sleep in your heart

Loving someone is a feeling that is hard to describe in words.

In the past 18 years, Zheng Zhi has never liked anyone, and he has never been moved by anyone. For him, this kind of relationship is magical and illusory. In the past, every Christmas and Valentine’s Day, he would receive gifts from many girls. Sometimes it was given to him at the door of the class after class, school, etc., and sometimes it was handed over by other people in the nursery class, but without exception, he returned them all.

It's not that Gao Leng is so cold that he can't put others in his eyes, it's just that he feels that since he doesn't like it, then don't accept their things, don't give them hope, and don't spoil their feelings.

This is true for others, and it should be even more so for He Ye.

Zheng Zhi has always admired He Ye. The girl from a single-parent family is beautiful and has good grades. She also has her own set of principles in dealing with people and things.

She is Zheng Zhi's only friend of the opposite sex, the one who can make close friends and keep in touch with her for a long time.

However, when He Ye said the word "like", Zheng Zhi felt a little regretful, and he was afraid that the two of them would not even be friends because of this.

"Don't you believe it?" He Ye's natural willow eyebrows and starry eyes are very beautiful, but these beautiful eyes seem to be in tears at the moment, and his eyebrows are also frowned.

"No." Zheng Zhi understood that He Ye was not someone who would joke about such things. The reason why he didn't speak for a long time was because the incident happened suddenly, and he didn't think about how to deal with it at all.

"So, what do you think?" He Ye looked at him, "Do you like me?"

The girl's question was never before low-profile, cautious, full of anticipation but mixed with anxiety.

Zheng Zhi was very afraid of hurting her, but he couldn't accept this kind of thing.

He picked up the cup and drank until the last bit of foam disappeared, then put down the cup and said, "With today's scene, I don't know how many people envy me. The goddess confessed, I was probably a hero in my previous life."

He Ye didn't speak, just looked at him quietly.

Zheng Zhi poured himself another glass of wine and calmed down. He continued, "But I'm actually quite scared. What you see is just one side of me that I usually show in school. I'm to blame for this." , In order to make myself look like that, I hid all those unbearable problems, He Ye, really, if you know what I am like at home, you will probably regret today Tell me this."

He Ye smiled, and with a short sound, she lay on the table with the empty wine bottle in her arms, and secretly wiped the uncontrollable tears onto her arms.

Zheng Zhi was indeed the Zheng Zhi she knew, he could even say the words of rejecting others so that people would not be so embarrassing, he was gentle but cruel, leaving no hope for her.

"Are you drinking a little too much?" Zheng Zhi felt a little worried when he saw her like this. He Ye, who had never lost his temper in front of outsiders, was made to cry by him, and Zheng Zhi felt somewhat guilty.

"I'm fine." He Ye raised his head, although his eyes were still red, but there was already a smile on the corner of his mouth, "You just think that what I just said is drunk and crazy, I don't want to cause you trouble. What pressure, we two, how to get along with each other in the future, forget it."

Across the table, the two looked at each other, Zheng Zhi looked at He Ye and smiled, the other responded with a smile and raised his hand to ask the waiter for a bottle of wine.

Zheng Zhi understands that He Ye is trying to put on a chic appearance, but he probably won't feel better, but there is no other way, if he doesn't like it, he doesn't like it, love is not something that you can hold hands because you think the other party is good.

Soon after He Ye confessed, Zheng Zhi went back to school to resume his studies, and the contact between the two became less and less. Even when He Ye's admission letter arrived, Zheng Zhi was told by someone else.

Eleventh High has a tradition. Every year after the college entrance examination, a huge red list will be set up outside the main entrance of the school. Every time a batch of admission news is received, the latest batch of admission results will be posted on the red list.

Since junior high school, Zheng Zhi would come here every summer to look at the red list, and then stared at the position in the front row, waiting for the day when his name would be posted.

It's just that he waited for several years, and now, watching familiar names appear one after another, he still has no place on the red list.

On the second day after Zheng Zhi learned about He Ye's promotion feast, he went to school as usual, except that during the half-hour break before evening self-study, he went to the gate instead of eating, and stood in front of the red list to look for the other party's name. name.

He Ye didn't let him see his application list when he was applying for the exam. At that time, Zheng Zhi didn't think much about it, but after the other party confessed, Zheng Zhi couldn't help thinking about it. I am afraid that I will affect the other party's application results.

Zheng Zhi's performance in the college entrance examination is abnormal, but He Ye is very stable. The college entrance examination score is only ten points behind the previous mock test score, and it is still ten points higher. With her grades, although she can't choose a prestigious school randomly, she can at least go to one of them. A top-ranked school in the country.

