sleep in your heart

You Zeyi liked the atmosphere of the library very much. He felt that no matter what kind of person came to this kind of place, he could calm down, even if he didn't read books, it was a kind of enjoyment.

There are still many people in the city at night, men, women and children, and every corner is full of the smell of books.

The three of them looked at the divisions in the downstairs hall for a while, and You Zeyi went to the humanities and social sciences on the fourth floor. Zhou Tong naturally went straight to the education. Eyes questioning his decision.

"I'll go with you." Zheng Zhi raised his chin at You Ze, "Let's go."

Zhou Tong shrugged, and ran to the educational reading room on the first floor, while You Zeyi followed Zheng Zhi upstairs.

"Do you usually like to read?" Zheng Zhi has always felt that You Zeyi seems to be the kind of person who has no interest in life, and there is almost no trace of interest in him.

"Not really." You Zeyi explained, "It's just that I have encountered some unclear problems recently, maybe there will be answers in the book."

You Zeyi actually didn't know whether these books could answer his confusion, but, besides books, he didn't know who else to ask.

When Zheng Zhi heard him say that he encountered a problem that he didn't understand, he subconsciously wanted to ask what it was, but finally held back.

He also thought of the impassioned but cautious letter You Zeyi wrote to him, wondering if the other party's troubles were related to this aspect.

"In fact, many times the answer to things can only be figured out by ourselves. The content in the book is just to point us in a direction." On the fourth floor, Zheng Zhi stretched his waist and pointed to a reading room in the north. "The humanities and social sciences are over there. I'll go to the music area to have a look."

You Zeyi looked at the reading room on the other side unexpectedly. He never knew that Zheng Zhi was interested in music.

"Oh, good." You Zeyi didn't ask any further questions, seeing Zheng Zhi left, he also went to find the books he needed.

There are actually not many books on homosexuality, but they are enough to read. You Zeyi wandered through the rows of bookshelves, found three books that he wanted to read, and took two other books and put them on the top one. Ben is placed at the bottom as a cover.

He suddenly found that even if he kept telling himself that homosexuality is not a venomous snake that cannot be mentioned or touched, no one should be prejudiced against it, but he was still embarrassed to hold the "homosexual" printed on it. When the book was published, he didn't think he was this kind of person, but he was a little curious recently, but he felt an inexplicable uneasiness in his heart, knowing that he shouldn't, but he was still afraid of being considered gay by others.

You Zeyi strongly despised his own mentality, and suddenly felt that he was just like those sanctimonious hypocrites, who said they didn't care and looked down on others behind their backs.

With this strong sense of shame, he walked around the bookshelves twice more, and when he looked up accidentally, he saw Zheng Zhi.

Zheng Zhi is tall, no matter where he stands, he is very conspicuous.

In the past, You Zeyi always heard girls in his class discussing that they like boys wearing white shirts. He also heard the song "The Age of Fluttering White Clothes". It seems that many people have a complex with boys in white shirts, as if first love must be with Such a person draws an equal sign.

At that time, You Zeyi couldn't understand why, but when he looked at Zheng Zhi's silhouette at a distance of several meters across the bookshelf, he seemed to understand suddenly.

The boy in the white shirt exuded an indelible youthful aura all over his body, as if no matter what the outside world was like, he would always be spotless.

You Ze stood there holding the book in a daze and looked at Zheng Zhi. He couldn't hear the passage of time, and couldn't feel the turbulence of the air. Until a certain moment, a boy not far away suddenly turned his head and looked at him. Before returning to his soul, he raised the corners of his mouth and smiled at him, and he, foolishly frightened, opened his mouth slightly.

Sometimes being moved by someone is just a matter of a moment and an expression. When Zheng Zhi looked at You Ze and smiled, and You Ze stood there blankly, both of them felt an unprecedented shock.

One seemed to hear the sound of flowers blooming, and the other seemed to see the scene of snow melting.

Zheng Zhi walked to You Zeyi's side, lowered his head to see what books he borrowed, but the other party avoided him before he stretched out his hand.

"So mysterious?" Zheng Zhi was a little uncomfortable when he spoke, just now You Zeyi's silly but cute appearance was still lingering in his mind, he didn't know what was going on with him, I actually think a boy is cute.

You Ze hugged the book tightly, and only showed the other party the back cover of the last book.

It was a book about modern people living alone. You Zeyi might not know how to read it, but he felt that it might be his future life.

"Then... do you want to go? Or wait a while longer?"

"Let's go." You Ze turned around and walked towards the door of the reading room, "It seems to be late, doesn't it?"

Zheng Zhi glanced at his watch: "It's past nine o'clock."

Each reading room of the city map has its own borrowing equipment. Before going out, you swipe the library card to make a borrowing record. However, when you arrived at the door, you Zeyi suddenly found that he did not have a library card.

"Use mine." Zheng Zhi handed him the card.

You Zeyi hesitated to take it over: "Then you can't read the title of the book I borrowed."

Zheng Zhi smiled, and turned his back to him helplessly: "Is this okay?"

As soon as You Ze finished borrowing the book, he returned the card to Zheng Zhi, but Zheng Zhi confiscated it: "You take it first, and you have to use it to return the book when the time comes."

