After Hell

Zhang Xiaoheng doesn't like to meddle in other people's business, and he doesn't know Simon very well. Simon treats him even worse than everyone else.But as a colleague, after encountering such a scene, if he didn't see it, he didn't even ask, which was not his usual style of dealing with people.

Zhang Xiaoheng paused on the spot for a few seconds, gave up the hesitation in his heart, walked towards Simon, squatted down in front of him and kept eye level with him, and deliberately asked in a soft tone: "Simon, are you okay? What's the matter?" Is there anything I can do to help?"

Simon huddled in the corner, seeing that Zhang Xiaoheng felt ashamed when he saw him crying, sobbed and said angrily, "Don't worry about it!"

Zhang Xiaoheng saw him crying pitifully, and he didn't get angry when he said harsh words. When everyone was in a bad mood, he wouldn't care about someone who was in agitation.So he said in a calm tone: "Uh... well, I am troubled."

Zhang Xiaoheng wanted to get up and leave, but suddenly he saw new tears welling up in Simon's eyes, trickling down the corners of his eyes.He guessed that Simon didn't want to talk to someone at this time, maybe he just didn't know how to talk.

Zhang Xiaoheng pondered for a while, then tentatively asked carefully again: "You... what happened?"

When Simon heard Zhang Xiaoheng's sincerity and deliberate comfort, he suddenly broke down emotionally: "Chris, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

Zhang Xiaoheng raised his eyebrows, very puzzled: "Simon, what's wrong with you? What's wrong, tell me and see if I can help you."

Simon tried to take a deep breath, calmed down his emotions, bit his lower lip and struggled for a moment before making up his mind: "You...you know? I like Edmond, but he never takes a second look at me."

"What!? You...you like Edmond" Zhang Xiaoheng was very surprised to hear Simon say that. Simon is said to be the first group of employees to come to AfterHell, and he is full-time.While working at AfterHell, Zhang Xiaoheng often saw Simon hooking up with customers, but never saw him show any special emotion towards Edmond.When the waiters are not too busy, they will gossip a little bit.After all, they are all young people. Edmond is the boss. He has just reached the age of [-]. He is mature and stable, and he handles things smoothly.But Zhang Xiaoheng has never heard any employee talk about the scandal between Simon and Edmond.

Hearing what Simon said at this moment, Zhang Xiaoheng flashed many memories of Simon making things difficult for him in the past, which seemed to be related to when Edmond talked to him.

Looking back at this moment, Zhang Xiaoheng vaguely understood why Simon had been targeting him and disliked him before.

"Edmond usually takes good care of you, so I can't get angry and always make things difficult for you." At this point, Simon paused, and his eyes that were originally staring at Zhang Xiaoheng moved away, and his voice lowered a little: "Including the last time you were That little Kai was dragged to the lounge... also... I provoked it. He seemed to care about you... so I just said a little bit, and he exploded. I didn't expect him to be like that... like that to you."

Zhang Xiaoheng heard the guilty conscience in Simon's tone at this time, and felt a little surprised and suddenly: So that night, Qin Yijie, who met for the first time, suddenly erupted like a volcano. Was it Simon who provoked it?

"You... What did you say to Qin Yijie that night?"

Seeing that Zhang Xiaoheng's looking eyes were very persistent, Simon also felt sorry for what happened to Zhang Xiaoheng that time.In fact, Zhang Xiaoheng's behavior among the waiters was really aboveboard.He never competed with anyone for orders, and he never poached other people's regular customers. Even if he was often eaten tofu by customers, he behaved very politely and professionally towards customers.It is entirely due to my own jealousy that I am always at odds with him.Therefore, he told Zhang Xiaoheng exactly what he said to Qin Yijie that night, as well as Qin Yijie's expression and attitude after hearing about it.

After listening to Simon's words, Zhang Xiaoheng suddenly realized.It turned out that there was a reason why Qin Yijie treated him like that that night.But at the same time, Zhang Xiaoheng strengthened his guess.Qin Yijie and him must have known each other, and they must have known each other a long time ago.

So, does this mean that Qin Yijie's relationship with him is not just a transactional relationship, there seems to be some deeper emotion between them that he has never met or experienced before?

Thinking of this possibility, Zhang Xiaoheng's heart seemed to be electrified, and it was so numb and itchy that it made people panic.He thought of Qin Yijie's obsession with his body, and the sad and obsessed eyes that showed from time to time during the process of making out with him.Those heart-piercing and confrontational words, all these things made Zhang Xiaoheng's heart chaotic at this time.

The more he thought about it, the more Zhang Xiaoheng felt that there was a big secret hidden in it.That secret made him dare not even delve into it further.If that secret was true, it would be too heavy for him and Qin Yijie who were already walking on a fork in the road.

At this time, a word from Simon brought back the sanity of the flustered Zhang Xiaoheng in an instant.

"Chris, I... have AIDS."

"What you said... is it true?!! Are... are you sure?!" Hearing the shocking news from Simon, Zhang Xiaoheng felt as if he had been struck by lightning.

"It's true." Simon's emotions broke down again: "At the beginning... I always had a low fever, and I obviously ate a lot every day, but my weight dropped unknowingly. Later, I went to the hospital for a check...it showed...HIV positive. I blame myself, I can't bear the loneliness..."

This... this is really... too shocking news.

Zhang Xiaoheng heard Simon's voice clearly in his ears, but it seemed to come from somewhere in the air.