Zheng Zhi hadn't looked at the list for a while, and when he came back to repeat the day, he didn't see this red list in his eyes, and now he was looking for names one by one, which made him a little upset.

He moved a little bit from the left to the right, staring at the red list, and stepped out with his right foot first.

"Hey?"

Zheng Zhi accidentally stepped on the person next to him, he hurriedly turned his head to apologize, but found that it was You Zeyi who had been stepped on by him.

"You..." Zheng Zhi originally wanted to ask him why he didn't go to eat, but then he thought about what it has to do with him whether he eats or not, so he simply retracted what he wanted to ask, and changed it to, "I'm sorry."

"It's okay." You Zeyi smiled awkwardly, hid to the side, and continued to stare at the red list.

He was wearing a pair of old black and white canvas shoes. After being stepped on, he moved his toes in the shoes. The pain really hurt, but he didn't complain a word.

Zheng Zhi felt that You Zeyi was a strange person, he didn't talk much, and seemed to be distracted a lot, and didn't know what was going on in his mind.

The two are at the same table, but in fact they don't know each other very well, and Zheng Zhi didn't mean to make friends with him deliberately. remember who?

The two of them stood in front of the red list at the school gate, each looking for their own goals. People who didn't know them passed by behind, and they didn't feel that these two were sharing the same desk in the classroom.

It was rainy in August, and just as Zheng Zhicai saw He Ye's name, he heard a thunder from the sky, which exploded crisply, and shocked You Ze, who was next to him, who was focusing on the list.

"It's going to rain." Zheng Zhi looked up at the sky, and said to You Zeyi, "Go back to the classroom?"

The weather was sultry, and the white shirt You Zeyi was wearing stuck to his body, making him feel a little breathless. He nodded: "Let's go, class should be starting soon."

There are two people, one tall and one short, one is wearing a school uniform of [-]th, and the other is wearing a shirt and dark pants bought in a small mall.

As soon as You Ze came to school here, he didn't have the school uniforms of the eleventh high school, and he was already in the third year of high school. The head teacher told him that there was no need to order school uniforms with the first year students, and told him to buy a shirt with the same style as the school uniform to make do with it.

In order to save money, You Zeyi bought a white short-sleeved shirt worth 35 yuan, but the material was not breathable, and every day he was stuffy, making him sticky all over. He washed it immediately when he returned home at night, and put it on again the next morning.

Fortunately, the temperature is high in summer, and the shirt will be dry in one night.

As soon as You Ze walked beside Zheng Zhi, he took a peek at the school name embroidered on the other's school uniform shirt, and suddenly felt a little envious.

Just now he looked at the list on a whim, and found that the first few rows were all famous schools, and remembered that when he was studying in his hometown, he would pay attention to the school's college entrance examination every year. No more than ten students in each school can be admitted to prestigious universities a year.

You Zeyi didn't have outstanding grades in that kind of school, and it's even more difficult to study here.

He envied Zheng Zhi for studying in such a good environment from the very beginning, and it was no wonder that he could do all the questions in the workbook correctly even if he didn't listen to the teacher's lectures in class.

It took more than four minutes to walk from the school gate to the classroom. During these four minutes, You Zeyi didn't say a word to Zheng Zhi.

As soon as the two of them entered the classroom, they found that it was raining heavily outside. Everyone in the classroom hurried over and closed the windows, but You Zeyi was a little bit reluctant. He wanted to smell the rain, so that it would be clean and comfortable.

There are three periods of evening self-study, the first two periods are physics classes, and the last period is self-study.

What You Zeyi didn't expect was that the physics teacher came in with two thick stacks of papers, and said to them: "Students, although it's only been a few days since the third year of senior high school, we have already learned the knowledge that we should learn last semester. I have learned almost everything, I will do a set of questions tonight, not an exam, so don’t be nervous, the teacher just wants to see what your level is.”

You Ze felt a headache after listening to them one by one.

He closed the window and sat on the seat. When the test paper was passed to him from the front, he kept flipping through the textbook nervously, thinking that he could memorize one more formula and count one formula.

"Everyone put away your books," the physics teacher walked back and forth in the classroom, "No one will ask you to turn the pages during the college entrance examination."

Zheng Zhi glanced at You Zeyi, opened the cap of his pen, and started to do the first question.

You Zeyi heaved a long sigh. Although he had studied physics in the third year of high school, and had read the textbooks every day when he was at home, he was really not sure now.

The lessons that should not be understood are still not understood, and the questions that should not be done are still not done.

He spread the papers on the table, looked at them for a long time, and glanced at Zheng Zhi next to him, who had already completed several questions.