: "I want to see if Qin Yijie is there, he left something with me."

When Liu Zhaofeng heard this, he frowned and pushed him, and said with a smile: "Are you sure he is a freshman in our department?"

This question successfully caught Zhang Xiaoheng's attention.He didn't realize until now that he didn't even know whether Qin Yijie was a student of their department.This made Zhang Xiaoheng feel a little bit guilty.Mingming and Qin Yijie have known each other for more than two months, so they should be regarded as ordinary acquaintances.But even the most basic information about this ordinary relationship, he never thought of asking Qin Yijie before.

There is too little communication between them.In addition to making out, it was just making out... Zhang Xiaoheng was immersed in his own thoughts, and only woke up when he felt his cheeks burning, and realized that he wanted to fuck.

Liu Zhaofeng saw that Zhang Xiaoheng's face was a little red and his eyes were a little wandering, so he didn't ask him any further, and just reminded him:

"Even in our department, there are more than 200 first-year students. Are there 4 classes or 5 classes? They have different schedules. You think it's not so easy to meet them just by wandering around like this? Besides, Now, if you really need him, won't you call him? Why do you have to try your luck like a fly without a head?"

I just don't want to deliberately call him!Zhang Xiaoheng smiled wryly in his heart, but he couldn't tell his friends about this idea.To prevent Liu Zhaofeng from asking too many questions and causing more troublesome things.

Liu Zhaofeng has been a good friend of his for many years, and he is straightforward and righteous.If he knew what Qin Yijie had done to him before, he might have fought that kid on the spot.So Zhang Xiaoheng never mentioned the matter between himself and Qin Yijie in front of Liu Zhaofeng.

In fact, Zhang Xiaoheng and Qin Yijie are not very familiar with each other. Last time, Qin Yijie said that he would not come to him again. Isn't it inappropriate for him to call Qin Yijie?Originally, he thought that he happened to meet him on campus, so he could be a little more natural and invite Qin Yijie to have a drink or something, so he cleared up the misunderstanding by the way.

Zhang Xiaoheng didn't realize at all why he, the "victim", was more active than the "perpetrator", and was eager to untie the knot that had always existed between the two.

After being reminded by friends and practicing in the past few days, Zhang Xiaoheng discovered that this campus is far bigger than he imagined.The chances of running into someone who is not in the same grade every day from time to time are simply slim.

Recognizing this, Zhang Xiaoheng's heart was instantly touched.There seemed to be a drop of transparent water in my heart, which fell into the originally calm lake, causing ripples.

Being able to meet by chance every day is not really a "coincidence" as it seems on the surface.Someone must have done his homework silently, and paid a lot silently without his knowledge.

This cognition caused a subtle emotion to spread in Zhang Xiaoheng's heart.

However, Zhang Xiaoheng recalled the determination that Qin Yijie showed when he turned to leave that day, and he felt that the possibility that Qin Yijie would come to find him on his own initiative in the future was almost non-existent.This feeling was not good, and Zhang Xiaoheng felt an indescribable loss in his heart.

Sitting on a bench in the flower bed of the campus, Zhang Xiaoheng silently took out his mobile phone from his pocket, stared at the dark screen for a while, resisted the urge to call Qin Yijie, and sighed weakly.

He didn't know that he had any definite reason to take the initiative to contact Qin Yijie, and he himself felt confused and at a loss.But he couldn't stop the worry in his heart.

where are you?

Will you still come to me?

I... kind of... want to see you.

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