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There was no one on the road in the middle of the night, and the branches of the sycamore trees on the side of the road were shadowed by the faint yellow moonlight, which looked a little hideous in the night.

Zhang Xiaoheng walked slowly on the sidewalk, the quiet night made his footsteps a bit lonely.Today is the first day he has just been promoted as a bartender assistant, but he makes frequent mistakes at work because of restlessness.For a while, I took the wrong wine, and for a while, I took the wrong wine glass, and even accidentally broke two.

The foreman didn't say anything about him, after all, he was a newcomer working as a bartender's assistant for the first time, and no one would think it unusual if he made a mistake.Just think he was nervous.

Only he himself knows best why he behaved abnormally today.

Simon's words were like a spell, mixed with his sister's caring words, lingering in Zhang Xiaoheng's ears repeatedly.

"In the beginning, I always had a low fever, obviously I ate a lot..."

"Brother, why do you always have a fever recently..."

"I...I have AIDS."

Ever since he found out that Simon had AIDS, fear was like a giant net that gradually extended, spreading from Zhang Xiaoheng's heart to his limbs and bones, slowly confiscating and swallowing his reason and courage.

What would Zhang Xiaolin do if he got AIDS unfortunately?This weak sister who was dependent on him and seemed to be broken if touched, had just escaped from the clutches of death not long ago.Before she could live a stable life for a few days, she was about to face the gloomy future of her brother stepping into an incurable disease.At that time, he will not be able to take care of himself. Who can take care of Zhang Xiaolin so that she can continue to go to school without any worries?Let her, like all other ordinary girls, experience the joy of youth and growth?

Thinking of this, Zhang Xiaoheng felt a sense of powerlessness and severe pain in his heart at the same time.

If he really had AIDS, how did he get infected?

A bolt of lightning flashed across his mind.

It is said that sexual behavior is one of the main ways of HIV infection.

Qin Yijie...?

Zhang Xiaoheng trembled unconsciously.Speaking of sex, he only had sex with Qin Yijie.So, could it be Qin Yijie who infected him?

If it wasn't for Qin Yijie to infect him, then if he continued to be asked by Qin Yijie to do that kind of thing in the future, would it implicate this young boy?

In fact, except for the first time Qin Yijie was very rough, the next few times when he made out with himself, he seemed tender and sweet.Although Zhang Xiaoheng had no sexual experience before dating Qin Yijie, he could feel that Qin Yijie was also quite jerky about this kind of thing.Although the two of them always used words to hurt each other when they were intimate, Zhang Xiaoheng knew in his heart that he was so against him because Qin Yijie forced him to get their relationship from the beginning.

On the one hand, Zhang Xiaoheng held his breath against the beginning of coercion, on the other hand, he angered Qin Yijie because of the darkness in his heart caused by his willingness to fall.Thinking carefully about the second time of their intimacy, Qin Yijie's jerky body language and the message conveyed by his fiery body made Zhang Xiaoheng feel the same emotions that Qin Yijie couldn't hide in his behavior when he was entangled with him.

Qin Yijie even served him there with his mouth very meticulously and gently. This should not be the behavior that would exist between ordinary benefactors and money boys.Because the roles of those who provide services and those who are served are completely reversed, Qin Yijie instinctively wants to please him.Zhang Xiaoheng can clearly feel this through the skin-to-skin contact between them.Therefore, he couldn't hate Qin Yijie at all, not even loathe him.

If loathing, it might be more self-loathing.I hate that I can only solve economic problems in this way, and I hate that while I am depraved, I cowardly choose to hurt Qin Yijie with words to pretend to be dignified.

If he really got AIDS, then he will be like Qin Yijie in the future... Thinking of the possible consequences, Zhang Xiaoheng became more and more horrified.

"Dididi——" A rush of car horns and harsh emergency brakes awakened Zhang Xiaoheng, who was restless, from his fear and panic.The driver's swearing followed, but Zhang Xiaoheng felt relieved when he heard it.

Hearing the scolding meant that he was still alive.The melody of death may have only one prelude.

It seems that he needs to go to the hospital for an examination.Before the facts are clear, worrying really delays him too much.

The next day, the weather was fine.

Zhang Xiaoheng woke up early.He took his medical insurance card to the hospital early to register and queue up.

After seeing the doctor, he unreservedly answered all the questions asked by the doctor. Unfortunately, he still had inflammation and a slight low-grade fever. The doctor could not give a definite diagnosis based on the results of the examination that day.

So, he had to wait for a few days, and went for a checkup after his body recovered completely.

But the closer to the truth, Zhang Xiaoheng became more timid.

He was afraid of knowing the result, and how he would face his future life if the result was positive.

After Zhang Xiaoheng got out of the hospital, while wandering aimlessly in the street, he received a text message from Qin Yijie.Make an appointment to meet him at AfterHell tonight.

Zhang Xiaoheng sat down against the railing on the side of the road, staring at the road paved with colorful bricks for a while in a daze.After that, he deleted Qin Yijie's text message with a blank face, and finally got up to leave.

There is nothing in this world more frightening than death.The feeling of standing at the gate of hell: looking back, it is a dark road with no clear direction as far as the eye can see.Looking forward, it is the end swamp of youth.All struggles, hopes, and efforts are futile in the face of disease.No one can rely on, and no one can help him.Even he couldn't find someone to confide in.The misty front pushed Zhang Xiaoheng's strength and stubbornness to a desperate situation.

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Secondary Two, Secondary Two~~The title of Secondary Two is cute for party fans~!