When the two were walking out, You Zeyi took advantage of Zheng Zhi's inattention and quickly stuffed a few books into his schoolbag. He was afraid that Zheng Zhi would see the title of the book, just like he was afraid that the other party would know his secret .

His secret is that Zheng Zhi's heart stopped beating for a few seconds when he turned around just now.

He really started to panic, and began to condemn himself in his heart, this is the wrong person at the wrong time, and he must not indulge himself to do wrong things.

When Zheng Zhi and You Ze arrived on the first floor, Zhou Tong was already dozing off on the sofa in the lobby.

You Ze went over to pat Zhou Tong to wake him up, Zhou Tong looked at them and complained, "Why do you feel like you two are here on a date and I'm here as a foil?"

If it was before, what he said was nothing, but now, to Zheng Zhi and You Ze's ears, there is something unusual in it.

When the three of them walked out of the market, it was already dark.

Zhou Tong muttered: "I have to knock on the door when I go back later, the housekeeper is going to curse again."

Only then did You Zeyi remember that they usually lock the door at ten o'clock, and they had to register with the dormitory manager if they went back late.

Zheng Zhi looked at the two of them, then at the time, and said in a neutral tone: "My house is nearby, why don't you go to my house tonight."

For more than ten years, Zheng Zhi has never brought his classmates home. He doesn't like others to disturb him. Home is home, and outsiders are best not to come.

But this time he made an exception, because he couldn't bear to see You Zeyi's embarrassed expression.

You Zeyi lived a well-behaved life, trying to reduce his sense of existence every day, as if he was afraid of causing trouble to others.

Now he stands here, hesitating.

If he went back, he would bother the housekeeper, and after registration, the teacher would inevitably come to talk to him, but if he didn't go back, he would bother Zheng Zhi, which he didn't want.

"Zheng Zhi, that's enough for a buddy!" You Zeyi hadn't expressed his opinion yet, Zhou Tong had already put his arms around Zheng Zhi's neck and asked, "Which way are we going?"

Zheng Zhi glanced at You Zeyi, pushed Zhou Tong away and said, "Come with me."

You Zeyi was still hesitating, but in the next second he was dragged by Zhou Tong and followed Zheng Zhi back to school in the opposite direction.

In the summer night, when the wind blows occasionally, You Zeyi was dragged lightly and followed behind Zheng Zhi. He felt that maybe Zheng Zhi didn't want to, but they just said it casually, but they took it seriously.

When entering the door, You Ze said to Zheng Zhi in a low voice, "I'm sorry."

Zheng Zhi was fetching slippers for him, when he heard what he said, he asked in surprise, "What's wrong?"

You Ze shook his head, the heartless Zhou Tong on the other side had already changed his shoes, and asked Zheng Zhi, "Then where shall we live tonight?"

Zheng Zhi's house is not a villa of several hundred square meters, but there are also vacant guest rooms.

He patted You Zeyi on the shoulder, walked in and pointed to Zhou Tong: "That room, you can live there."

Zhou Tong clasped his schoolbag with both hands, and asked again, "Where do I live? What about Lao You?"

"You don't need to worry about it." Zheng Zhi pushed him and pushed him towards the guest room.

Zhou Tong still had that carefree look, jokingly said: "Oh, don't be caught by me, you two will use my excuse to fall in love!"

"Don't talk nonsense." You Zeyi changed his shoes and came in, "Don't make such jokes."

He was afraid that Zheng Zhi would think too much, and that Zheng Zhi would be embarrassed. After all, the two of them had indeed discussed the issue of homosexuality. It was easy for people to think wrong when Zhou Tong said that.

Zhou Tong laughed and entered the guest room, then poked his head out and said to Zheng Zhi, "Brother, thank you!"

Zheng Zhi waved his hand, meaning to make him quieter.

It's past ten o'clock, and although everyone is usually up at this time, but today I feel that the atmosphere is a bit delicate, and going to bed early is the best reason to escape from reality.

Zheng Zhi said: "Zhou Tong is too noisy, I'm afraid you won't want to share a room with him, so you can sleep with me."

Zheng Zhi took You Ze back to his bedroom, took out another pillow from the cabinet and put Xia Liang on the bed.

"My room has a separate bathroom, you can go wash it, and I'll get you towels." Zheng Zhi was busy, while You Zeyi sat very cautiously on the single sofa in the room.

Zheng Zhi gave him a towel, and at the same time handed him a T-shirt: "You can wear my T-shirt to sleep at night. You go to wash it first, and I will go later."

You Zeyi stood up obediently, took the things in Zheng Zhi's hand, and his voice trembled when he thanked him.

He quickened his pace and entered the bathroom, holding Zheng Zhi's T-shirt over his heart when the door closed, and took a deep breath.

As for Zheng Zhi outside the door, he hasn't changed his posture since You Ze ran away. He was still standing there, staring straight at the closed door of the bathroom. He didn't look away until the sound of water was heard inside. , lowered his head and looked at his own lower body that actually reacted.

Some things are too unbelievable, but this unbelievable thing just happened so unbelievably.