sleep in your heart

You Zeyi seldom asks Zheng Zhi about his personal affairs. Although the two are already a couple, You Zeyi is always trembling, for fear that he has done something that the other party doesn't like.

He has always had no confidence, and feels that he is not good enough, and Zheng Zhi will like him, but it is because he has not seen more shortcomings in him.

When he said this to Zheng Zhi, Zheng Zhi told him: "Do you know what love is? Aphrodisiacs are the kind of things that make people not only find cute in each other's strengths, but also in their shortcomings."

But even if Zheng Zhi said so, You Zeyi still felt uneasy.

It's not that he's not curious about what happened to the other party, but most of the time it's what Zheng Zhi says, and he just listens, being the best listener, and never asking questions.

Just like this, when Zheng Zhi came back after answering the phone outside, he would not ask who called or what was the matter.

After Zheng Zhi finished chatting with his mother, he was in a complicated mood. He was hesitating whether to take You Zeyi back next week, but after thinking about it, he decided to forget it. Tell You Zeyi.

"I'm thinking about a question." You Ze held the bouquet, turned to Zheng Zhi, "Tell me, everyone knows that snatching the bouquet is just a superstitious thing, why are you still so willing to join in the fun? Woolen cloth?"

Seeing him thinking about this seriously, Zheng Zhi thought it was funny: "Let's try to celebrate it, why are people so sober?"

He started the car, and the two of them headed home.

"Do you remember the man who spoke to me badly before the wedding? I forgot his name."

"I forgot too," Zheng Zhi said, "If Zhou Tong hadn't told me that he was our high school classmate, I wouldn't have remembered such a person."

You Ze muttered in a low voice: "Is Zhou Tong on good terms with him?"

"No, I asked Zhou Tong. They didn't play together very much when they were in middle school, but that person is now in the same company as him. They are both colleagues or old classmates, so I invited him here."

You Ze nodded, and he was relieved after saying that.

In the final analysis, he is still a bit stingy, Zhou Tong is his friend, but that person once bullied him in middle school, if the two have a good relationship, You Zeyi will still feel uncomfortable.

"Some people don't need to take what they say to heart," Zheng Zhi knew that You Ze was preoccupied, and was afraid that he would be affected, "We just need to be ourselves."

"Actually, he also said something to me. I've been thinking about it just now."

"What?"

"He said I was pitiful." You Zeyi said, "He said that people like me are the most pitiful, and they will be looked down upon wherever they go."

Zheng Zhi frowned: "What nonsense are you talking about?"

"I refuted him," You Zeyi smiled softly, "I said, it's not me who is pitiful, but people like him who always treat others with malice. They are not only pitiful, but also ridiculous."

You Zeyi fiddled with the flowers in his hand and said, "Didn't it say 'existence is reasonable'? Didn't it say 'seek common ground while reserving differences'? But why do people always have to wear colored glasses when facing minority groups? I can't figure it out , What did we bother them with?"

"You know, there is a kind of people like this," Zheng Zhi said with a sullen face, "Some people have the gene of bullying and fearing toughness in their bones. In fact, they are extremely inferior, but they don't want to admit it, so they can only borrow By bullying the weak and suppressing minorities in an attempt to prove their strength."

You Zeyi didn't make a sound, thinking about what that person said to him, thinking about the unfair treatment he had experienced.

"Actually, they are the saddest ones." Zheng Zhi gritted his teeth, "They just see that some people dare not speak up easily even if they are wronged for objective reasons, so they are so aggressive."

He shook You Zeyi's hand and said, "Actually, you did a good job today. You have to learn to resist, even if you get hurt to protect yourself, it's worth it."

You Ze smiled: "You talk like a philosopher now."

"Really?" Zheng Zhi laughed a few times, "I learned this from you."

"what?"

"Although I don't really want to mention that, but the reason you told me about dropping out made me feel distressed and proud at the time." Zheng Zhi said, "Maybe you don't even realize how brave you are."

How brave are you?You Zeyi really didn't think about this question.

It's just that he knows that at some point, he must never bow his head, because once he bows his head, it will be beyond redemption in the future.

Although this world is very bad, I can't let it continue to be bad. At least, I have to insist on truth and justice, but it's a pity that in the process of pursuing truth and justice, he was covered with bruises.

"I admire you very much," Zheng Zhi said, "so, I hope you will always maintain this courage, and when I go home to meet my parents in the future, don't be so shy that you dare not say a word."

"...What?" You Zeyi reacted for a while, "Go home to see your parents?"

Zheng Zhi couldn't help laughing: "What are you afraid of? You didn't say you'd go back now, just to remind you that there must be such a day sooner or later."

After Zhou Tong's wedding, You Zeyi officially started his "repeat" road.

It has been eight years since he graduated from high school. Except for mathematics and English, he has almost no contact with other subjects in college. However, even if he is still studying in college, it doesn't help. He has dropped out of school for several years.

You Zeyi has always felt that he is very stupid and slow to learn things. At the "advanced age" of 27 years old, he is not smart enough to learn what 17-year-olds learn.

At the beginning, You Zeyi was very enthusiastic about learning. He took the textbook to "review" the content of the chapter every day, and always felt that he digested it quite quickly, but when it came time to do the questions, he was done. He even lay on the table helplessly. He asked Zheng Zhi calmly, "Do you think the answer in the exercise book is wrong?"

Zheng Zhi was amused by him, so he could only comfort and say, "It's okay, take your time."

Studying while working, You Zeyi was exhausted, and Zheng Zhi was not much better.

When You Zeyi learned, he had to follow suit, and he had to explain some knowledge points to You Zeyi one by one as he did back then.

Almost every night, the two of them sat in the study room with the lights on, textbooks and exercises laid out in front of them, one frowning, biting the pen holder and scratching his hair, while the other said softly with a smile, "Don't worry."

Time seems to have suddenly returned to eight years ago, and they counted the days until the college entrance examination with their hands counting.

You Zeyi was under a lot of pressure. If it wasn't for Zheng Zhi, he wouldn't have the desire to learn, but as Zheng Zhi said, there is only one chance, and he couldn't be as carefree as before when he was young. Take the exam for another year.

With his back to the wall, he must use this opportunity to climb up hard. His lover is standing far away waiting for him. Only by passing this hurdle first can he speed up and catch up with him.

In the summer of eight years ago, 18-year-old Zheng Zhi and 19-year-old You Zeyi were sitting in a stuffy classroom and immersed themselves in their studies. There was a whirring fan above their heads, and mosquitoes flew in from the window from time to time. Crazy.

Eight years later, in late autumn, 26-year-old Zheng Zhi and 27-year-old You Zeyi were sitting at their desks at home, wearing pajamas, with freshly brewed coffee and a late-night snack made by Zheng Zhi himself.

"Where do you want to take the exam?" Zheng Zhi leaned back in his chair, watching You Zeyi eating supper.

These days, I cook delicious food for You Zeyi in different ways, wishing I could let him eat five meals a day, but this guy can't gain weight, it seems that Zheng Zhi is always worried about whether he is too tired.

"I think..." You Zeyi turned to look at him, "Although it's a bit difficult, I want to be your apprentice."

Zheng Zhi was pleasantly surprised, he didn't expect that You Ze would want to test his school for a while.

Indeed, it is not easy. There was a certain gap between You Zeyi and this school when he was concentrating on school before, and it is even more difficult now, but with this heart, even if he has a goal to work hard, he will be more motivated to study.

"I have an idea, but I'm afraid you won't agree."

"Huh? You said."

Zheng Zhi actually hesitated for a long time, he didn't want to intervene too much in You Zeyi's decision, he wanted to give the other party maximum freedom, but in many cases, you really have to be willing to get something.

"Do you want to consider resigning?" Zheng Zhi said, "It's already November, and the registration for the college entrance examination will start soon, which means that if you really want to take the exam, you must go all out."

You Zeyi's hand holding the chopsticks stopped there.

"I know you don't want to affect your current life because of this incident, but you also said that you have to fight to the death. You are like this, you have to go to work and work again, it is too hard, your study efficiency is not high, and you are absent-minded when you are working. Do you think this is really possible?"

You Ze lowered his head and was silent for a long time.

"Choose one, I don't force you. In fact, even if you don't want to take the college entrance examination, I can't force you. I just think that since we have made such a decision, we have to really pay for it." Zheng Zhi said, "I Hope you are well, see you well, I am happier than myself, do you understand?"

You Ze nodded.

"Actually, I have no other wish. I just want to see you happy. The reason why I asked you to retake the college entrance examination at that time is also because I think it has always been a regret for you. Your life should not be trapped in that way." In a cage," Zheng Zhi put his palm lightly on You Zeyi's back, "You should be free, free to do whatever you are interested in, instead of suppressing your desire for life for the sake of survival. It is not me who can achieve your goal, but only you, so I..."

"I know," You Ze put down his chopsticks, turned around and took Zheng Zhi's hand, he didn't know what to say, the long-term lack of emotion made him no longer know how to express his gratitude and touch, he loves Zheng Zhi, Not only love this person love him, more love this person can understand him, "We are all independent individuals, now it seems that you have reached the mountainside, but you are standing there waiting for me, and I can't wait I want you to pull me up, you must test your ability to climb up, otherwise, one day, we will fall off the cliff together."

You Ze smiled, and held Zheng Zhi's hand to his face: "Your palms are so hot."

Zheng Zhi smiled.

"Zheng Zhi, why are you so nice?"

"I don't do that to everyone."

"I know, but," You Zeyi paused and said with a smile, "then in the next period of time, you have to treat me better."

He said: "Because I will soon be an older unemployed youth and have to prepare for the college entrance examination, the pressure is too great, so my boyfriend must love me more."

He leaned forward, hugged Zheng Zhi, and whispered in his ear: "I will love you even more."